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“ieh qF sMgdf eI bhuq aY! …[ gfhF kI bxU iehdf …[ [ ! ! `` bcpn ivwc mYƒ vyKx sfr aglf afK idMdf sI.
mYN AuhdI gwl suxky hor vI sMg jFdf. mYƒ KVHnf aOKf ho jFdf. awKF ivwc pfxI Br afAuNdf. mYN nIvIN pf lYNdf. jdoN aglf cilaf jFdf; mYƒ suK df sfh afAuNdf sI. pr Aus vkq siQqI pihlF vflI hI bx jFdI, jdoN mF vI lokF vFg afK idMdI, “ieh qF AUeIN ruwz aY! …[ iehny kI rMg lfAuxY …[ ! ! ``
‘ruwz` Èbd qoN Auhdf Bfv iswDrf ijhf jF Gwt buwDI bwcf huMdf sI.
mYN ies qrHF df bwcf ikAuN sI?
Èfied ies leI ik mYN mF-bfp df iekwlf puwq sI. myrI BYx gurmIq mYQoN igafrF sfl bfad pYdf hoeI. myrf bfjI POj ivwc sI. Gr ivwc mYN qy mF iewkly hI huMdy. Auh Gr df kMm-DMdf mukf ky pY jFdI. mYN cuwp-cfp iewklf hI bYTf Kyzdf rihMdf. hOlI-hOlI iewk cuwp qy iekwl myry aMdr AuWqr geI sI. mYƒ bhuq Gwt bolx dI afdq pY geI. skUl ivwc vI mYN Gwt boldf. bolx lwigaF mYƒ zr lwgdf. ies qrHF lwgdf ik jy mY bol ipaf qF sMG ivwcoN afvfË hI nhIN inwklxI. aYvyN iPs-iPs ijhI ho jfxI hY. vyKx vfly kihxgy ik iehƒ bolxf vI nhIN afAuNdf? ieh iKafl mYƒ bolx nf idMdf. ijwQy bolx ibnHF nf hI srdf; mF dy kihx vFg mYN muwl df hI boldf. myrI cuwp qoN qMg afeI mF vI keI vfrI afK idMdI sI, “mfVI-motI vfC vI KolH ilaf kr …[ ! ! ``
pr mYN iks qrHF boldf? mYN qF ÈurU ivwc hI mfnisk-sMkt df iÈkfr ho igaf sI. myrI anpVH mF ies gwl qoN purI qrHF byÉbr sI. ijnHF mfvF leI iewkly puwq-sOdfgr dy GoVy huMdy ny; myrI mF mYƒ AunHF vFg sFB-sFB rwKdI. jdoN mYN skUl ƒ pVHn jFdf. Auh hr roË nsIhqF idMdI, “GroN iswDf skUl jfxf! …[ skUloN iswDf Gry afAuxf af! …[ [ rfh ivwc ikqy iksy kol KVHnf nhIN! …[ jy koeI kuÈ Kfx ƒ dyvy qF Auh nI lY ky Kfxf! …[ [ awiCaf jy koeI khy ik afjf aYDr ƒ cwlIey qF iblkuwl nI jfxf! …[ [ jy aglf Pyr vI nf hty qF AuWcI-AuWcI rOÜf pf dIN! …[ afly-duafly bQyry lok iPrdy huMdy ny …[ ! ! ``
mYƒ Xfd hY mYN ijMnf smF vI pRfiemrI skUl ivwc piVHaf. nf qF mYN kdy rfh ivwc hI ruikaf. nf mYN iksy qoN koeI cIË lY ky KfDI. qy nf mYƒ kdy iksy ikwDry cwlx leI hI afiKaf. ies leI mYƒ kdy AuWcI-AuWcI rOÜf pfAux dI loV vI nhIN peI. pr aflf-duaflf mYƒ zrfAux lwg ipaf sI. mYƒ lokF qoN koeI lukvF ijhf BYa afAuNdf. mYN mn hI mn dunIaF qoN iewk ivwQ isrj leI. ijAuN-ijAuN mYN vwzf ho irhf sI. myrI sMg vDdI hI jf rhI sI. jykr Gr ivwc koeI guaFZI jF irÈqydfr af jFdf. mYN mwlk dyxI aMdr jf luk jFdf. muwZlI suwK-sFd qoN bfad jdoN afieaf bMdf myry bfry puwCdf. mF hwsdI hoeI mYƒ hfkF mfrn lwg pYNdI, “afh aYQy eI Kyzdf qI hux qF ivhVy `c! …[ qYƒ dyK ky aMdr luk igaf! …[ vy afjf bfhr! …[ [ afh dyK kOx afieaf …! ! ``
pr mYN koeI jvfb nf idMdf. aMdr luikaf afAux vfly dy jfx dI AuzIk krIN jFdf. jdoN Auh cilaf jFdf. mYN grmI-grmI hoieaf bfhr afAuNdf. myrI hflq vyK ky mF AuWcI-AuWcI hwsx lwgdI, “vy Pot qyry! …[ qYƒ dws kI mUMh `c pfAuNdf koeI! …[ dyK ikmy grmI-grmI hoieaf …[ [ ! ! ``
mYƒ ies qrHF kihx vflI mF vI ajIb sI. Auh jUn-julfeI dI grmI ivwc vI bYTk aMdr pYNdI. Aus nfl mYƒ vI pYxf pYNdf. rfq ƒ ibjlI Bwj jFdI. grmI cox lwgdI. huMms psrn lwgdf. pr qpI peI mF nf afp nf mYƒ kuskx idMdI. bfhr inklx df jF drvfËf KolHx df qF svfl hI nhIN sI pYdf huMdf. Aus ƒ rfq ƒ drvfËy dIaF ivrlF ivwcoN vI zr afAuNdf. keI vfrI Auh idn ivwc iewk skIm vrqdI. mYN vI AuhdI shfieqf krdf. Auh bËfroN myrI PwtI ‘qy mlHx vflI gfËI mMgfAuNdI. mYN ilaf idMdf. Auh gfËI ƒ pfxI ivwc iBAuN lYNdI. iPr Auhdf gfVf ijhf lyp drvfËy dIaF ivrlF ivwc Br idMdI qF ik koeI bfhroN ieh nf vyK sky ik aMdr mF-puwq iekwly pey ny! Gr ivwc koeI bMdf nhIN. ijnHF idnF ivwc bfjI POj ivwqoN CuwtI afAuNdf. AunHF idnF ivwc sfƒ huMms qoN mukqI imldI asIN bfhr ivhVy ivwc mMjy zfh ky sONdy. pr bfËI dI CuwtI muwkidaF hI tiÜaf sMkt iPr prq afAuNdf. pqf nhIN ikhVIaF blfvF qoN zrI hoeI mF mYƒ nfl lY iPr huMms BrI bYTk aMdr pYx df sMqfp hMZfAux lwgdI sI.
sMg qy zr df sMqfp hMZfAuNidaF mYN zUMGI hIxBfvnf df iÈkfr ho igaf sI. myrI ÈÉsIaq sfvIN nf rhI. myry aMdr iewk cuwp df smuMdr pYdf ho igaf sI. mYN Aus ivwc zuwibaf rihMdf. myrI bhuqI gwlbfq afpxy afp nfl hI huMdI. pr iewk tfeIm aYsf vI afAuFdfik mYN svY qoN vI awk jFdf. myrf idl krdf ik mYN iksy nfl gwlF krF. pr iks nfl? myrf ieh vwzf pRÈn pMjvIN-CyvIN klfs ivwc hwl ho igaf sI. pqf nhIN iks qrHF myrI kfimkmF nfl sFJ pY geI. mYN kflpink kfrtUnF dI aYsI dunIaF ivwc guafc igaf ijwQy cfcf cODrI, sfbU, rfm-rhIm qy motU-pqlU vrgy anykF jFbfË pfqrF df rfj cldf sI. AunHF dy rfj ivwc Èfied myry aMdrlf rfj vI ipaf sI. ijnHF plF ivwc mYN kfimks pVHdf, iewk ajIb iksm df afrfm ijhf afAuNdf. jykr kfimks pVHn leI nf imldI, mYN byarfm ho jFdf. mF qoN pYsy lY ky bfËfr jf vVdf. sfzf ipMz amrgVH ÈurU qoN hI Kfsf vwzf ksbf hY. AunHF idnF ivwc bs-stYNz kol rfijMdr jYdkf dI ikqfbF-kfpIaF dI dukfn ‘jYdkf buwk izpU` huMdI. Auh dukfn ivwc aÉbfrF, iÌlmI mYgËIn qy kfimks vI rwKdf. pwcI pYsy df iswkf cuafnI lY ky iewk kfimks ikrfey `qy idMdf. mYN idn ivwc iqMn-cfr kfimksF ilaf ky pVH idMdf. myrI klpnf dI dunIaF dI iksy ƒ kMno-kMn Kbr nhIN sI huMdI. pr mYN ajIb pfqrF dI dunIaF ivwc qfrIaF lfAuNdf afpxy afp ƒ bVf GYNt smJdf huMdf sI. swqvIN-awTvIN klfs qwk phuMcidaF myry nfl dy muMzy vI kihx lwg pey sn, “gwl qF qyrI TIk aY! … ieh pVHn nfl bMdy df idmfg ijhf qF cwlx lwg pYNdf …! ! ``
muMizaF dIaF gwlF sux mYƒ afpxf afp AunHF qoN vwKrf qy AuWcf jfpx lwgdf. mYN mn hI mn ies gwl df ishrf kfimksF dy isr bMnH idMdf ijnHF ny mYƒ iekwl kwtx df rfh dwisaf sI. AuNJ ies rfh qoN pihlF vI koeI rfh sI ijhVf myry aMdr ÈurU qoN hI iewk ‘anjfxI-sVk` vFg iviCaf ipaf sI. Aus rfh dI ÈurUafq qy aMq ikwQy hY? mYN ieh nhIN sI jfxdf. ikqfbF-kfgËF df Auh rfh myry aMdr ikAuN iviCaf hoieaf sI? mYƒ ieh vI nhIN sI pqf. pr mYƒ aYnf ielm ËrUr sI ik sfzy guaFZI gurdyv kfmryz dI dukfn ivwc ‘rwdI ikqfbF` dy Zyr pey huMdy ny. keI vfrI mF nUM puwC mYN bfhr bIhI ivwc Kyzx cilaf jFdf. muMizaF df pUrf iekwT huMdf. puwg-pugfeI huMdI. dfeIaF-dUkiVaF dI Kyz ÈurU ho jFdI. iewk muMzf bfhr bIhI ivwc dUr KVH ky dfeIN idMdf. bfkI dy muMzy Bwj ky lokF dy GrF qy kMDF-kOilHaF Auhly luk jFdy. keI jxy gurdyv kfmryz dy Gry vI jf lukdy. AunHF ivwc mYN vI huMdf. jdoN dfeIN dy rhy muMzy ƒ swgoN pYNdI. Auh luky hoey muMizaF ƒ lwBx lwg pYNdf. afpxy bcfa leI hr muMzf sfh rokIN diVaf rihMdf. pr mYN ienHF plF ivwc iewk ajIb Kyz Kyzx ivwc msq huMdf sI. mYN aksr gurdyv kfmryz dI dukfn ivwc cfh-pwqI dI KflI peI pytI Auhly jf lukdf. Aus pytI AuWpr Zwkx nhIN sI huMdf. Aus ivwc rwdI ikqfbF df Zyr ipaf huMdf sI. Auh ikqfbF gurdyv ny bIhI ivwc iPrdy kbfVIey qoN KrIdIaF huMdIaF sn. AunHF ivcoN kfgË pfVH ky Auh gfhkF ƒ sOdf-pwqf lpyt ky idMdf jF iPr AunHF dy ilPfPy bxfAuNdf. pr mYƒ ies gwl nfl koeI mqlb nhIN sI huMdf. mYƒ qF ieh vI nhIN sI pqf huMdf ik Auh ikqfbF kfhdIaF huMdIaf sn. pr koeI iKwc sI ijhVI mYƒ cfh-pwqI vflI pytI Auhly jf lukoNdI. mYƒ Aus ivwc peIaF ikqfbF df Zyr cMgf lwgdf. mYN awK bcf ky iek-do ikqfbF cuwkdf. mwlk dyxI nIkr jF pjfmy dy nyPy ivwc aVf lYNdf. AuWDr dfeIN dyx vflf muMzf iksy nf iksy ƒ CUh idMdf. rOlHf pYx lwgdf. muMizaF nfl dVMgy mfrdf mYN vI bIhI ivwc af jFdf. Kyz-Kyz ivwc hI awK bcf ky nyPy ivwc lukoeIaF ikqfbF kwZ ky Gry rwK afAuNdf. qy iPr muV gurdyv kfmryz dI dukfn ivwc jf lukdf. gwl aYsI cwlI ik iewk idn gurdyv sfƒ pY inkilaf. kihMdf, “Kbrdfr jy koeI muV ky dukfn `c luikaf! …[ sfly sfrI rwdI cuwk ky lYgy! …[ nf cwkIaF kIhny ny Eey ikqfbF? ``
jykr iksy ƒ pqf hoAU qF hI dwsU! mYN ajy soc hI irhf sI ik iewk muMzf bol ipaf. myry vwl AuNglI krky kihMdf, “jI ienHF dy Gry peIaF ny QozIaF ikqfbF! …[ iewk idn mYN luky hoey ny dyKIaF BI …[ ! ! ``
“ikAuN Eey POjI idaf puwqf! …[ afh kMm krdYN! …[ cwl dwsF qyrI mF ƒ …[ ! `` mYƒ bFh qoN PVHky gurdyv kfmryz sfzy Gr vwl ƒ qur ipaf.
dfeIaF-dUkVy Kyzxf Cwz muMizaF dI tolI sfzy mgr-mgr qurI af rhI sI. cfh dI pytI ivcoN inkl ky sfzy Gr af phuMcIaF ikqfbF dI ZyrI vwl vyKdI hoeI mF mYƒ imwTf-imwTf iJVk rhI sI, “ikAuN hux boldf nI! …[ qYN dws ieh kI isr `c mfrnIaF ny! …[ koeI nI vIr jI iswDrf ieh qF! …[ lY jo qusIN koeI nI! …[ mYN dwsdI aF iehƒ pqf …[ ! ! ``
Aus idn pqf dwsx vflI mF df mYƒ ikqfbF dI cytk lfAux ivwc iswDf jF aiswDf kfÌI rol sI. myry skUlI idnF ivwc Auh smJdI sI clo muMzf mfVI sMgq qoN bicaf hoieaf. iewlqF nhIN krdf. iewk QF itikaf bYTf rihMdf. qy pYsy vI mfVI gwl AuWpr nhIN Krcdf. Èfied iehI soc Auh mYƒ pYisaF qoN nFh nhIN sI krdI. mYN ijMny pYsy vI mMgdf. Auh kwZ ky hwQ ‘qy rwK idMdI. AunHF pYisaF ƒ mYN ikqfbF AuWpr Krcdf. nOvIN klfs qwk phuMcidaF myrI kfimks pVHn dI afdq nfvl pVHn ivwc bdl geI sI. ipMz lFgVIaF dy kuwJ sfQoN vwzI Aumr dy muMzy ivgVIaF hoeIaF gwlF krn ivwc mÈhUr sn. Bolf, iPwzf, inMdr qy kYlf ivgVI hoeI ZfxI dy mohrI sn. Auh svyry pRfrQnf qoN Kfsf icr pihlF hI skUl phuMc jFdy. hOlI-hOlI muMizaF dI BIV AunHF duafly juVn lwgdI. Boly horIN afpxy ipMz dy lokF dIaF gwlF lUx-imrc lf-lf suxfAuNdy. suxn vfilaF ivwc mYN vI bYTf huMdf. mYN AunHF ivwc aYsf byTx lwigaf ik keI-keI pIrIaz Cwzx lwg ipaf. aksr hI pIrIaz Cwz ky asIN Kfsy jxy sfieMs lYbfrtI dy ipCly pfsy KVHI tfhlI hyTF jf bYTdy. Bolf aYNz pfrtI kol ikqoN ilaFdf nfvl huMdf. pVHn vflf muMzf ivckfr bYT jFdf. Auhdy afly-duafly muMizaF df gol-dfierf bx jFdf. mohrI muMizaF dy ieÈfry ‘qy pVHn vflf AuWcI afvfË ivwc nfvl pVHn lwgdf. pUrI ZfxI ivwc cuwp Cf jFdI. kdy-kdy iksy idRÈ jF zfielfg AuWpr Boly horF dI itwpxI suxfeI idMdI. keI vfr iksy aiDafpk dy AuWpr af jfx kfrn cwldf nfvl bMd kr Joly ivwc lukoxf pYNdf. luk-luk pVHidaF ƒ suxn dI ieh afdq Aus vkq moVf kwt geI sI ijs vkq myrf alIpur vfly BjI qy slympur vfly ibwtU nfl myl hoieaf. sfzI iqMnF dI mwq imldI sI. ibwtU qoN hI mYƒ jfsUsI nfvlF bfry pqf lwigaf. iewk idn asIN iqMnF ny nfvl KrId ky ilafAux dI skIm bxfeI. asIN QoVy-QoVy pYsy pf mflyr kotly ƒ bws cVH gey. AuWQoN bs-stYNz vfly buwk-stfl qoN cfr-pMj jfsUsI nfvl KrId ky asIN muV skUl af vVy. sfry nfvl purfxy aKbfr ivwc lpyt ky syby nfl bMnHy hoey sn. jdoN sfrI CuwtI hox vflI sI. GridaF qoN zrdy BjI qy ibwtU mYƒ kihMdy, “asIN qYQoN eI lY ky pVH ilaf krFgy! …[ qUM sfry nfvl afpxy Gr ƒ lY jf …[ ! ! “
Aus idn mYN aYsf Gr lY ky igaf ik bws. jdoN qwk vyd pRkfÈ Èrmf dy sfry nfvl nf pVH ley, mYN bws nhIN kIqI. jfsUsI nfvlF ivclI kflpink dunIaF Auh sMsfr sI ijs AuWpr mYN sB kuwJ kurbfn kr idwqf. skUl df kMm mukf mYN nfvl cuwk lYNdf. mMjy ‘qy ipaf pVHIN jFdf. mF hwsdI rihMdI, “mfVf-motf AuWTky qur iPr vI ilaf kr! …[ aYN ipaf-ipaf qF ibmfr hojyNgf …[ ! “
pr nhIN ibmfr qF kI pVHn nfl mYƒ arfm afAuNdf sI. idvflI dy idnF ivwc ijs idn Koaf Gotxf huMdf. mF duwD dI kVfhI Br ky cuwlHy ‘qy rwK idMdI. hyTF awg bfl ky myry hwQ ivwc lMbf sfrf Kurcxf PVf idMdI. mYƒ duwD ivwc Kurcxf Pyrn df ZMg dws ky afp Auh hor kMmIN ruJ jFdI. myry iewk hwQ ivwc nfvl huMdf. dUjy hwQ nfl mYN kVfhI ivwc Kurcxf PyrI jFdf. cuwlHy ivwc awg bldI rihMdI. smF hvfeI jhfË vFg lwG jFdf. AuWDr cuwlHy ‘qy rwiKaf duwD kVH jFdf. aYDr mYN hwQ ivclf nfvl Kqm kr idMdf. myrI pVHn dI BuwK aYnI vD geI sI ik mYN idn ivwc do-do nfvl vI pVH idMdf. jfsUsI nfvl pVHn dI afdq mYƒ bI[ ey[ qwk rhI hY. ies dOrfn mYN iPlmI dunIaF bfry idwlI qoN Cpdf hPqfvfrI mYgËIn ‘mfieafpurI‘ vI cfr-pMj sfl piVHaf. TIk iehI smF sI jdoN mYƒ ikqfbF dy hor rUpF df vI Kurf-Koj lwBx lwg ipaf. nOvIN klfs ivwc grmIaF dIaF CuwtIaF ivwc piVHaf nfnk isMG df nfvl ‘sUhIaf‘ hmyÈf myry cyiqaF ivwc kfiem rihMdf hY. ijAuN-ijAuN myrI sMgq qy vfqfvrn bdldf igaf. pVHn dI rucI qy imafr vI bdldf igaf. plws vn-tU qoN lY ky bI[ ey[ PfeInl qwk phuMcidaF mYN qrkÈIl susfietI dIaF sfrIaF ikqfbF pVH idwqIaF sn. pVHnf myrI loV ivcoN pYdf hoeI afdq sI. jykr skUl tfiem ivwc koeI aiDafpk myrf pwQ-prdrÈk bx jFdf. mYN kdoN df AuWQy phuMc jFdf ijwQy phuMcxf myrf supnf sI. myrf supnf aYm[ ey[ krky agFh pVHnf sI. pr ibnF gfiezYNs qoN pVHn kfrn myrI aYm[ ey[ ivcoN Qrz zvIËn af geI. myrf aYm[ iPl[ krn df supnf hnHyry KUMijaF ivwc guafc igaf. guafcI pYV df pCqfvf myry aMdr hnHyr vFg PYl igaf sI. Aus hnHyr ivcoN cfnx dI lIk lwBx leI mYN inrMqr ikqfbF dI byVI ivwc svfr rihMdf. acyq hI myry aMdr ieh gwl bYT geI sI ik ikqfb iewk aYsf hiQafr hY ijs nfl mYN afpxI hoxI bdl skdf hF. myrI hflq Aus musfiPr vrgI sI ijs dI hoxI ƒ kft lfAuNdf ek Èyar hY ik-
ivc hnHyry dIvf bxdI, cfnx df hrkfrf pusqk
Btky hoey musfiPr dy leI, srGI df iewk qfrf pusqk …[ !
bcpn dI jIvn-ÈYlI kfrn myry aMdr ikqfbF pVHn, KrIdx qy sMBflx dI rucI, iqMnoN iekwTIaF hI jnmIaF sn. myrI mF mYƒ bVf sFB-sFB rwKdI huMdI. Èfied AuhdI ijhI pRivrqI myry aMdr af ky cIËF ƒ sMBflx dI pRivrqI ivwc bdl geI sI. mYN ijhVI vI ikqfb KrIddf Aus ƒ sFB-sFB rwKdf. ikqfb ƒ KrIdx qoN pihlF Aus ƒ vfrI-vfrI vyKIN jfxf mYƒ byhwd cMgf lwgdf hY. afpxI iksy afdq kfrn iewk vfrI myrI bVI byiewËqI vI hoeI sI. Aus idn mYN qy myrf dosq crnf pitafly gey sF. AuWQy bws-stYNz dy ipCly pfsy iewk ikqfbF dI dukfn sI. afpxI afdq anusfr mYN qy crnf Aus dukfn ivwc jf vVy. dukfn ivwc bËurg mflk qy Auhdf nOkr BeIaf sI. Auh pMjfbI boldf sI. gfhk af rhy sn. koeI mYgËIn, ikqfb jF aKbfr lY ky jf rhy sn. pr mYN qy crnf nf kuwJ KrId rhy sF qy nf hI jf rhy sF. asIN qF ikqfb KrIdx qoN pihlF iekwlI-iekwlI ikqfb vyKx ivwc msq sF. pr dukfndfr sfzI msqI dy aflm qoN byKbr kuwJ hor hI soc irhf sI. Aus dI soc qoN byKbr asIN iewk ikqfb cuwkdy. vyK-Prol ky iPr rwK idMdy. ijAuN hI mYN iewk ikqfb rwKx lwigaf. nOkr BeIey ny myrI bFh PVH leI. mYN Aus vwl svflIaf nËrF nfl Jfikaf. pr Aus Ëflm df jvfb bVf zrfAuxf sI. mYQoN ikqfb Koh ky rwKdf hoieaf Auh iksy vkIl vFg grijaf, “srdfr jI Èrm nhIN afAuFdI! … ikqfbF corI krdy E! aYDr afE aYDr …[ ! ! ``
JUTf ielËfm sux iewk vfrI qF mYN Gbrf igaf. pr dUjy hI pl mn ivwc afeI ik mYN vI bVk mfrF. BeIey dI ieh ihMmq? cfr QwpV CwzF sfly dy mUMh ‘qy. pr mYN ieh gwlF socIaF hI. kr kuwJ nf sikaf. jo vI kIqf BeIey ny hI kIqf. Auhny rOÜf pf ky mYƒ kfAUNtr dy aMdr vfV ilaf. bfhr KVHf crnf vI PsI gutfr vFg Jfk irhf sI. myrf idmfg jfm ho igaf. mYN BeIey dy rihmo-krm ‘qy KVHf ajy soc hI irhf sI ik ieh kI bx igaf! BeIey ny aglf hukm dfg idwqf, “sfzIaF ikqfbF corI ho geIaF ny! …[ qlfÈI idE afpxI! …[ mYN ikhf srdfr jI pYNt dI huwk KolHo …[ ! “
mYN XMqrvp pYNt dI huwk KolH ky kmIË AuWpr cuwk idwqf. qlfÈI lYNdf BeIaf inrfÈf ijhI ivwc dukfn vwl Jfikaf. mflk dIaF aYnkF ipwCy JfkdIaF awKF zr geIaF. TIk AuhI vkq sI jdoN dukfn ivwc lMbI sfrI dfVHI vflf muMzf af viVaf. ikqfbF KrIdx dI QF cwl irhf sIn vyK Auhny sfzy hwk ivwc hfa-df-nfarf ijhf mfiraf, “kmfl aY Xfr! …[ qusIN pihlF bMdf-kubMdf qF dyK ilaf kro …[ ! ``
Auhdy bolF ivwc jfn sI. sfzy aMdr kuwJ jfg ipaf. crnf AuWcI-AuWcI bolx lwg ipaf. mYƒ afpxy sMG ivwcoN iksy hor dI avfË suxfeI idwqI. mYN BeIey ƒ glHfmy qoN PV ilaf, “ikAuN Eey sfilaf kuwiqaf! …[ nf hux inwklI aY koeI ikqfb? … ijhVI myrI byieËqI hoeI aY! …[ iehdf muwl kOx BrU qyrI mF …[ [ ! ! ``
“iek imMt …[ iewk imMt srdfr jI! …[ sfzI mnÈf quhfzI byieËqI krn dI nhIN sI! … asIN qF …[ [ ! `` pYNdf rOlHf sux aMdr stor-rUm ivwcoN, gwdI `qy bYTy bËurg mflk df muMzf bfhr af igaf.
Auhny afpxI lwCydfr BfÈf nfl sfzI byieËqI Zwk ky sfƒ qor idwqf sI. pr ies dy bfvjUd vI myrf Aus dukfn nfloN Ausy qrHF ipafr nhIN tuwitaf, ijs qrHF Aus aiDafpk nfloN nhIN tuwitaf ijsny acyq hI myry aMdr ÉOP dI brCI gwz idwqI sI. Aus vkq myrI Aumr 12-13 sflF dI sI, jdoN mYN dUjI vfr pMjvIN pfs krky CyvIN klfs ivwc igaf. pihlI vfr mYN pMjvIN ivwcoN Pyl ho igaf sI. ies leI mYƒ vwzy skUl jfx df cfa sfiraF nfloN vwD sI. nvF skUl, nvF bsqf, nvIaF ikqfbF, nvyN aiDafpk qy nvyN dosq. mYƒ ikMnf hI kuwJ afvfËF mfr irhf sI. iksy afvyÈ ivwc ijAuN hI mYN skUl jfxf ÈurU kIqf. nvIaF-nvIaF gwlF hox lwgIaF. iewk idn svyr dI pRfrQnf ivwc iewk aiDafpk ny sfƒ bhuq sfrIaF ‘cMgIaF gwlF‘ dwsIaF. AunHF gwlF ivwc iewk gwl afpxy aiDafpkF ƒ ‘siq sRI akfl‘ bulfAux dI vI sI. BfvyN ik asIN pihlF vI siq sRI akfl bulfAuNdy sF. pr Aus idn qF myry idmfg ivwc ieh gwl zUMGI Ds geI. svyry skUl jfx sfr asIN klfsF ivwc bsqy rwKdy. iewk dUjy qoN mUhrdI Duws dyxI aiDafpkF ƒ siq sRI akfl jf bulfAuNdy. jvfbI rUp ivwc aiDafpkF df isr ihwldf vyK sfƒ aQfh KuÈI huMdI. pr ieho KuÈI jdoN mYN iewk idn bËfr ivwc pRfpq krnI cfhI qF myry aMdr KOP bxky bYT geI sI.
Aus idn sfiekl ƒ ‘kYNcI` clfAuNdf mYN bËfr ivwc jf irhf sI. myry isr mYÜI ijhI kwdU hrI pwg, mYlf ijhf kmIË qy inwkr pfeI hoeI sI. pYrF qoN mYN nMgf. sfiekl clfAuNdf-clfAuNdf jdoN jIq zfktr dI dukfn kol phuMicaf. awigEN sfzf aMgryËI vflf aiDafpk af irhf sI. ijAuN hI Auhny zfktr dI dukfn mUhry afpxf skUtr roikaf. mYN vI brfbr jf ky sfiekl dIaF brykF mfrIaF. nfl dI nfl bVy adb nfl boilaf, “mfstr jI sfsrI kfl …[ ! ! ``
“hYNa! …[ kI ho igaf Eey qYƒ …[ ! ! `` skUtr stYNz `qy lfAuNidaF Auh aiDafpk ingfh vflIaF aYnkF ivwc dI myry vwl hory lot Jfikaf.
mYN burI qrHF zr igaf. sfiekl hvf vFg Bjf ilaf. ijvyN BUqF mgr peIaF hox. iswDf Gr af ky ruikaf. mF ƒ nhIN dwisaf ik myry nfl kI vfpr igaf. cuwp-cfp vfprI Gtnf ƒ aMdr hI aMdr pI igaf. Aus pIqI guwt df iswtf ieh inwkilaf ik mYN iksy ƒ vI siq sRI akfl bulfAux qoN zrn lwg ipaf. jykr Aus aiDafpk ny myrI siq sRI akfl pRvfn kr leI huMdI. mYƒ kdy vI aiDafpkF qoN zr nf lwgdf. BfvyN ieh Gtnf mYƒ dUr qwk zrfAuNdI rhI. pr kuwJ aiDafpkF dI muhwbq mYƒ hOslf vI bKÈdI rhI. ijs aiDafpk ny myrI siq sRI akfl nhIN sI mMnI. Aus qoN pihlF sfƒ iewk aiDafpk hrkIrq isMG aMgryËI pVHfAuNdf sI. Auh kdy vI myry cyiqaF ivwcoN mnPI nhIN huMdf. zr qy sMg kfrn mYN klfs ivwc hmyÈf ipwCy bYTdf sI. pr myrI ilKfeI bVI sohxI sI. ijs idn mYN pihlI vfrI hrkIrq isMG ƒ aMgryËI dI kfpI idKfeI. pihlF Auh Kfsf icr mYƒ nIJ nfl vyKdf irhf. jdoN rUh df rwj af igaf. afpxI ingfh vflIaF aYnkF ƒ TIk kridaF Auhny myrI ipwT QfpVI. qy iPr sfrI klfs ƒ myrI kfpI ivKfAuNdf hoieaf boilaf, “afh vyKo bwicE! …[ iehƒ kihMdy ny ilKfeI! …[ vyKo jmF Cfpf eI lfieaf ipaf! qusIN vI ies muMzy vrgI sohxI ilKfeI ilKxI iswKo …[ ! ! ``
afpxI sohxI ilKfeI kfrn mYN Aus aiDafpk dIaF nËrF ivwc Kfs ividafrQI bx igaf sI. pr bfkIaF leI mYN Ausy qrHF afm sI ijs qrHF mYzm aYn[ pI[ igwl leI afm sI. Auh sfƒ bI[ ey[ ivwc pMjfbI pVHfAuNdI sI. Auhdf pUrf nfm qF nirMdr pfl kOr igwl sI. pr sfrf kflj Aus ƒ mYzm aYn[ pI[ igwl hI afKdf. Aus mYzm dI sfzy nfl Kfs sFJ sI. Auh sfzy ksby amrgVH qoN sfh dI ibmfrI dI dvfeI lYNdI huMdI. sfzy kfrn Auhdf gyVf lwgxoN bc jFdf sI. asIN Aus ƒ ‘hrbMs dvfKfnf` qoN dvfeI dIaF puVIaF iljf ky dy idMdy. ies kfrn Auhdy mn ivwc sfzy pRqI moh sI. ielfky ivwcoN sfzf vIh-pwcI muMizaF df tolf nfBy dy irpudmn kflj pVHn jFdf. sfzy toly dy bhuqy muMzy dyKxI-pfKxI ivwc cMgy sn. lMmy kwd, icxIaF hoeIaF pwgF qy lMbIaF dfVHIaF. kflj ivwc sfzf Kfsf rohb sI. iesdf kfrn sfzy toly dy bhuqy muMizaF df lVfeIaF krnf, pIrIaz Cwz ky bfËfrF ivwc avfrf iPrnf qy pVHn ivwc nlfiek hoxf sI. pr sfzy hI ipMz df iewk muMzf blijMdr ibwtU AunHIN idnIN kflj dy mYgËIn ‘ilwlI` df ividafrQI sMpfdk sI. Auh lyK, kivqfvF qy gËlF ilKx dy nfl-nfl gfAuNdf vI sI. nftkF ivwc vI ihwsf lYNdf. ies kfrn kflj ivwc AuhdI afpxI iksm dI pCfx qy cVHq sI. Auhdf afpxf iewk gruwp sI. Aus ivwc ijafdf ÈihrI muMzy-kuVIaF hI Èfiml sn. AunHF df gruwp kMtIn mUhrly pfrk ivwc bYT ky cfh pINdf qy gwlF krdf. Auh kI gwlF krdy huMdy sn. sfƒ nhIN sI pqf. asIN qF afpxI hI msqI ivwc kflj dIaF sVkF `qy GuMm ky GrF ƒ prq afAuNdy sF. asIN afpxI nINd sONdy qy jfgdy sF. pr ijs idn mYzm igwl ny sfƒ kMtIn mUhrlI sVk qoN lMGidaF ƒ roikaf, mYƒ bycYnI lwg AuWTI. sfzy vwl iDafn nfl dyKdI hoeI Auh kihMdI,” qusIN hux bI[ ey[ PfeInl ivwc ho! …[ [ vyKo quhfzy ikwzy ikwzy kwd qy dfVHIaF ny! …[ aOh blivMdr ibwtU vI quhfzy hI ipMz df muMzf! … ikMnI klf hY Aus ivwc! … qusIN vI kuwJ Èrm kro! …[ hor nhIN qF iewk-awDI kivqf ilK ky hI ilwlI mYgËIn leI dy idE …[ ! ! ``
“dymFgy jI! … krFgy …[ dyKFgy …! ! `` bfkI muMizaF ny qF mYzm igwl dI gwl hws ky tfl CwzI sI.
pr mYN nf tfl sikaf. AuhdI gwl myry aMdr ikqy zUMGI lih geI sI. mYƒ jfipaf ijvyN mYzm ny myry aMdr bcpn qoN kuwJ suwqf jgf idwqf hovy. myrI nINd hrn ho geI. myry aMdrlf bwcf mYzm dI gwl mMnx leI iËwd AuWpr aV igaf. mYN socIN pY igaf. pqf nhIN kdoN pYWn-kfpI cuwk leI. jdoN hoÈ prqI. mYN iewk kivqf ilKIN bYTf sI. Aus kivqf df nF sI ‘kflIaF rfhvF` `qy. ` KuÈI ivwc myrI rfq msF lMGI. aglI svyr jdoN kflj jf ky mYN ibwtU ƒ ‘ilwlI’ ivwc Cfpx leI kivqf PVfeI, Auh vI horF vFg mYƒ hYrfnI nfl vyK irhf sI. Auh dI vyKxI nfl mYƒ sMg qF lwgI, pr Aus sMg df rUp Aus sMg nfloN vwKrf sI ijs kfrn mYN iksy ƒ vyK ky aMdr jf lukdf sI. ies kfrn Èfied myry aMdr kuwJ vwKrf kr lYx df aihsfs sI. myry acyq mn ivwc ikqy skUlI dosqF dI afKI gwl GuMm rhI sI, “gwl qF qyrI TIk aY! …[ [ ikqfbF pVHn nfl bMdy df idmfg qF cwlx lwg pYNdf …[ ! ``
Auh kivqf myrI iËMdgI dI sB qoN pihlI ilKq sI. Aus ƒ ilKx qoN bfad mYN Buwl-Bulf igaf. mYN ikhVf kdy lyKk bxn bfry soicaf sI. ijs idn kflj dy mYgËIn ‘ilwlI` ivwc CpI, Aus nfl afpxf nF Cipaf vyK ky KuÈI qF bVI hoeI sI. pr mYN Auh mYgËIn sMBfl ky nf rwK sikaf. pqf nhIN ikwDr guafc igaf. jykr jfxdf huMdf qF afpxy bcpn vFg sMBfl ky rwKdf. Aus bcpn vFg, ijs dI koeI vI JfkI arQF qoN KflI nhIN. mYN jdoN vI ijs JfkI ƒ CyVdf hF. AuhI arQF dI rMgÈflf bx jFdI hY. iewk aYsI rMgÈflf ijs ivwcoN myry aMdrlf khfxIkfr pYdf hoieaf. jykr myrf bcpn ‘ies qrHF df` nf huMdf qF mYN vI kdy ‘ies qrHF df` nf huMdf.
myrI Cpx dI ipwT-BUmI ivwc myrf bcpn KVHf hY. myrf bcpn myrf aiDafpk hY. jykr mYN sMg qy zr df iÈkfr nf hoieaf huMdf. mYƒ bMidaF qy vrqfiraF ƒ aMdroN pVHn df jFc nhIN sI afAuxI. myrI mnoivigafnk smJ df mUl afDfr myrf aMqrmuKI bcpn hY. Auh bcpn ijs ivwcoN mYN gwl bxfAuxI qy bxfeI gwl vFg ies qrHF agFh qurnf iswiKaf ijs qrHF myrf bfËI mYƒ agFh qor lYNdf sI. ijnHF idnF ivwc CuwtI afAuNdf. iewk idn myrI mF Aus nfl nsrflI jrUr jFdI. nsrflI myrf nfnkf ipMz hY. mYƒ nfl lY ky Auh dovyN jxy amrgVH qoN bws cVHdy. agFh mflyrkotly qoN bws bdlnI pYNdI. AuWQoN iPr iswDI KMny vflI bws nsrflI ivwcoN dI lMGdI. jdoN nsrflI df awzf afAuNdf. asIN iqMny jxy bs ivwcoN AuWqr ky ipMz ƒ jFdI sVk vwl vyKx lwgdy. myn roz qoN ipMz ƒ jFdI Auh totf sVk iek-zyZ iklomItr lMbI sI. mYƒ aYnI vft vyKx lwgdy. mYN mF dI godI cVHn leI iËwd krn lwgdf. Auh QoVf ijhf icr cuwkdI. iPr AuhdI bFh Qwk jFdI. Auh mYƒ hyTF Auqfr idMdI. mYN rox vrgf mUMh bx ky KVH jFdf. TIk AuhI smF huMdf sI jdoN myrf bfËI iewk jugq vrqdf. Auh afpxy bUt nfl iknfry pey roVF-vwitaF ivwcoN iewk Cotf ijhI vwtI roVH ky sVk ‘qy ilaf cfVHdf. iPr Auhdy Puwtbfl vFg Tyzf mfr ky mYƒ afKdf, “aOh geI dyK! … jfh Bwj qy cwk ilaf Auhƒ …[ ! “
mYN sVk ‘qy buVkdI jFdI vwtI mgr dOVdf hoieaf ikMnI hI dUr cilaf jFdf. jdoN vwtI cuwk ky mYN bfËI ƒ ilaf PVfAuNdf. Auh sVk ‘qy rwK ky iPr Tyzf mfrdf, “aOh geI! … ilaf Bwj ky …[ ! ! “
vwtI mgr BwijaF pqf hI nf lwgdf kdoN ipMz af igaf. bfËI duafrf mYƒ qorn leI vrqI jFdI jugq mYƒ hmyÈf qurdy rihx leI pRyrnf idMdI rihMdI hY. POj ivwc hox kfrn BfvyN mYƒ AunHF nfl bcpn guËfrn df Gwt mOkf imilaf. pr ijMnI vfrI vI sfzf myl hoieaf. hr vfrI kmfl dI gwl vfprdI sI. iewk vfrI Auh CuwtI kwt ky vfips jf rhy sn. jdoN Auh julfihaF dy ivhVy ivwcoN dI lMGy af rhy sn. mYN sfzy Gr ipwCy nyk ky KflI pey plft ivwc do iewtF ‘qy pYr rwKIN bYTf ‘do nMbr‘ kr irhf sI. bfËI ny mYƒ bYTf vyK ilaf. mYN vI AunHF vwl vyKx lwg ipaf. AunHF myry kol af ky myrI hQylI ‘qy pMjfh pYsy df iswkf ‘aiTafnI‘ rwKI qy ipafr nfl myrI gwlH pwt ky agFh qur gey. mYN aiTafnI imlx dy cfa ivwc ‘awD ivckfr hI Cwz, AuWTky Gr ƒ Bwj ilaf. Gr jFidaF hI mYN mF ƒ iswkf idKfAuNidaF cIk ijhI mfrI, “afh dy bfËI ny aiTafnI idwqI …[ [ ! ! “
Aus vkq aiTafnI dI kImq kfPI sI. hMsU dI dukfn qoN pMjI dIaF pMj imwTIaF golIaF af jFdIaF sn. myrI mF dy idmfg ivwc pqf nhIN kI skIm afeI. Auh mYƒ ds pYsy df iswkf ‘dsI` idKf ky kihMdI, “ilaf afh aiTafnI mYƒ dy dy! …[ [ ieh qF CotI aY! … qUM afh dsI lY lf! …[ dyK ieh vwzI aY …[ ! ! ``
mF dI gwl sux mYƒ hor vI KuÈI cVH geI. Auhdy hwQ PVI dsI df sfeIË swc-muwc aiTafnI qoN vwzf sI. mYN Aus ƒ aiTafnI dy ky dsI lY leI qy CflF mfrdf hoieaf bfhr ƒ Bwj ilaf. mYƒ afpxI Auh pYV-cfl kdy nhIN BuwldI. Auh myry bfl-mn ivclI PkIrI df isKr sI. Auh isKr awj vI myry aMdr kfiem hY. mYN awj vI dsI ipwCy aiTafnI vfr skdf hF.
“ieh hux Auh rfxf nI irhf! …[ ieh khfxIaF ilKdf! …[ [ qusIN iehƒ kdy hux boldy ƒ suixE …[ [ ! ! `` ijs vkq mF afey-gey ƒ mfx nfl dwsdI huMdI hY.
mYN bcpn vwl KuwlHdI iKVkI ivwcoN afpxf Auh rUp vyKx lwgdf hF ijs bfry mF kihMdI huMdI sI, “ieh qF AUeIN ruwz aY! …[ [ iehny kI rMg lfAuxY … …! ! ``

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