‘afpxy kOx huMdy ny?’
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bIiqaf vkq afpxI muwTI bMd kridaF, kuJ GtnfvF hwQ dIaF lkIrF vFg GVH jFdf hY. ijnHF df ijLkr BfvyN hovy[[[BfvyN nf, Auh hmysLF sfzf ihwsf bx sfzy nfl cwup cfp qurIaF rihMdIaF ny, qy jdoN kdy jfxy axjfxy hwQ dIaF lkIrF vrgIaF ienHF GtnfvF vwl iDafn jfvy qF bws kuJ svfl rih jFdy ny[[[.
ijs idn pwky qOr ‘qy prdysx ho, itkt ktf, mYN ipMzoN qurI[[[, eyarport qwk df awT GMty df sPLr lMmf ho qkrIbn-qkrIbn dws GMty ho cuwky sn. idwlI qwk puMhcidaF[[[ kfvF rOlLy ivwc DuaFKy ijhy sLihr dIaF AudfsIaF gihrIaF awKF ivwc zuwbdy, Qwky tuwty sUrj ny idl nMU DUh pfeI[[[. mYN afpxy vIry qoN Ehlf kr awKF pUMJ leIaF. mYnMU lwigaf ijvyN, dys qoN prdys ivcflLy ltky[[[ aDUry supinaF qwk jFdy rfhF ny, ienHF AudfsIaF gihrIaF awKF dy afsry mYnMU alivdf afKI hovy[[[.
ds sfl bfad awj vI Xfd hY ik, idwlI eyarport phuMc, vIr qoN ivdf lYNidaF, mYN vfr vfr iewk hI gwl khI jf rhI sI, “BfjI mF dI iKLafl rwiKE”.
torFto dI DrqI Auqy pihlf kdm[[[, qy AuWproN myrI ‘AuWcI awzI vflLI juwqI’. ijs pirvfr dI mYNbr bxn jf rhI sI[[[Aus pihvfr bfry kI jfxdI sI[[[? ijnHF afpixaF vwl jf rhI sI[[[AunHF bfry mYnMU, qy myry bfry AunHF nMU[[[ ‘nfm’, ‘nfgirkqf’, ‘rMg’ qy ‘kwd-kfT’ qoN ijLafdf kI jfxkfrI sI[[[? KYr! mYN pMjfbI juwqI pfAux vflLI kuVI[[[‘AuWcI awzI’ pf, boc boc pwb DrdI[[[kwd lMbf krdI[[[ieMmIgrysLn vfilLaF qoN zrdI[[[pfsport nMU Guwt Guwt PVdI ny kfgjLI kfrvfeIaF pUrIaF kIqIaF. dyKo dyKI afpxf smfn smyitaf qy nfl dy musfPLrF dI cfly hI bfhr vwl qur peI. smfn dI trflI GVIsdI jdoN vyitMg eyrIey qwk phuMcI qy AuzIk krdy ichiraF ivwc afpixaF nMU lwBx dI aDUrI ijhI koisLsL kIqI. sfzf swiBafcfr, sfzy sMskfr, DIaF BYxF nMU nIvIN pf ky qurn dI jo afdq pfAuNdy ny[[[AunHF ny vI hr QF afpxF pUrf rMg ivKfieaf hY. vwzI koisLsL krky sfiraF dy ichiraF vwl qwikaf[[[, pr koeI jfxI pihcfxI sLkl nf idsI[[[. iewk dm ijvyN ‘DVkx’ ny idl aqy idmfg dohF `qy hmlf kr idwqf hovy[[[roxhfkI ijhI mYN AuWQy hI KVI rhI[[[. ds pMdrF imMt bIqy[[[aflLf duaflLf vyKdI rhI[[[koeI ‘kflLf’ koeI ‘gorf’ qy koeI koeI ‘BUrf’ vI. hOlLI hOlLI sB afpo afpixaF nfl qurdy hoey. mYnUM lwigaf, ijvyN mYN dunIaF ivwc huxy huxy hI afeI hF qy mYnMU afpxf ‘nF’, ‘kwd-kfT’ qy ‘rMg rUp’ kuJ vI pqf nhIN[[[. myly ivwc guafcy inafxy vFg aflf duaflLf JfkdI mYN socx lwgI ik , ‘myrf hor kOx hY iewQy?’ sB irsLqydfr qF vYnkUvr sn qy suixaf sI ik vYnkUvr torFto qoN bhuq dUr hY[[[hvfeI jhfjL ivwc jfeIey qF cfr pMj GMty lwg jFdy hn. vIh pwcI imMt qwk jd koeI vI nf afieaf qF byhwd Gfbr geI, “jykr koeI vI nf afieaf qF mYN ikwDr jfvFgI qy kI krFgI[[[.”
kuJ dUrI qy Pon vrgf kuJ idisaf qy hOlLI hOlLI mYN Aus vwl qur peI, nfl hI nfl socI jfvF ik, ‘ies qrHF dy Pon qoN qF kdI Pon vI nhIN kIqf[[[ ikwdF krFgI[[[?’ Pon nMbr qF myry kol sI, pr pqf nhIN sI ik eyrIafkoz kI vrqxf hY qy pYsy ikvyN pfAuxy ny[[[. KYr! Pon kolL phuMc ky pqf lwigaf ik mYnMU Pon krn leI ‘pwcI sYNt’ cfhIdy ny. Pyr iKLafl kIqf ik kory kory notF ivwc sO, vIh qy pMj zflr dy not qF sn, pr ‘pwcI sYNt’ nhIN. Auh ikhVf koeI ieMzIaf sI, ik not vKfAux qoN pihlF hI koeI ‘hF’ jF ‘nFh’ ivwc isr ihlf idMdf. dUjI AuproN BfsLf dI smwisaf[[[, aMgryjLI gujLfry jogI afAuNdI sI, pr Aus idn iewk vfr qF lwigaf ik, ilKx, pVHn qy bolx nfloN vI smJxI ijLafdf aOKI hY. smfn GVIsdI mYN iewk stfl muhry phuMcI qy aOKy sOKy afiKaf, “afeI nIz cyNj plIjL”. juafb ivwcoN ieMnI ku smJ afeI ik mYnMU iksy bYNk msLIn qoN cyNj iml skdI hY. zflrF dI DrqI AuWqy pihlf idn qy pihly idn qoN hI sLUrU ho igaf ‘sYNtF df islislf’[[[. mYN byhwd Gbrfht aqy prysLfnI dI hflq ivwc iewDr AuWDr vyKdI, zrI sihmI ijhI ‘bYNk msLIn nF dI nvIN cIjL’ lwBx qur peI.
Gtnf df ihwsf bxky GtidaF[[[, sLfied! sB kuJ suBfivk hI ho irhf sI, pr jdoN Aus qoN bfhr inwkl, bIqy vkq dIaF lkIrF ivwc afpxy afp nMU qurI iPrdI vyKdI hF qF ieMJ lgdf hY, ijvyN ‘idl qy idmfg’ ‘soc’ df sfQ Cwz cuwky sn qy mYN iksy msLIn qoN afsrf lwBdI peI sI[[[.
iesy duibDf ivwc qurI jFdI nMU acfnk afvfjL afeI, “mdd cfhIdI af?”
mYN afpxy ijhy rMg df, afpxI hI bolI boldf, afpxy hI vrgf ichrf vyiKaf qF mUMhoN zUMGy sfh nfl afp muhfry ‘jI’ inkl igaf. mdd dI afs ivwc QoVHI ijhI surq sMBflLI qy ikhf, “mYnMU cyNj cfhIdI hY”.
Aus afiKaf, “Pon krnf hY?, koeI lYx nhIN afieaf?”
myry juafb qoN pihlF hI Aus afpxI jyb ivwc hwQ pfieaf qy kuJ Bfn ijhI kwZ ky qlLI ‘qy Dr leI qy myry vwl vyK ky kihx lwigaf, “ ikMny pYsy ny kolL?”
mYN ikhf, “jI vwzy not ny”.
Aus df KLcrf ijhf pMjfbI hfsf vI sLfied aMgryjLI aYksYNt vrgf hI sI[[[.
mYN Aus dy muMh vwl vyK ikhf, “sO qy pMj ny.” sLfied myrI mfipaF pRqI axK ny myrI Gbrfht nMU plLoisaf hoxF qy mYN Aus nMU dwsxf cfihaf hoxF ik ‘mYNnMU myiraF ny KflI hwQ nhIN qoiraf’. Aus ny afpxI qlLI `qy DrI cyNj vwl qy myry vwl ies qrHF vyiKaf, ijvyN puwC irhf hovy ik, ‘mYN qYnMU ieh ‘pwcI sYNt kfhdy bdly dyvF[[[?’ mYN ibnf kuJ soicaF ‘pMj’zflr kwZy qy Aus vwl vDf idwqy. Aus ny aflf duaflf vyiKaf, myry hwQ `qy ‘pwcI sYNt’ Dry qy myry qoN ‘pMj zflr’ lY ky ies qrHF qurdf hoieaf ijvyN mYN koeI bYNk msLIn hovF[[[.
vfps Pon kol puMhc ky iewk cIny joVy dI mdd nfl mYN Pon kIqf[[[, Pon dI GMtI lgfqfr vwjI jFdI sI[[[ pr agFh qoN koeI cuwk nhI sI irhf. sLfied sfrf pirvfr GroN qur ipaf sI. acfnk ipCFh muV vyiKaf qy dUr afAuNdy afpixaF dy ichry pCfx, hVbVfeI ijhI mYN sB kuJ AuWQy hI Cwz AunHF vwl BwjI[[[.
Pon muhirEN nf cuwikaf jfx kfrx, Pon ny myry ‘pwcI sYNt’ nhIN KfDy. ‘msLIn’ nMU ieh ibnF hwk dy ‘pwcI sYNt’ gvfrf nf hoey. myrI ipwT ipwCy ikrdy ‘pwcI sYNt’ dI afvfjL mYnMU awj vI Xfd hY[[[. Auh pqf nhIN ikhVy rMg dy ‘afpxy’ df krjL sn[[[jo mYN afpixaF nMU imlx dI kfhlL qy KusLI dI mfrI, AuWQy hI Cwz afeI[[[.
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dUsrI lIk quPLfnI brPLvfrI dI cyqfvnI vflLI isr iPrI ijhI sLfm dI hY. mOsm dy bury hflfqF dIaF KLbrF suxdI ny acfnk Pirj KohlI qy iDafn igaf ik bwicaF leI duwD df qy afKrI bYg vI awDf ‘ku hI rih igaf sI. bfhr mOsm df hfl vyK ijgrf nhIN pY irhf sI ik grosrI leI jfieaf jfvy. iPr soicaf ik Bwj ky duwD qF lY hI afvF[[[ nhIN qF vwzI musLikl ho jfvygI. KYr! kfr leI qy hOlLI hOlI Gr dy iblkul ipCvfVy lgdy plfjLy ivwc jf ky vyiKaf qF pfrikMg dI vwzI smwisaf bxI hoeI sI. QF QF brPL dy lwgy phfVF ivwc tyzIaF myZIaF kfrF pfrk hox kfrn stor dy lfgy qF koeI vI pfrikMg ivhlI nhIN sI. kuJ dUrI qy kfr pfrk kIqI. stor qwk qurnf, isrP qurnf nf ho ky ijvyN brPLIlIaF pOxF ivwc AultI idsLf ivwc qrnf ho igaf sI. BfvyN hux qwk ieh smJ qF af hI geI hY ik, mOsmF nfl ieh grm-srd lVfeI qF sfrI Aumr hI cwldI rihxI hY, pr iPr vI kdy kdy ies nfl lVn leI hT df afsrf lYxF pYNdf hY. pr jdoN kdy ‘mno-bl’ kmjLor ipaf hovy qF lVnf qF bhuq dUr dI gwl[[[lVfeI dI soc vI BfrU ho jFdI hY. Aus idn XkInn iesy qrHF dI mfnisk siQqI ivwc sF. kihr dI TMz muhry isr Jukf, suMgVI ijhI mYN, CUkdI hvf ivwc sfh GVIsdI jdoN qwk stor muhry phuMcI qy vyiKaf ik stor bMd hox ivwc kuJ sikMt hI rih gey sn. mYN kfhlLy kdmI ‘grosrI kfrt’ lYx leI vDI[[[. prs ‘coN hwQ mfr ‘pwcI sYNt’ lwBx lwgI. ‘iewk’, ‘pMj’ qy ‘dws sYNt’ qF sn pr ‘pwcI sYNt’ hwQ nf afey[[[. mYN duicwqI ijhI ivwc iewk vfr stor dI smF sUcI vwl vyiKaf qy dUjI vfr kfr vwl. mYnMU lwigaf ik kfr qwk jf ky ‘pwcI sYNt’ lYx jfxf qy vkq brbfd krn qoN ielfvf hor kuJ vI nhIN. mYN kfrt ‘qoN afpxf prs cuwikaf qy stor dy bUhy vwl BwjI ik ikqy Auh bMd nf ho jfvy[[[. acfnk hI mgroN afvfjL afeI, “ hy tyk ids”. mYN muVky vyiKaf qF iewk gory rMg df mDry ijhy kwd df iensfn myry vwl afpxI KflI ‘kfrt’ vDf irhf sI. mYN ikhf, “no no QYNks, afeI zONt hYv cyNj tU igv XU”. brPLvfrI qoN bcf krdy Aus afpxf hwQ awKF Aupr rwiKaf qy myry vwl vyK ikhf “zoNt vrI[[[jst tyk da kfrt.” ies qoN pihlF ik mYN Aus nMU kuJ hor khF Auh ‘kfrt’ AuWQy hI Cwz kfhlLy kdmIN qurdf hoeaf. mYN kfrt iKwc Bwjky stor dy bUhy aMdr ho geI, ik ikwDry stor bMd nf ho jfvy[[[. bUhy dy kolL hI ruwk ky ipwCy muV vyiKaf qF isvfey quPLfnI brPLvfrI dy kuJ vI nf idisaf[[[.
hux jdoN vI mYnMU ‘pwcI sYNt’ dI jLrUrq pYNdI hY, ‘pwcI sYNt’ qF qkrIbn hmysLF hI mYnMU afpxy koloN hI lwB jFdy ny, pr hr vfr jy kuJ nhIN lwBdf qy bws iewk juafb nhIN lwBdf ik, ‘afpxy kOx huMdy ny?’