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“sfihb jI qusIN koeI KLbr suxI hY?”
“ikhI KLbr?” mYN Aus nUM Auqsukqf nflL puwiCaf.
“ieMdrf gFDI nUM golLI mfr idwqI.”
“iks ny?”
“kihMdy hn ik do iswKF ny mfrI hY. ieh KLbr tIvI aqy ryzIE AuWqy muV muV ky duhrfeI jf rhI hY.” ieh sLbd myry syvfdr dy sn, ijhVf mYnUM tryn qy cVHfAux leI afieaf sI aqy myry vwloN bYNc qy bYT ky koeI mYgLjLIn pVHn lwg jfx krky plytPLfrm qy ieDr AuDr qurn iPrn inkl igaf sI. Auh AuDroN KLbr lY ky muiVaf sI.
myry hwQF ivc ikqfb PVI dI PVI rih geI. mYN Ausdy ichry vwl vyK irhf sF. iesy vyly do iqMn kuwlI sfzy kol dI lMGy. Auh myry vwl Kf jfx vflIaF njLrF nfl GUr GUr vyKdy lMG gey. myrI njLr AuhnF df ipwCf krn lwgI. AuhnF ipwCy prq ky iPr myry vwl vyiKaf. lwgf ijvyN Auh myry bfry hI gwlF kr rhy sn.
“sfihb jI! tI vI ‘qy KLUn df bdlf KLUn dy nfhry lwg rhy ny.”
myry ijsm ivc BYa dI kMbxI iQrkI.
kuJ musfiPLr pihlF vI bVy ghu vwl myry vwl vyKdy lMGy sn. huux mYnUM myry vwl hr afAuNdy jFdy vwloN Eprf Eprf dyKx df sbwb pqf lwg igaf sI. mYN syvfdfr nUM ikhf ik afpxf sfmfn cukvf ky pihlI sLRyxI dy vyitMg rUm ivwc lY cwly. sfry vfqfvrn ivwc sogmeI lihr GulLI hoeI sI. ikqy vI, kuwJ vI mMdf vfpr jfx df pUrf BYa sI. iksy axikafsI siQqI nflL do cfr hox leI mY sUtkys ivwcoN afpxf ipstl kwiZaf aqy Aus dy dovyN mYgLjIn Br ley. qy afpxy afp nUM kuwJ kuwJ surwiKaq anuBv kIqf.
ieh idRsL klkwqy dy hfvVf rylvy plytPLfrm df sI.
akqUbr 1984 ivwc myrI bdlI kilafxI (bMgfl) qoN aMmirqsr (pMjfb) dI ho geI. sI ieh afrjI bdlI hI. AuWQy mYN bI aYWs aYWP dy durigafnf mMdr dy eyrIey ivwc iewk btflIan hYWzkuafrtr ivwc aYzjUtYSt dy Prj inBfAuxy sn. cotI dy lIzrF nUM kql kr dyx dIaF keI prkfr dIaF iBafnk aPvfhF afm hI suxIaF jFdIaF sn. ajyhIaF hflqF ivwc arfjkqf df PYl jfxf pUrf sMBv huMdf hY qy amn kfnUMn kfiem rwKx vflLIaF eyjYSsIaF leI ieh aOKI GVI df smF huMdI hY. so arD sYink aPsrF leI pMjfb dI positMg koeI bhuqI cMgI nhIN sI mMnIN jf skdI.
vYsy bMgfl vI myry leI suKfvF nhIN sI irhf. lwK prhyjL vrqx qy vI ishq TIk nhIN sI rihMdI. koeI nf koeI rog mYnUM GyrIN hI rwKdf sI. srIr ivwc swiqaf ijhI nhIN sI anuBv huMdI. koeI vI PrjL pUrI qrHF myry kolLoN inBf nhIN sI ho irhf. bMgfl ivwc myry phuMcx qoN pihloN myry imhnqI, swcf suwcf hox dI phuMcI sfrI hvf imwtI ivwc imlL geI sI. myrI aijhI kfrgLujLfrI kfrn myry kolLoN myry AuWc aiDkfrIaF df mfXUs ho jfxf pUrf sMBv aqy jfiejL sI. sgoN mYN qF AuWQy afpxy afp nflL vI sMqusLt nhIN sF. so soicaf gurU dI ngrI df pfxI pI ky sLfied srIr dy sfry rog kwty jfx. aKy “idwlI dy duwD vrgf, sfzy aMbrsr df pfxI”. hY qF ies soc ivwc vI pUrI gVbV sI. bilAU stfr dI srkfrI sYink kfrvfeI vylLy idwlI kihMdI sI ik aMmirqsr df pfxI pqlf Bfv gMDlLF ho igaf hY qy aMmirqsr kihMdf sI ik idwlI df duwD Puwt igaf hY. KYr dosL iksy df vI hovy pr ieh swc sI ik ies kfrvfeI nflL hjLfrF inrdoisaF df Gfx ho igaf sI.nflLy myry leI qF ‘afrzr iejL afrzr’ vflI gwl hI sI. Auh qy mMnxf hI pYxf sI. cfhy hws ky mMnoN qy cfhy ro ky.
ieh gwl ‘swc sohy isr pwg’ vFg pUrI swc sI ik myry kmFzYSt aYWs aYWs koiTafl ivwc ieh gux sI ik Auh afpxy aiDkfrIaF krmcfrIaF qoN kMm ksfeIaF vFg lYNdf sI aqy AunHF dI dyKBflL sky pwuq-BfeIaF vFg krdf sI. kilafxI qoN klkwqy dy hfvVf rylvy stysLn qIkr Aus ny mYnUM iewk jIp dy idwqI jo mYnUM AuWQy Cwz ky awgy koeI hor) izAUtI krky vfips af jfxI sI aqy myrI shfieqf leI qy mYnUM gwzI cVHfAux leI iewk syvfdfr vI nflL idwqf ijs ny iPr rylL rfhIN muV jfxf sI.
mYN loVINdy plytPfrm AuWqy afpxf sfmfn rKvfieaf qy sLfied koeI mYgjLIn pVHn lwg ipaf. tryn afAux ivwc ajy kfPI smF sI. syvfdfr stysLn AuWqy mtr gsLqI krn clf igaf. QoVHy smyN ipwCoN mYN anuBv kIqf ik afAuNdy jFdy sfry musfPr qy kulI myry vwl ies qrHF dyK rhy sn ijvyN AunHF ny mYnUM Kf jfxf hovy. pr ikEN? ies kfrn dI mYnUM koeI smJ nf afvy.
Ausy vyitMg hflL ivwc myry nyVy dI kursI AuWqy koeI pMjfh CwT sfl df hwtf kwtf iewk ivakqI bYTf sI. Aus dy BgvyN kwpVy, Aus kolL keI prkfr dIaF mflfvF afid qoN mYN Aus df koeI vI anumfn nf lf sikaf ik kI Auh koeI ihMdU hY, muslmfn hY, boDI hY, jYnI hY, jnsMGI hY jF kFgrsI hY. Aus dI bol cfl qoN Aus dy sUby df vI koeI pqf nf lwigaf. jfpdf sI ik Auh QF QF Brmx krn vflLf cwkrvrqI musfPr sI. Auh myry nflL gwlIN lwg ipaf. kihMdf, “’bMglf dysL nUM vwK krn vflLI ‘loh-lyzI df qy durgf mfqf dy rUp nUM phuMcI ieMdrf gFDI’ df ieh kYsf aMq? pr iswKF nUM Auh mfrnI nhIN afeI.” “quhfzf kI mqlb?” myry mUMhoN acfnk inwkilLaf.
“jy iswKF nUM ieMdrf gFDI vwloN drbfr sfihb AuWqy kIqy gey hmly df ros sI jF hjLfrF inrdosL srDflUaF dy kql krvfAux df Aus AuWqy dosL sI qF ieh kMm iksy ihMdU kolLoN krvfAuxf cfhIdf sI. iPr afh hox vflLf kihrI KUn Krfbf nf huMdf. jdoN mhfqmf gFDI mfiraf igaf sI, EdoN ikEN nf koeI kwt-vwZ jF luwt-mfr hoeI? kI Auh ieMdrf gFDI nflLoN koeI Coty kwd df lIzr sI? asl ivwc ieh iewk ihMdU vwloN dUjy ihMdU df kql kIqf igaf sI.” Auh boilaf
pr mYN qF afpxy aMdr iewk hor hI sMGrsL ivwZI bYTf sF. ‘ies duKFq ipwCoN pMj swq hjLfr by ksUry iswKF df kql ho jfxf mfmUlI pr pwkI gwl hY. jy mYN awj aMmirqsr leI sPr krdf hF qF rfh ivwc hI myrf mfry jfxf vI lwg pwg XkInI hY. jy mYN nhIN jFdf qF Aumr Br leI myry mwQy AuWqy zrpok hox df jF afpxI izAUtI AuWqy nf phuMcx df sdIvI dfgL lwg jfx df zr sI. mYN dohF pwKF dy ikMqU prMqUaF dI pux Cfx kr irhf sF. kdI myrf inrnf inwklLdf ik mYN hr hflq ivwc afpxI izAUtI AuWqy jfvFgf. ies leI BfvyN mYnUM afpxy prfxF dI ahUqI vI ikEN nf dyxI pvy. hor ‘zU aYNz zfeI’ kfhdy vfsqy bixaf hY. pr iksy vI hflq ivwc afpxy afp AuWqy zrpok df lybl nhIN lwgx dyxf. ies nflL qF sfry pMjfb dI bhfdrI dI bdnfmI ho jfiegI qy sfrI iswK kOm df isr nIvF ho jfiegf.
qy kdy mYN socdf ibnF iksy prfpqI dy mOq dI mUMh ivwc isr dy dyxf vI koeI isafxp nhIN hoieaf krdI. iPr ieho hI ikhf jfiegf ik ies aPsr nUM ajyhy iBafnk hflfqF ivwc sPLr krn dI mUrKLqf nhIN sI krnI cfhIdI. ijs aPLsr ny smyN isr afpxy idmfg dy kolLoN kMm hI nhIN lYxf Auh aPLsr hI kfhdf?’
socF socidaF hI idwlI pMjfb vwloN gwzIaF hfvVf stysLn AuWqy phuMcxIaF afrMB ho geIaF. iPr kuwJ smyN dI sfP sPfeI ipwCoN AunHF ny hI moVvyN sPLr AuWqy jfxf sI. qy hfvVf aMmirqsr vflLI tryn mYN lYxI sI. mYN mOky AuWqy jf ky hI sfrI siQqI df jfiejf lYxf cfihaf. afpxy sfmfn kolL syvfdfr nUM bTf ky mYN plytPfrm AuWqy igaf. pMjfbI jfpdI iewk bIbI kolLoN mYN sPr df hfl puwiCaf.
“vIrf kuwJ nf puwC!”, Auh qy myry gwl kridaF eI Puwt peI, “gLdr ipaf hoieaf hY. iswKF nUM lwB lwB ky kql kIqf jf irhf hY. sfrf rsqf asF vfihgurU! vfihgurU! kridaF kwitaf hY. afpxy afdmIaF dIaF guwqF krky, AuhnF dy isr qy cfdrF pf ky aqy GuMz Gzf ky asIN AuhnF nUM bcf ky ilafeIaF hF. vIrf vfsqf eI qUM ajy pMjfb vwl nUM mUMh nf krIN.”
‘mYN vI ikAuN nf dfVHI kys ktvf ky afpxf hulIaf bdl lvF? loV pYx qy Bys qF sfry hI bdl lYNdy hn.’ asl ivwc ajy vI pMjfb vwl sPr qy jfx leI myrf mn mYnUM Auksf irhf sI. ‘ikho ijhy idn af gey ny? afpxy hI dys ivwc sPr krn leI sO sO vyr socxf pY irhf hY.’ myrf mn ieh vI kih irhf sI, ‘qyrf ikDry vI koeI vflL nhIN ivMgf hox lwigaf. qUM sdf hI aOkVF ivwcoN pfr huMdf af irhf hYN. jdoN 62 dI cIn nflL lVfeI lwgI sI qF qUM pfiksqfn bfrzr AuWqy sYN. jdoN 65 df pfiksqfn nflL XuwD hoieaf qF qUM cIn dy bfrzr dy nyVy izAUtI kr irhf sYN. 71 dI lVfeI dy ivwc qYnUM bfrzr qoN htf ky ipwCy btflIan dy rIar hYWzkuafrtr Byj idwqf igaf sI. awsIivaF ivwc jdoN pMjfb dy ivwc BFbV blx lwgy qF qyrI positMg bMgfl dI ho geI. sLfied hux pMjfb ivwc vI hflfq suKfvyN ho jfx.’
dUjf mn ieh vI boldf sI, ‘sfry hI idn aYqvfr nhIN hoieaf krdy. jy ipwCy hr aOkV qoN bcdf irhf hYN qF hux mUrKLqf nflL afpxf twtU afp hI pfr krvf skdf hYN. so hux idl qoN nhIN sgoN sUJ qoN kMm lYx df vylLf hY.’
mYN iesy AuDyV bux ivwc AuliJaf inMmoJUxf hoieaf quiraf jf irhf sF. “sfihb jI qusIN ikwQy sI? mYN ies plytPfrm AuWqy bIh gyVy mfr idwqy hn quhfnUM lwBidaF.” iewk bI aYWs aYWP dI vrdI vflLf juafn myry sfhmxy KVHf sI. “sI E sfihb ny afh icwTI quhfzy leI ByjI hY.” Aus ny afpxI jyb ivwco iewk bMd ilPfPf myry vwl vDfieaf.
mYN icwTI KohlI. iliKaf sI,“quhfzI izptI kmFzYSt dI qrwkI ho geI hY. vfips af jfE.” mYN iewk lMbF aqy suwK df sfh ilaf. aqy icwTI ilafAux vflLy df DMnvfd kIqf.
pr ajy vI sfrIaF musIbqF df KLfqmf nhIN sI hoieaf.
mYN iswDf rylvy pulIs cOkI ivwc igaf aqy mYnUM myry afeI jI jF zI afeI jI hYWz kuafrtr dy aPLsr mYWs ivc surwiKaq phuMcfAux leI bynqI kIqI. “sfihb jI hflfq bhuq Krfb hn. quhfzI surwiKaqf sfzy bs dI gwl nhIN hY. hF iewQy sQfnk vflMtIar srdfrF dIaF kuwJ bsF afAux vflLIaF hn. Auh quhfnUM quhfzy TIk itkfxy AuWqy phuMcf dyxgy.” AunHF df spsLt AuWqr sI.
GMtf ku Br dI afs inrfsI AuzIk krn ipwCoN kiQq bsF swc muwc hI af geIaF. AunHF ny bs dI smrwQf anusfr svfrIaF leIaF. iekwly iekwly df Qhu itkfxf not kIqf. iPr cwl ky iewk pfisEN vfrI isr svfrI nUM Auqfrdy gey aqy jdoN qIkr Aus vwloN shI itkfxf aqy awgy pUrI surwiKaqf dI hfmI nf Br idwqI geI bs nUM iewk kdm vI awgy nhIN qoiraf. qy mYN afeI jI hYWz kuafrtr dy aPsr mYWs ivwc surwiKaq phuMc igaf.
jdoN mYN ies BYa qoN mukq hoieaf qF mYnUM iewk hor iPkr ny af dboicaf. asl ivwc gwl ieh sI ik myry kflj dI pVHfeI krdy smy iewk hm Aumr ny myry nflL ivafh krn dy kOl iekrfr kIqy sn. pr smF pf ky pqf lwigaf ik smyN nUM ieh myl mnjLUr nhIN sI qy dohF dy rfh inwKV gey. myrI nOkrI jMmU ksLmIr vwl nUM bhuqI rhI qy Ausdf df pqI klkwqy kMm krdf sI. hux jdoN myrI positMg klkwqy dy eyrIey dI ho geI qF mn ivwc iewk dUjy df hfl cfl jfnx dI iewCf prbl ho AuWTI. myry iewk imwqr aPsr ny, ijs dI klkwqy ivwc nOkrI sI, klkwqy ivwc GuMmx leI mYnUM iewk jIp dy idwqI aqy nflL klkwqy dy cwpy cwpy qoN jfxUM iewk juafn gfeIz dy qOr qy nflL dy idwqf. Auh mYnUM puwC puCf ky Ausdy Gr lY igaf. jfx pihcfx duhrfeI geI. Aus dy sfry hI bwcy Gr sn. AunHF dy vI drsLn dIdfry ho gey. mIsLf dy sLbdF ivwc iPr iewk dUjy dI KLYr suwK mMgdy judf ho gey.
ieh sfrI khfxI mYN pMjfb rihMdI afpxI supqnI nUM vI ilK ByjI. jd koeI mn ivwc cor hI nhIN iPr zr kfhdf. supqnI ny mYnUM muV nf imlx dI qfkId kIqI ik ies myl jol dy iswty BYVy inwklL skdy hn. qy mYN ies soc dI pUrI pUrI hfmI Et leI.
hux jdoN ik myry mn ivwc pUry df pUrf klkwqf hI mfrU lftF ivwc lt lt blL irhf sI qy mYN ikvyN afrfm nflL sON skdf sF. myrf mn kry ik mYN iewk pMCI hovF qy mfr AuzfrI sfry klkwqy dI suwK sfr lY afvF. bukfro, idwlI, kfhnpur afid ivwc iswKF AuWqy mfrU hwilaF dIaF KLbrF af rhIaF sn. klkwqy ivwc vI ikDry ikDry awgF lwgIaF sn. pr joqIbfsU dI srkfr ny ies AuWqy CyqI hI kfbU pf ilaf.
agly idn myry leI gwzI aqy gfrd iqafr sI qy mYN Aus rfhIN afpxy btflIan hYWz kuafrtr leI cwl ipaf. klkwqf Cwzx qoN pihloN mYN iswKF dI afbfdI vwl iewk cwkr lfieaf. ijwQy jf ky pqf cwilaf ik Aus ielfky ivwc sB suwK sFqI sI aqy AuWQy koeI vI mMdBfgI Gtnf nhIN sI vfprI. sLfied mn ivwc aKLIrlf iPkr vI hux Doqf igaf.
myry btflIan hYz kuafrtr kilafxI ivwc phuMcx qoN ipwCoN AuWQy sQfnk Qfxy df Qfxydfr afieaf aqy Aus ny dwisaf ik iswKF dy pwcI trwk Qfxy dy awgy KVHy hn. AunHF dI rfKI hux qIkr Qfxy ny kIqI hY qy hux asIN hor rfKI nhIN kr skdy. jy afigaf hovy qF AunHF nUM quhfzy kYSps ivwc Cwz jfeIey. sfzy kmFzYSt ny afigaf dy idwqI. so pwcI qoN krdy krdy lwg pwg 50 trwk sfzy kolL af gey. AunHF sfiraF dI surwiKaqf df aqy Kfx pIx, rihx sihx df prbMD kr ky Aus QF qoN asIN vfips af hI rhy sI ik sfzf iewk sfQI bMgflI aPsr, ijs ny zirMk kIqI hoeI sI, cuwp cupIqI rfq aMdr Aus ny iewk AuWcI cIk mfrI, “mfr idwqI Auie pUar lyzI!”
ieh sux ky asIN sfry hI hwky bwky ho gey.
“sflLf pfgl aPsr hY. ibgVI hoeI siQqI nUM hor ibgfVn nUM iPrdY.” btflIan df tU-afeI sI boilaf.
kI Aus nUM ieMdrf gFDI dy mfry jfx df duwK sI jF iPr ienHF iswK zrfeIvrF nUM afpxI sFB sMBflL ivwc lY lYx df ros? mYN soc irhf sI, pr ieh gwl mYN awj qIkr vI nhIN smJ sikaf.