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awj iek iesLiqhfr piVHaY-vfk ientU hYWlQ. XfnI quro qy qMdrusq rho. ies ny mYnUM vIh sfl pihlF dI hwzbIqI Xfd krf idwqI hY. AudoN mYN lyK iliKaf sI-pYrIN qurn df anMd. lyK pVH ky vYnkUvr qoN gurcrn rfmpurI ny icwTI ilKI sI ik Auh afrtIkl kwt ky Aus ny afpxy myjL dy sfhmxy icpkf ilaf hY qF ik qurnf sdf Xfd rhy. AunHF idnF ivc mYN KLud lMmIaF qorF df aiBafs kIqf sI qy qurn df anMd mfxn dy nfl mniewCq Pl pfieaf sI. mYN cfhuMdf sF ik myrf Bfr awsI ikwlo qoN kdy nf vDy. pr Auh vD igaf sI qy Gtx df nF nhIN sI lY irhf.
vDyry Kfx dI bfx mYnUM bcpn qoN hI peI hoeI sI qy Auh mYQoN CwzI nhIN sI jFdI. mYN AudoN ZuwzIky dy kflj ivc pVHfAuNdf sF ijQy Kfx pIx vfDU sI. ipMzoN dysI iGAu af jFdf sI qy guaFZoN mwJF df duwD imldf rihMdf sI. dfl sbjLI ‘c mwKx iGE pfey ibnF rotI suafd nhIN sI lwgdI. Bfr vDdf nf qF hor kI krdf?
asIN pMj Brf hF. mYQoN ibnF sfry hI nwby ikwlo qoN Auqy hn qy mYQoN vwzf qF kuieMtl qoN vI Auqy hY. Auh smJdy hn ik sfnUM ivrfsq hI Bfry hox dI imlI hY. pr vwzy Brf nUM vyK ky mYN sucyq sF ikqy mYN vI kuieMtl qoN twp nf jfvF. mYN qF kflj dy ividafrQIaF qy ividafrQxF dy sfhmxy vI ivcrnf sI. awsI ikwlo qk qF mYN qIh sfl dI Aumr ‘c hI awpV igaf sF. iPr mYN Bfr vDx df iPkr krn lwgf. ksrq vDfeI igaf pr Kurfk nf GtfeI. ksrq krdf mhIny ‘c sO mIl dOVn dI aOsq pf jFdf. keI sfl Bfr awsI ikwlo dy afly duafly GuMmdf irhf.
Aumr pMqflI iCaflI sfl dI hoeI qF sUeI curfsI pMjfsI ikwlo qk jfx lwg peI. AuhnIN idnI mY ‘sIkrt afPL silMimMg’ nF dI iek ikqfb pVHI ijs df qwqsfr sI ik pihlF nfloN Kurfk qIjf ihwsf GtfE qy ksrq zyZI kr lE. mqlb jy iqMn hjLfr klorIaF iZwz `c pfAuNdy ho qF do hjLfr kr lE qy jy do hjLfr klorIaF bfldy E qF iqMn hjLfr bflx lwg pE. jdoN Bfr imQy tIcy `qy af itky qF EnIaF klorIaF eI iZwz `c pfE ijMnIaF bfl sko.
mYnUM nusKLf lwB igaf. Bfr hvf nfl qF vDdf nhIN, KfDy pIqy hI vDdf. mYN smJ igaf ik hux GtU vI Kurfk Gtf ky, qur iPr ky qy nwT Bwj ky. mYN bYT ky jF lyt ky pVHn dI QF ivhVy ‘c qur iPr ky pVHn lwgf qy kflj vI qur ky jfx lwg ipaf. jmfq nUM pVHfAux vyly vI mYN kmry ‘c tihldf rihMdf. kflj dI kMtIn qoN cfh dy iqMn cfr kwp pI jFdf sF Auh vI kuJ Gtfey. pr Bfr iPr vI Gt nhIN sI irhf. ieh aprYl 1986 dI gwl hY. AuhnIN idnIN myrI izAUtI sfieMs kflj jgrfEN dy iemiqhfnI kyNdr ivc lwg geI. mYN imQ ilaf ik ZuwzIky qoN bws ‘qy jfieaf krFgf qy muVidaF qur ky afieaf krFgf. mYN afpxIaF sfrIaF izAUtIaF do qoN pMj vjy vfly sLfm dy sYsLn ivc luaf leIaF. lgBg iek mhInf iemiqhfn cwlxf sI qy mYnUM vIh pwcI vfr lMmIaF qorF qurn df mOkf iml jfxf sI. ieh myry Bfr GtfAux df vI iemiqhfn hoxf sI.
mYN prfAuNTy Kfxy bMd kr idwqy qy nfsLqf duwD dy glfs ‘qy lY afieaf. duWD vI mlfeI rihq kr ilaf. dfl sbjLI ‘c mwKx iGE pfAuxf Cwz idwqf. cfh iPwkI kr leI. lUx imwTy qoN pRhyjL kr ilaf. duwD dI ijhVI gVbI isrHfxy rwK ky sONdf sI Auh cukf idwqI. rotIaF pMjF qoN iqMnF ‘qy af igaf pr afieaf bVy isdk nfl. hr vyly lwgI jFdf ijvyN BuwK lwgI hoeI aY. cfrt qoN pqf lwg jFdf sI ik ikMnIaF klorIaF pyt ‘c pfeIaF ny qy ksrq nfl ikMnIaF bflIaF ny? inwq klorIaF bflx vflf plVf nIvF rwKdf. jgrfEN qoN ZwuzIky qk qur ky afAux nfl vfhvf ksrq hoxI sI. mYN ihsfb lfieaf ik do hjLfr klorIaF qF mYN rfh ‘c eI bfl idaF krFgf.
pMj vjy iemiqhfn muwkdf qF mYN sfieMs kflj dI cfr PuwtI kMD twp ky cUhVcwk vwl jFdy sUey pY jFdf. pwky sUey dy qyjL vgdy pfxI nfl mYN vI vigaf jFdf qy myry nfl eI vgI jFdy pfxI ‘c izwgy kwK kfx. kdy kdy pYr TMZy krn leI pfxI ‘c pYr lmkfAuNdf. awKF ‘c iCwty mfrdf. sLfm dy sUrj dIaF sunihrI ikrnF pfxI nfl klolF krdIaF idsdIaF. myrI klpxf nUM KMB lwg jFdy. pfxI ‘c cuMJF zuboa ky KMB PtkfAuNdIaF GuwgIaF gutfrF myrIaF njLrF bMnH lYNdIaF. AuhnF dI gutrgUM mYnUM kvIsLrI krdI lwgdI. JUMmdy hoey kfh dy bUJy myrf svfgq krdy lwgdy. KyqF ‘c iKlry dfxy cug ky AuzdIaF icVIaF hor vI ipafrIaF lwgdIaF. sUey dI ptVI ‘qy qurn df anMd afAux lwgdf.
AudoN mYnUM ieko eI zr mfrdf sI ik koeI myrf jfxUM mYnUM jgrfvF qoN ZuwzIky qk quridaF nf vyK lvy qy cMgy Bly pRoPYsr df idmfgL ihwilaf nf smJ bhy! rfh ‘c ijQy pul afAuNdf mYN afsy pfsy vyK ky qyjLI nfl lMGdf ik koeI vyK nf lvy. iek pul zwly nUM jFdI sVk df sI qy do pul kONikaF nUM jfx vflIaF sVkF dy sn. cUhVcwk vfly pul qoN pihlF eI mYN kwcy rfh AuWqr pYNdf sI. agFh koeI imldf qF afKdf, “aYQoN cUhVcwkoN eI afieaF.”
AudoN skUtr huMidaF qurn dI nvIN nvIN sMg sI jo hOlI hOlI KwulHI. afh aYQy torFto ‘c qF kfrF vflIaF qIvIaF vI gory pwt kwZI PuwtpfQF ‘qy insLMg dOVIaF iPrdIaF hn. mYN afpxy pyNzUaF dIaF njLrF sfhmxy ies leI vI qurnoN Jkdf sF ik koeI mYnUM bws df ikrfieaf bcfAux vflf cIpV hI nf smJ lvy? kdy kdy mYN mn nUM smJfAuNdf, “sLrm kfhdI mMndYN? afpF Xfr afp dy pYrIN qurdy aF, koeI corI XfrI qF nHI krdy? aYvyN eI iksy qoN sMgx iJjkx df kI mqlb?”
pihly idn mYN pOxy iqMn GMitaF ‘c Gr puwjf. iPr qor hor qyjL kr leI qy ZfeI GMitaF ‘c solF iklomItr qurn lwg ipaf. sfieMs kflj qoN sVk rfhIN vft vIh iklomItr bxdI sI pr sUey pY ky iswDI ieh solF iklomItr eI sI. AuhnIN idnIN sfZy swq vjy tI[ vI[ ‘qy KLbrF afAuNdIaF sn qy mYN KLbrF vyly nUM Gr af phuMcdf sI. mhIny mgroN Bfr qoilaf qF mYN swcmuwc hI awsI iklogrfm ‘qy af igaf sF. iPr mYN afrtIkl iliKaf-pYrIN qurn df anMd.
mYN keI vfr soicaf ik Aus afrtIkl nUM soD ky ilKF ikAuNik vIh sflF ‘c mYN hor bhuq kuJ pVH ilaf hY. cMgI gwl hornF nUM vI dwsxI cfhIdI hY jIhdy nfl iksy hor df vI Blf hovy. mYN sLfied GOl eI krI jFdf jykr awj dy aKLbfr ivc AuntfrIE srkfr df iesLiqhfr nf pVHdf. ies iesLiqhfr df isrlyK hY-vfk ientU hYWlQ. awgy iliKaf hY, “szOlqf qy ishqXfbI leI qurnf sB qoN suKflf qrIkf hY. hr kdm mhwqvpUrn hY. qusIN lfeybRyrIaF ‘coN pIzomItr iesLU krvf skdy E.” pIzomItr Aus jMqr df nF hY ijhVf kdmF dI igxqI qy klorIaF blx df ihsfb ikqfb dwsdf hY. kudrq ny mnuwK nUM lwqF qy pYr qurn leI idwqy hn pr Auh phIaF ‘qy svfr hoieaf qurnf BuwlI jFdf hY qy AuhdI ishq idno idn ivgVI jFdI hY.
phIaF dI svfrI krn leI bhuq kuJ cfhIdf hY jd ik qurn ‘qy kuJ vI nhIN lwgdf. isrP dOVn vfly bUt hI cfhIdy hn jo iek vfr ley kfPI smF kZfa idMdy hn. pMjfh sfl pihlF lok hux nfloN ds guxF vwD qurdy sn qy ibmfrIaF hux nfloN dsvF ihwsf vI nhIN sn. pMj hjLfr dI afbfdI vfly sfzy ipMz ‘c ds bMdy vI nhIN sn huMdy ijnHF df Bfr do mx qoN Auqy hovy. hux sO hoxgy ijnHF df Bfr kuieMtl dy gyV ‘c hovygf. do do mx dIaF qF jLnfnIaF hI hoeIaF peIaF hn. cwkI, crKf, mDfxI qy Kyq rotI lY ky jfx dIaF ksrqF kdoN dIaF muwk cuwkIaF hn. pwTy hux koeI hwQIN nhIN kuqrdf. keIaF qoN bYT ky pwTy vwZ hI nhIN huMdy.
byloVy srIrk Bfr nfl blwz pRYsLr, sLUgr, joVF dy drd, pyt qy idl dy rogF df koeI aMq nhIN. hryk Gr df dvfeIaF df Krcf eI sYNkVy hjLfrF ivc hY. AunHF nUM kOx dwsy ik Bfr GtfAux qy srIr nUM hOlf Puwl bxfeI rwKx leI lMmIaF qy qyjL qorF bVIaF kfrgr iswD ho skdIaF hn. sLihrF dIaF suafxIaF bYTIaF brPIaF pkOVy qy cft Bwly KfeI jFdIaF hn. iPr Bws zkfr qy aOKy sfh lYNdIaF hn. nfl dy mhwly vI jfxf hovy qF kfr jF irksLf BfldIaF hn. jykr Auh pyt ‘c klorIaF igx imQ ky pfAux qy qur iPr ky bflI jfx qF AunHF dI jfn suKflI ho skdI hY. aMgryjLI dy lPLjL ‘klorI kfnsLYWsL’ hoxf hr ivakqI dI loV hY.
keI bMdy bhfny eI mfrdy rihMdy hn ik AunHF kol qurn jF ksrq krn df koeI vkq nhIN. kI AuhnF kol swcmuwc eI ishq leI vkq nhIN? ksrq jogf smF qF Auh nfHAuux DOx qy vfDU dI sLukInI lfAux ‘coN hI bcf skdy hn. smF swcmuwc hI Gwt hovy qF qyjL quiraf jf skdY, quridaF zUMGy sfh ley jf skdy hn. DOx, moZy, bfhF qy lwk dIaF ksrqF kIqIaF jf skdIaF hn. Gr do Cwqf hovy qF vIh qIh vfr pOVIaF ciVHaf jf skdY. sO ku vfr rwsI twpI jf skdI aY. KVHy KVHy do imMt dI qyjL dOV pfxI kwZ idMdI hY. nhIN XkIn qF koeI kr ky vyK lvy.
gwl qF KfDIaF pIqIaF klorIaF bflx dI hY. klorI kfnsYWLsL hox dI hY. ijQy Gr bfr hor sfmfn nfl qUVy pey hn AuQy bUhy jF bfQ rUm ‘c Bfr qolx vflI inwkI ijhI msLIn vI rwK lYxI cfhIdI hY. Bfr doNh chuM idnF ivc nhIN vDdf. bMdf do cfr idnF bfad eI msLIn ‘qy cVHdf rhy qF vI afpxy Bfr qoN sucyq rih skdY. ijwdx sUeI awgy nUM vDy AuWdx Gwt Kfvy qy vwD ksrq kry.
kudrq df asUl hY ik ijnHF aMgF nUM clfAuNdy rhIey Auuh cldy rihMdy ny qy ijnHF aMgF dI vrqoN nf krIey Auh jfm ho jFdy ny. cldI df nF gwzI aYvyN nhIN ikhf jFdY. ijhVy bMdy igwty goizaF dy KVH jfx df roxf roNdy ny AuhnF ‘coN bhuiqaF ny qorf Pyrf afp hI Cwizaf huMdY. Xogf krfAux vfly BrvF sfh lYx, pUrf sfh bfhr kwZx aqy hwzIaF qy pwiTaF nUM lckdfr bxfeI rwKx Auqy jLor idMdy hn. jdoN qk srIr ivc lck hY bMdf juafn hY qy jdoN qk koeI BrvF sfh lY irhY Auh smJo vDyry afksIjLn lY irhY.
afksIjLn hI srIr dy gMd mMd nUM bfldI qy crbI nUM ZfldI hY. jdoN qk koeI afpxy aMdrly aMgF nUM sMgoV ky sfh bfhr kwZ irhY Auh aMdrly aMgF dI vrijsL krvf irhY qy aMdrlIaF ibmfrIaF qoN injfq pf irhY. pRfxfXfm qy kpflBfqI nfl ieho kuJ huMdY. Xogf dy ieh afsx krn leI iksy kol ivhl nf hovy qF ieh kursI ‘qy bYTy, mMjy ‘qy lyty qy qurdy iPrdy vI kIqy jf skdy ny. sfh dIaF ksrqF qF koeI ikqy vI KVHy bYiTaF kr skdY.
sB qoN sOKf qrIkf hY ik kbwzI kbwzI AudoN qk kihMdy jfE jdoN qk sfh nhIN tuwtdf. vIh sfhF dI kbwzI nfl PyPiVaF qy aMdrly aMgF dI pUrI ksrq kIqI jf skdI hY. qy jy Bwj nwT ky vIh kbwzIaF pf leIaF jfx qF sony ‘qy suhfgf hY. suafl qfjLI nroeI hvf nUM vwD qoN vwD aMdr iKwcx qy aMdrlI gMdI hvf nUM bfhr kwZidaF aMdrly aMg incoV ky AunHF dI ksrq krfAux df hY. ieMj kridaF lhU df dOrf vI qyjL huMdf hY. hwzIaF nUM ilPfAux JukfAux nfl Auh lckdfr bxIaF rihMdIaF hn. ieho Xogf dI krfmfq hY. ijhVf bMdf qurdf, vgdf qy nwTdf hY Auhdy lhU qy sfh df dOrf afpxy afp hI qyjL huuMdf rihMdf hY. ies leI kudrq vwloN bKLsLI qor qurn qoN iksy nUM vI muwK nhIN moVnf cfhIdf.
koeI cfhy qF ‘kwlf vI qur skdf hY qy quridaF sMgIq df anMd vI mfx skdf hY. Auh klpxf dIaF AuzfrIaF Br skdf hY. mYN ilKx vflIaF bhuqIaF gwlF sYr kridaF hI icqvdf irhf hF. do jxy gwlF kridaF vDIaf sYr kr skdy hn qy ivcfr vtFdrf vI kIqf jf skdY. tolIaF ivc hwsidaF KyzidaF vI sYrF kIqIaF jf skdIaF hn. sYlfnI keI qrHF dy tUr AulIk skdy hn, Auh sfeIkl clfAux jF pYdl cwlx dy tUr vI ivENq skdy hn. aflzYks hksly ny ‘vfikMg tUrjL’ nF df bVf vDIaf lyK iliKaf sI jo sfzI kflj dI iek pfT pusqk ivc sLfml sI. iliKaf sI ik quridaF kudrq dy njLfry ley jf skdy hn. sfnUM qF sfzy pRoPYsr ny pVfH ky eI njLfry ilaf idwqy sn.
keI kihMdy hn ik qurn nUM QF nhIN lwBdI. Bly loko qurn nUM qF ivhVy ivc eI gyVy kwZy jf skdy ny, Cwq Auqy GuMimaf jf skdY qy kmry ‘c eI msLIn dy pty Auqy ijMny mIl koeI qurnf cfhy qur skdY. quiraf Cwz ky dOiVaf vI jf skdY. vYsy qurn df jo anMd hry pfrkF, bfgF, kwcy pihaF, KyqF, pgzMzIaF, rjbfihaF qy nihrF dIaF ptVIaF Auqy afANudY Auh sLbdF ivc ibafn nhIN kIqf jf skdf.
svyry sfhJry AuWT ky qurn leI QoVHI ijhI ihMmq hI cfhIdI hY. AuhI vylf ijs bfry vfrs sLfh ny iliKaY-icVI cUkdI nfl AuT qury pFDI, peIaF duwDF dy ivc mDfxIaF ny[[[. AudoN rwuKF Auqy pMCI cihchfAuNdy huMdy ny, pYlIaF ‘coN iqwqr subhfn qyrI kudrq dy gIq gfAuNdy jfpdy ny qy pUrb dI kuwK coN sonrMgf sUrj Augm irhf huMdY. AuhdIaF sunihrI ikrnF ‘c bnspqI ‘qy pey qRyl qupky hIry moqIaF vFg cmkx lwg pYNdy ny qy svyr dI swjrI hvf dy buwly AunHF df isr plosdy lwgdy ny. qusIN qurn df qhweIaf kro cMgyrI ishq quhfnUM ‘vfjLF peI mfrdI ey. bwcf, buwZf, juafn koeI vI hovy Auh qur ky qMdrusqI qk phuMc skdY. hws skdY, Kyz skdY qy KLusLI dy mOky ‘qy nwc twp vI skdY. cMgI ishq hI jIvn dI aslI dOlq hY.