iËMdgI dy kuJ vrky
aklmMd vI km-aklI idKfAuNdy hn

- ipafrf isMG Bogl

‘‘piVHaf! gwl sux.’’ mYN afvfjL dI syD ivc dyiKaf. aMdr s[ inrMjn isMG bYTy njLr afey. mYN AudoN awTvIN jmfq ivc pVHdf sF. zMUGIaF iqrkflF df smF sIr. nfnky GroN nfny dy krKfny vwl jf irhf sI, ijQy mYN rfq vyly sONdf qy pVHdf sF. s[ inrMjn isMG kwpVy sIx df kMm krdy sn. AunHF idnF ivc lfhOr dy iksy vwzy drjLI dy shfiek-mulfjLm sn. mYN AunHF dy Gr aMdr pYr Diraf qF Auh lwkVI dI cONkI AuWqy ikqfb KolHI bYTy sn. imwtI dy qyl df dIvf bl irhf sI.
‘‘af dyK iek sugfq. mYN lfhOr qoN lY ky afieaf.’’
ieh pRo[ mohn isMG dI pusqk sHfvy pwqr’’ sI. inrMjn isMG dI cONkI AuWqy peI Aus ikqfb dI pihlf qlkf awj Xfd hY. KolHI hoeI ikqfb df aMdrlf tfeItl njLr afieaf. hry rMg dI isafhI nfl Cipaf ‘‘sfvy pwqr’’ aqy iesy isafhI nfl Cipaf pRo[ mohn isMG sMpfdk ‘‘pMj diraf’’ awj qwk nhIN Bwuilaf. s[ inrMjn isMG ny mYnUM ikqfb Zol ky vI idKfeI hoeygI. sLfied iksy njLm dIaF kuJ sqrF vI pVH ky suxfeIaF hox. pr ieh vrvy hux Xfd nhIN.
iek hor Gtnf vI Xfd af rhI hY. ipMz dy gurduafry ivc iksy gurpurb df iekwT sI. musLkl nfl pMjfh-sO qIvIaF-afdmI hoxgy. Gt iekwT df kfrn mOsm dI KrfbI hoeI hY, pr hux ieh gwl Xfd nhIN. iksy rfgI ny kIrqn kIqf, pr ikAuNik ajy dIvfn dI smfpqI df smF nhIN sI, ies krky iksy pRbMDk ny mMg kIqI, sMgq ivcoN koeI ivakqI bolxf cfhy qF boly. s[ inrMjn isMG awj vI koeI ikqfb hwQ ‘c lY ky afey sn. iksy mMcI-kvI dIaF kivqfvF df sMgRih sI. AunHF ny mYnUM koeI kivqf idKfeI. mYN iek kivqf KVHy ho ky sMgq nUM suxfeI. sroiqaF dy sfhmxy bolx df ieh myrf pihlf mOkf sI. ipCoN ikAuNik koeI hor ivakqI bol nhIN irhf sI, mYN Ausy ikqfb ivcoN kuJ hor ilKqF vI pVH ky suxfeIaF.
s[ inrMjn isMG dy mn ivc ax-bolI iewCf sI ik Auh Kud mMc ‘qy afAux ‘qy sroiqaF nUM koeI njLm suxfAux. pr Auh sfrI Aumr hOslf nhIN kr sky. sroiqaF dI awK nfl awK imlf ky AunHF nUM sMboDn krn df hOslf Aus jLmfny ivc myry ivc vI nhIN sI, pr mYN iksy kvI dI kivqf dI AuNgl PV ky sroiqaF awgy KVHy hox df idKfvf krdf irhf. Aus rfq qF mYN ieh idKfvf vfr-vfr kIqf. ipCoN Aus rfq vfr vfr mMc AuWqy jfx dI bcgfnf gwl mYnUM mn hI mn ivc sLrimMdf vI krdI rhI.
pRo[ mohn isMG dI kivqf nfl dUjf pRIcY, gfiebfnf hI, ZfzI subyg isMG qy igafnI moqf isMG dy jQy ny krvfieaf. plfhI ipMz ivc gurU hirgoibMd sfihb dy jnm idn AuWqy hr sfl dvfn lgdf sI. ies iqMn-rojLf dIvfn nUM sfzy ipMz ivc ‘‘joV-mylf’’ kihx df irvfj sI. pihly idn sLafm nUM ngr kIrqn inkldf, ijs nUM ipMz dy lok jlUs kihMdy sn. agly do idn dIvfn lgdy, ijs ivc rfgI kIrqn krdy qy ZfzI vfrF gfAuNdy. ivckfr dI rfq nUM kvI drbfr huMdf. subyrf isMG qy moqf isMG df jQf kIrqn vI kr lYNdf qy vfrF vI gf lYNdf. igafnI moqf isMG vfr gfAux lwigaF hwQ ivc Zwz PV lYNdy qy gIq gfAux lwigaF AuWcy myjL AuWqy sfhmxy pey hfrmonIam vfjy dIaF surF CyV lYNdy. AunHF ny iek dupihr dy dIvfn ivc ‘‘sfvy pwqr’’ ivc CpI njLm ‘‘ispfhI df idl’’ suxfeI sI qy iesy pusqk dI CpI iek hor njLm vI bolI sI-
bwcy ijhf nf myvf izwTf,
ijMnf kwcf, Enf imwTf.
igafnI moqf isMG aksr nMd lfl nUrpurI df ieh gIq vI gfAuNdy-
ieQoN Auz jfh BEilaf pMCIaf!
vy qUM afpxI jfn bcf.
ieQy Gr-Gr PfhIaF gwzIaF,
vy qUM TurIaF hyT nf af.
jLfhr hY, Aus kwcI Aumry vI mYnUM do iKwcF iKwc rhIaF sn.
- duwKF dI Brmfr aqy suwKF dI Gft dy bfvjUd ijLMdgI jIAUx dI lflsf pRbl sI. ijLMdgI mYnUM afnMd idMdI sI.
- sfihq pVHn-suxfAux dI lflsf bVI jLordfr sI. sB iksm df sfihq nhIN iKwc pf irhf sI. Kfs iksm df sfihq hI iKwc irhf sI. ies sfihq ivc afm mnuwK dy afm jjLbfq sn, ijvyN ‘‘ispfhI df idl’’ kivqf ivc ieh idRsL myrI bfl-klpxf ivc KuwB igaf ik XuwD lVn leI jfr hy ispfhI nUM Aus dI pqnI jfx qoN rok rhI hY. iesy qrHF mohn isMG dI bwcy vflI njLm ivc mYnUM Kfs gwl ieh pRqI hoeI hY ik bwcf ijMnf Cotf hovy, Aunf hI ipafrf lwgdf hY.
mYtirk pfs krky ipMz dI lfiebRyrI leI mMgvfeIaF ikqfbF ivc mYnUM nfnk isMG df nfvl ‘‘icwtf lhU’’ bhuq rsdfiek pRqIq hoieaf. bhuqf rs qF ‘‘khfxI’’ df afieaf, jo afm afdmI dI khfxI huMdI hoeI Kfs qy anoKI vfrqf lwgI. nfnk isMG dI khfxI ‘‘GVn’’ dI Xogqf mYnUM sfrI Aumr hI hYrfn krdI rhI. mYnUM ieh ros vI irhf, nfnk isMG nfvl nUM afm afdmI dI ijLMdgI qoN sLurU krky CyqI hI ikqy dUr klpxf dI dunIaf ivc lY jFdf hY. msln ‘‘icwtf lhU’’ dy pihly hI ‘‘aDUrf kFZ’’ ivc iek byitkvf msfPr lfhOr qoN aMimRqsr afAuNdf hoieaf stysLn AuWqy pkiVaf jFdf hY. Aus dI jyb ivc iek cuafnI hY. Auh vI KotI. Aus qoN bfad ‘‘pihly kFz’’ ivc juafn-ivDvf gurdyeI, mqrey puwqr krm cMd hQoN mfr-kuwt Kf ky, GroN kwZI hoeI. rfh dy iknfry bxI iek, byafbfn JONpVI ivc peI hY. byhosL mrn iknfry. AuproN mINh hnHyrI cl rhI hY. jLordfr hvf, JONpVI dI Cwq Auzf ky lY geI. acfnk tFgy ivc sLihroN gPUr qy Aus dI mF iesy rfh lMGy. ies suMdr pIVq ivDvf nfrI nUM rfh iknfry peI dyK ky pihlF mF puwq dRb gey. Pyr Kudf-qrs Aus nUM tFgy ivc Gr lY gey. zfktr nUM bulf ky AusdI mrhm pwtI krvfeI. hosL afAux Auqy AusdI iviKaf suxI. nfvl ivc hor awgy jf ky bfbf rozU klMdr, byhwd grIb hox dy bfvjUd, pihlF qF tMg AuWqy tMg rwK ky byiPkr sOx df afdI sI. pr jdoN dI Aus nUM inwkI ijhI kuVI (suMdrI) lwBI hY, Aus dI byiPkrI Auz geI hY. pihlF iZwz leI aMn hI cfhIdf sI. hux nkd pYsy vI cfhIdy hn qy inwky-inwky kwpVy vI. hux svyr qoN sLfm qwk Aus nUM cYn nhIN. lYpflk dy moh ny rozU nUM inwkIaF inwkIaF vsqF df loBI bxf idwqf hY. iesy qrHF Kflsf kflj aMimRqsr ivc aYP[ey[ dI jmfq ivc pVH irhf nOjvfn bcn isMG igafnI dIdfr isMG qoN iPtkfr pRfpq krky ipMz suDfrn dy iKafl nfl afpxy hI ipMz muVdf hY. ipMz ivc gurduafrf pihlF hI sI. gMRQI dsoDf isMG vI pihlF hI sI. pr hux svyry svyry afpxy KyqF qoN muVidaF Aus nUM gurduafry koloN lMGidaF ‘Ktkdf’ hY, gurduafry ivc gurU gMRQ sfihb df pRkfsL ikAuN nhIN huMdf? jy pRkfsL huMdf hY qF iKafl afAuNdf hY, ipMz dy bwcy ieQy pVHdy ikAuN nhIN? ipMz ivc skUl nhIN. ieh koeI musLkl nhIN. gMRQI isMG idn vyly bwicaF nUM pVHfieaf krn. bwcy pVHn lwgy qF bcn isMG nUM igafn hoieaf, dsoDf isMG ieh kMm krn dy Xog nhIN. bcn isMG ny igafnI dIdfr isMG nUM Kq ilK ky mdd leI bulfieaf.
nfvl dy ieh sB vyrvy mYnUM jIvn dy bhuq nyVy lwgy. ipMz qoN sLihr pVHn jFidaF asIN rojL hI rylvy stysLn dy koloN dI lMGdy sF. rylvy stysLn df Auh Pftk vI dyiKaf hoieaf sI, ijQy itkt cYkr itktF cYWk krdf sI. aMimRqsr rylvy stysLn myry leI PgvfVy df rylvy stysLn bx igaf sI. vfr-vfr soc AuBrdI, jy jyb ivc pYsy nf hox qy sPr vI krnf pY jfey qF byitkty PVy jfx AuWqy myry nfl kI bIqygI? ieAuN hI gurdyeI df byXfro mddgfr GroN bfhr rfh iknfry peI hox. ies jLflm dunIaf dI afm vrqfrf pRqIq hoieaf. ijvyN bcn isMG ipMz dy gurduafry df suDfr krn df Xqn krdf hY, ijvyN anpVH bwicaF nUM pVHfAux dI koisLsL krdf hY, ieh kMm qF asIN afp afpxy ipMz plfhI ivc kr rhy sF. s[ jgq isMG plfhI, s[ inrMjn isMG mfn (surgvfnsI) aqy ipMz dy hr Aumr sfQIaF nUM nfl lY ky, do ku sfl bflgF nUM pVHfAux aqy ipMz dy ivkfs dy kMm ivc ihwsf lYx df Xqn krdy rhy. plfhI ipMz awj sfry pMjfb dy phuq ivksq ipMzF ivc sLmfr huMdf hY. ies dI buinafd 1947-48 dy sflF ivc bwJI sI, jdoN s[ jgq isMG kflj ivc pVHdy sn qy mYN nOvIN-dsvIN jmfq dI pVHfeI kr irhf sI. s[ jgq isMG nUM ipMz-ivkfs dI aYsI cytk lwgI ik AunHF ny agly sflF ivc nf kyvl ipMz plfhI dI sgoN prI PgvfVf qihsIl dI kfieaf pltf idwqI. ies qihsIl dIaF bhuqIaF ilMk-sVkF s[ jgq isMG ny AudoN bxvfeIaF jdoN PgvfVf mfrikt kmytI dy pRDfn bxy.
AunHF idnF ivc hI ‘‘pRIq lVI’’ vI pVHnI sLurU kr idwqI sI. gurbKLsL isMG aiDafqmvfdI jIvn-drsLn dI QF pdfrQvfdI jIvn-drsLn ivc ivsLvfs rwKdy sn. AunHF dy pdfrQvfdI ivcfrF df myry mn AuWqy bhuq gihrf asr ipaf. s[ gurbKLsL isMG vfr vfr ilKdy ik grIbI-amIrI rwb nhIN pYdf krdf. afrQk-smfjk pRbMD pYdf krdf hY. mnuwK dI qkdIr DuroN nhIN ilKI hoeI huMdI. mnuwK afp AuWdm aqy imhnq krky afpxI qkdIr afp GVdf hY. ikAuNik mYN afp ksLtF dI dldl ivcoN inklxf cfhuMdf sF, afpxy hflfq bdlxf cfhuMdf sF, ies krky mYnUM gurbKLsL isMG pRIq lVI dy ivcfr bhuq mMnxXog pRqIq hoey.
pr myry afdrsL nf nfnk isMG bxy, nf s[ gurbKLsL isMG pRIq lVI. myrf afdrsL sMq isMG syKoN bxy. sMq isMG syKoN dy iekFgI sMgRih ‘‘Cy Gr’’ (1941) aqy khfxI sMgRih ‘‘smfcfr’’ (1943) ny myry mn Auqy jfdU DUV idwqf. syKoN dI khfxI ‘‘Bwqf’’ ivc svyry svyry KyqF ivc hwl vfh irhf nOjvfn hrnfm isMG ipCly awT-nON sO sfl dy pMjfbI sfihq ivc afpxI iksm df pihlf afm nOjvfn sI. afm afdmI nUM pMjfbI sfihq ivc AusdIaF sfDfrn qFGF qy AudfsIaF smyq pysL krn dI imsfl sMq syKoN pihlI vfr pysL kr irhf sI. ‘‘Cy Gr’’ dy iekFgIaF ‘‘bfbf bohV’’ aqy ‘‘mhfqmf’’ ivc syKoN ny hor vI vwzI pihl kIqI. syKo ny iswK ieiqhfs nUM ienHF donF nftkF ivc nvyN mfnvvfdI idRsLtIkox qoN pysL kIqf. syKoN mYnUM bhuq vwzf buwDImfn lyKk pRqIq hoieaf, jo myry vrgy pMjfbI pfTkF nUM ieiqhfs aqy vrqfn smfj nUM smJx dIaF nvIaF jugqF smJf irhf sI.
pMjfbI sfihq dI ieh aiDaYn aqy sfihq rfhIN af rhy nvyN ivcfr aqy socF mYnUM afpxI Aumr nfloN vD gMBIr qy pRoZ bxf rhIaF sn. pr ies pVHfeI ny myry leI musLklF aqy AulJxF vI pYdf kIqIaF. ivcfr aqy socF df qF hI lfB huMdf hY, jy nfl nfl jIvn df anuBv vI PYldf jfey. jIvn dI anuBv aqy ivcfr iml ky hI mnuwK nUM aslI isafxp bKLsLdy hn. pr myrf anuBv bhuq sImq sI. mYN qF iek pRkfr df KUh df zwzU sF. vIh sfl dI Aumr qwk myrf sfrf jIvn ipMz qoN sLihr qy sLihr qoN ipMz qwk sPr krn aqy pVHn-ilKx ivc bIiqaf sI. ipMz ivc ‘‘syvk dl’’ bxf ky, iesdIaF iekwqrqfvF ivc sLfml ho ky, keI hor smfjk-kfrj krky vI mYN bhuqy lokF nUM imilaf nhIN sF. ipMz ivc vI bhuqy lokF nUM KuwlH ky imldf nhIN sF. afpxy Gr qoN isvfey hor iksy Gr ivc nhIN jFdf sF. dUijaF nUM imlx-iglx aqy jfnx dI jLbrdsq iewCf dy bfvjUd mYN iekwl-Korf aqy sLrmfkl nvXuvk sF. ieh KorI awj qwk kfiem hY. ies df mYnUM bhuq nuksfn hoieaf. mYN bhuq Gwt dosn bxfey. hux vI jdoN iksy hor sLihr jFdf hF, iksy dosq dy Gr jf ky rihx dI QF iksy hotl ivc kmrf ikrfey AuWqy lY lYNdf hF.
ikqfbI igafn bhuq hoxf aqy lokF nUM iml-igl ky pRfpq huMdf igafn Gwt hoxf iksy vI bx rhy sfihqkfr leI bhuq hfnIkfrk hY. Aus nUM sfihq ilKx leI vMn-suvMnf aqy inktvrqI vsqU pRfpq nhIN huMdf. mYnUM vI nuksfn ho skdf sI. pr mYN ieh nuksfn hoxo roikaf. iekwl KorI qF nhIN GtI. qF vI mnuwK aqy smfj ivc mrI drdmMd iPkrmMdI ny myrI bhuq mdd kIqI. mYN ipCly pMjfh sfl qoN afpxy afly-duafly nUM bhuq icMqf aqy icMqk nfl [[[[[[[[ irhf hF. ies dy nfl-nfl mYN afp hmysLf ijLMdgI bhuq KuwB ky jIxI hY. Aumr dy vfDy dy bfvjUd myry ivc jIAUx dI lflsf kdy mwDm nhIN hoeI. BfvyN imldf bhuq QoVy lokF nUM hF, qF vI AunHF ivc gihrI idlcspI lYNdf hY. imwqr BfvyN QoVy hn, pr AunHF nfl muhwbq bhuq zMUGI rhI.
hF, Aumr dy pihly sflF ivc Gwt anuBv dy kfrn mYQoN aYho ijhIaF glqIaF ho jFdIaF rhIaF, ijnHF ny bfad dy jIvn ivc bVIaF AulJxf aqy musLklF pYdf kIqIaF. AunHF idnF dy irvfj muqfbk myrI mMgxI AudoN ho geI, jdoN ajy awTvIN-jmfq ivc pVHdf sF. mYnUM ies Gtnf dI KusLI nhIN hoeI sI. pr burf vI nhIN lwgf sI. ijvyN bwicaF dI Kyz hovy. pr dsvIN jmfq ivc pVHdf sF ik myry shurf sfihb s[ sMqf isMG ivafh dI pysLksL lY ky af gey. sfl qF do hI lMGy sn, pr hux kfPI socvfn ho cuwkf sF. qF vI afpxI km-aklI nfl pYrIN kuhfVf mfr ilaf sI.
gwl iewdf hoeI. ivafh bfry gwl krn leI s[ sMqf isMG myry nfny nUM imly. nfny ny TIk hI jvfb idwqf, qusIN dyKdy nhIN pey, mMuzf qF ajy pVHdf hY? huxy ivafh nhIN krnf. s[ sMqf isMG myry dfdky ipMz rUpovfl cly gey. myry qfey s[ Bgq isMG nUM imly. qfieaf myry cfiqaF nfloN pYsy vloN kfPI sOKf qy AuNj vI qyjL qrfr sI. s[ sMqf isMG ny isLkfieq kIqI, mMuzy df nfnf gyNdf isMG ivafh krnf nhIN mMndf. qfieaf, ijs ny hux qwk sfzI kdI pRvfh nhIN kIqI sI, pMcfieq bxf ky plfhI af igaf. myry nfny nUM qfanf mfiraf, jy qusIN ivafh nhIN kr skdy qF asIN krn leI iqafr hF. nfnf ieho ijhI coB sihn krn leI iqafr nhIN sI. jy mYN bwcy pfl qy pVHf skdf hF qF ivafh vI kr skdf hF. myry iksy mfmy ny dlIl idwqI, mMuzy nUM qF puwC lAu[ Aus dI dsvIN dI pVHfeI hY. skUloN CuwtI imldI hY ik nhIN?
ieh gwlF-bfqF ho rhIaF sn ik mYN pVH ky sLihroN af igaf. mYnUM AuWprlI gwlbfq aqy imhixaF-nuimhixaF df koeI igafn nhIN sI. mYnUM mfmf jI ny isrP ieh puwiCaf, qYnUM skUloN pMj swq idnF dI CuwtI iml skdI hY? BfvyN ho cuwkI gwlbfq dy vyrvy qoN axjfx sF qF vI shurf sfihb s[ sMqf isMG aqy qfieaf Bgq isMG nUM nfny aqy mfimaF pfs bYiTaF dyK ky mYnUM anumfn ho igaf sI, gwl myry ivafh dI ho rhI hY. CuwtI myry hox vfly ivafh leI hI mYQoN puwCI jf rhI hY. isafxp iesy gwl ivc sI ik mYN Porn kihMdf, ivafh leI mYnUM CuwtI nhIN imlxI. ivafh qoN bfad s[ amr isMG ivrdI (muwK aiDafpk) ies gwloN KPf vI hoey. pr mYN DImI ijhI afvfjL ivc kih idwqf, mYnUM CwutI iml skdI hY. isrP myry eynf kihx nfl s[ sMqf isMG qy s[ Bgq isMG dI cVH mwc geI. myry nfny aqy mfimaF nUM ivafh dI qfrIK mMnxI pY geI. Bgq isMG ny sLfied ikhf, ivafh asIN plfhI nhIN krnf, rUpovfl krFgy. myry nfnikaF nUM ieh gwl vI mMnxI peI. AuWprlf vyrvf pVH ky sLfied koeI dosq khy, qYnUM ivafh df cfa hoxf hY. dosqo! ivafh df koeI cfa nhIN sI. Aus jLmfny dy irvfj muqfbk ieh ivafh dI rsm hI sI. pqI-pqnI df myl nhIN sI. mYN qF pqnI dI sLkl vI nhIN dyKI sI. pqnI ny ajy kwlH nUM rUpovfl qoN pyky ipMz rfj gomfl muVnf sI ik mYN afpxy imwqr s[ jgq isMG plfhI dy sfeIkl AuWqy bYT ky PgvfVy sLihr afpxy skUl pVHn af igaf sF.