XfdF dy vrky ProlidaF

- krnYl isMG
 

kihMdy ny ik mnuwK glqI df puqlf hY. glqI iksy koloN vI ho skdI hY. kuwJ lokF koloN axjfxy ivwc glqIaF ho jfdIaF hn qy kuwJ jfx buwJ ky krdy hn. axjfxy ivwc hoeI glqI nUM qF mfPI dy Xog smiJaf jfdf hY, jdik jfxbuwJ ky hoeI glqI nf-muafPIXog huMdI hY. KYr glqI qF glqI hI huMdI hY. kI myry lokoN Auh glqI axjfxy ivwc hoeI sI jf jfx buwJ ky, ieh qF pfTk jfx hI jfxgy pr ieh swcfeI hY ik afpxI Aus glqI leI mYN kdy vI afpxy afp nUM Èfied muafP nhIN kr skFgf.
myrf Aus nfl myl qkrIbn hr roË bws ivwc huMdf hI rihMdf sI. myrf AudoN lfielpur Kflsf kflj ivwc afKrI sfl sI qy mYN hr roË bws ivwc hI ‘awp-zfAUn’ kiraf krdf sI. hr roË svyry lohIaF qoN jlMDr leI sfZy swq vjy bws PVnI qy nON vjy qoN pihlF hr hflq kfilj puwjx dI koiÈÈ huMdI sI. ieqPfk vws sfzf pihlf lYkcr pMjfbI df huMdf qy zf virafm isMG sMDU dIaF lYkcr dOrfn gwlF nUM ‘ims’ krnf myry vws dI gwl nhIN sI. ijhnf lokF df myrI mOjUdf soc dy prvfn cVn ivwc ihwsf hY, AuhnF ivwc mYN afpxy Ausqfd zf virafm isMG sMDU nUM hmyÈf sB qoN Aupr rwKdf hf. afpxy skUl dy ‘ihsfb’ ivÈy dy aiDafpk s muKiqafr isMG qoN bfd afpxy Ausqfd virafm isMG sMDU vwl vyKky hI myrf mn aiDafpkI dy ikwqy nfl juVn df bixaf sI. Èfm nUM pRyktIklF dIaF klfsF lgfAuNdy kridaF sfZy cfr aksr vwj hI jfdy qy iPr bws awzy phuMc ky bws PVidaF 5 dy lfgy bMny df vkq sihjy hI ho jFdf. Èfm dy smyN jlMDroN lohIaF nUM iswDI bws Gwt hI imldI sI. so mYN aksr Èfhkot qoN afAux vfly afpxy sihpfTIaF iÈv kumfr, dyv rfj qy suKivMdr dy nfl hI Èfhkot, mogy vflI bws PV lYNdf qy iPr mlsIaF qoN af ky lokl bws rfhIN lohIaF phuMcdf. Èfm vyly sfry rUtF dIaF bwsF aksr hI BrIaf hI jfdIaF sn, ies leI aksr sfnUM sfrf sPr KV ky hI pUrf krnf pYNdf. kdy kdy asIN afpxy bws-pfs Aupr sIt nMbr lgvf ky BFvyN sIt mwl vI lYNdy pr jy koeI bËurg jf aOrq sfzy kol afx KVI huMdI qF asIN afpxy afp sIt Cwz ky, AuhnUM bYTx leI kih idMdy. iewk vfr qF sfnUM afpxf ieh ‘Blf-kMm’ kridaF kridaF iewk ‘bIbI’ koloN muPq ivwc qwqIaF qwqIaF vI suxnIaF peIaF sI. pr KYr ijhVI gwl mYN awj quhfzy nfl sFJI krn jf irhf hF, iehdf Auhdy nfl koeI lYxf dyxf nhIN.
jdoN asIN jlMDr bws awzy qoN bws ivwc bYTdy qF aksr Ausy hI bws ivwc iewk ‘KUbsUrq’ bIbI vI Èfhkot qwk afAuNdI. Auhdy hwQ ivwc hmyÈF Zyr sfrIaF ikqfbF-kfpIaF qy PfeIlF vgYrf afid PVIaF huMdIaF. vyKx qoN hmyÈF iehI lwgdf ijvyN Auh iksy kflj ivwc pVdI hovy. rMg rUp qoN dyKx nUM lwgdf ijvyN rwb ny sfrI mInfkfrI Ausy qy hI lf idwqI hovy. gorf rMg, iqwKy nYx nkÈ. ibwlIaF blOrI awKF ijhVIaF isrP vyK hI nf CwzdIaF, blik ijwQy pYNdIaF, kuwJ nf kuwJ kihMdIaF prqIq huMdIaF. hwsdy-muskrfAuNdy hoNT. qy hor pqf nhIN kI kI. gwl kI ijhVf Aus vwl vyKdf qy bws vyKdf hI rih jFdf. myry idl ivwc BFvyN kdy Aus pRqI iksy iksm dI Bfvnf nhIN sI pYdf hoeI, pr AuhnUM vyKky myrf Aus dy isrjxhfr nUM dfd dyx nUM jrUr krdf. Auh hmyÈF bws awzy qy iekwlI hI huMdI. nhIN qF kuVIaF hmyÈF gruwpF ivwc dyKx nUM hI imldIaF. jy ikqy bws awzy vrgI jnqk QF qy koeI ‘KUbsUrq’ lVkI iekwlI hovy qF aksr keI iksm dy ‘BUMz’ afÈk mtr gÈqI krdy afm hI vyKy jf skdy hn. pr Auh ibnF Èwk ies iksm dI nhIN sI, ikAuNik Auhdy mgr kdy iksy nUM mYN iklomItr pUry krn vfilaF vFg ‘gyVIaF’ lfAuNdy nhIN sdI vyiKaf.
Auh hmyÈF sfzy qoN bfd hI bws awzy phuMcdI. aksr jdoN Auh bws ivwc cVdI qF asIN pihlF hI aMdr huMdy. jy kr sItF BrIaF hox kfrn asIN vI KVy hI huMdy iPr qF cmigwdVF dy mihmfnF vFg ‘jhF hm ltky vhF qum ltky’ vflI gwl huMdI, pr jy kr asIN sIt qy bYTy huMdy qF qMg ho ky vI Auhdy bYTx jogI jgHf bxf lYNdy. BFvyN sfzI ies gwl nUM aksr svfrIaF jF bwsF dy kMzktr ‘glq’ nËr nfl vI vyKdy pr sfzI hflq, ‘idl `c hovy swc qF koTy cVH ky nwc’ vflI huMdI. nfly cfr pMj kfljI muMizaF nUM CyV ky iksy ny afpxI mOq nUM ËrUr mfsI kihxf sI.
KYr BFvyN qkrIbn asIN hr roË bws ivwc iewk GMty qoN vwD df sPr iekwTy hI qYa krdy pr sfzI afps ivwc gwlbfq kdy vI ‘hYlo-hfey’ qoN awgy nhIN sI hoeI. nF hI kdy asIN AusnUM Auhdy bfry puwCx dI loV smJI qy nf hI kdy Ausny sfnUM sfiraF nUM sfzy bfry kdy kuwJ puwiCaf. myry bfkI sfQI qF Ausy hI bws ivwc Èfhkot phuMcdy, pr mYN mlsIaF af ky AuWqr jFdf qy lohIaF leI lokl bws df ieMqËfr krn lwgdf. Auh vI mlsIaF af ky bws ivwcoN AuqrdI qy myn bËfr vflI glI vwl nUM clI jFdI. myrf iKafl sI ik Auh jF qF mlsIaf jF iesdy lfgy bMny iksy ipMz nfl sbMD rwKdI hovygI. mYN AuhnUM glI ivwc jFdI nUM AunI dyr vyKdf rihMdf, ijMnI dyr ik Auh nËroN Auhly nf ho jfdI. AuhnUM jfdI nUM vyKky mYnUM lwgdf ijvyN myry idl nUM kuwJ ho irhf hovy, pr kdy vI mYN Ausdy bfry ‘kuwJ hor’ nhIN sI soicaf.
KYr iesy qrHF idn guËrdy gey qy vrHy ny pfsf plitaf. mYN lfielpur Kflsf kflj jlMDr dI pVfeI pUrI krn qoN bfd bI aYz krn leI rfmgVHIaf kflj afP aYjUkyÈn PgvfVf ivwc dfKlf lY ilaf. kflj lwgx dy pihly hI idn jdoN mYN kflj igaf qF myry leI sfrf mfhOl iblkuwl nvF sI. myrI jfx pihcfx df koeI vI ividafrQI mYNnUM ikqy vI nËr nf afieaf. nvyN dosqF nfl jfx pihcfx hox lwgI. kflj ivwc kuwl 200 ividafrQI bI aYz ivwc dfKl hoey sn qy sfry hI pMjfb dy vwK vwK ihwisaF ivwcoN aYNtrYNs tYst dI mYirt ivwcoN cux ky afey sn. koeI jlMDr, koeI luiDafxy, koeI aimRqsr, koeI pTfnkot, koeI mfnsf df, koeI ikqoN df qy koeI ikqoN df. jfxI ik sfry pMjfb ivwcoN BFq BFq dI lwkVI iekwTI hoeI hoeI sI. sfry ividafrQIaF aqy lYkcrfrF dI jfx pihcfx krvfeI jfxI sI. pihlI GMtI vwjidaF hI sfry ividafrQI qy lYkcrfr kflj dy myn asYNblI hfl vwl nUM jfx lwgy. jdoN mYN hfl dy aMdr dfiKl hox lwigaf qF myrI nËr ‘Aus’ qy peI. mYnUM jdoN iewk imMt pihlF ies qrHF lwg irhf sI ik aqy mYnUM jfnx vflf koeI nhIN hY qF AuhnUM vyK ky lwigaf ik nhIN myrI vI jfx pihcfx vflf koeI iewQy af igaf hY. BFvyN Auh gwl vwKrI sI ik mYnUM Auhdf nfm qwk vI pqf nhIN sI. bws ivwc sPr kridaF bxI hoeI ichiraF dI pihcfx dI vfkPIaq hI mYnUM Aus vkq kfPI lwgI. jdo pRogrfm ÈurU hox lwgf qF sfry ividafrQI hfl ivwc lwgIaF kursIaf qy bYT gey qy sfry lYkcrfr hfl ivwc mUhrly pfsy bxI styj qy peIaF kursIaF qy ibrfjmfn hox lwgy. AuhnUM lYkcrfrF drimafn styj qy peI kursI qy bYTI vyK ky mYnUM KuÈI vI ho rhI qy hYrfnI vI. ieh qF ‘CupI rusqm’ inklI. Auhny vI mYnUM hyTF bYTy vyK ilaf qy Auhdy ichry qy mYnUM vyKidaF hI muskrfht PYl geI. AusdI muskrfht vwl vyKidaF myrf ies nvIN QF qy af ky hoieaf bygfngI ijhI df sfry df sfrf aihsfs jFdf irhf.
jdoN sfry lYkcrfrf dI jfx pihcfx krvfeI geI qF iPr mYNnUM pqf cwilaf ik Auh mlsIaF nfl sbMiDq sI. Auhny pMjfbI dI aYm[ ey[ aqy aYm[ aYz[ kIqI hoeI sI. afpxI aYm[ aYz[ Auhny hfly ipCly hI sfl jlMDr dy gOrimMt aYjUkyÈn kflj qoN kIqI sI. hux mYnUM pqf lwigaf ik Auh hr roË ipCly sfl Zyr sfrIaF ikqfbF PVI jlMDr ikAuN jFdI sI. mYnUM ieh sB kuwJ jfx ky hor vI hYrfnI hoeI, ikAuik vyKx nUM qF hfly Auh msF bI[ e[ y dI hI stUzYNt lwgdI sI.
Aus df myry nfl ies qrF iewk ‘tIcr’ vjoN quafrP hox nUM vI iewk ieqPfk ikhf jf skdf hY. Aus sfl pMjfb dIaF iqMnoN XUnIvrstIaF leI bI aYz df sFJf aYtrYNs tYst hox qoN bfd aYn sI eI afr tI ny bI aYz sMsQfvF ivwc lYkcrfrF aqy isiKafrQIaF dy anupfq nUM Gt kr idwqf. pr ikAuNik sfry kfljF ivwc stfP qF pihlF vflf hI sI, ies leI dfKl hox vfly AumIdvfrF dI igxqI Gt ky qkrIbn awDI hoxI suBfivk sI. pr ies iKlfP kuwJ ‘juJfrUaF’ ny hfeIkort df bUhf jf KVkfieaf. hfeIkort dy PYsly muqfibk aYNtrYNs tYst qoN pihlF aYlfn kIqI kIqI geI igxqI nUM GtfAuxf AuhnF leI gly dI hwzI bx igaf. nqIjy vjoN kfiljF aqy sbMiDq XUnIvrtIaF ny nvF rfh lwiBaf. bI aYz kfiljF nUM afpxy pwDr qy hor ‘AusqfdF dy Ausqfd’ ‘aYzhfk’ qy rwKx leI ikhf igaf. kfiljF vfly qF pihlF hI iehI cfhuMdy sn, so AuhnF ny ijhVf vI koeI imilaf, afpxI ‘nPrI’ pUrI kr leI. ies vgdI gMgf ivwc keI isrP bI aYz pfsF nUM vI ‘AusqfdF dy Ausqfd’ khfAux df mOkf iml igaf. so, Auh vI iesy qrHF hI aYm aYz kr ky inklidaF hI ‘Ausqfd’ bxfAux dy ies kfrKfny ivwc ‘dyÈ dy inrmfqf’ bxfAux dy ÈuwB kMm ivwc afpxf hwQ vMzfAux lwgI.
hux kfilj ivwc do iksm dy lYkcrfr sn. iewk ijhVy ipCly 15-20 sflF qoN kMm kr rhy ‘rYgUlr’, ijhVy eyny hI hËfrF nfl hr mhIny JolIaF Brdy qy dUjy nvyN BrqI hoey ‘rMgrUt’ ijhVy ivcfry isrP 3500-4000 ipwCy sfrf idn isr Kpf ky mr jfdy. ijMnI ku AuhnF nUM qnKfh imldI EdUM vwD Auh ikrfieaf BfVf hI lf lYNdy. ‘rYgUlr’ lYkcrfrF ivwcoN bhuqy aksr hI Prlo mfrdy. svyr nUM lyt afAuxf jF Èfm nUM pihlF ‘iKskxf’ AuhnF df jnm iswD aiDkfr sI. ipRMsIpl cfhy ik iehnF gwlF dy sKq iKlfP sI, pr bhuqy ies ‘sKqI’ nUM itwc hI smJdy. iËafdqr qF ipRMsIpl nfl ies gwloN Kfr KFdy sn ik mYnyjmYNt ny AuhnF nUM Cwz ky ‘AusnUM’ qfj ikAuN pihnfieaf sI. jdoN afey vI huMdy qF iewk dUjy dIaF lwqF iKwcxf, pqf nhIN AuhnF dI loV sI, ÈONk sI, kMm sI jF mËbUrI sI. iehnF ‘AusqfdF’ ivwcoN iewk ‘Ausqfd’ ny qF sfrf sfl `c isrP iewk vfr hI klfs `c af ky sfnUM afpxy ‘drÈnF’ nfl invfijaf sI. ies leI ieh qF asIN soc hI skdy hF ik jy ‘AusqfdF dy Ausqfd’ hI aijhy phy pf rhy ny qF Ausqfd vI kI cMd cfVngy. Bfrq vrgy mulk ivwc ijwQy srkfrI krmcfrI afpxy afp nUM ‘srkfr dy jvfeI’ smJdy hn qy srkfrI jOb imlx df mqlb huMdf hY ik hux kMm krn dI loV nhIN, AuQy kihMdy ny ik iewk vfr iewk srkfrI krmcfrI nUM Auhdy iewk jfxkfr ny puwC ilaf, “kI gwl awjkwlH qF qusIN ibnF nfgf dPqr jf rhy ho.” qF awgoN Ausny suBfivk jvfb idwqf, “kI krF Xfr, mYnUM zfktr ny ‘kMplIt rYst’ krn leI ikhf hY.” qy jdoN kdy adfry pRfeIvyt krn jF ‘Tyky’ qy BrqI dI gwl cwldI hY qy iPr mtkf cONk ivwc ‘iËMdfbfd-murdfbfd’ krn dI vfrI afAuNdI hY qF sB qoN mUhry iehI ‘kMplIt rYst’ vfly huMdy hn.
KYr vfips iPr afpxy ivÈy qy afAuNdy hF. kfilj ivwc dUjI iksm dy lYkcrfr ‘aYzhfk’ vfly sn. ieh ivcfry sfrf idn jIa qoV ky kMm krdy. Prlo mfrn df ‘aiDkfr’ hfly iehnF dy ihwsy nhIN sI afieaf jF kih leIey ik hfly iehnF nUM hfly kMm krn df ‘qjrbf’ nhIN sI hoieaf. qy ieh nvIN pIVHI df grm KUn ibnF Èwk afpxI ‘syvf’ inBfa irhf sI. Auh gwl vwKrI ik myvf iksy hor nUM iml irhf sI. jdoN kflj ivwc sYkÈnF dI vMz ho ky pVfeI ÈurU hoeI qF sfzy sYkÈn dI ieh ‘KuÈiksmqI’ sI ik sfzy ihwsy Gwt ‘qjrbykfr’ lYkcrfr vwD afey qy ibnF Èwk Auh sfry hI isiKafrQIaF dy bhuq nyVy sn. myrf iewk aiDafpk huMidaF vYsy vI ieh qjrbf irhf hY ik ividafrQI qF hI koeI gwl iksy aiDafpk nfl cMgI qrF kr skdy hn, jy AuhnF ivclf ‘gYp’ bhuq vwzf nhIN. pr iesdf mqlb ieh kdy vI nhIN ik ‘tIcr-tOt’ dI sfrI dUrI Kqm hI kr idwqI jfvy. ies irÈqy dI ‘mirXfdf’ hmyÈF bxI rihxI cfhIdI hY. sfzy sYkÈn dy bhuqy lYkcrfr ikAuNik nvyN hI sn qy keI ividafrQI qF AuhnF dy hm-Aumr jF AuhnF qoN vI vwD Aumr dy sn. kfPI sfry isiKafrQI zbl aYm ey afid sn. sfzy sYkÈn ivwc qF iewk aYm iPl qy pI aYc zI pfs lVkI vI sI, jd ik iehnF nvyN lYkcrfrF ivwcoN koeI vI aYm iPl jF pI aYc zI nhIN sI qy Auh Kud vI hmyÈF afpxy afp nUM ‘bhuqf’ Aucf hox df pfKMz nhIN sn krdy. suBfivk sfzf AuhnF nfl irÈqf qkrIbn ‘dosqF’ vflf hI sI. AuhnF nfl gwl krn lwigaF jF kuwJ puwCx lwigaF sfnUM kdy koeI iJjk nhIN sI hoeI. qy Auh vI sfry sfzy nfl kfPI Kuwly hoey sn.
‘Auh’ vI sfzy sYkÈn df dUjf pIrIaz jo ik ‘iclzrn sfeIkolojI’ df sI, lYNdI sI. cfhy ik Auh koeI bhuq vwzI ‘sfeIkoloijst’ qF nhIN sI, pr AuhdI hmyÈF hI koiÈs huMdI ik Auhdf lYkcr ‘sfeIjkolojI’ dy anusfr hI hovy. pqf nhIN Auh ikwQoN ikwQoN AudfhrxF lwB ky ilafAuNdI. keI vfrI qF sfnUM lwgdf ik ijvyN pqf nhIN Auhdy hwQ aijhIaF Audfhrxf df koeI ‘kfrU df KËfnf’ hI lwgf hovy. hr gwl dy nfl iblkuwl ZuwkdI Audfhrx. AuhdIaF idwqIaF bhuq sfrIaF AudfhrxF mYnUM hfly vI Xfd hn.
hr roË Ausdy klfs rUm ivwc afAuNidaF hI mfhOl KuÈgvfr ho jFdf. asIN hmyÈF hI Ausdy pIrIaz dI AuzIk krdy. bhuq hI QoVy smyN ivwc Auh sfry isiKafrQIaF nfl pUrI qrHF Gul iml geI. sYÈn dy ÈurU ivwc mYN hr roË ipMzoN hI ‘awp-zfAUn’ kiraf krdf sF. Èfm nUM bhuq vfrI aksr iekwTy hI vfips afAuNdy. rsqy ivwc afAuNidaF kdy vI AuhdIaF gwlF dI kdy kVI nf tuwtdI. KyzF qoN ÈurU ho, iPlmF, rfjnIqI, ielfky ivwc hoeIaF GtnfvF qy hr roË klfs aqy kflj ivwc ho rhIaF ‘inwkIaF-motIaF GtnfvF bfry sfzIaF gwlF sfry sPr dOrfn kdy muwkx df nF nf lYNdIaF. Auh hmyÈf hwsdI, muskrfAuNdI rihMdI. AuhnUM kdy vI mYN Audfs jF ‘ZihMdI klf’ ivwc nhIN sI vyiKaf.
sYÈn dy ÈurU ivwc sB kuwJ TIk cwilaf. qkrIbn sfry isiKafrQI pVfeI vwl hI iDafn dyNdy. Auhdy pIrIaz ivwc asIN aksr pVfeI qoN ielfvf hor vI keI iksm dy ‘clMq’ mfmilaF jf pVfeI nfl sbMiDq iviÈaF qy aksr gwlF krdy. pr mYN iewk gwl not krdf ik Auh bfkI sfry ividafrQIaF dy mukfbly myry ivcfrF nfl vDyry sihmq huMdI. uiksy vI gwl dy nqIjy qy phuMcx qoN pihlF Auh Aus bfry myrI rfey jrUr hI jfnx dI koiÈÈ krdI. pqf nhIN ikAu AuhnUM myrIaF sDfrn ijhIaF idsdIaF gwlF ivwc vI kuwJ ‘Kfs’ ikAuN lwgdf sI. iksy vI ivÈy bfry myrI rfey nUM hI Auh aMiqm igxdI. cfhy ik mYN isDFqk qOr qy ies dy hwk ivwc nhIN sF, pr iPr vI mYN cfhuMidaF nf-cfhuMidaF ies sB kuwJ df BfgIdfr bxdf irhf. klfs rUm ivwc Auh hmyÈF myrI inwkI inwkI gwl qy iDafn idMdI. pr ieh sB kuwJ klfs dy kuwJ ‘cODrI’ iksm dy ividafrQIaF nUM psMd nhIN sI qy suBfivk sI Auh ies gwloN myry nfl aMdroN aMdrI Kfr Kfx lwgdy. ies smyN qwk mYN hr roË ‘awp-zfAUn’ krnf bMd kr idwqf sI. kfilj svyry jldI Kuwldf sI qy myry leI eynI dUroN vkq isr puwjxf muÈikl sI qy lyt afAx dy mYN iKlfP sF, so afpxy kuwJ sfQIaF nfl iml ky kfilj dy lfgy hI iewk koTI ivwc kmrf ikrfey qy lY ky rihx lwg ipaf. kfilj df hostl AuhnIN idnIN bMd ipaf sI qy sfzy kol pRfeIvyt kmrf ikrfey qy lYx qoN isvf koeI hor cfrf nhIN sI. ies leI sfnUM AudoN pyt pUjf krn leI hwQ afp hI sfVny pYNdy. jdoN pihlF pihlF rotIaF vyldy qF iksy dI Èkl ieMzIaf dy nkÈy vrgI huMdI qy koeI afstrylIaf vrgI. pr hOlI hOlI qjrbf hox dy nfl kfPI Prk pY igaf. klfs ivwc aksr Auh vI mYnUM vwK vwK iksm dI rYsIpI dwsdI. nvIaF izÈf bxfAux dy nukqy smJfAuNdI. Gr af ky mYN aksr Auhdy idwqy hoey itps iesqymfl krdf qy kih lvo ik hOlI hOlI tfeIm pfs kuwk bx igaf. hux mYnUM Kfxf pkfAuxf pihlF vFg hAUaf nhIN sI lwgdf qy iehdy ivwc Auhdf vwzf rol sI. hux mYnUM AuhdI hr iewk gwl bhuq cMgI lwgdI. Auh aksr klfs ivwc myry nfl sfzy ielfky ivwc hoeIaF GtnfvF bfry iËkr krdI. ielfky dy lIzrF dI byquwkI ibafnbfjI. ipMzF ivwc hox vflIaF corIaF qy ieho ijhIaF hor bhuq sfrIaF gwlF. keI vfr qF Auh myry nfl bhuq hI ‘prsnl’ ijhIaF gwlF vI kr jFdI. klfs dy ‘cODrIaF’ nUM ies gwloN awg lwg jfdI. klfs dy bfkI ividafrQIaF dy sfhmxy mYnUM ieh sB kuwJ cMgf nhIN sI lwgdf, pr pqf nhIN ikAuN iPr vI mYN AuhdI hr hF dy ivwc ‘hF’ hI imlfAuNdf clf igaf. iewk idn qF klfs ivwc myry nfl gwlf kridaF kridaF Auhny iewQoN qwk kih idwqf, “krnYl ijhVI kuVI qyry nfl ÈfdI krygI, bVI ‘lwkI’ hovygI.” iewk ‘mnclI’ lVkI ny kih idwqf, “mYzm quhfzy qoN vwD ‘lwkI’ hor kOx ho skdf hY?” Auhdf kihx df mqlb mYN vI smJ igaf sI, Auh vI qy klfs dy bfkI sfry stUzYNt vI. qy Auhny hAukf ijhf Br ky bws eynf hI ikhf, “nhIN myrI eynI iksmq ikwQy.” Aus vyly myrI kI hflq hoeI ieh qF mYN hI jfxdf. myry nfl dy ‘rUm-myt’ aksr mYnUM ‘CyVdy’ ik ieh mYzm qyry qy lfeIn mfrdI hY. pr AuhnF dI ies soc dy Aupr iKJ afAuNdI. myry Auh sfQI Gr af ky sfzI mflk mkfn aFtI, ijhVI ik iewk skUl ivwc hYzimstrYs sI, nUMy ieh sfrIaF gwlF dwsdy. Auh aksr mYnUM CyVdI hoeI kihMdI, “krnYl qUM hF qy kr mYN ivcolx bx jFdI hF.” mYnUM ieh sB bhuq burf lwgdf. pr jo kuwJ ho irhf sI Aus muqfibk lokF df ieho ijhIaF gwlF krnf koeI gYrvfjb vI nhIN sI. so mYN hmyÈF afpxy mn dI qlKI nUM aMdry hI CupfeI rwiKaf. AuhdIaF sfrIaF gwlF jF hrkqF qoN mYnUM vI keI vfr aijhf hI lwgdf, pr mYN afpxI iewk tIcr nfl ieÈk lVfAux bfry supny ivwc vI nhIN sF soc skdf. qy Auh vI Aus tIcr nfl ijs df mYN idloN siqkfr krdf sI, ijsdI hr gwl myry leI kurfn qy AukrI ‘afieq’ vrgI sI.
idn hOlI hOlI guËr rhy sn. AuhdI myry nfl vwDdI nyVqf ny keI klfsmytF nUM myry iKlfP kr idwqf. qy Auho ‘GVMm cODrIaF’ ny hOlI hOlI Aus nfl nyVqf vDfAuxI ÈurU kr idwqI. hr vyly Auhdy ipwCy ipwCy iPrnf, ibnF gwloN ‘jI hËUrI’ qy cfplUsI. kihMdy ny jykr bUMd bUMd pfxI vI izwgy qF Auh afpxf inÈfn jrUr ipwCy Cwz jFdI hY. Auh qF iPr iewk iensfn sI. hOlI hOlI AuhnF dI cfplUsI df asr Aus Aupr vI hox lwg ipaf. iPr AuhnF ny hOlI hOlI myry qy iewk do hor myry sfQIaF iKlfP pqf nhIN AuhnUM kI kihxf ÈurU kr idwqf. hOlI hOlI Auh vI AuhnF dIaF gwlF ivwc QoVf QoVf afAux lwg peI. mYnUM qF ies df koeI bhuqf Prk nhIN sI, hF ies gwl df mYnUM aPsos jrUr sI ik Auhdy vrgI sfP iensfn ‘PukiraF’ dy ipwCy lwg rhI sI qy ieho ijihaF dy ipwCy lwg ky pCqfAux qoN ibnF bfd `c kuwJ hor nhIN bcdf. pqf nhIN AuhnF ny kI pwtIaF pVfeIaF ik Auh hux kdy vI myry nfl pihlF vFg nF boldI.
iPr hOlI hOlI AuhnF ‘PukiraF’ ny afpxI aOkfq ivKfAuxI ÈurU kr idwqI. AuhdI cfplUsI kr ky pRfpq kIqI KuwlH df nËfieË Pfiedf AuTfAuxf AuhnF df roË df kMm bx igaf. jdoN Auhdf pIrIaz huMdf qF hr vkq klfs ivwc Kwp krn lwg pey. hOlI hOlI AuhnF ny klfs dy aMdr jF bfhr AuhdI koeI gwl nf mMnx df ijvyN aMdrKfqy ijvyN PYslf hI kr ilaf hovy. AuhdI klfs nUM izstrb krnf ijvyN AuhnF df Drm hovy. AuhnF nfl hoeI nyVqf AuhnUM CyqI hI mihMgI pYx lwg peI. jdoN vI AuhdI klfs lwgI huMdI qF Auh hmyÈF Èor Èrfbf krn vwl hI iDafn idMdy. jy Auh AuhnF nUM klfs qoN bfhr jfx leI vI kihMdI qF Auh ‘ZIT’ bx ky bYTy rihMdy qy keI vfr qF bdqmIËI qy vI Auqr afAuNdy. asIN kuwJ ku jxy iesdf ivroD krdy qF sfzy aqy AuhnF ivcfly dUrI hor vI vwDdI geI. keI vfr gwl ipRMsIpl qwk vI phuMcI. pr kuwqy dI pUC vI kdy iswDI hoeI hY hOlI hOlI AuhnF ny afpxI ‘aOkfq’ dI ieMqhf ivKf idwqI qy keI vfr AuhnUM mËbUrn klfs Cwzx jF rox qwk leI mjbUr kr idwqf. hux ikAuN ik ‘mwCI ny pwQr cwt hI ilaf sI’ qy Auhdf vfips prqxf suBfivk hI sI. ijwQy Auh kuwJ idn pihlF AuhnF dI ‘hF’ ivwc hF imlfAux lwg peI sI, hux AuhnF dIaF hrkqF qoN qMg afeI hoeI sI. asIN kuwJ ku jxy qF pihlF hI iesdy iKlfP sF, so hux Auhdf sfzy nfl sihmq hoxf kudrqI hI sI. ies qrF hOlI hOlI klfs dy bhuqy stUzYNt vI sfzy vFg Auhdy nfl sihmq hox lwg pey qy AuhnF ‘GVMm cODrIaF’ dI bolqI kfPI hwd qwk bMd ho geI qy klfs ivwc iPr AuhI pihlF vflf KuÈgvfr mfhOl kfPI hwd qwk vfips af igaf. Auh ibnF nfgf klfs lgFdI. sfrf sfl kdy iewk vI idn Auhny CuwtI nhIN sI kIqI qy nf hI aYnI dUroN roËfnf bws ivwc afAux dy bfvjUd Auh kdy lyt hoeI sI. Auhdy iËMdgI dy asUl bVy pwky sn. Auh kdy vI iksy cIË nfl smJOqf nf krdI. AuhdI iewk gwl ik kdy vI iËMdgI c’ iksy gwl nUM afpxI kmËorI nf bxn idE’, nUM mYN afpxI lfeIP ivwc ijwQoN qwk ho sikaf hY apnfieaf hY. iewk vfr Auhny sfnUM dwisaf ik ikvyN jdoN AuhdI dfdI dI zYWQ hoeI sI qF Ausy idn Auhdf kflj ivwc hfAUs tYst sI qF Ausny GridaF dy rokx dy bfvjUd tYst dyx leI kfilj geI sI. ieh nhIN ik AusnUM afpxI dfdI nfl ipafr nhIN sI jF AuhdI mOq df duwK nhIN sI, pr iksy gwl nUM afpxI kmËorI bxn dyxf Ausdy asUlF muqfibk nhIN sI.
kfilj ivwc hr mMglvfr nUM asYNblI lwgdI. asYblI ivwc sfry isiKafrQIaF nUM vfrI isr styj qy jf ky kuwJ nf kuwJ koeI BfÈn, koeI gIq jF kivqf afid bolx leI ikhf jFdf qF jo AuhnF df horF sfhmxy bolx df Jwk Kuwly qy AuhnF df afqm ivÈvfs vDy. bhuq sfry stUzYNt aijhy sn, ijhVy ik ies qoN pihlF kdy styj qy cV ky kuwJ boly nhIN sn. mYN vI jdoN pihly idn styj qy igaf qF myrIaF lwqF kMb rhIaF sn. jdoN mYN mfeIk qy KVf bol irhf sI qF mYnUM lwigaf ijvyN myry pYrF Qwly PrÈ ‘GuMm’ irhf hovy. cfhy ik mYN bolx leI sfry BfÈn nUM ‘Gotf’ lf ky igaf sI, pr mYnUN nhIN pqf ik mfeIk qy kI kI boilaf. hF jdoN styj qoN vfips afpxI sIt vwl nUM af irhf sI qF qfVIaF dI avfË qoN mYnUM pqf lwg gaf ik mYN kuwJ ‘glq’ nhIN sI bol ky afieaf. iPr qF styj qy jfxf myrI afdq hI bx igaf. hr hPqy hI mYN koeI kivqf, nËm afid suxfAuNdf. jdoN pihly vfrI mYN kivqf ‘iksy ny nf kurlfAuxf myry moey qy, hws ky sgoN ivKfAuxf myry moey qy, Eey gYrf qUM vI afAuxf myry moey qy. jIvn kwitaf sfrf ivwc mYN qMgIaF dy, mYN Kud vI Èukr mnfAuxf myry moey qy.’ mYN pVI qF ijMnIaF qfVIaF AudoN vwjIaF sfied hI eynIaF kdy mYN iPr kdy suxIaF. jdoN mYN styj qoN Qwly af irhf sI qF AusdI ‘muskrfht’ vyK ky mYnUM pqf lwg igaf ik qfVIaF Ëfiej hI vwjIaF sn. sfzy pRoPYsr s Aupkfr isMG, jo ik sfnUM ‘skUl afrgynfeIjyÈn’ pVFdy sn ny, myrI ipwT QfpVidaF ‘vYl zMn’ ikhf. Èfied AuhnF qfVIaF df hI asr hY ik hux BFvyN iksy styj qy vI KV ky bolF qF mYnUM kdy iksy iksm dI koeI ihckcfht nhIN hoeI. Auh hmyÈF klfs ivwc af ky myrI kivqf jF nËm dI qfrIP krdI. pqf nhIN AuhnUM iewk vfr hI sux ky myrI sfrI dI sfrI rcnf ikvyN Xfd ho jFdI. klfs ivwc af ky Auh rcnf dy hr iewk pihlU qy cfnxf pfAuNdI. keI vfr qF rcnf ivclIaF AuhnF gwlF df vI Auh iËkr kr jFdI, ijhVIaF ik ilKx myry iËhn ivwc hI nhIN sn huMdIaF. qy ies qrF myrI ilKx vfly pfsy rucI hOlI hOlI vDdI geI qy myrIaF rcnfvF dI qih zUMGI huMdI clI geI. ijwQy ik mYN pihlF isrP sfdy qy afm ijhy iviÈaF bfry hI ilKdf sI, hux myrI koiÈÈ huMdI ik iËMdgI dy krUV XQfrQF nfl juVy iviÈaF bfry iliKaf jfvy qy myrI lyKxI df ivÈf vsqU hor cOVf huMdf clf igaf.
mYN ikAuNik hux kflj dy kol hI kmrf ikrfey qy lY ky rihMdf sI ies leI ipMz kdy mhIny zyZ mhIny bfd hI gyVf lwgdf sI. PrvrI mhIny ivwc iewk vfr mMglvfr nUM gurpurb dI CuwtI sI qy somvfr nUM awDI CuwtI. ies leI mYN ÈnIvfr Èfm nUM ipMz clf igaf qy buwDvfr kfilj vfips afieaf. jdoN mYN AusnUM ‘guwz mfrinMg’ ikhf qF Ausny koeI jvfb nf idwqf. klfs ivwc vI Ausny myry nfl koeI Kfs gwl nf kIqI. jy mYN Aus nfl gwl krn dI koiÈÈ kIqI qF vI Aus ny tflf mfr idwqf. pIrIaz Kqm huMidaF sfr hI mYN Auhdy ipwCy hI bfhr clf igaf qy puwiCaf “mYzm qusIN myry nfl boldy ikAuN nhI? dwso qF shI iks gwloN nrfË ho?” Aus vyly Auhdf ichrf iblkuwl gMBIr ho igaf. “krnYl mYnUM qyry koloN ieh AumId nhIN sI.” Auhdf jvfb sI. mYNnUM smJ nhIN sI af irhf ik mYN kI glq kIqf hY jF mYN AuhdI iks AumId qy pUrf nhIN Auqiraf. jd mYN kfrn puwiCaf qF Ausny hfËrI rijstr ivKfAuNidaF ikhf, “vyK sfrf sfl qyrI iewk vI aYbsYNt nhIN qy prsoN qUM CuwtI kr ky TIk nhIN kIqf.” mYN afpxI sPfeI idwqI ik mYN CuwtIaF kfrn ipMz clf igaf sI qy somvfr ‘hfPzya’ hox kfrn isrP 3 pIrIaz lwgxy sn, so mYN soicaf ik buwDvfr hI cwlFgy. pr Auh myrI koeI vI gwl suxn nUM iqafr nhIN sI qy mYN ‘vYrI sOrI’ kih ky bMd KulfsI krvfeI. BfvyN EprI nËr qoN vyiKaF ieh gwl bhuqI vwzI nhIN sI, pr ikAuNik Auh Kud ies qy aml krdI sI qy myry koloN vI iesy dI hI afs krnI koeI gYrvfijb vI nhIN sI.
iPr iesy qrF hI slfnf iemiqhfn nyVy af gey. Aus sfl NaYn sI eI afr tI’ ny bI aYz isiKafrQIaF nUM pihlF vfly pRYktIkl vrk qoN ielfvf vwKry cfrt, mfzl qy sfeIkolojI dI pRYktIkl PfeIl iqafr krn leI ikhf. pyprF qoN pihlF bhuq QoVy idn rihMdy sn qy iemiqhfnF dI iqafrI leI CuwtIaF ho geIaF. pr aYn afKrI mOky qy sfnUM sfeIkolojI dI PfeIl iqafr krn vfsqy ikhf igaf. Ausny sfnUM vrk ÈItF dy idwqIaF qF jo asIN skUlF ivwc jf ky ividafrQIaF qy aDfirq sfry mulFkx kr skIey qy agly idn Auh sfnUM afpxI aYm aYz vflI PfeIl GroN ilaf ky dy dyvygI qy sfzy leI kMm krnf asfn ho jfvygf. asIN nfl lwgdy skUlf ivwc jf ky ividafrQIaF dy mulFkx df sfrf kMm iewk hI idn ivwc nbyV ilaf qF jo iewk awDy idn ‘c sB kuwJ Kqm kr ky ipMz jf ky iemiqhfnF dI iqafrI ivwc ruwJ skIey. agly idn jdoN kflj afey qF bhuq QoVy ividafrQI hI AuQy sn. bhuqy iksy iksm dI PfeIl bxfAux dI prvfh nf kridaF afpo afpxy Gr bYTy iemiqhfnF dI iqafrI kr rhy sn. Ausny afpxI Auh PfeIl iksy hor lVky nUM dy idwqI qy mYnUM ikhf ik koeI gwl nhIN qUM kwlH nUM PfeIl lY jFvIN. mYN sB ‘siq’ kih ky vfips afpxy kmry ivwc clf igaf. agly idn iPr iesy qrF jdoN pihly lVky ny PfeIl ilaf ky vfips kIqI qF Auhny iewk hor ‘lVkI’ nUM PfeIl Qmf idwqI qy mYnUM iewk idn hor ieMqËfr krn leI ‘hukm’ cfVH idwqf. iesy qrHF qIjy idn vI iksy hor df guxIaf ipaf qy mYN bws Auhdy mUMh vwl vyKdf hI rih igaf. jdoN cOQy idn vI PfeIl myry ihwsy nf afeI qF mYN AuhnUM iswDf hI afK idwqf, “mYzm jy qusIN mYnUM PfeIl nhIN dyxI qF iswDf hI jvfb dy idE, aYNvyN ikAuN myrf vkq brbfd krdy ho. mYN pyprF dI iqafrI vI krnI hY.” pr Ausny iPr gwl ‘kwlH’ qy pf idwqI.
iesy qrHF jdoN pMjvyN idn lgfqfr isrP ‘PfeIl’ lYx leI jF kih lvo ik ‘Auhdf’ hukm mnfAux leI kfilj phuMicaF qF Auhny mYnUM bhuq hI ‘apxwq’ nfl bulfieaf. vrFzy ivwc pey bYNcf qy asIN pMj Cy ividafrQI bYTy pV rhy sF qy lfgy hI Auh afx ky kursI qy bYT geI. jdoN pihly idn vfly ividafrQI ny ilaf ky PfeIl AuhnUM vfips kIqI qy ies qoN pihlF ik Auh PfeIl mYnUM PVfAuNdI iewk hor lVky ny Auhdy koloN PfeIl mMg leI qy Auhny iewk pl soc ky PfeIl AuhnUM Qmf idwqI qy mYN iewk vfr iPr mUMh vyKdf hI rih igaf. hux myry sbr df bMnH tuuwt igaf. mYnUM AuhdI Aus smyN iblkuwl koeI smJ nhIN afeI ik Auh kI qy ikAuN kr rhI sI. kI Auh myry sbr df iemiqhfn lY rhI sI jF Kfh-mKfh mYnUM pRyÈfn kr rhI sI, jfx buwJ ky byvkUP bxf rhI sI jF iPr koeI hor gwl sI? jo vI sI, hr cIË dI koeI hwd huMdI hY. cfhy mYnUM jldI kIqy guwsf nhIN aFdf, jy afvy vI qF mYN jldI kIqy pRgt nhIN hox idMdf. pr afKrkfr mYN vI qF iensfn hI hF qy afm iensfnF vflIaF sfrIaF kmËorIaF myry ivwc vI hn, Èfied afm lokF nfloN vwD hI hox. mYN guwsy ivwc af ky AuhnUM suxf ky afpxy nfl dy sfQIaF nUM ikhf, “cMgf Xfr, hux afpF nUM PfeIl qF imlxI nhIN qy mYN bxfAuxI vI nhIN. vwzI gwl PylH hI ho jFvFgy. eydUM vwD hor kI ho cwilaf. mYN qF hux ipMz nUM cwilaF.” eynf kih ky sfry sfQIaF nUM bulf ky, ibnF AuhnUM ‘ivÈ’ kIiqaF jF AuhdI ieËfËq ilaF AuQoN iswDf afpxy kmry ivwc clf igaf.
afpxy kmry ivwc af ky mYN afpxf smfn bMinaf qy bws awzy qoN jf ky Èfhkot jfx vflI bws PV leI. jdoN bws nkodr roz dy PftkF qy afeI qF Auh vI Ausy hI bws ivwc cV geI. ieqPfk kih lvo jF kuwJ hor bws ivwc ijs sIt qy mYN bYTf sI, bws Auhdy nfl dI hI sIt KflI sI. bfkI sfrIaF sItF pihloN BrIaF hoeIaF sn. so mjbUrn AuhnUM myry nfl dI sIt ‘qy hI bYTxf ipaf. mYN guwsy dy mfry ny AuhnUM vyK ky mUMh pry Buaf ilaf. KuÈ qF Auh pihlF vI nhIN sI lwg rhI, pr myrI ies hrkq nfl Auhdf ichrf hor vI pIlf pY igaf. bws ivwc bYiTaF nf mYN Aus nUM bulfieaf qy nf Ausny hI mYnUM, jdik pihlF asIN jdoN vI iekwTy bws ivwc jfdy qF sfzIaF gwlF kdy vI nhIN sI muwkdIaF. Aus vyly mYnUM afpxf guwsf ËfieË lwg irhf sI, pr Auhdf guwsf vI Èfied Ëfiej sI, ieh mYnUM bfd ‘c pqf lwgf. Aus vyly mYN bhuq tYnÈn ivwc sI qy Auh myry qoN vI vwD tYnÈn ivwc hovygI. iksy qrF jMizafly qwk Auh myry nfl dI sIt qy bYTI rhI, pr jMizafly af ky ijvyN hI hor sItF KflI hoeIaF, Auh ipwCy jf ky bYT geI. cfhy Auhny mlsIaF dI itkt leI sI, pr Auh nkodr af ky bws ivwcoN hyTf Auqr geI. Èfied Aus koloN ieh tYnÈn hor brdfÈq nhIN sI ho skI. mYnUM Aus smyN lwgf ijvyN ik ies guwsy dI Kyz ivwc mYN ijwq igaf hovF, pr ies gwl df awj mYnUM aihsfs hY ik asl ivwc Auh myrI ijwq nhIN bhuq vwzI hfr sI, bhuq vwzI glqI, ijs leI Èfied mYN kdy vI afpxy afp nUM mfP nhIN kr skFgf.
KYr kuwJ idnF bfd iemiqhfn ÈurU hox qoN iewk idn pihlF mYN vfips afieaf. myry nfl dy sfQIaF ny dwisaf ik qyry guwsy ivwc AuT ky cly afAux qoN bfd ‘mYzm’ ny qurMq iksy nUM Byj ky Aus lVky koloN PfeIl vfips mMgvf leI sI qy qyry mgr qyry kmry ivwc Auh PfeIl qyry mgr ByjI sI, pr AudoN qwk qUM AuQoN jf cuwikaf sI. hux mYnUM smJ afieaf ik bws ivwc Auhny myry nfl gwl ikAuN nhIN kIqI jF myry vwloN pihl dI qvwkoN ikAuN kIqI sI. pr ies nfl vI myrf guwsf TMzf nhIN sI hoieaf. mYNnUM lwigaf ik ieh qF ‘jINdy nUM pfxI vI nhIN qy mry dy mUMh iGAu pfAux vflI gwl sI.’ ijsnUM qusNI sB qoN cMgf smJdy hovo, AuhnUM hI sB qoN vwD qMg krnf jF byvkUP bxfAuxf jF AuhdI cMigafeI qy BlmfxsI df mËfk AuzfAuxf ikwQoN qwk ËfieË hY. vYsy mYN PfeIl ibnF iksy dI mwdd dy cMgI qrF iqafr kr leI sI, pr hfly Auhdy kol jmF nhIN sI krvfeI. jdoN pihly pypr vfly idn mYN kfilj igaf qF Auhdy koloN dI cuwpcfp lMG igaf. AuhnUM afs sI ik hux qwk myrf guwsf TMzf ho igaf hovygf. pr myry pfry dI izgrI hfly hyTF nhIN sI afeI. mYN cupcfp hfl ivwc clf igaf. pypr ÈurU hox qoN pMdrF imMt pihlF iewk cpVfsI Auhdf sunyhf lY ky afieaf qy mYNnUM pypr qoN bfd AusnUM stfP rUm ivwc imlx leI kih igaf. pr pypr Kqm hox qoN bfd mYN AusnUM imilaF bgYr afpxy kmry ‘c clf igaf. myry rUm myt ny bfd ivwc af ky mYnUM dwisaf ik Auh do GMty stfP rUm ivwc bYTI myrI ‘vyt’ krdI rhI.
dUjy idn iPr mYN iPr AusnUM nhI bulfieaf, iewQoN qwk ik ‘ivÈ’ vI nf kIqI. mYN vyiKaf ik Auhdf ichrf Auqiraf hoieaf sI. hfl ivwc bYTy nUM mYnUM iPr Auhdf sunyhf imilaf ik mYN pypr qoN bfd ËrUr hI AusnUM iml ky jFvF, BFvyN do imMt leI hI. pr mYN afpxI iËd qy aiVaf hoieaf sI qy pypr Kqm huMdy sfr hI Aus qoN awK bcf ky kfilj qoN bfihr af igaf. iehI islislf eysy qrF agly do pyprF dOrfn vI jfrI irhf. Ausny donyN idn hI myry klfsmytF hwQ mYnUM sunyhy Byjy. mYN vyKdf ik Auhdf ichrf pUrI qrF Auqiraf huMdf. hfsf ijvyN Auhdy ichry qoN gfieb hI ho igaf hovy. AuhdIaF awKF lfl huMdIaF, ijvyN ik Auh sfrI rfq hI nf suwqI hovy. mYnUM lwgdf ik ijvyN AuhnUM hux afpxI glqI df aihsfs ho irhf hovy qy Ausy kfrx hI iewk qrF ‘qVP’ rhI hovy. ies qrF AuhnUM qVPdI vyK ky mYnUM skUn iml irhf sI. mgrly idn qF jdoN mYN pypr dyx qoN bfd jldI nfl kfilj qoN bfhr inklx lwgf qF Auh kfilj dy gyt qy KVI sI. jdoN mYN kfhlI nfl bfhr lMGx lwgf qF Auhny mYNnUM bulfAux dI koiÈÈ kIqI, pr AuhnUM axdyiKaF kr ky Auhdy avfËF mfrdy mfrdy hI bfhr clf igaf.
iPr jdoN mYN aKIrlf pypr dyx kfilj igaf qF Auh hfl ivwc iswDI myrI sIt qy afeI qy guwsy ivwc kihx lwgI, “krnYl bQyrf ho igaf, jfx lwgf bMidaF vFg mYnUM iml ky jFvI.” bs eynI gwl kihky Auh hfl ivwcoN bfhr clI geI. Aus idn Auhdf ichrf iblkuwl roxhfkf hoieaf ipaf sI. pr ies df vI myry qy koeI bfhlf asr nhIN sI hoieaf. jd pypr Kqm hox qoN bfd vfips jfx lwgy qF myry klfsmyt slivMdr ny mYnUM ikhf “awj qF afKrI idn hY. qYnUM imlxf qF cfhIdf hY. Gwto Gwt gwl suxn ivwc qF koeI hrË nhIN. vyK ivcfrI df kI hfl hoieaf ipaY. afKrkfr Auh qyrI ‘tIcr’ hY, qYnUM eydF nhIN krnf cfhIdf. jy qyry QF koeI hor huMdf qF Auhny iewk vfr vI nhIN sI puwCxf. Auh qyrf aYnf iKafl krdI hY qy qUM … …[ .” “ieh ikho ijhf iKafl hY?” mYN iblkuwl AuhnUM imlxf nhIN sI cfhuMdf. pr Auh kihx lwgf, “cwl mYN qyry nfl cwldF, qUM nf bolI mYN afpy gwl kr lAUN.” qy Auh mYNnUM nf-cfhuMidaF vI afpxy nfl iKwc ky stfP rUm ivwc lY igaf. jdoN asIN aMdr gey qF Auh stfP rUm ivwc iekwlI sI. bfkI sfrf stfP pihlF hI jf cuwkf sI. aMdr vV ky slivMdr ny AuhnUM ivÈ kIqI pr mYN bulfieaf qwk nhIN. “slivMdr pypr ikho ijhy hoey?” Auhny gwl ÈurU krn dy bhfny slivMdr qoN puwiCaf. “mYzm bhuq vDIaf,” slivMdr df jvfb sI. “krnYl qyry …?” Auhny mYQoN vI puwiCaf. “bs ijhy ijhy hoxy sI ho gey.” mYN iblkuwl byruKI nfl jvfb idwqf. iPr AuhdIaF awKF ivcoN iqRp iqRp hMJU vih qury. QoVI dyr bfd awKF sfP kr ky Auh bolI, “krnYl qUM myrf mfx qoV idwqf. mYN qF qYnUM sfiraF qoN alwg smJdI sI. mYN qF soicaf sI ik qUM qF hr hflq ivwc kMm pUrf kr lYxf ey. bfkI jy iksy hor nUM PfeIl dyr nfl imldI qF iehnF ny kMm pUrf nhIN sI krnf. jy mYnUM pqf huMdf ik qUM ieMJ nrfË hoxf sI qF mYN kdy vI eydF nf krdI.” qy AuhdIaF awKF iPr Aupr qwk Br afeIaF, “jy qYnUM lwgdf hY ik mYN glq kIqf hY qF ho sky qF mYnUM mfP kr dyvIN. Aus idn mYN qyry mgry PfeIl ByjI sI. myrf iKafl sI ik qYnUM PfeIl iml geI hovygI. pr qUM bws ivwc vI mYnUM bulfieaf qwk nhIN. qy hux aYny idn vI … …[ [ .”
hux mYnUM lwgf ik mYN ikMnI vwzI glqI kr irhf sF. mYnUM afpxI ies glqI df pCqfvf vI ho irhf sI qy Aus ‘diraf-idl’ dyvI dy sfhmxy afpxy afp nUM mYN gunfhgfr vI mihsUs kr irhf sF. Auh diraf-idl dyvI ijsny isrP lfprvfhF dy Bly dI Kfqr AuhnUM hI Krfb kIqf sI, guwsy kr ilaf sI, ijsdf Auh sB qoN vwD iKafl rwKdI sI. AuhnUM myry qy ikMnf mfx sI qy mYN Auhdy mfx df kI kIqf. Aus vyly mYN afpxI glqI qy eynf ÈrimMdf sF ik myry mUMhoN ‘sOrI’ vI nf inkilaf. afpxI iewk bhuq hI cMgy idl vflI tIcr dy ieqbfr nUM qoiVaf hI nhIN sI, blik Auhdy Aupr iksy hor dI Pyvr krn jF sfiraF nUM iewko iksm df ‘Èwk’ vI kIqf sI. ies qoN do sfl bfd iewk vfr mYN jlMDr pfsport dPqr afpxyu dosq rxjIq nfl igaf sI qF Auh vI AuQy afpxy hsbYNz nfl afeI hoeI sI. iewk vfr qF myrf idl kIqf ik mYnUM AuhnUM bulfAuxf cfhIdf hY, pr pqf nhIN ikAuN myry koloN hONslf nf jutf hoieaf? Èfied kdy vI mYN Auhdf sfhmxf krn df hONslf nf jutf skF qy afpxI Aus ‘mhFBuwl’ leI Èfied kdy vI afpxy afp nUM mfP nhIN kr skFgf. hF iewk gwl ËrUr hY, jdoN vI kdy mYNnUM AusdI Xfd afAuNdI hY qF afpxI Aus ‘mhfn Ausqfd’ sfhmxy myrf isr siqkfr aqy snmfn ivwc afpxy afp Juk jFdf hY.