“…Auh ijsny lVxf hY
… Auh mYN ikAuN nhIN?”
- suKpfl
 

sMn 1988
pMjfb `c dihÈqgrdI dy idn sn» XUnIvrstIaF vI hflfq qoN bcIaF nf rih skIaF» lVx vfsqy sdf iqafr juafn lhU, afm qOr qy eynHIN QfeIN sOiKaF lBdf» ipMzF ivwcoN afey muMzy ‘BrqI’ krny sOKy huMdy»
KyqIbfVI XUnIvristI df mfhOl bdl igaf sI» pMjfboN bfhrly keI aiDafpk nOkrIaF Cwz prq gey» AunHF dy jfx ny ividak pwDr ƒ pRBfvq kIqf» mfry imlItYNtF dI hmdrdI ivwc - afey idn hVqflF huMdIaF» hmdrd qF QoVHy sn; sihmy hoey, cuwp cfp hukm mMnx vfly ‘gulfm’ vDyry sn» ijhVf mMnxoN nFh krdf, Ausƒ qwqÌt ‘soiDaf’ jFdf» ikMny hI aiDafpk, hYWz aqy aiDkfrI Èryafm kuwty jFdy» zridaF koeI iÈkfieq vI nf krdf» iemiqhfn qF nF jogy sn, Èryafm hI nkl vjdI» aiDafpkF ƒ ‘ihdfieq’ huMdI - ikMnHF ƒ ÌylH nhIN krnf! XUnIvristI pVHx pVHfAux dI QF nf rhI, hux ieh igixaF cuixaF dI guMzfgrdI df aKfVf sI»
iqMn vrHy qoN mYN vI afpxy kflj dy srjrI ivBfg ivwc aisstYNt pRoÌYsr dI nOkrI kr irhf sF» ijhVf kors pVHf irhf sF, AunHF ividafrQIaF dI hfËrI 75% nfloN Gt geI» EnHF df ksUr nhIN sI, Dwky nfl krfeIaF hVqflF krky ieAuN vfpiraf sI»
klfs df numfieMdf - aMimRqpfl isMG ‘Kflsf’ - afpxy cuxvyN sfQIaF smyq afieaf» Auh afl ieMzIaf iswK stUzYNts ÌYzryÈn dI sfzy kflj dI iekfeI df krqf Drqf sI» afKx lwgf: “sB dy lYkcr pUry kr idAu» “
mYN afiKaf: ‘tIcr huMidaF hfËrIaF df inXm pflxf myrf ÌrË hY» pr mYƒ ividafrQIaF nfl hmdrdI hY» sB dI mdd leI mYN ieh kr skdf hF: iemiqhfn ivwc hÌqf rih igaY» hÌqf Br jy sB ividarQI kflj lwgx qoN GMtf pihlF af jfx qF eynIaF hfËrIaF sB df Gftf pUrf kr dyxgIaF» mYN vI afpxI izAUtI GMtf vwD krFgf, qusIN vI QoVHf jqn kro» ibnf koeI vI inXm qoiVaF, sB dI mdd ho jfeygI» “
aMimRqpfl byprvfhI aqy AudMzqf nfl boilaf: “asIN nhIN afAuxf» jF qF sB dI hfËrI ‘eyvyN hI’ pUrI kr idAu, nhIN qF asIN ‘dUjy qrIky’ krf lvFgy» “
mYƒ roh afieaf: ‘qF iÌr afpxf dUjf qrIkf vrq ky vyK lY!’
iqMn idn bfad, jd mYN ividafrQIaF ƒ srjrI isKf irhf sF, bfhroN afey cfr jixaF ny zMizaF bYltF nfl myry qy hmlf kIqf» myrI pgVI lih geI, swtF vI lwgIaF» keI jixaF ny qwikaf, pr rokx dI koiÈÈ nf kIqI» cfry jxy mYƒ ‘iswiDaF’ ho ky ‘gwl mMnx’ dI ihdfieq dy ky cly gey»
kflj dI ÌYkltI dI mIitMg hoeI» sdf vFg inMdf df mqf pfs kIqf igaf» bhuqy bMidaF ƒ lgdf sI eynf krnf kfÌI hY» cfr bMidaF ƒ - gurcrn, ivnod, KuÈpfl qy mYƒ - lwgf eynf kfÌI nhIN»
asIN cfry lVxf cfhuMdy sF» asIN iksy vI rfjsI pfrtI dy, iksy Dfrimk sMsQf dy mYNbr nhIN sF» jy koeI Éfilsqfn bnfAuxf cfhuMdf sI, asIN Esdy rfh ivwc nhIN sF» asIN qF inwT ky afpxf cuixaf hoieaf kMm krnf cfhuMdy sF» afpxy ividafrQIaF ƒ pVHfAuxf, byËubfn jfnvrF df ielfj - krnf cfhuMdy sF» ieh sB asIN sÍYmfx nfl krnf cfhuMdy sF» afpxy mfx dI rfKI krnf sfzf afpxf krqwv sI»
mIitMg mgroN kflj ivwc hVqfl ho geI» XUnIvristI dI ÌYkltI aYsosIeyÈn dy prDfn ny mYƒ afiKaf: “sfrI ÌYkltI guMzfgrdI dy ivroD ivwc kMm bMd krn ƒ iqafr hY, pr iewk Èrq qy - qUM ipwCy nhIN htyNgf, sfƒ kIqI afpxI iÈkfieq vfps nhIN leyNgf» nhIN qF hVqfl tuwt jfeygI» pihlF eydF ho cuwkf hY» “ mYN vfadf kIqf ik mYN zitaf rhFgf» XUnIvristI ivwc hVqfl hoeI jo ZfeI mhIny cwlI»
mYƒ vfeIs cFslr dy sunyhy afey» AusdI ‘KfVkU muMizaF’ nfl hmdrdI sI» XUnIvristI dy iewk vwzy zfierYktr ny vI ‘ihdfieqF’ GwlIaF» Ausdf bytf KfVkU sI» ihMdusqfnI ÌOj dy vwzy jnrl ƒ mfrn dy doÈ ivwc rUpoÈ sI»
asIN zty rhy» mYN iekwlHf nhIN sF»
myry AuWqy hmly vfly idn qoN aglI svyr ajIb Gtnf vfprI» myry kflj dy hI awT ividafrQIaF ny hornF ƒ hVqfl krn df swdf idwqf» XUnIvristI dy ieiqhfs `c pihlI vfrI eydF hoieaf - ividafrQI iksy aiDafpk dy hwk ivwc AuWT Kloqy sn»
ÌYzryÈn dy bMidaF leI ieh hwqk vflI Gtnf sI» ies kYNpws qy AunHF df ‘rfj’ sI» Aus ivwc iksy ‘bgfvq’ krn dI ‘juraq’ vI kIkr kIqI? Auh hiQafrF sxy bgfvq kuclx af gey» hux iewk pfsy awT jxy sn, dUjy pfsy awsI nwby» awTF kol do ikrpfnF sn, dUijaF kol qlvfrF qy ipsqOl sn» ‘svf lfK sy eyk lVfAUN’ vrgf jËbf prgt hoieaf» awTF jixaF ny afpxy nfirHaF qy ihMmq nfl awsI nwby bMdy TlH ley» kflj ivwc ividafrQIaF dI Auh hVqfl sÌl rhI»
awTF ivwcoN swq jxy sn: ismrq isMG, imsr isMG, Ìqih muhMmd, rfijMdrpfl isMG, virMdr isMG aqy rvI kFq» eynHF df afgU sI - kuldIp igwl» ieh myry kflj pVHdy sn, lyikn mYQoN nhIN pVHy sn» mYN eynHF `coN isrÌ iewk jxy ƒ pCfxdf sF» myrI Kfqr lVx vfly jixaF ivwcoN koeI mYƒ imlx nf afieaf, afpxf hsfn jqfx jF Ausdf bdlf mMgx kdI nf afieaf»
iswK stUzYNt ÌYzryÈn dy dUjy DVy dy mIq pRDfn mYƒ imlx afey» Auh iqafr br iqafr isMG sn» kihx lwgy: “sfƒ bhuq aÌsos hY, quhfzy nfl ieAuN hoieaf hY, iewk isMG dI pwg ƒ hwQ pfieaf igaf hY» sfƒ dwso doÈI kOx hn? ieh vI dwso qusIN AunHF ƒ kI sËf dyxI cfhuMdy ho?”
mYƒ duwK Biraf hfsf afieaf» jy myry isr qy pwg nf bwDI huMdI qF iPr mujirm mujirm nf huMdy?
sB ƒ pqf sI - mujirm kOx sn? aYziminstRyÈn zMn dyx leI iqafr nhIN sI» kuwJ doÈIaF qoN zrdy sn, kuwJ EnHF dy hmdrd sn» ÈhId Bgq isMG dy Bfxjy zf: jgmohn isMG ny agvfeI kIqI» Auh vI XUnIvristI ivwc aiDafpk sn» aiDafpkF qy ividafrQIaF ny rl ky ‘ienkuafierI kmytI’ bxfeI, doÈI pCfxy, sbUq iekwTy kIqy»
ZfeI mhIny mgroN afÉrkfr aiDkfrIaF ƒ Jukxf ipaf» aMimRqpfl qy Ausdy sfQI Cy mhIny leI XUnIvrstIEN kwZy gey» ies Gtnf qoN mgroN iewk vrHy qwk iksy aiDafpk AuWqy koeI hmlf nf hoieaf»
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ijAuN hVqfl muwkI, XUnIvristI KulHI, vfeIs cFslr ny hukm idwqf: doÈIaF ƒ hVqfl vfly iqMn mhIinaF leI ‘kwiZaf’ igixaf jfvy, bfkI iqMn mhIny muafÌ kr idwqy jfx! myrf aqy hVqfl dy kuwJ lIzrF df nfAuN ‘blYk ilst’ ivwc Èfml hoieaf» hux qoN mgroN sfzy ‘kMm’ roky jfxy sn»
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iewk rfq kuldIp igwl - iekwlf hostl prq irhf sI, kuwJ jixaF ny Ausƒ Gyr ky Ausdf ipMzf vIh QfvF qoN cfkUaF nfl ivMnH suwitaf» hspqfl ivwc Ausƒ vyK ky myrIaF awKF Br afeIaF» mYN Ausdf nfAuN suixaf sI, pihlI vfrI awj qwikaf sI»
Ausƒ zUMGy PwtF dI zfZI pIV ho rhI sI» pIV ikrpfn sI, ipMzf imafn sI» kuldIp ny sfry qfx nfl ikrpfn ƒ imafn ivwcoN inklxoN roikaf hoieaf sI … »
pr kuldIp dIaF awKF ivwc Auho cYn sI ijhVf Aus bMdy ivwc huMdf hY ijsƒ ieh pqf huMdf hY - Ausny ikwQy phuMcxf hY»
mYƒ jfipaf: mYN jo vyK irhf hF, Auh ËKmF Biraf ipMzf nhIN hY, ieh isrÌ iewk bMdf nhIN hY, ieh myrI pRyrxf hY» ieh awT bMdy sdf leI myrI qfkq bx gey hn»
mYN puwiCaf: ‘kuldIp, qUM ikAuN myrI Kfqr liVaf? qUM hI ikAuN? qyrf myrf kI irÈqf hY?’
ÈFq afvfË ivwc Auh boilaf:
“mYN quhfzI Kfqr nhIN liVaf» jo kuwJ shI hY, AusdI Kfqr lVdf hF» “
“jo vI iBafnk aqy iBRÈt afly duafly vfprdf hY, Ausƒ qwk ky myry ivwc vI roh AuTdf hY» mYN eys qrHF nhIN socdf ik - ‘iksy nf iksy ƒ qF ieh bdlxf hI peygf’ » mY bs eyho socdf hF:
…Auh ijsny lVxf hY … Auh mYN ikAuN nhIN?”
“myrf vfsqf iksy hor dy lVx nfl nhIN» myrf vfsqf isrÌ eys gwl nfl hY - mYN afp kI kr irhf hF?”
“rhI gwl mrn dI - sdf leI kOx jIivaf hY?”

luiDafxf, KyqIbfVI XUnIvristI, vYtRnrI kflj