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afpxy afp bfry myrI pihlI Xfd iqMn ku sfl dI Aumr dI hY.
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myry mF-bfp (hrnfm kOr ‘qy afsf isMG) nfl hfdsy kuwJ ies qrHF nfl vfpry ik AuhnF df hr bwcf jF qF miraf hoieaf pYdf huMdf qy jF iPr gilaf hoieaf. AuhnF dy awT bwcy myry qoN pihlF pYdf hoey ijhnF ivcoN cfr mry hoey jF gly hoey pYdf hoey ‘qy bfkI dy cfr; do, iqMn jF cfr sflF dy ho ky mr gey. myry mfipaF df ieh duwK bhuq vwzf sI ijsny myrI mF dI dyh vI gfl idwqI aqy rUh vI ÌUk idwqI. eys duwK ny AuhnU JMB ky rwK idwqf. iewk qF Auh kudrq vwloN hI srIr dI kmËor ‘qy kfhrI sI, ‘qy AuWqoN awT mr gey bwicaF df duwK - Auh burI qrHF tuwt geI sI.
aMimRqsr dy kMboj BfeIcfry nfl sbMiDq iksfn pirvfr sI sfzf. muwZ-kdIm qoN KyqI krn vfly, imwtI nfl imwtI hox vfly, BoNeyN nfl juVy hoey lok. myry qfey dyvf isMG dy pMj puwqr ‘qy do DIaF sn. myrf qfieaf kfÌI sOKf iksfn sI. jy myry bfp dy vI sfry bwcy jINdy rihMdy qF Auh vI Auhdy vFg hI sOKf iksfn huMdf. koeI muMzf bldF dI hrnflI kr ky pYlI vfhux jFdf, koeI pwiTaF vwl huMdf, koeI pfxI dI vfrI sFBdf, koeI bIjdf-vwZdf qy bfp myrf qory Pyry ‘qy huMdf jF iPr mMzI Èfh kol huMdf, vycI hoeI Psl dI rkm Augrfh irhf. pr Auh iksmq df eyzf blI nhIN sI. Auh iekwlHfkfrf iksfn sI, sfry kMm afp hwQIN krn vflf.
iksy ‘isafxy’ sbMDI ny rfey idwqI: ‘Xfr, afsf ishF, jy qUM afpxy svrn nUM mMg dyvyN qF ho skdf ey ieh Aus kuVI dy krmF nUM hI bicaf rHvy’. qy ieh gwl myry ipAu qy mF dy idlF nUM lg geI.
AudoN myrI Aumr iqMnHF ku virHaF dI sI. myry mfmy dI DI bMso ny afpxy shury ipMz inËfmpury qoN myry leI iewk sfl ku dI kuVI jIqo df sfk lY aFdf ‘qy mMgxI dIaF iqafrIaF ÈurU ho geIaF. ktVf krm isMG dI nvIN sVk Auqy myry ipAu df mkfn kfÌI Cotf sI. asl ivwc ieh mkfn myry bfby kysr isMG dy mkfn df awDf ihwsf sI jdoN ik dUjf awD myry qfey kol sI. bfby ny ieh mkfn afpxf jwdI ipMz ZupeI Cwzx qoN bfad bxfieaf sI. ËmIn bhuq QoVHI sI ijhVI krËy dI adfiegI ivwc hI Kur geI sI. jo bicaf sI Auhdy nfl ieh mkfn hI bx sikaf sI. Pyr Gr ivwc jTfxI-drfxI dI hmyÈF lVfeI huMdI vyK ky bfbf kysr isMG ny ies mkfn ivwc kMD kwZ ky iehnUM do ihwisaF ivwc vMz idwqf qy dohF muMizaF nUM iewk iek ihwsf dy idwqf.
iesy hI mkfn dy iblkul sfhmxy iewk hor kfÌI vwzf mkfn sI ijhVf myry qfey ny bfad ivwc afpxy ‘qy afpxy pMj muMizaF dy blbUqy KrIidaf sI. myrI mMgxI df sfrf kfrobfr ies qfey vfly nvyN Gr ivwc ho irhf sI. Gr ivclI cihl pihl nUM mYN awj vI awKF bMd kr ky vyK skdf hF. mYN afpxI cfcI (qfey dy muMizaF dy mgr lwg ky mYN vI mF nUM cfcI ‘qy ipAu nUM cfcf kihxf iswK igaf sF) nUM gulfbI dupwty ivwc qurI iPrdI nUM vyK skdf hF, ‘qy gulfbI pwg ivwc swjy hoey cfcy nUM vI.
mYnUM Xfd hY Auh pl jdoN kuwJ Epry ijhy bMdy iewk guV dI roVI qy iewk cFdI df rupweIaf lYky cfcy vwl vDy sn jo mMjy AuWqy, lwqF BuMjy lmkf ky bYTf sI qy ijsdI JolI ivwc mYN sF, nvIN puÈfk ivwc iPwt. jdoN AuhnF ny Ërf ijMnf guV myry mUMh nUM lfieaf qF Auh bhuq hI imwTf guV mYN Ausy vyly bfhr kwZ idwqf sI aqy ichry ‘qy swq vwt pf ley sn. Pyr myrf rox inkl igaf sI. mYN dvf dv cfcy dI godI ‘coN inkl ky prHF aOrqF ivwc bYTI cfcI dy gl nUM jf cMbiVaf sF.
myrI dUjI ivÈyÈ Xfd cfr ku virHaF dI Aumr dI hY. AuNj XfdF qF ies aMqrfl dIaF vI keI hn pr iewQy mYN kyvl kuwJ ivÈyÈ XfdF qk hI sImq rihxf cHfvFgf.
myry cfcy dI BUaf afqo bfr ivwc rihMdI sI. Èfied lfielpur iËly ivc. myry cfcy df Aus nfl Kfsf moh sI. ies leI Auh sfl ivwc iewk vfr ËrUr AuhnUM imlx clf jFdf. ies vfr jdoN quiraf qF mYnUM vI nfl lY ilaf. asIN ryl gwzI ‘qy svfr ho ky EQy gey. BUaf ny mYnUM bhuq ipafr kIqf, lfz lzfey, kuwCVoN Auqrn hI nf idaf kry. asIN AyuQy iqMn cfr idn rhy. iewk idn svyry cfcf bfhr jfx lwgf qF mYN vI nfl jfx leI KihVy pY igaf. aÉIr, AuhnUM iljfxf ipaf. cfcf, asl ivc, jMgl-pfxI leI quiraf sI. kuwJ dUr jf ky kmfd dy Kyq afey. kmfd eyzf AuWcf ik rhy rwb df nfm. cfcf mYnUM ieh kih ky aMdr vV igaf ik mYN vwt ‘qy Klo ky AuzIkF. Auh plF iCxF ivwc afieaf ik afieaf.
AuhnUM Èfied kuwJ pl vfDU lwg gey hoxgy. myry koloN jdoN hor AuzIk nf hoeI qF mYN vI kmfd ivwc vV igaf. jdoN afgF ny myrf mUMh mwQf pwCxf ÈurU kr idwqf qF mYN bfGf awzx lwgf. cfcf dUjy pfisAuN bfhr inkl afieaf sI, qy AuWcI AuWcI ‘svrn - svrn’ afK ky afvfËF dy irhf sI. qy eyDr mYN kmfd ivwcoN asmfn isr `qy cuwikaf hoieaf sI. myry hwQ, nMgIaF lwqF `qy bfhvF `qy mUMh burI qrF pwCy gey sn, qy mYN lyrF mfr irhf sF. pqf nhIN mYN ikwDr ikwDr iPrdf irhF sF. aÉIr bVI muÈikl nfl myrIaF cFgrF dI syD `c af ky cfcy ny mYnUM lwiBaf `qy bfhr lY ky afieaf. jdoN asIN aMimRqsr leI vfps qury qF cfcy dy isr AuWqy vwzf sfrf iGAu df Biraf hoieaf pIpf sI ijhVf BUaf afqo ny sfnUM ipafr nfl idwqf sI.
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mYnUM cfcy nfl rihx df bVf anMd afAuNdf. Èfied eys kr ky ik cfcf AuWcf lMmf ‘qy qkVy srIr df sI ‘qy Auhdy huMidaF mYnUM iksy cIË df koeI Éqrf nhIN sI. dUjy Èfied ies leI ik cfcf myry nfl inwkIaF inwkIaF gwlF krdf rihMdf sI jdoNik cfcI nhIN sI krdI.
cfcy kol iewk gwzf sI ijs awgy Jotf jupdf sI. ieh gwzf hmyÈF hI iZckUM iZckUM kr ky cldf sI. BfvyN cfcf iesdy phIey vMGvfAuNdf rihMdf sI Xfin phIaF nUM gRIs duafAuNdf rihMdf sI Pyr vI kuwJ idnF ipwCoN hI phIey cUM cUM dI afvfË pYdf krn lwg pYNdy sn. awj vI phIey ieh bysurf qfl alfp rhy sn. jdoN asIN ÉËfny vflf drvfËf lMG ky bfhr afey ‘qy sur isMG vflI sVk ‘qy awgy vDx lwgy qF rfh ivwc ‘afivaF’ (kflI imwtI df phfV ijwQy afm qOr ‘qy jMglI jfnvrF, iewlF, cHIlF, igrJF ‘qy swpF dy bsyry huMdy hn) qoN Auqr ky iewk aOrq sfzy vfly pfsy af rhI sI. Aus aOrq dy vfl ibjVy df aHflxf bxy hoey sn, Èkl kflI ‘qy DuaFKI hoeI sI ‘qy kwpVy eyzy mYly kucYly ‘qy cIQV sn ik jfpdf Auh huxy afpxI kbr ivwcoN inkl ky af rhI sI.
jdoN Auh aOrq jF afkfr hor nyVy af igaf qF myry cfcy ny afpxf swjf pMjf myrIaF awKF awgy kr idwqf qFik mYN AuhnUM vyK nf swkF hflFik mYN AuhnUM dUroN pihlF hI vyK cuwkf sF. gwzy dI cUM cUM dI afvfË ‘qy Aus afkfr dI hoNd df idRÈ, ieAuN jfpdf iksy BUq-pRyqF vflI AujfV pyÈ kr rhy hox. ieh zrfAuxf ibMb awj vI myrI mfniskqf ivwc ijAuN df iqAuN aiVaf hoieaf hY.
jdoN asIN cfcy dy KUh ‘qy phuMcy qF cfcy ny pihlF Joty nUM gwzy qoN afËfd kIqf ‘qy Pyr sfhmxy vfly kwcy koTy ‘coN dfqrI kwZ ky lfglI pYlI ‘coN pwTy vwZx lwgf ‘qy mYN lfgy cfgy DRyk nfloN tuwt ky izwgy DrkoinaF nfl afpxIaF jHybF Brn lwgf. Pyr kuwJ dyr ipwCoN mYN cfcy dy KUh ivwc Jfkx lwgf. KUh df pfxI idsdf hI nhIN sI. hr pfsy kflÉ hI idsdI sI. mYN kuwJ Drkony KUh ivwc suwty pr koeI afvfË nf afeI. mYnUM KUh qoN zr lwgx lwgf. asl ivwc ieh KUh ajy cldf nhIN sI kIqf igaf. cMny KVy sn pr AuWqy kFjx nhIN sI peI hoeI. KUh dy duafly mihl ËrUr bixaf hoieaf sI pr EdF nf JvwklI sI, nf Zol, nf mfhl, nf lwT, nf hI kuwqf. Èfied cfcy koloN pYsy muwk gey hoxgy.
pwiTaF dI pMz ku vwZ ky cfcf hwQ vfly toky nfl, DrqI ‘c gwzy hoey iewk muwZ ‘qy pwTy kuqrn lwgf. Auh Kwby hwQ nfl pwiTaF df iewk ruwg PVHdf qy Pyr muwZ AuWqy rwK ky swjy hwQ nfl tokf mfrdf. pwiTaF dI cIrnI lihMdI ‘qy kvfxy ‘c iKwlr jFdI. mYN cfcy nUM pwTy kuqrdy nUM iDafn nfl vyKx lwgf. Pyr cfcy ny acfnk sfhmixAuN lMGdy do bMdy vyKy, AuhnF nUM AuWcI sfrI rukx leI ikhf ‘qy tokf EQy hI suwt ky EDr nUM Bwijaf. Auh cfcy qoN pwTy KRIdx vfly arfeIN sn ‘qy Auhny AuhnF qoN kuwJ bcdy pYsy lYxy sn. pMj swq CflF qoN bfad cfcf AuhnF dy kol KVf sI ‘qy AuhnF nfl JgV irhf sI.
qy eyDr mYN pwTy kuqrn dI nkl krn lwgf. mfVf ijhI ruwgI Br ky, ‘qy muwZ ‘qy rwK ky Bfrf tokf msHF Cy ieMc hI cuwikaf sI ik tokf AuWlr ipaf ‘qy Kwby hwQ dI pihlI AuNgl burI qrHF PwtV ho geI. lhU vg ipaf ‘qy mYN bfGf awzx lwgf. myrIaF zfzF sux ky cfcf Bwjf afieaf, mYnUM cuwikaf ‘qy prHF Ehly ijhy ivwc jf ky myrI vwZI hoeI AuNgl ‘qy Ërf ku pyÈfb kr ky AuWqy mfVI ijhI imwtI pf idwqI. vwZ df Auh inÈfn awj vI mOjUd hY ijsnUM vyKidaF hI Auh sfrf idRÈ myry sfhvyN sfkfr ho jFdf hY.
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Coty huMidaF qoN hI myrI cfcI mYnUM hr aYqvfr bfby ÈhIdF (bfbf dIp isMG df gurduafrf) dy lY ky jFdI huMdI sI. sfrf rsqf qur ky. cfcI dy hwQ ivwc myrf hwQ huMdf, qy Auh qurI jFdI. nfl nfl mYN quiraf jFdf. nhIN ieh drusq nhIN hY. qurdI isrÌ Auho hI sI, mYN qF rfh ivwc pMjfh QFeIN aV ky Klo jFdf sF. rfh ivwc hr pMj swq gË bfad AuhnUM myrI bFh nUM qunkf mfrnf pYNdf sI, ‘qy Auh ivcfrI myry qoN qMg af jFdI.
huMdf ieAuN sI ik rfh ivwc sVk AuWqy, afsy pfsy, glIaF ivwc bVf kuwJ ho irhf huMdf. lok lV JgV rhy huMdy, kuwqy BONk rhy huMdy, gfvF mwJF iewk dUjI dy isMgF ivwc isMg Ìsf ky XuwD lV rhIaF huMdIaF, muMzy vI ieAuN hI iewk dUjy df glf PVI KVy huMdy, dukfnF ivwc KVy lok vI AuWcI AuWcI bol rhy huMdy. hfisl ieh ik kuwJ nf kuwJ hryk pfsy ajyhf vfpr irhf huMdf jo myrI Auqsukqf qy hYrfnI df kfrn bx jFdf qy myrI rÌqfr hOlI huMdI huMdI bhuq CyqI KVoq ivwc bdl jFdI. jdoN cfcI dy hwQ df qunkf Pyr vwjdf qF jf ky ikqy myry pYrF ivwc hrkq vfps afAuNdI. ‘qy ieh islislf qurdf hI rihMdf. nf mYN afsy pfsy vyKxoN qy rukxoN htdf qy nf hI myrI mF df qunkf muwkdf. Pyr vfpsI AuWqy vI sB kuwJ ieAuN hI vfprdf. so, myrf ‘qy myrI mF df ieh iewk mUk ijhf smJOqf hI sI ik Auh mYnUM isrÌ qunky hI mfrdI sI hor kuwJ nhIN sI kihMdI.
cIËF vsqF nUM bVI ghu nfl vyKxf, ‘qy vyKdy hI rihxf, ieh myrI AudoN dI hI afdq hY jo awj vI brfbr bxI hoeI hY blik bhuq hI iËafdf pwk cuwkI hY. Èfied myry aMdrly klfkfr dI ieh suBfivk loV hovy.
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myry qfey dy puwqF nUM bIby kbUqr rwKx, pflx ‘qy burdF ‘c AuzfAux df bVf ÈOk sI. iehnF pMj BrfvF ‘coN sB qoN Cotf vI myry nfloN cfr sfl vwzf sI. AuhnF kol ikMnHy hI kbUqr sn. bHIry, juigMdr ‘qy muihMdr nUM ieh ÈOk sB qoN iËafdf sI. AuhnF dy sfhmxy vfly vwzy Gr dy koTy AuWqy kbUqrF dy Kuwzy bxy hoey sn, ‘qy nfl hI iewk lMmI sfrI rwsI bwDI hoeI sI ijs AuWqy kbUqr bYTdy sn.
sfzf ieh ielfkf iËafdfqr muslmfxI ielfkf sI. ihMdUaF ‘qy iswKF dy mkfn bhuq Gwt sn. muslmfnF dy muMizaF nUM kbUqrF, kuwkVF, btyiraF ‘qy duMibaF vÊYrf nUM pflx ‘qy lVfAux df ÈOk bhuq vwD sI. iesdy kfrnF dI Qhu mYnUM bhuq bfad ivwc lwgI jdoN mYN kfÌI vwzf ho igaf. ÉYr, muÉqsr gwl ieh ik muslmfn GrF dy koiTaF AuWqy myry BrfvF dy koTy vflf sIn bhuq vDyry vyKx nUM imldf sI.
Pyr burdF lgdIaF Xfin mukfbly huMdy. eyDroN myry Brf afpxf iewk kbUqr AuzfAuNdy ‘qy EDroN dUjy koiTaF vfilaF ivcoN koeI AuzfAuNdf. ieh iewk qrHF nfl pqMgF dy pycy lfAux vflI hI gwl sI. kbUqr AuWzdy, hvf ivwc qfrIaF lfAuNdy, iewk dUjy df Gyrf pfAuNdy, ‘qy qgVf PurqIlf kbUqr afpxy pRiqdvMdI nUM Gyr ky afpxy koTy ‘qy lY jFdf. ieho hI burdF sn. ieAuN ijwqI hoeI iDr bVHkF mfrdI, jÈn mnfAuNdI ‘qy hfrI hoeI iDr df mOjU AuzfAuNdI. Pyr aglI burd ivwc pihlI burd ivwc ijwqI hoeI iDr dI bfËI mfq pY jFdI ‘qy hux vflI dI cVH mc jFdI. ieAuN myry BrfvF ny vI keI burdF ijwqIaF ‘qy keI hfrIaF sn.
Pyr jdoN sfzy ‘qy qfey dy Gr ivwc sulfh sÌfeI dy idn huMdy qF mYN vI AuhnF dy koTy ‘qy jf ky ieh sB kuwJ vyKdf ‘qy KuÈ huMdf, kbUqrF nUM afpxy hwQF ivwc PV ky plosdf ‘qy ipafr krdf. AuhnF dy kUly kUly KMB, inwkIaF ‘qy ipafrIaF ‘qy BolIaF awKF mYnUM bhuq sohxIaF lgdIaF. mYN AuhnF nUM cuMmdf ‘qy gwlHF nfl lfAuNdf qF gd gd ho jFdf. … pr afm kr ky sfzy dohF GrF ivckfr lVfeI hI peI rihMdI. myrI qfeI AuWqm kOr myrI mF nUM bhuq nÌrq krdI sI ‘qy afnIN bhfnIN AuhnUM kuwt vI dyNdI sI. myrI qfeI srIr dI bhuq qgVI ‘qy huMdV hyl sI jdoN ik myrI mF iekihry srIr dI sI. aOrqF qoN qur ky ieh lVfeI afdmIaF qk phuMc jFdI ‘qy Pyr mhIinaF bwDI bolcfl bMd ho jFdI ijsdf sB qoN vwD nuksfn mYnUM huMdf. mYN afpxy vwzy BrfvF dI suhbq qoN mihrUm ho jFdf. kbUqrF dI ascrj Kyz qoN ibnF AuhnF dI Cwqr Cfieaf qoN vI vFiJaf ho jFdf.
ies siQqI ivwc ipaf mYN mihrUmIaq nUM ÈmUlIaq ‘c bdlx dI koiÈÈ krdf. afpxI klpnf ÈkqI df iesqymfl krdf ‘qy afpxy hI kbUqr pYdf krdf. myry ieh kbUqr sfzy Gr mxF mUMhIN afAuNdIaF CwlIaF ‘coN pYdf huMdy sn. myrf cfcf iehnF CwlIaF ‘coN CwlIaF kwZ ky koTy AuWqy suwkxIaF pf dyNdf ‘qy Kwgy suwt dyNdf. ieh Kwgy hI asl ivwc myry kbUqr huMdy sn. KwigaF dIaF cuMJF vI huMdIaF ‘qy iehnF dy pwqy vI kbUqrF dy prF vFg kUly huMdy. mYN iehnF ivcoN kuwJ afpxI mnmrËI dy cux lYNdf jdoNik bfkI dy cfcf suwt dyNdf jF zMgrF nUM pf dyNdf.
bfby ÈhIdF dy jfx qoN pihlF mYN afpxy iehnF kflpink kbUqrF nUM afilaF ivc, KVy mMijaF dIaF hIaF jF pfivaF AuWqy rwK dyNdf. pr jdoN vfps afAuNdf qF vyKdf ik koeI nf koeI kbUqr BuMjy izwgf ipaf huMdf. mYN AuhnUM cuwkdf, plosdf, Aus nfl hmdrdI jqfAuNdf ‘qy Aus nUM AusdI QF ‘qy ibTf dyNdf. myrI mF mYnUM Kyzy lwgf vyKky afpxf hwQlf kMm krdI rihMdI. pr qkflIN Gr afey cfcy koloN jdoN mYN aslI kbUqrF dI mMg krdf qF Auh kihMdf: ‘bs, myrf puwq QoVf ijhf hor vwzf ho lvy, Pyr afpF ijMny khy kbUqr lY afvFgy’.
ipAu df iCMdf puwq hoxf mYnUM Cy sfl dI Aumr qk hI nsIb ho sikaf. jy iblkul hI rul Kul ky pilaf huMdf qF Cy sfl dI Aumr qoN bfad pYx vflIaF afÌqF Èfied mYnUM ies kdr kdy nf roldIaF ijvyN ik AuhnF ny roilaf.
cfcy ny myrf nF ‘Èwkr qOlf’ rwiKaf hoieaf sI `qy nfl hI ‘myrI kFto’ vI. ‘myrI kFto’ AudoN afKdf jdoN Auh mYnUM afpxI ipwT `qy cVHf ky pOVIaF cVH ky koTy `qy lY ky jFdf jF koiTAuN Qwly lY ky afAuNdf:
‘myry koTy kOx aF?’ cfcf kihMdf. ‘kFto’ - mYN lmkf ky kihMdf.
‘AuWqr kFto, mYN cVHF’ - cfcf jvfb dyNdf `qy mYnUM kuqkuqfrIaF kZdf.
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pMj sfl dI Aumr huMidaF hI cfcy ny mYnUM pVHny pf idwqf sI, mfstr jY isMG dy gurU arjn dyv pRfiemrI skUl ivc. nfl hI Auhny ielfky dy sMqf isMG hlvfeI nUM afrzr dy idwqf sI ik myrf puwqr jo mMgy Auh hfËr kr dyvy. cfcf jdoN afp vI mYnUM AuhdI hwtI ‘qy lY ky jFdf huMdf sI qF mwlo mwlI mYnUM duwD ipafAuNdf, brÌI ‘qy pyVy KuafAuNdf, pyiVaF dI lwsI myry aMdr zHoldf hflFik mYQoN KfDf kuwJ vI nhIN sI jFdf. Auh cfhuMdf sI mYN rfqo rfq juafn ho jfvF, gBrU ho jfvF ‘qy qkVy srIr df mflk bx jfvF.
jdoN mYN skUl jfx nUM kuwJ ku sihMdV ho igaf qF lwgf afpxy Coty Coty XfrF nUM sMqf isMG hlvfeI dI hwtI qoN brÌIaF, pyVy KuafAux, duwD ‘qy lwsIaF ipafAux. mYN afp qF kI Kfxf huMdf sI Blf. pr jdoN ibwl afAuxf qF cfcy ny hYrfx qF ËrUr hoxF pr sMqf isMG dy dwsx ‘qy hoAU pry kr jfxf: ‘cwl koeI neIN Xfr, myry ikhVy bfrF bfrF rox zhy hoey af’.
myry ieho hI kfry sn soZy vfly igafn dI hwtI ‘qy. Auh slytIaF, pYnislF ‘qy cfkF vI vycdf sI. qy mYN afpxy XfrF ivwc iehnF sB dI vI CbIl lfeI hoeI sI. pr myrf cfcf mYnUM htkdf hI nhIN sI ‘qy nf hI hwtI vfilaF nUM myrI ieh splfeI bMd krn leI kihMdf sI.
iewk idn myry koloN nfl dy Gr dy myry nfloN bhuq vwzy muMzy dI pqMg pfV geI. Auh iÈkfieq lY ky myry cfcy kol afieaf. cfcy ny pYsy Auhdy mwQy mfry ‘qy Bjf idwqf ‘qy mYnUM BoNieM qoN cuk ky ipafr krn lwgf. ieAuN mYN mfipaF df isrÌ iCMdf puwq hI sF sgoN kuwJ ivgiVaf hoieaf vI sF.
mYN Enf icr duwD nUM mUMh nhIN sF lfAuNdf ijMnf icr duwD ivwc tos nhIN sI pYNdf. iewk idn mF ny ibnF tos pfieaF duwD pIx nUM ikhf ikAuNik tos muwky hoey sn. pr mYN vI nFh ‘qy aiVaf hoieaf sF. cfcy dI KUh ‘qy pfxI dI vfrI sI. jdoN Auh vfrI vfh ky bfrF vjy rfq nUM Gr afieaf qF cfcI ny sfrI khfxI ro ro ky dwsI. mYN AUNGdf sF pr ibnF tos pf ky duwD pIiqaF suwqf nhIN sF. cfcf Ausy vyly bfËfr nUM igaf, iewk Kfs dukfn vfly dI hwtI awDI rfq nUM KuwlHvfeI ‘qy tos lY ky Gr afieaf.
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iek Èfm cfcf afpxy kuwJ Kfs dosqF nfl Èrfb dy Tyky nUM jfx lwgf mYnUM vI afpxy GnfVy cuwk ky nfl lY quiraf. rfh ivwcoN iewk BukfinaF vfly koloN cfcy ny mYnUM iewk Bukfnf lY ky idwqf ijs leI mYN KihVy pY igaf sF. Tyky ivwc cfcf ‘qy Auhdy cfr pMj Xfr Èrfb pINdy rhy, brÌ ‘qy golI vflIaF Kfry soZy dIaF boqlF ‘coN soZf pf ky. ‘qy mYN Bukfny nfl Kyzdf irhf. AuhnF nUM KFidaF pINidaF ‘qy AuWcI AuWcI gwlF kridaF keI GMty lMG gey. pr mYN afpxy cfcy nfl rih ky KuÈ sF. Pyr mYnUM lfz kridaF jdoN cfcy df Kurdrf iksfxf hwQ acfnk Bukfny nUM Coh igaf qF Bukfnf Tfh kr ky pfV igaf. mYN rox lwgf ‘qy hor Bukfny dI mMg krn lwgf. vkq kfÌI ho cuwkf sI qy dukfnF bMd ho cuwkIaF sn. Tyky ‘coN inkl ky mYN ‘qy cfcy ny keI bfËfr iPry pr koeI hwtI KuwlHI nhIN sI. pr mYN Bukfny qoN ibnF ikvyN suwkf Gr jf skdf sF? aKIr cfcy ny myry mfimaF dy pfsy vflI iewk hwtI KuwlHvfeI, Bukfnf lY ky idwqf, qF jf ky myry awQrU bMd hoey sn.
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iewk Kfs Gtnf hor pyÈ krn nfl ieh ipwTBUmI iqafr ho jfeygI. … iewk idn krIb dupihr dy vkq myrI mF glI ivwc CotI mMjI zfh ky myry isr ivwc qyl Jws rhI sI. sfhmxy vfly Gr dIaF brUMaF ivwc myrI qfeI bYTI afpxIaF DIaF dy isrF nUM qyl lf rhI sI. awj kwlH drfxI ‘qy jTfxI ivckfr bolcfl hY sI. pr Pyr acfnk hI sB kuwJ bdl igaf. AuNj qfeI myrI qoN sfrf kMbojvfVf zrdf sI. nvIN sVk AuWqy qF sfzy hI do Gr sn jdoNik bfkI dy kMbojF dy Gr nfl dy bfËfrF ‘qy glIaF ivwc sn. Auh sfry hI AuWqmI (qfeI) dI Puwt Ëubfn qoN qRihMdy sn. koeI aOrq Aus nfl afZf nhIN sI lfAuNdI. zrdI qF Aus qoN myrI mF vI bhuq sI pr kdy jdoN juafb dyxf hI pY jfxf qF iswtf myrI mF dy kuwt Kfx ivwc hI inklnf. awj vI eyho hI hoieaf.
myrI mF grIb mfipaF dI DI sI. Ëfihr hY ik dfj ivwc AuhnUM bhuqf kuwJ nhIN imilaf hovygf. dUjy pfsy qfeI dy ÈfhUkfr ipAu ny AuhnUM pUrI qrHF lwd ky qoiraf sI. Auh AuNj qkVI ‘qy jvfn vI bhuq sI. awT bwcy jMm ky vI ieAuN sI ijvyN kuwJ hoieaf hI nf hovy. mx mx pwkf sfg KUh qoN Gr lY afAuNdI ‘qy glI guaFZ ‘c vyc dyNdI. ieAuN hI goNglU, goBI, vqfAUN ‘qy hor mOsm dIaF sbËIaF.
gwl Èfied iksy huxvyN ivafh qoN ÈurU hoeI sI ijsdI afV ivwc qfeI ny myrI mF nUM bolIaF mfrnIaF ÈurU kr idwqIaF. cfcI ny awgoN koeI moV moV idwqf ‘qy bws. AuWqmI biGafVI bx ky AuWTI, myrI cfcI nUM vflF qoN PiVaf ‘qy DUMhdI hoeI glI dy ivckfr lY afeI, AuhdI ihwk ‘qy bYT geI ‘qy Pyr lwgI mohly vrgIaF bfhvF Aus mfVI DIVI ‘qy vrHfAux. qfeI ny mfr mfr ky cfcI dy dMdF ‘coN, nwk ‘coN lhU kwZ idwqf, vfl eydF puwt puwt ky suwty ijvyN Byz muMn ky suwtI hovy. Auhdy hyTF peI cfcI kwrfh rhI sI, cIkF mfr rhI sI ‘qy sfho sfh hoeI peI sI. ‘qy eyDr mYN cfcI nUM CuzfAux dI koiÈÈ ivwc BuwbF mfr irhf sF. ro ro ky myrI iGwgI bwJ geI sI. Pyr cfcI dIaF ‘qy myrIaF BuwbF sux ky glI dy dUjy pfisAuN buwZf jIvn isMG afieaf ‘qy msHF hI cfcI nUM AuhdI jTfxI qoN Cuzfieaf.
qyl vflI ÈIÈI zuwlH geI sI ‘qy mMjI df vI iewk pfvf tuwt igaf sI. busk busk roNidaF cfcI ny mMjI cuwkI ‘qy aMdr rwKI. nfl hI mYnUM, afpxI qfeI nUM sO sO gflF kwZdy nUM bfhoN PiVaf ‘qy aMdr lY geI. pr mYN aMdr jf ky vI bfrI ‘coN qfeI nUM (ieh bfrI qfeI dy Gr vwl hI KuwlHdI sI) ‘qyrI mF dI… qyrI BYx dI… vrgIaF gflF kwZdf irhf. myrIaF kcIcIaF, guwsf ‘qy gflF Enf icr jfrI rhIaF ijMnF icr Èfm nUM cfcf Gr nhIN af igaf.
Pyr jdoN cfcy nUM sfrI gwl df pqf lwgf ‘qy Auhny mYnUM buskdy nUM vyiKaf qF AuhnUM qF cVH qweIaf igaf. Es Èfm iewk vfrI Pyr cfcy ny afpxf purfxf imafnI vflf vwzf cfkU kwiZaf ‘qy qfey df bMd bUhf BMnx lwgf, gflF df mINh vrHfAux lwgf ‘qy afpxy vwzy Brf nUM vMgfrn lwgf. Auhdf jYkfrf sI Auh awj AuWqmI nUM vwZ ky hI sfh lvygf. cfcf, AuhdI inwq dy vfiDaF qoN awk cukf sI. jdoN GMtf Br cfcf buwkxoN nf hitaf qF ikqy qfieaf myrf bfhr inkilaf. dohF BrfvF ivwc hwQo-pfeI hoeI, dohF dy do do dMd tuwty, keI keI swtF lwgIaF ‘qy bolcfl bMd ho igaf. ieh Èfied mfrc ‘47 dI gwl hY.
so kuwJ iesqrHF dI ipwTBUmI ‘qy bcpn sI myrf ijsdy braks hI myry pfTk myrI afAux vflI iËMdgI nUM smJ skxgy.
(bfkI agly aMk 'c)