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mYnUM nhIN pqf sI ik ds sflF qoN myrf blwz pRYsLr ikAuN vD irhf hY. hyTF vflf blwz pRYsLr 110 qwk clf jFdf sI. 1994’c bI pI dI smiwsaf afrMB hoeI sI, zfktrF dI pkV’c mrjL nhIN afeI.
2003 ivwc mYnUM ijLafdf qklIPL afrMB ho geI. iewk rfq myrf pysLfb ruk igaf, sfrI rfq mYN qVPL ky kwtI. myry pUry pyt dI skYn hoeI. skYn dI irport iqafr hoeI, mYN do smwisafvF nfl pIiVq sI. bwcydfnI’c 30 guxf 30 dI isst sI. ievyN hI ikznI’c 28 guxf 30 aYm aYm dI isst (gMZ) sI, ikznI vflI smwisaf bfad ivwc 40 guxf 40 qwk puwj geI. asl ivwc ikznI isst Kqrnfk itAUmr sI. skYn’c gwl spwsLt nhIN sI, pRsLn icMnH irport awgy lwgf hoieaf sI.
srkfrI hspqfl df iewk myrf hor vfikPL zfktr sI , Auhny mYnUM sLrfb pI ky PLon kr idwqf, “qYnUM qy kdy vI bwcf nhIN ho skdf, qyrI smwisaf gMBIr hY.” sLrfbI sI, gwlF Auhny myry mUMh’qy mfrIaF, mYnUM bhuq vwzf Jtkf lwgf. myry aMdr dI mmqf jfg peI. mYN inMmoJUxI ho ky iekwlI bYTI qVPdI rhI. myry awgy bFJ aOrqF dIaF kqfrF GuMmx lwgIaF, mfsUm bwicaF dIaF qoqlIaF afvfjLF myry kMnF’c pYx lwgIaF. aOrq dy aMdr jo bwcy leI aihsfs huMdf hY, mYnUM Aus dI pIV suxfeI idwqI.
hoimEpYQI dvfeI nfl mYnUM ipsLfb qF afAux lwg ipaf. kuJ gwlF’qy iDafn kIqf, ijnHF qoN lgdf sI bwcydfnI dI smwisaf KLqm ho geI hY. bwcydfnI dI isst pfxI vflI sI, Auh KLqm ho geI. ikznI dI smiwsaf vD geI sI. zyZ sfl bIq igaf. myry koloN lMmy pYxf bMd ho igaf, mYN kuJ vI pVH nhIN skdI sI. mYN bgYr pfsf ley sfrI-sfrI rfq peI qVPdI rihxf, myry koloN bFh qwk nf AuWpr cuwkI jfxI, rMg myrf suafh vrgf ho igaf, mYN afpxy vfl qwk vfhux qoN asmrwQ sI, sfh myrf AuWKVdf, klfs’c myry qoN hfjLrI qwk nf lf hoxI. iZwz myrf Ptx nUM krnf, mYnUM lgxf myry PyPVy JV gey hn. sfrf Kfxf-pIxf myrf bMd hI sI.
mYN afpxI mF nUM prysLfn nhIN krnf cfhuMdI sI. mYN bwqI bMd krky sfrI sfrI rfq jfgidaF qVPL ky kwtdI.
jlMDr ikznI hspqfl vflf cfhl zfktr myry ipRMsIpl sr df vfkPL sI. myry bfpU qy vwzy BfeI dI mOq hox krky kflj df pUrf stfPL hI myry nfl hmdrdI rwKdf. ipRMsIpl sr ny mYnUM ikznI hspqfl jfx leI afiKaf.
sLfied zf: KulHr sI, XMg ijhf. Auhny ikznI hspqfl myrI skYn kIqI. zfktr Gbrf ijhf igaf, Auhdy ichry dy hfvF BfvF ny mYnUM vI gMBIr kr idwqf. iqMn-iqMn vfrI myrI skYn kIqI Auhny. dUjy kmry’coN cfhl zfktr nUM swd ky myrI skYn krky AuhnUM idKfeI.
vfr-vfr skYn krn nfl myrI qklIPL pihlF nfloN ijLafdf vD geI. mYnUM zfktr ny aYWm afr afeI vI krvfAux leI jldI qoN jldI afiKaf. aYWm afr afeI hoeI, ipsLfb qF myry koloN roikaf nhIN jFdf sI, Auh myrf skYn nf krn. GroN mYN iewklI hI clI geI.
myrf msLIn’c peI df dm Guwt irhf sI. mYnUM lgdf sI mYN msLIn’c peI peI hI mr jfvFgI. mYN hwQ-pYr mfrny afrMB kr idwqy. msLIn dI gV-gV dI afvfjL afAuNdI. zfktr mYnUM koeI hdfieq idMdf, mYN AuWcI-AuWcI rOlf pfAuxf sLurU kr idwqf, mYnUM bfhr kwZo, mYN mr jfvFgI. iqMn alwg-alwg msLInF’c mYnUM pfieaf igaf. iqMn-cfr GMty mYnUM msLInF’c pfeI gey. myrI bws ho geI sI. ipsLfb roikaf nf jfvy. mYnUM lwg irhf sI, myrf ipsLfb ivwcy hI inkl jfvygf.
pihlIaF irportF ikznI isst dIaF sn. asl’c smwisaf hor inklI, Adrenal glYNz nfl itAUmr af igaf. 40 guxf 40 aYWm aYWm sfeIjL inkilaf. lwKF bMidaF ipwCy aijhI smiwsaf iewk awD mrIjL’c pfeI jFdI hY.
iewk do zfktrF ny irport pVH ky afK idwqf, ‘kYNsr dI sLurUafq hY, myry 24 GMty dy ipsLfb df iewk tYst (vI aYm ey) idwlI hoieaf. vI aYm ey dI irport awgy vI pRsLn icMnH sI.
mYN irportF Poto styt krvf leIaF. aMimRqsr myrf iewk pwqrkfr vfkPL sI, Auhny sr gMgf rfm hspqfl dI slfh idwqI, spYsLilst zfktr nfl gwl krky. mYN nhIN cfhuMdI sI ik Epn srjrI hovy.lyjLr srjrI bMglOr jF idwlI hoxI sI.
rsOlIaF bfry mYN jfnx dI koisLsL kIqI, iqMn iksm dy bfry dwisaf igaf. asl ivwc myrf kys sIrIas sI, ieh ijhVf mfs iekwTf ho igaf sI jF mfs vD igaf sI, ieh pUrI jLihr bx cuwikaf sI, PYlx dI dyr sI, mYN kUc kr jfxf sI.
ijs idn mYnUM iewk zfktr ny afiKaf, kYNsr dI sLurUafq hY. mYN kuJ vI nf KfDf. mYN drvfjLy bMd krky sfrf idn roNdI rhI. smwisaf ieh sI ik mYN afpxI gwl afKF qF ikhnUM afKF, koeI Gr myrI gwl suxn vflf qF hY nhIN sI. mYN rfq nUM AuPL qwk nf krdI ik ikqy myrI mF nUM myrI qklIPL df aihsfs nf ho jfvy. iksy-iksy rfq mYN eynf qVPLdI ik myry afp-muhfry hMJU vih qurdy.
ikznI hspqfl vfilaF ny mYnUM Jtpt apRysLn krvfAux dI slfh idwqI. mYnUM idnoN idn afpxI mOq nyVy afeI lgdI. iewk pfsy mYN mr rhI sI, dUsry pfsy myry kol eyny pYsy nhIN sn ik mYN Jwt apRysLn leI iqafr ho jFdI.
20 mfrc nUM mYN jlMDr geI, 28 qrIk apRysLn dI lY afeI. gwl 25,000 dI hoeI qy lwigaf iewk lwK. ijMny ku pYsy kol sn, Auh mYN iekwTy kIqy, myrI pihly sYsLn dI sYlrI pihlF hI AuWz cuwkI sI. jo ies sYsLn df bicaf mYN lY afeI. ivckfrly idn mYN pYsy iekwTy krn nUM lfey.mYnUM qyjL dvfeI idwqI hoeI sI. mYN tuafilt ivwc hI izwg peI. Gr dy mYnUM cuwk ky lY gey, asl ivwc dvfeIaF hspqfl ivwc aYzimt ho ky Kfx vflIaF sn, pr mYN Gr lY afeI sI.
iewk apRysLn df zr dUjf pYisaF dI smiwsaf. mYN afpxy zfktr nUM afK idwqf, jykr mYN mr geI, myrI zYWz bfzI mYzIkl irsrc leI dfn kr idE, qF ik mYN mr ky iksy dy kMm af skF.
mYN 28 mfrc 2005 nUM hspqfl ivwc dfKl hoeI. iqMn jxy myry nfl sn, mYN qy myrI BrjfeI sLfm qwk rih geIaF. 29 dI svyr nUM myrI srjrI hoxI sI.bMdf koeI nfl nhIN sI. suMn krn vflf tIkf bI aYm sI cONk ivwcoN imlxf sI, hux kIqf kI jfvy. ajy qF pihlf hI hspqfl df idn sI. nfl dy bYWz’qy jo mrIjL sI, AuhnUM vyKx iewk lVkf afieaf hooieaf sI. 2000 rupey Auhdy kol dy qF bYTI, pr mYnUM zr lwgI jfvy, axjfx muMzf pYsy lY ky nf Bwj jfvy. tIkf lY vI afvy?
28 dI rfq mYnUM apRysLn dI iqafrI’c hspqfl GuMmfAuNdy rhy. iqafrI dy bfvjUd myrf afpRysLn nf ho sikaf. myry srIr ivwc KULn dI mfqrf 6 aYWc bI hox krky myrf apRysLn kYNsl ho igaf. myrf sfrf vfrz kYNsr dIaF mrIjL aOrqF nfl Biraf ipaf sI. lgfqfr mYnUM blwz cVHfieaf igaf. zfktr myry mobfeIl qoN duKI sI. pr AuhnUM pqf hoxf cfhIdf sI ik mYN sfrf aryNjmYNt bYWz’qy pY ky krnf sI. do hI boqlF df pihlF pRbMD ho sikaf. myry vfrz ivwc sB ey-pfijLitv gruwp hI kYNsr dy mrIjLF nUM cVHfieaf jf irhf sI. aglIaF boqlF ijMnI dyr nhIN imlxIaF sI, myrf afpRysLn nhIN ho skxf sI.
zirwp myry lgfqfr lfeI rwKdy. mYN jdoN awk jFdI, Kud hI qyjL kr lYNdI. ikqfbF, aKbfrF nrsF nUM aVcx ijhI pfAuiNdIaF. myry isr duafly sfry vfrz ivwc kYNsr dy mrIjLF dIaF lfeInF lwgIaF sn. mYN afly-duafly pey mrIjLF nUM bVy ghu nfl qwkdI. AunHF dy ipwCy kOx af irhf, kOx nhIN, ienHF gwlF vwl iDafn idMdI.
KUn cVHfAux vyly mYnUM ijLafdf musLikl huMdI. myry hwQ, bfhF nIly ho gey. KUn dIaF swq boqlF mYnUM cfVIaF. iewk BfeI dy igaf, dUjI dUr df irsLqydfr, qIjI myrf sLuBicMqk, cOQI iewk nfl dy ipMz df muMzf qy iqMn boqlF df ijLMmf myrI ividafrQx anIqf dy ijLMmy jFdf hY.
geI qF hspqfl Auh KUn dyx sI, pr Auhdf gruwp hor inkilaf,awgoN myry iewk ividafrQI df itAUtr sI qy Auh itAUtr dy gVHsLMkr do imwqr sn. anIqf myrI ividafrQx myry nfl bwJ ky bYT geI, Gr prqx df nFa nhIN sI lY rhI. do idnF mgroNAuhdy pypr sn. Auh myry Bly leI AuWQy bYT ky myrI syvf krnI cfhuMdI sI, pr mYnUM pqf sI, Auh afpxf nuksfn kr rhI hY.
suirMdr myrf ividafrQI do idn sYkrz hspqfl myry ipwCy KUn vfsqy muMzy lY ky jFdf irhf. mYN nfl dy mrIjLF dI hYlp krdI. gwlFbfqF suxdI mn hor pfsy pY jFdf. bMdy dy aMdr iewk zr huMdf hY ik mYN pqf nhIN ijAUNdy bcxf hY jF nhIN, mYN afpxy mn dI gwl iksy nfl sFJI qF kr nhIN ksxI sI. kOx sI, myrI gwl suxn vflf?
sfzy iewk irsLqydfr df Pon af igaf, muMzf bfhroN afieaf hY, ivafh kr dyeIey. mMYN mOq nfl lV rhI sI qy irsLqydfrF nUM myry ivafh dI peI hoeI sI.
2 apRYl 2005 dI svyr mYnUM apRysLn QIeytr’c lY gey. iewkdm KUn df dbfa vD ky myrI jfn jf skdI sI. ijhVf zfktr byhosLI df tIkf lfAuNdf hY, gwl Auhdy’qy Cwz idwqI geI, jykr Auh hF krygf qF hI apRysLn hovygf. mMYN zfktr nUM afiKaf, myrf bI pI ikvyN Gtygf, ieh mYnUM pqf hY, mYnUM irlYks hox idE, cMgy qrIky nfl sOx idE, mYnUM GuMmx-iPrn idE, mYnUM cMgI-BlI nUM bYWz’qy bMnH ky nf ibTfE.
apRysLn qF agly idn qy pY igaf. dubfrf qrIk imwQI jfxI sI, zfktr ny mYnUM bjLfr jfx leI afiKaf ik jfh jf ky mUvI vyK af. mMYN sLihr’c af ky ‘jLihr’ mUvI vyKI. hspqfl mYN kYNsr dy mrIjL Cwz ky afeI. mUvI df ivsLf vI kYNsr duafly GuMmI jfvy. ipwCy hspqfl BfbI af ky AuzIk kr rhI sI.
vfps hspqfl afeI rotI Kfx nUM mn nf kry. mYN hspfl qoN bor ho cuwkI sI. afpxf sfrf smfn borI-ibsqrf hspqfl dI almfrI ivwc suwitaf . mYN Bwj afeI Gr nUM. Gr sfry hYrfn prysLfn, ieh kI kIqf. myrf rqI Br vfps muVn df ierfdf nhIN sI. asl ivwc pYsy keI sfry pihlF hI AuhnF ny jmHF krvfey sn.
apRysLn krfvey qoN bgYr cfrf qF hY nhIN sI. zfktr rfq nUM rfAUNz’qy afieaf. mrIjL Bwj cuwikaf sI. zfktr ny myrf Pon nMbr ilaf. mYnUM Auhny Pon’qy iJVky mfrny afrMB kr idwqy. mYnUM zfktr ny 10 vjy bYWz’qy phuMcx dI vfrinMg idwqI. myry hspqfloN Bwj afAux nfl zfktr myry qoN bhuq iKJ igaf sI. myrf apRysLn CuwtI vfly idn hI krn df PYslf kIqf igaf. 4 apRYl nUM sB qoN pihlF mYnUM ipsLfb dI nflI lfeI geI, mYnUM bhuq ijLafdf qklIPL hoeI. myrI KwbI bFh’c tIky lfey, myrI grdn koloN mfs suMn kIqf igaf. keI jfixaF ny mYnUM lwqF-bfhF qoN PVH ilaf. mMYnUM kwTI kr idwqf igaf. bhuq jLor nfl byhosL krn leI rIVH dI hwzI ivwc tIkf lfieaf.
afeI sI XU dI pihlI rfq mYnUM aihsfs hoieaf, mYN pUrI qrHF vwZI hoeI hF, ieho ijhI kwt dI lihr sI, Auh mYN sLbdF ivwc nhIN ilK skdI.
mYN jvfn sI, myrI srjrI vI Kqrnfk sI, qkrIbn sfry zfktr hI myry nfl ipafr krdy. igwT ku df myry Jwgf ijhf pfieaf hoieaf sI.
mYN dUjy idn vI nIm-byhosLI ivwc hI sI. mYnUM eynf ku Xfd hY ik zfktr ny mYnUM PVH ky ibTfAux dI koisLsL kIqI, mYN bYT nf skI. myrIaF awKF hI nF KulHIaF. mMYnUM bhuq ijLafdf cwkr af rhy sn. mYN ibTfAuNidaF sfr hI luVk geI. do idn qF mYnUM afeI sI XU ivwc koeI surq nhIN sI. myry iZwz nUM isLkMjf ijvyN lwgf huMdf hY, ievyN iKwc peI hoeI sI. GridaF nUM isrPL idn’c iqMn vfrI hI pMj imMt myry kol KVHn dI iejfjLq sI.
dUjy idn mYN mfVI ijhI awK pwtI. mMYnUM vwzIaF-vwzIaF msLInF nfl joiVaf hoieaf sI. myrI afksIjn AuqfrI geI. afly-duafly mrIjLF df cIk-ichfVf , vwzIaF-vwzIaF msLInF peIaF sn. qIjy idn dI sLfm iewk nOjvfn aOrq myry nfl dy bYz’qy mr geI. nrsF iblkul nfrml sn, AuhnF dy ichry’qy koeI vI hmdrdI df Bfv nhIN sI. myry sfhmxy vfly bYWz’qy bjLurg bMdy dIaF AuhnF bfhvF bMnHIaF hoeIaF sn. Aus nUM ijMny pfeIp vgYrf lfey hoey sn, Auh vfr-vfr hwQF nfl kwZ irhf sI.
nrs afeI, Auhny mYnUM aflf-duaflf nf dyKx dI hdfieq idwqI. nrsF qy zfktrF nUM vyK ky lgdf ijvyN iehnF dy aMdr koeI hmdrdI dI Bfvnf hI nhIN huMdI.
zf: sozI myry nfl bhuq vDIaf zIl krdf. Auh mYnUM hosL afeI’qy afeI sI XU’c imlx afieaf. mNMY Auhdy afAux’qy rox lwg peI. “rfjy qUM ro nf, dws kI pIxf eyN jUs pIeyNgI jF cfh.” Auh mYnUM hmysLF rfjy afK ky bulfAuNdf. pihlI cfh df Guwt zf sozI vwloN Byijaf pIqf. mYN zfktr nUM kI afKdI ik ‘mYN iewklf mihsUs kr rhI hF jF myry ipwCy koeI afieaf nhIN hY, koeI irsLqydfr myry mgr nf Zuwikaf.’
qIjI sLfm myry duafilEN qfrF df jfl KoilHaf igaf, qkrIbn myrf sfrf srIr typF nfl bMinaf igaf sI. QF-QF qfrF lwgIaF sn. mYnUM jnrl vfrz ivwc ilaFdf igaf.
5 idn apRysLn nUM ho gey sn, myrf Brf nf afieaf. koeI irsLqydfr ipwCy nf Zuwikaf, sB zrdy sn, KUn dyxf pY jfvygf, pYsy dyxy pY jfxy hn.
myrI 7 mhIinaF dI qnKfh qF pihly iqMn idnF ivwc hI AuWz geI sI, ijs idn aYm afr afeI hoeI sI 3500 dyxf cuiBaf, pr Aus qoN bfad mn krVf kr ilaf, pYsy dI kImq vI qd hY, jy mYN ijAUNdI bc geI. jykr mr geI qF pYsf iks kMm df. muV mYN pYsy bfry nf soicaf. mYN mn nUM krVf kr ilaf, jIxf hY, pYsy dI pRvfh nhIN krnI. pRfeIvyt nOkrI, Gr koeI kmfeI df sfDn nf hovy, AuWproN 6 jIaF df Krcf myry isr. iewk lwK df KrcLf myry isr. iewk lwK df Krcf myry vws df rog nhIN sI.
mYN idno idn mOq dy mUMh ivwc jf rhI sI. myrf iewk PYn hY zubeI ivwc. Auhny myrI apRysLn vly mdd kIqI.
mYN AuhnUM awj qwk nhIN vyiKaf, pr myry sfhF nUM bcfAux leI Auh ajnbI myry afpixaF qoN vI awgy afieaf. myry kflj df stfPL, Tykydfr suirMdr iCMdf aqy blijLdr mfn myrI mdd krn leI mOky’qy puwjy. myry njLdIkI irsLqydfr jF iksy sky-sMbMDI ny myry hwQ AuWqy kdI pMjI qwk nhIN DrI. iewk qF mYN mfnisk qOr’qy pRysLfn, AuWproN myry qy afriQk boJ. mMYN afpxy afp nUM bhuq ijLafdf hI iekwlf mihsUs kr rhI sI. aMdroN mYN pUrI qrHF tuwt cuwkI sI, pr mYN afpxI mF dy sfhmxy sI qwk nf krdI. mYN sfrf duwK-drd aMdroN-aMdrIN cuwp-cupIqy pI rhI sI.
gurmyl ivrk mMz ipMz qoN myrf pihlf pRsMsk sI. kfPLI dyr dy sfzy cMgy sMbMD bx cuwky hn. Auh myrf vwzf BfeI jlMDr dy nyVy hox krky rotI lY ky afAuNdf, iPr izAUtI dyx clf jFdf.
keI vfr mYN socdI hF ies klm ny mYnUM ikMny sfry irsLqy nfqy idwqy hn, afpixaF qoN bygfngI dI bU afAuNdI hY, pr ieh ijhVy klmI irsLqy hn, ikMny myry duwK vyly myrf iKafl krdy hn.
iewk myrf pRsMsk blvIr Auhdf nFa hY. AuhnUM mYN jFdy nUM hI koeI nf koeI kMm bfhr krky afAux vflf afK dyxf. Auh mYnUM imlx afieaf. myry ividafrQI myry ipwCy af-jf rhy sn. myrf iewko-iewk sLuBicMqk, ijs ny iewk awDf idn hI nfgf pfieaf hovygf, rojL afAuNdf jFdf irhf. myrf cfcf pMj ku idnF mgroN igaf. mYN cfcy dy afAux AuWqy Puwt Puwt ky rox lwg peI. pMj idn ho gey sn apRysLn hoey nUM, myrf Brf vI mYnUM vyKx nhIN Zuwikaf sI. irsLqydfrF ny qF mOky isr vwZI AuNgl’qy mUiqaf qwk nf. myry sfihqk Kyqr dy ijMny ku bMidaF nUM dwisaf sI, Auh sB mOky’qy puwjy, ijMnI AunHF dI vfh-pysL geI, AunHF myrI shfieqf kIqI.
pMj idn mYnUM iswDI lMmI peI nUM ho gey sn. mYN pYr qwk nhIN ajy ihlfieaf sI. zfktr myrf mYnUM qurn leI iJVky mfrdf sI. 8 vjy dy rfAUNz’qy zfktr mYnUM afAuNdf hI pY igaf, “qUM qurdI ikAuN nhIN?” mYN afiKaf, “myry kwpVy Krfb hn, mYN nhIN iksy dy sfhmxy KVH skdI, myrf pjfmf iBwijaf ipaf hY, ipsLfb ivwcy af-af ky.”
myry vfrz ivwc hI iewk gwzIaF vfilaF dI qIvIN dfKl hoeI sI. Auhdy aMdr bwcy dI sPLfeI krn nfl jLihr PYl cuwkf sI, Auh mOq nfl lV rhI sI. bhuq sfrIaF nrsF Auhdy duafly lwgIaF hoeIaF sn. mslf ieh sI ik Auhdf pqI juwqIaF gwTdf sI qy Aus kol pYsy nhIN sn. Auh ijMnI dyr pYsy iekwTy kr ky nhIN ilafieaf, EnI dyr AuhdI pqnI qVPLdI rhI. pYsy afey, iPr Ehdf apRysLn kIqf igaf.
afeI sI XU qoN bfhr af ky mYnUM KMG lwg geI. mMYnUM sfh afAuxf bMd ho igaf. gwl asl’c ieh sI ik jykr mYN jLor dI KMGdI qF myry tFky iKwcy jFdy sn. mYnUM vfr-vfr BfPL idwqI jFdI. keI-keI dyr mYnUM sfh nf afAuNdf. AuWproN zfktr af ky iJVky mfrdf, aKy ieh nKry krdI hY. mYN kfhdy leI nKLry krny sn.
myry dubfrf aYksry kIqy gey. mMYnUM vIlH-cyar’qy ilaf rhy sn, mYN byhosL ho geI. aprysLn qoN pihly 10 idn myrf bYWz hor pfsy sI. myry nfl do bjLurg aOrqF kYNsr dIaF mrIjL sn. iblkul nfl vflI bjLurg aOrq dy nUMh-puwq Auhdy kol bYTy sfrI rfq AusdI syvf krdy rihMdy, lwgdf sI mfeI ny koeI cMgy kMm kIqy hn, ijhVf Auhdf pirvfr eynI syvf krdf hY. mfeI ny mYnUM afpxI jvfnI dIaF gwlF suxfeI jfxIaF.
Auhdf poqf nfly pVHfeI krdf, nfly dfdI dI syvf krdf. pUrf mfhOl sfihqk ijhf ho jFdf. myry afly-duafly qF Gr vFg hI ikqfbF iKwlrIaF peIaF sn. byby nUM iewk idn mfzrn ijhI kuVI KLUn dI boql dy geI, “byby ikqy ieh nf afKx lwg peIN ik jvfn kuVI df KUn lY ky mYN trYzI’qy ibAUtI pfrlr jfxf hY. mYN byby nUM afiKaf, ikqy hor nf, jy koeI amlI KUn dy igaf, zozy hI mMgx lwg peIey. sfzf mfhOl vkq kwtx leI KusLgvfr bx jFdf. byby mYnUM bhuq gwlF suxf-suxf ky hsfAuNdI rihMdI. myry nfl hI iewk bYWz Cwz ky dUjI byby dy vfl qF isr qoN sfry hI lih cuwky sn. byby nfl Auhdf bjLurg pqI afieaf hoieaf sI. ikMny idn ho gey sn bjLurg BfeIey dy ipwCy koeI nhIN Zuwikaf sI. BfeIaf byby nUM iekwlI hI keI idnF qoN hspqfl ivwc sMBfl irhf sI. BfeIey’qy mYnUM bhuq qrs afAUNdf. BfeIaf sfry idn ivwc iewk-awD vfr hI rotI KFdf. koeI nUMh-puwq ipwCy nf Zuwikaf. puwqF ny jLmIn nUM aMgUTf lvf ilaf sI, bfpU rVy kwZ mfiraf sI, nUMh hspqfl afeI, KUn nf dyx df bhfnf mfr ky clI geI. ‘mYN qF pihlF hI ibmfr hF, afpxy puwq df KUn lY lvo.’ BfeIey dI iewk idn kuVI afeI. myry koloN irhf nf igaf, mYN qy afK hI idwqf, “byby nfl qusIN BfeIaf vI mfr dyxf hY, koeI BfeIey dI af ky bfq puwiCaf kro.” BfeIaf mYnUM do vfr afeI sI XU ivwc vyKx jFdf. myry mn nUM bVI qswlI ijhI huMdI. hspqfl ivwc sfzf sfiraF df duwKF-qklIPLF ivwc iewk pirvfr bx cuwkf sI.
iewk idn awDKV qIvIN kYNsr dI mrIjL afeI, Ausny bhuq cIkF mfrIaF, myry koloN AuhnUM vyiKaf nhIN jf irhf sI. AuhdI mF ny mYnUM dwisaf ik iehdf pqI iehnUM Cwz ky clf igaf hY, myry isr’qy afdmI nhIN hY, ieh kYNsr dI mrIjL ho cuwkI hY, myrf buwZf srIr iehnUM ikMnI dyr lY ky GuMmygf. qIvIN PrsL AuWpr hI drd nfl iltdI jfvy, myry koloN AuhdI hflq nf vyKI jfvy. iewk idn Cy-swq sflF df kYNsr df mrIjL muMzf hspqfl ivwc KLUn bdlI krvfAux afieaf sI. bfpU Auhdf afKdf sI, iehdf iewk vfrI kYNsr df aprysLn ho cuwkf hY. KUn bdlI krvfAux leI afAuxf pYNdf hY. Auh mfsUm muMzf gulUkojL dI boql lY ky GuMmI jfvy. asl’c Coty bwicaF df eynI vwzI ibmfrI nfl jUJxf ikMnf musLikl huMdf hY. kdy mYN Aus muMzy vwl vyKxf kdy afpxy vwl. ho skdf koeI pUrbly krmF df ihsfb-ikqfb hovy…….
afpxy afp nUM mYN keI suafl puwCdI ik ieh ieMnf vwzf hfdsf myry nfl ikAuN vfpiraf. aprysLn dI gwl nhIN huMdI. jdoN iewk jvfn kuVI nfl kuJ aijhf ho jFdf hY, AuhdI kdr Gt jFdI hY, ivafh qoN bfad jo mrjLI ho jfvy, ivafh qoN pihlF aijhf hoxf, kImq Gtx vflI gwl huMdI hY. sfzI susfietI qF mrd pRDfn smfj hY. srIrk duwK qF mYN ijhVf pfAuxf sI, pfieaf hI, pr mYN mfnisk sMqfp vI bhuq Boigaf.
6vF idn sI myry aprysLn hoey nUM. rfq df zfktr mYnUM iJVky mfr igaf sI. svyry mYN do ku kdm puwtx dI ihMmq kIqI, mYnUM mx-mx pwky cwkr afey. BrjfeI myrI ny mYnUM shfrf idwqf. myrf srIr sfQ nhIN dy irhf sI. mYN QfeyN hI bYT geI. 6vyN ku idn mYN Borf ku pIs brYWz df KfDf. mYnUM ieh vI zr sI ik jykr mYN kuJ KfvFgI, mYnUM lYtrIn jfxf pvygf, jf mYN skdI nhIN sI, iksy koloN afpxf gMd cukfAuxf mYN nhIN sI cfhuMdI. bhuq nmosLI huMdI hY, jdoN bMdf lfcfr ipaf iksy koloN afpxf gMd cukfAux leI muhqfj hovy.
CotI BrjfeI myrI iqMn ku vfrI afeI sI, awj vwzI BrjfeI nUM koeI jLrUrI kMm sI. myry vwzy Brf dI mOq ho cukI hY, bfpU myrf BfeI dy mgroN hI qur igaf. Gr asIN 5 jxIaF rihMdIaF hF. myrI mF, BrjfeI, BrjfeI dIaF do kuVIaF qy mYN. kdy-kdy hwsIdf hY ik ieh qF qIvIaF df afsLrm hI hY. 8 sflF qoN myry isr Gr dIaF ijLMmyvfrIaF pY geIaF hn. afh, hspqfl dI ijLMmyvfrI hor vI vwzI sI. bMidaF dI ikMnI jLrUrq huMdI hY, ieh mYnUM Coty-Coty kMm krdI nUM mihsUs huMdf hY.
BrjfeI df Gr puwjxf jLrUrI sI. hspqfl qoN sfry sky-sMbMDIaF nUM Pon kIqf igaf, awj iewk rfq af ky vkq ktf idE, bs iewk idn dI qF gwl hY. iksy vI irsL qydfr ny afAux leI hF nhIN kIqI. Cotf Brf-BrjfeI vI bhfnf lf gey. aMnHI mF myrI ikvyN af skdI sI. mYN qy myrI BrjfeI dovF ny roxf sLurU kr idwqf. mMYN afpxf mn krVf kIqf. roxf bMd krky BrjfeI afpxI nUM Byj idwqf. dUjf koeI rsqf nhIN sI.
mMYN qF iswDI-spft lMmI peI sI. swq GMty mYN iekwlI ny kwty. mYN afpxI irsLqydfrI qoN bfhr do jixaF nUM PLon kIqf. sfzy ipMz iewk aOrq hY, mYN AuhnUM BYx afKdI hF, jdoN ikqy myrf mn koeI cIjL mMgx df hovy, BYx mYnUM afh ilaf ky dyvIN, aYvyN mn hlkf krnf huMdf hY, mYN ikhVf kuJ lYxf huMdf hY.
myrI BYx af rhI hY hspqfl, mYnUM cfa cVH igaf. swq GMty mYN iekwlI ny kwt ley. BYx myrI QwkI-tuwtI hspqfl puwjI hY. myrf sLuBicMqk vI hspqfl puwj igaf hY. dovyN myry bgfny hn, pr qklIPL vyly dovyN myry kol hn, ies leI dovyN hspqfl’c mYnUM afpxy lgdy hn. BYx myrI myry vfsqy kMtIn qoN smosy lY ky geI hY, mYN qF kuJ Kf hI nhIN rhI sI. mYnUM dohF dy afAux’qy cfa cVH igaf. myry hMJU mYnUM Buwl gey. rfq nUM myry bYWz duafly dovyN suwqy pey sn. dovF vwl mYN mUMh Gumf ky vyK rhI hF, awDI rfq nUM mYnUM bhuq ipafs lwg geI , kuJ Kfx nUM mn kr irhf sI. vfr-vfr mYN buwlHF’qy jIB PyrI jfvF. gUVHI nINd ivwcoN mYnUM dohF nUM AuTfAuxf iblkul cMgf nf lwigaf, mYN afpxI ipafs AuWpr kfbU pf ilaf, ipafsI sON geI.
hux sfrf hspqfl myrf vfikPL sI. stfPL dy mYNbr mYnUM vyKx afAuNdy. hspqfl qoN myry Bwj afAux krky mYN cricq mrIjL sI. myry irsLqydfrF df PLon afeI jfvy, muMzf bfhroN afieaf hY, ivafh leI kI krnf hY, myrI jfn’qy bxI hoeI sI qy AuhnF nUM myry ivafh dI peI hoeI sI. ‘KUh’c pvy KV ky muMzf, awg lwgy ivafh nUM’ ieh myrf AuWqr sI. mYN qF mOq nfl lV rhI sI.
aYqvfr vfly idn mYN sj-Dj ky bYT geI, AumId sI CuwtI df idn hY, sfry irsLqydfr afAuxgy, koeI nhIN afieaf, mUMh’qy AudfsI df aflm Cf igaf. myrf sfh ruk irhf sI, TIk nhIN ho irhf sI. mYnUM vfr –vfr kVvI BfPL idwqI jf rhI sI. hux qF mYnUM BfPL qoN vI iKJ cVHdI. sfry irsLqy-nfqy myry mn qoN AuWqr gey. irsLqydfrIaF dy eyny kOVy qjrby ho gry, bws puwCo hI nf.
12 apRYl nUM mYnUM hspqfl qoN CuwtI iml jfxI sI. BrjfeI Gr geI sI, myrf sLuBicMqk kol sI. BfbI vyKxf sI, mYN af rhI hF jF nhIN. sfrf smfn pYk kIqf jf cuwkf sI. myry ichry AuWpr Gr jfx dI bhuq vwzI KusLI sI. hspqfl dI kYd qoN mukq hpxf sI. myrIaF bfhF sUeIaF pruMn-pruMn ky suwj cuwkIaF sn. iPr myry bwicaF vflI gulUkojL leI sUeI lgfeI geI. zfktr aYn afKrI mOky muwkr igaf. zfktr ny mYnUM izscfrj nf kIqf. iewk pfsy myry ichry’qy Gry jfx dI rOxk sI, hux myrf mUMh AuWqr cuwkf sI. BfbI nUM afK idwqf, CuwtI nhIN imlxI. af jfE hspqfl. mYN mUMh’qy cfdr lY ky mUMh ltkfeI lMmI pY geI. iksy nfl koeI gwl nf kIqI.
myry isr krjLf cVH igaf. qurn-iPLrn lwg pvFgI, krjLf AuWqr jfvygf. 13 apRYl ivsfKI vfly idn hsqpfloN mYnUM CuwtI idwqI geI. myry ichry AuWpr Gr jfx dI KusLI sI. mYnUM svyr qoN hI AuzIk sI zfktr jldI-jldI afvy, mYN Gr puwjF. PfeIl kMplIt kridaF nUM do vwj gey sn. myry koloN hor AuzIk nhIN ho rhI sI.
Gr phuMcI, ipMzf df bwcf-bwcf myrI Kbr lYx leI Zuwikaf. mYN kmjLor ho ky mMjy nfl lwgI hoeI sI. Gr af ky mYN afK idwqf, mYnUM bYWz’qy nf pfieE, rfq nUM vfx dy mMjy AuWpr pfieE. vfx df mMjf rfq nUM AuWTx leI TIk sI. nflI ipsLfb dI lfh idwqI geI, pr Gr af ky rfq nUM mYN iswDI lMmI peI rihMdI. keI idn mYnUM PVH ky Gr dy AuTfAuNdy rhy. mYN vfx df mMjf PV ky rfq nUM Kud hI AuWTdI. 12 idn mgroN rotI dI burkI mUMh’c pfeI.
Gr puwjx AuWpr irsLqydfrF ny afAuxf sLrU kr idwqf. hspqfl jFdy AunHF nUM KUn aqy pYsy dyxy pYxy sn. rfqF dI nINd hrfm hoxI sI. mYnUM afieaf-igaf irsLqydfr cMgf nf lwgdf. GridaF nUM afK idwqf sI, ienHF nUM afKo, mYnUM vyKx nf afAux. mYnUM irsLqydfr vyK ky icVH cVHdI.
Gr puwj ky 20 ku idnF mgroN mYN hOlI-hOlI Gr dy bUhy qwk jfxf afrMB kr idwqf, afAuNdy jFidaF nUM mYN qwkdI ik kdy mYN vI cwlFgI. aprysLn qoN bfad myry suBfa ivwc bhuq sfrIaF qbdIlIaF af geIaF. myrf suBfa icVicVf ho igaf. mMYN inrmohI ho geI. myrf mMjy AuWpr peI df idl nf lgdf. isr ciVHaf krjLf mYnUM prysLfn krdf. myrf bI pI iksy-iksy idn vD jFdf. Kbr lYx afey irsLqydfr lok mYnUM iblkul cMgy nf lgdy. myry pihly qy bfad dy suBfa ivwc jLmIn asmfn df PLrk af igaf.
myrf aprysLn hox ivwc myrf kI ksUr hY. lokF ny myrI mF dy mUMh’qy hI qfhny-imhxy mfrny afrMB kr idwqy ik mYN rwdI ho cuwkI hF, smfj ivwc myrI kImq Gt geI hY. myrI mF jdoN mYnUM lokF dIaF gwlF dwsdI, myrf KUn KOlx lwg pYNdf. iPr mYN afpxy mn nUM mfrdI. mF nUM afKdI jy kuJ afKxf hY qF mYnUM nf dwisaf kro.
3 mhIinaF nUM muV ky mYN kflj juafien krnf sI. mYN afpxy-afp nUM hOlI-hOlI nOkrI’qy jfx leI iqafr krnf afrMB kr idwqf. mMYN afpxI jLrUrq dIaF cIjLF hOlI-hOlI cuwkx lwg peI. myry kol isrPL iqMn mhIny hI sn, lokF df krjLf Auqfrnf sI. pihlF-pihlf mYnUM bws cVHn dI bhuq qklIPL huMdI. 16 julfeI nUM mYN kflj juafien kr ilaf. mMYN klfs ‘c AuWcI boldI mYnUM qklIPL huMdI.
musIbqF nymyrf ipwCf ajy qwk nhIN Cwizaf. drd myry ajy vI huMdI. kfrn kuJ smJ nhIN af irhf sI myrIaF dubfrf skYnF hoeIaF. myrI ikznI ivwc hux pwQrI Gr bxf ky bYTI hY. mYN PLrsL’qy pYrF Bfr nhIN bYT skdI, koeI BfrI cIjL mYN nhIN cuwk skdI. ajy vI mYnUM afpxy pRqI bhuq aihiqafq vrqxI pYNdI hY.
mMYN afpxy-afp nUM bYTI-bYTI bhuq sfry suafl-juafb kiraf krdI, myry nfl aijhf ikAuN hoieaf? myrf kI ksUr sI?
sfihq ny mYnUM jIvn idwqf hY, mYN afpxf jIvn pVHn ilKx’c lfieaf hoieaf hY. myrf mfnisk sMqfp ajy KLqm nhIN hoieaf. ies aprysLn dI mYnUM bhuq vwzI kImq cukfAuxI peI hY. kYNsr dI jkV’c afAux ivwc myrf qF koeI ksUr nhIN sI, pr kImq bhuq vwzI cukfAuxI peI hY. nvIN qy iekwlqf BrI ijLMdgI’c ajy vI iksy ikrn dI qlfsL kr rhI hF.