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isLv kumfr aqy Ausdf pirvfr

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ieh 1961 dI gwl hY. mYN AudoN dorfhy rihMdf sF. svyry myrf pMjfbI df prcf sI. Aus rfq jlMDr ryzIE qoN iewk kvI drbfr pRsfirq ho irhf sI ijs ivc pMjfbI dy Aus vyly dy cotI dy sLfier isLrkq kr rhy sn. ivDfqf isMG qIr, blwgx sfihb, nMd lfl nUrpurI, brkq rfm Xmn, sUbf isMG. iewQy hI mYN pihlI vfrI isLv kumfr nF dy iksy bMdy nUM suixaf. ‘mfeyN nIN mFeyN myry gIqF idaF nYxF ivwcoN ibrhoN dI rVk pvy’ Auh qrMnum nfl eynf KLUbsUrq gfieaf ik kmfl ho geI. sroiqaF AuWqy ijvyN koeI jfdU DUiVaf igaf. pusqk AuhnF dI mYN koeI nhIN sI pVHI hoeI. spYl bfAUNz kr idwqf sI Auhny. iewQy hI mYN brkq rfm Xumn nUM vI suixaf. ‘iml geI kPxI hMZf lY, sIqI axsIqI nf puwC.’ ieh sqr mYnUM ajy qwk Xfd hY. sUbf isMG hurIN cObrgy ilKdy huMdy sn, “imldf huMdf awj dy Bfa jy kwpVf, mjnUM afpxf igrybfn pfVdf nf’. Auh rfq myrI ijMdgI dI sdf XfdXog rfq bx geI. keI idnF qwk mYN ies kfivk-mfhOl dI KLumfrI nfl nisLafieaf irhf.
1963 ivwc mYN ieMzIaf Cwz idwqf. Auhdy bfad mYN pwCm ‘c eI irhF, pihlF mYN lYstr ieNglYNz ivwc pilaf. myrI sFJ ipwCy nfl Gt geI sI. iPLr iewQy kYnyzf 1968 ivwc afieaf, ieQy koeI 1973 ivc myrI kuldIp dIpk hurF nfl mulfkfq hoeI. Auh isLv dy dIvfny hn aqy AuhnF ny isLv nUM bVf awCf gfieaf hY.
iehnF hI sflF ivwc kudrqI myrf ivafh vI Esy btfly sLihr ivwc ho cuwkf sI, ijs btfly nUM isLv kumfr ‘lohy df sLihr’ afiKaf krdf sI qy ijwQy Ausdf afpf invfs irhf sI. ies sLihr nfl AusdI ijMdgI df ieiqhfs juiVaf hoieaf hY. jdoN vI koeI btfly df nF lYNdf sI qF afpxy afp lokF nUM isLv kumfr df nF cyqy af jFdf sI. 1968 ivwc jdoN mYN pihlI vfr afpxy shury btfly igaf sF qF mYN pihlI vfr isLv kumfr nUM vyiKaf. myrI pqnI myry nfl sI. asIN zfkKfny tYlIgrfm dyx gey sF. myrI pqnI ny mYnUM hlUx ky ikhf, “vyKo jI, aOh isLv jf irhf hY.” mYN Aus dI AuNgl dI syD ivwc isLv vwl vyiKaf. iewk bhuq hI KLUbsUrq nOjvfn, nsLIlIaF awKF, KLUbsUrq Audfs ichrf; ijvyN asIN aksr AusdIaF jvfnI dIaF qsvIrF ivwc vyKdy hF. myrf idl AuWCilaf Aus nUM bulfAux leI, pr mYN ihMmq nf jutf sikaf. mYN Aus nUM ‘hYlo’ vI nf kih sikaf. Auh mYnUM koeI aphuMc hsqI lgdf sI. iksy vwKrI dunIaF df vfsI. qy swcI gwl hY ik Auh ieh hY vI sI. AudoN AusnUM nf bulf skx dI ieh ksk sfrI Aumr mYnUM qklIPL dyNdI rhI hY. kfsL mYN Aus nfl do bol sFJy kr ley huMdy!
kuldIp dIpk nfl iml ky mYN isLv dy gIqF df iek irkfrz 1976 ivc pRoizAUs kIqf, ‘BwTI vflIey’, ‘kI puwCdy ho hfl PkIrF df’, ‘mYN kMiZaflI Qor’, qy ‘aj idn ciVHaf qyry rMg vrgf’ ienHF cfr gIqF dy rfeIts lYx vfsqy mYnUM lyKk dI mnjLUrI dI loV sI. pr isLv kumfr qF ies dunIaF qoN kdoN df jf cuwkf sI. mYN byairMg kflj btflf dy ipRMsIpl rfm isMG hurF nUM ies mksd dI pUrqI leI icwTI ilKI. AuhnF ny isLv dI pqnI aruxf hurF qwk myrf sunyhf phuMcfieaf. AuhnF vwloN mYnUM afigaf phuMc geI. ies qrHF aruxf BYx jI nfl myrf rfbqf bx igaf.
isLv kumfr nfl keI iksm dIaF dMd kQfvF juVIaF hoeIaF hn. iehnF dMq kQfvF dI sur vDyry nYgyitv hY. ijnHF dI muwK sur ieho hI hY ik isLv ny Kud afpxy afp nUM qbfh kr ilaf aqy jvfnI dI Aumry hI Auh iksy dUjy sMsfr ivwc “Puwl” jF “qfrf” bx igaf qy sfzy qoN hmysLF leI gvfc igaf. kuVIaF nfl AusdI dosqI ny vI AusnUM bdnfm kIqf. isLv kumfr AuWqy ieh ieljLfm lfAux qoN pihlF sfnUM QoVHf zUMGfeI ivwc socxf pvygf ik ieh jo sLfier lok huMdy ny ieh kuJ asfDfrx pRikrqI dy mflk huMdy hn. iehnF nUM sfDfrx bMidaF vFg vyiKaf jF smiJaf nhIN jf skdf. iehnF dy aMdrly dI Qfh pfAux leI sUKLm tuwBI lfAux dI jLrUrq huMdI hY. aijhy lok do dUxI cfr nhIN huMdy. ieh kudrq df koeI alokfrI ikRsLmf huMdy ny. hryk cfr qukF joV lYx vflf bMdf sLfier nhIN huMdf. mYN kuJ AuhnF ivsLysL phuMcy hoey sLfierF dI hI gwl kr irhf hF, ijvyN pfqr sfihb ny , mohn isMG hoey, aMimRqf jI hoey, mIsLf jI nUM vI mYN cMgy sLfierF ‘c igxdf hF. ieh sfry sfDfrx bMidaF qoN vwKry aqy alwg sn. isLv vI iehnF ivwcoN hI sI. ijhVf hr vyly iewk sLfier dy vFg hI jIivaf aqy ivciraf. pr sfDfrx bMdy nUM ieho ijhy ikRsLmy nUM vyKx aqy pCfnx dI njLr pRfpq nhIN huMdI. Auh isrPL AuhnF dI AuqlI prq vyK ky hI kihMdy rihMdy hn ik jI Auh dfrU pINdf sI, ik jI Auh kuVIaF df sLYdfeI sI, ik jI Auh sdf sLrfb pI ky ilKdf sI, pIqy qoN ibnF nf Auh ilK skdf sI, nf Auh gf skdf sI. mYN puwCdf hF sLrfb qF hor vI lwKF lok pINdy hn, pr AuhnF coN isLv kumfr ikhVf hY? isLv kumfr bxnf bhuq aOKf hY. qy sLrfbI hoxf bhuq sOKf.
aruxf BYx jI nfl Aus pihly sMprk qoN bfad sfzf snyh pUrvk sMbMD bixaf irhf. jdoN mYN ieMzIaf jfvF qF BYx jI sfnUM rfjpury lfgy sfzy ipMz bsMqpury vI imlx afAuNdy hn. asIN qF AuhnF kol jFdy hI jFdy hF. sfzy iehnF suKFvyN sMbMDF df myry srkl dy bhuq sfry imwqrF snyhIaF nUM pqf hY aqy AuhnF ivwcoN jdoN vI iksy nUM isLv dI iksy vI ilKLq dy rfeIts cfhIdy huMdy ny qF Auh BYx jI nUM iswDf afKx dI QF mYnUM afKdy hn. awgoN ieh BYx jI dI vizafeI hY ik AuhnF ny myry vwloN ilK ky ByjIaF isPLfrsLI sqrF df sdf mfx rwiKaf hY. afm qOr ‘qy keIaF lokF dI aruxf BYx jI bfry nYgyitv ijhI PIilMg vI hY. ies df kfrx ieh hY rfeIitMgjL dy rfeIts nUM lY ky keI vfr AuhnF dy keIaF nfl mwqByd vI hoey ny. iehnF mwqBydF dI ibnF qy AuhnF lokF ny BYx jI bfry ieh ivcfr bxf ley hn. pr mYN aruxf BYx jI nUM ijMnf nyiVEN jfxdf hF, sLfied dUjy lok eynf nhIN vI jfxdy aqy swc ieh hY ik Auh iewk sMq suBf aOrq hY. ieh vI swc hY ik AuhnUM lolo-popVy nhIN krny afAuNdy. Auh afpxI socxI aqy kihx ivwc spsLt hY. sdf sfPL aqy KrI gwl krdI hY. rhI gwl rfeIts dI, sfzy gfiek jF hor lok afpxI aYlbm leI qF isLv kumfr dy gIq lYxf cfhuMdy hn aqy afp AuhnF ivwcoN lwKF rupey kmfAux dI lflsf vI rwKdy hn. pr ijhVy sLfier dy Auh amr gIq ilKy aqy ijnHF gIqF nUM ieh gfiek afpxy afp nUM amr kr lYx dI sMBfvnf sdkf gfAuxf cfhuMdy hn, Aus sLfier nUM jF Ausdy vfrsF nUM AuhdI ilKLq df hwk idMidaF Blf iehnF df iZwz ikAuN duKdf hY? jy ieh afpxy gfien dI kImq pvfAuxf cfhuMdy hn qF iehnF nUM ilKLq dI kImq vI qfrnI hovygI. qy mYN smJdf hF ik aruxf BYx jI df ieh hwk hY ik Auh afpxy lyKk pqI dI ilKLq df muwl pvfAux leI zwt ky KVox aqy AuhnF nUM Kloxf vI cfhIdf hY. mYnUM keIaF df pqf hY.
huxy hI sfzy iewk cricq gfiek dI aYlbm bxI hY qF Aus dy gIqF leI Aus dy gIqkfr nUM svf lwK rupieaf imilaf hY Ausdy awTF gIqF df. mYN nhIN kihMdf ik ieh gIqkfr svf lwK lYx df hwkdfr nhIN. pr dUjy pfsy vI qF isLv kumfr hY. kI Ausdy gIqF df Ausdy pirvfr nUM koeI muwl nhIN imlxf cfhIdf? qy Xfro, jy koeI isLv kumfr dy gIq lYNdf hY qF AusnUM Blf gIq df awT ds hjLfr rupieaf ikAuN nhIN dyxf cfhIdf? ieh imlxf cfhIdf hY. lyKk dI KLuddfrI dI ieh mMg vI hY aqy jdoN aruxf BYx jI rfeIts bfry inwT ky gwl krdy hn qF ieh AuhnF dI KuLddfrI hI boldI hY.
AuNJ mYnUM pqf hY ik AuhnF dy suBfa ivwc koeI lflsf jF lflc nhIN. Auh iewQy ipwCy cfr ku sfl hoey, myry kol afey vI. myry mn ivwc sI ik mYN AuhnF df koeI pRogrfm aryNj krF. mYN soicaf ik isLv dy nfm iewk sLfm rwKI jfvy aqy Aus ivwc isLv dI sLfierI df gfien kIqf jfvy aqy nfl hI BYx jI isLv bfry afpxIaF XfdF aqy sFJF bfry gwlbfq vI krngy. myry mn ivwc ieh vI sI ik eyzI dUr afeI hY ies leI Aus dy vfsqy QoVHy ijhy PMz vI iekwTy krF mYN. AuhnUM ies gwl df pqf lwg igaf aqy mYnUM af ky kihx lwgI, “mfhl Brf jI, qusIN ies qrHF nf kiraf jy. myrI ijLMdgI dIaF sfrIaF loVF bVI cMgI qrHF pUrIaF hogIaF. myry dohvyN bwcy pVH gey ny. ivafhy gey ny. myry kol cMzIgVH ivwc iewk PlYt hY. iewk plft mYN pitafly ilaf hoieaf hY, ijhdy ivwc mYN afpxf iewk Cotf ijhf Gr bxfAuxf hY. mYnUM iksy cIjL dI loV nhIN. mYN iewk Brf nUM imlx afeI hF.”
keI vfr mYnUM qF ies qrHF lgdf hY ijvyN mYN qy aruxf BYx jI juVvyN BYx Brf hoeIey. Ausdf jnm vI myry vfly jnm sfl vflf hI hY. bws kuJ ku mhIinaF df eI eyDr EDr df PLrk hY. AuhnF nUM sgoN myry qy keI vfr iglf rihMdf hY ik mYN jdoN ieMzIaf afAuNdf hF qF AuhnF kol rihMdf nhIN. mYN jdoN vI jFdf irhf sfrI idhfVI bYT ky gwpF sLwpF mfr ky AuWT afAuNdf irhf. aYqkIN mYN igaf qF aruxf BYx jI dy ivhfr dI iewk nvIN prq ny myry mn nUM Cuh ilaf. swcI gwl hY mYN koeI Dfrimk ivakqI nhIN hF. jdoN mYN igaf qF Aus ny ieh sux ky ik awj kwlH myrI pqnI ibmfr rihMdI hY, mYnUM ikhf, “qusIN myry nfl gurduafrf dUK invfrn sfihb cwlogy?” mYN AuhnF dy nfl igaf, AuhnF ny EQy jf ky prsLfd krfieaf aqy myrI vfeIPL dI qMdrusqI leI ardfs kIqI aqy mYnUM EQoN aMimRq jl lY ky idwqf aqy afiKaf ik ieh AuhnF nUM jf ky idE, Auh CyqI rfjLI hoxgy.
Auh bhuq suihrd aOrq hY. isLv kumfr bfry mYN iPLr kihxf cfhFgf ik sfzf vfsqf lyKk dI ilKLq nfl hoxf cfhIdf hY nf ik lyKk dI sLKLsIaq nfl. hux koeI zfktr hY, asIN Aus kol jFdy hF qF vyKx vflI gwl ieh hY ik Auh dvfeI TIk idMdf hY jF nhIN, mrjL dI pCfx TIk krdf hY jF nhIN. sfzf vfsqf ies gwl nfl nhIN ik kI Auh zfktr Kud isgrt pINdf hY ik nhIN pINdf.
myry mn ivwc hY ik isLv AuWqy iewk zfkUmYNtrI bxnI cfhIdI hY. mYN AusdI sikRpt AuWqy vI kMm kr irhF. ijvyN BYx jI ny ikhf sI, AuhnF dy dohvyN bwcy sYWt ny. myhrbfn AuhnF df lVkf vfrqk bVI awCI ilKdf hY. mYN AusnUM afiKaf vI hY ik Cotf hox krky qUM afpxy bfp nUM cMgI qrHF iml, vyK ,smJ nhIN sikaf sYN pr qYnUM Ausdy anykF aijhy Xfr, dosq, pRsMsk aksr imldy rihMdy ny aqy isLv dI sLKLsIaq dIaF anykF prqF aqy rMgF df ijLkr qyry nfl krdy hoxgy. qUM Ausdy hor smkflIaF nUM vI iml qy afpxy ipqf bfry irsrc kr , Auhdy bfry ilK. zfkUmYNtrI bxfAux leI vI mYN smJdF ik guljLfr vrgy isafxy bMdy nUM imilaf jfvy. mYN koeI iPLlm mykr nhIN hF, ies leI ieh myry vws df rog nhIN. pr mYN zfkUmYNtrI bxfAux leI, ijMny PMz cfhIdy hoxgy, mYN Auh muhweIaf krFgf. Aus dI bytI pUjf isLkfgo rihMdI hY. Auh vI arQ sLfsqr dI pI:aYc:zI hY. AuhnF nfl vI myrf qfl myl rihMdf hY.
bwcy bVy jLhIn hn. AuhnF nUM afpxy ipE AuWqy mfx krn df hwk hY. mfx qF isLv AuWqy sfrf pMjfbI jgq krdf hY. pMjfbIaF dy ies mfx mwqy sLfier dy pirvfr df mfx rwKxf vI sfzf PLrjL bxdf hY ik nhIN?