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- kulivMdr Kihrf
 

Pon dI GMtI vwjdI hY. mYN Pon cuwkdf hF: “hYlo”
“hYlo kOx kulivMdr?[[[[beI qUM bhuq vwzf lyKk bx igaF hux?[[[bhuq suhxf ilKx lwg ipaF[[[mYN sIrq ivwc qyry lyK pVHy af, bhuq mn KusL hoieaf”
“sLbdF ivwc AumrF dI vfkPLI dI apxwq sI pr afvfË pCfx ivwc nhIN sI af rhI. pihlF lwgf ik koeI jfxkfr myry vwloN lMmyN smyN qoN qflmfl nf kr skx krky qfany mfr irhf hY pr sIrq ivwc Cpy myry lyKF dy hvfly kfrn ieh spsLt ho igaf sI ik AunHF nUM vfikaf hI myrI ilKq psMd afeI hY.
“muafPL krnf mYN pCfixaf nhIN” myrI afvfË ivwc iJjk sI.
“qUM mYnUM nhIN pCfxyNgf ikAuNik afpF iewk-dUsry nUM imlLy nhIN[[[myrf nF sohx isMG sMDU ey”
“E[[[awCf awCf[[[kI hfl af quhfzf[[[ishq ikvyN aF quhfzI”[[[Bfvuk hoieaf mYN pqf nhIN iewko sfhy ikMnIaF ku gwlF puwC igaf sI.
“qUM mYnUM jfxdf eyN[[[[kOx Blf?”
pfsL dy ipqf sohx isMG sMDU kYlyPornIaf qoN bol rhy sn. lMmI gwlbfq hoeI. AunHF myrI ilKq dI rwj ky qfrIPL kIqI ijs ivwcoN ‘afpxypn’ dI sugMD af rhI sI. Aus qoN bfad pfsL dI pqnI rfxI BYx jI nflL gwl hoeI. 1987 qoN bfad mYN pihlI vfr ieh afvfË sux irhf sF. AunHF dI afvfË ivwc vI AuhI apxwq sI. AunHF nUM 29 sfl pihlF sfzy AuWgI ivwc iekwiTaF guËfry gey idn pUrI qrHF Xfd sn. lKivMdr AuWgI, pfsL, aqy myrI nfnI nUM Xfd krky ijwQy mn Audfs hoey EQy myry mfVU ijhy srIr aqy isr nflLoN vwzy jUVy nUM Xfd krky asIN hwsy vI. XfdF mYnUM 1980-81 dy idnF ivwc lY geIaF sn.
BFvyN pMjvIN jmfq ivwc mYN sLfhkot blfk `coN PLst afieaf sF aqy aTvIN ivwc vI cMgy nMbr lY ky pfs ho igaf sF pr dsvIN qwk jFidaF brykF lwgxIaf sLurU ho geIaF sn. keI kfrn bx gey sn. iewk qF myry bfp dy kYnyzf af jfx krky Gr dy kMm df bhuq sfrf boJ myry moiZaF `qy af ipaf sI, dUsrf mYN bImfr rihx lwg ipaf sF ijs krky srIr bhuq kmËor pY igaf sI, qIsrf, BFvyN myrf bfp kwcy qOr `qy hI kYnyzf afieaf sI pr ieMzIaf vfilLaF nUM ËrUr ieh ivsLvfs ho igaf sI ik iewk idn asIN vI kYnyzf phuMc jfxf hY. nflL dy sfQIaF vwloN vfr vfr ieh kihxf ik “qUM pVH ky kI lYxf, qUM qF knyzf cly hI jfxf” mYnUM hor vI sbË bfgL ivKf jFdf. gFDI aqy nihrU vrgy lIzrF dIaF vlYq-amrIkf qoN pRfpq kIqIaF izgrIaF qoN mn ivwc bfhr jf ky izgrI hfsl krn dI myrI qFG hkIkq ivwc bdldI nËr afAuNdI aqy mYnUM ieMzIaf dI pVHfeI hor vI “iPwkI ijhI” lwgx lwg pYNdI. dsvIN jmfq borz dI hox krky dfKLly Brn qoN pihlF klfs df tYWst ilaf igaf qF myrf dfKLlf ruk igaf. myrI mF nUM pqf lwgf qF Auh mYnUM lY ky lKivMdr AuWgI kol PrmfiesL pvfAux leI af geI. lKivMdr ny skUtr cuwikaf aqy mYnUM qlvMzI slym dy iewk BIVy ijhy Gr lY igaf. ijs bMdy nUM asIN imlx gey sI Auh Gr nf imilLaf. agly idn asIN Aus bMdy nUM AuWgI awzy ivwc hI lwB ilaf ijs nUM asIN kwlH qlvMzI slym imlx gey sF. sfrI gwl sux ky AunHF ikhf ik keI idn pY gey hox krky dfKLly qF jf cuwky hn ies leI mYnUM pRfeIvyt iemiqhfn leI dfKLlf Br dyxf cfhIdf hY. ies dy nflL hI AunHF ny iewk hor KusLKLbrI idwqI ik Auh ËdI hI AuWgI awzy ivwc skUl KolHx jf rhy hn ijs ivwc mYN itAUsLn rwK skFgf. hor koeI cfrf nf cldf vyK ky mYN pRfeIvyt dfKLlf Br idwqf. kuJ idnF bfad AuWgI awzy ivwc pRfeIvyt akfdmI KulH geI. mYN dfKLlf lY ilaf. eyQy hI mYnUM pqf lwgf ik lKivMdr Bfa jI mYnUM qlvMzI slym ijs dy Gr lY ky gey sn, Auh pfsL df Gr sI aqy ijs bMdy nUM asIN imlLy sI, Auh hI pfsL sI. AunHF vwloN KoilHaf igaf skUl AuWgI awzy dy nkodr-kpUrQlf sVk `qy pYNdy iewk cubfry ivwc lwgdf sI. AunHF vwloN kuJ muMzy aqy kuVIaF itAUsLn pVHfAux leI rwK ley gey sn aqy idnF ivwc hI loV jogy ividafrQI vI ho gey sn. ies skUl ivwc mYN afpxI pUrI srdfrI smJdf huMdf sI. iewk qF lKivMdr Bfa jI krky, dUsrf pfsL myry mfmf jI df dosq irhf hox krky aqy qIsrf, pVHfAux leI rwKy gey muMzy-kuVIaF ivwcoN bhuiqaF nUM jfxdf hox krky mYnUM Auh skUl afpxI “Gr dI mlkIaq” hI lgdf sI. vYsy vI awq df sMgfAU hox krky aqy afpxI Aumr qoN vI cfr-pMj sfl Cotf hI lgdf hox krky myrI siQqI “Gr dy lfzly bwcy” vflLI sI. eyQy hI pfsL dI pqnI rfxI vI pVHfieaf krdI sI. pfsL Kud BfvyN bhuq Gwt klfsF lfieaf krdf sI pr iPr vI gfhy-bgfhy Auh sfnUM vihmF-BrmF vgYrf qoN sucyq hox df toxf lfAuNdf rihMdf.
kfPI idn tohx-prKx qoN bfad iewk idn pfsL ny afpxy dPLqr ivwc sfnUM pMj-Cy jixaF nUM bulfieaf aqy kuJ dyr eyDr-EDr dIaF gwlF krn qoN bfad gwl qorI ik ijwQy cMgI nOkrI dI pRfpqI leI slybsI ikqfbF dI pVHfeI ËrUrI hY EQy afpxIaF smfijk iËMmyNvfrIaF pRqI vI jfgrUk hox dI aqy afpxy PLrËF nUM pCfnx dI loV hY. ies qoN bfad kdI kdI ies ivsLy `qy gwlbfq huMdI rihMdI. mYN ievyN mihsUs kr irhf sF ijvyN pfsL leI bhuq vwzy ivsLvfs df pfqr bx igaf hovF aqy iksy ijhfd dI sfiËsL ivwc Bfg lY irhf hovF. eyQy hI mYnUM hornF kolLoN pqf lwgf ik sfzy ipMz lwgdy sLhIdI myly `qy hr sfl gfey jFdy gIq “kwKF dI ey kuwlIey” aqy “sony dI svyr jdoN afAU hfxIaF” pfsL dy hI ilKy hoey hn.
ieh Auh idn sn jdoN AuWgI awzf pfsL, lKivMdr AuWgI aqy AunHF dy dosqF df awzf hoieaf krdf sI. ienHF dI awzy ivwc pUrI srdfrI aqy iewËq sI. ijwQy lKivMdr iewk KFdy-pINdy Gr df aqy lokF dy kMm svfrn vflLf bMdf sI EQy pfsL dI afpxI pCfx sI. AuunHF nUM imlx afAux vflLy “pVHy ilKy Epry” bMidaF dI hr roË lfeIn lwgI rihMdI sI. lKivMdr Bfa jI df kMm huMdf sI ik Auh svyr qoN hI rotI Kf ky GroN inkl afAuNdy aqy sfrf idn awzy ivwc afpxf zyrf rwKdy. EQoN hI ijs iksy nUM vI sLihr kMm huMdf, Auh Aus nUM nflL lY jFdf. Bfa jI pihlF afpxI jyb ivcly sfry pYsy Krc krdy, jo vI ikqfb-rsflf hwQ lwgdf, KrId lYNdy aqy iPr nflL gey bMdy df Krc krvfAux lwgy vI kdI iJjk mihsUs nf krdy. ipMz dy mËdUr prvfrF nflL sbMDq bhuq sfry muMzy AunHF dy dosq sn.
iewk vfr sLfm ijhI nUM mYN nhf ky KuwlHy vflLIN awzy cly igaf. awgy lKivMdr Bfa jI, hrdyv AuWgI, pfsL aqy kuJ hor dosq KVHy kuJ slfh kr rhy sn. hrdyv nUM kflLf sMiGaF ivKy koeI postr lfAux leI Byijaf jf irhf sI. lKivMdr Bfa jI ny Ëor pf ky mYnUM vI nflL Byj idwqf qF ik asIN CyqI postr lf afvFgy. muVn lwigaF sfnUM kuJ hnyrf ho igaf. kflLf sMiGaF qoN kuJ dUr hI afey sI ik skUtr df gyar PLs igaf. bVI musLkl nflL asIN agly ipMz jwlovflL phuMcy qF iewk dukfn awgy skUtr bMd kr ilaf. Aus qoN bfad gyar qF kI inklxf sI skUtr vI stfrt nf hoieaf. rfq kfPI ho cuwkI sI qy hux iksy mkYink dI afs vI nhIN sI. rsqy ivwc kdI asIN skUtr nUM ryVHn lwg pYNdy aqy kdI hrdyv mYnUM skUtr dI sIt qy ibTf ky hYNzl sMBflx leI kihMdf aqy afp Dwkf lfAux lwg pYNdf. ies qrHF bVI musLkl nflL asIN do-iqMn iklomItr pYNzf qYa krky awzy ivwc phuMcy qF qkrIbn rfq dy 10 vwj cuwky sn. lKivMdr Bfa jI hurIN awzy ivwc KVHy hI sfnUM AuzIk rhy sn. eynI dyr nUM AuWgI df iewk lflf mYnUM vyK ky afieaf aqy kihx lwgf , “BYx (myrI mfsI) qYnUM lwBdI geI hY. Auh bVy iPLkr aqy guwsy ivwc sI.” mfsI df nF suxidaF hI myry hosL AuWz gey. lKivMdr Bfa jI ny myry nflL jf ky myrI jfn bcfAux dI bcfey hws ky kih idwqf, “qUM qy Bwj KF” mYN lfly nflL ipMz nUM jf irhf sI ik rfh ivwc hI mfsI imlL geI. Aus dy hwQ ivwc vwzI sfrI zFg PVI hoeI sI. mYN bVI musLkl nflL Bwj ky nfnI kolL jy afpxI jfn bcfeI. bfad ivwc pqf lwgf ik jdoN mfsI awzy `qy myry bfry puwC rhI sI qF iksy ny afK idwqf sI ik koeI motrsfeIkl vflLf afieaf qy mYnUM ibTf ky kflLf sMiGaF vwl lY igaf sI. BFvyN Aus idn mYN zFgF qoN msF bicaf sI pr iPr vI myry mn ivwc iewk anoKf srUr sI ik mYN iksy qrHF dy iesLiqhfr lf ky af irhf hF.
pfsL isgrtF bhuq pINdf sI. Aus dy isgrt pIx df aMdfË vI aijhf sI ik pihlF-pihl qF Aus nUM vyK ky myrIaF awKF ivwcoN afp-muhfry pfxI inklL jFdf sI. Auh isgrt dy ksL lYNdf, jdoN QoVHf ijhf guwl bx jFdf qF Auh amlI dy jrdf lfAux vFg isgrt dy mGdy guwl nUM afpxy buwt aqy gwlH dy ivckfr lfAuNdf hoieaf awD-mItIaF awKF nflL isgrt dI rfK dI ies qrHF ikrc-ikrc krdf ik vyKidaF sI srIr nUM kMbxI ijhI af jFdI. nËlf Aus dI vwzI musIbq sI. Aus dy kihx muqfibk jylHF ivwc pulIs qsLwdd dOrfn isr ivwc peI bYltF dI mfr ny Aus nUM ieh bImfrI lf idwqI sI ijs nflL Aus nUM hmysLF nËly dI isLkfieq rihMdI sI.
pfsL dI jo hYrfn krn vflLI gwl sI, Auh ieh ik Auh bfhrlI dunIaF ivwc ijMnf josLIlf aqy vwzf afdmI sI, ipMz ivwc Aus dI rihxI-bihxI qoN ieh gwl mMnxI iblkul asMBv jfpdI sI. lok eynf ËrUr jfxdy sn ik Auh iewk “KLqrnfk insvfVIaf” hY. Aus dy klIn-sLyv ichry `qy hmysLF hI muskrfht rihMdI aqy nËr hmysLF ies qrHF JukI huMdI ijvyN ËmIn qoN koeI cIË lwBdf jf irhf hovy. keI vfr isaflL dy idnF ivwc vI pYrIN kYNcI cplF pfeI aqy loeI dI buwklL mfrI jf irhf Auh iewk sDfrn ijhf afdmI jfpdf.
koeI zyZ ku sfl ies qrHF ibqfAux qoN bfad mYN 1981 ivwc kYnyzf af igaf. Aus qoN bfad agsq 1987 ivwc pihlI vfr myrI Aus nflL AudoN gwlbfq hoeI jdoN Auh prvfr smyq amrIkf af igaf sI. jdoN mYN Aus nUM dwisaf ik mYN vI kivqf ilKx dI koisLsL krdf hF qF Auh bVf hwisaf, “Eey kulivMdr qUM? qUM qy bVf inwkf ijhf sI, qUM kivqf kdoN ilKx lwg ipaf.” mYN Aus nUM kYnyzf afAux leI ikhf. AunHF afpxI iemIgRysLn dI smwisaf dwsI aqy ikhf, “agly sfl julfeI ivwc mYN kYnyzf afvFgf, iPr qyry kolL ËrUr TihrFgf.” pr Auh julfeI nf afeI. mfrc 1988 dy iewk sinwcrvfr dI dupihr nUM mYN imsIsfgf ivwc afpxy mfmf jI dy Gr bYTy sF. mYN stor qoN kuJ smfn ilafAux leI ajy kfr qorn hI lwgf sF ik hwQ ivwc cfh df kwp PVI mfmf jI nMgy pYrIN hI dOVy afey. Auh burI qrHF Gbrfey hoey sn, “qyrf pfsL mfr `qf eI[[[” AunHF ny ryzIE qoN KLbr sux leI sI. kflLIaF qfkqF ny pfsL dI rOsLn afvfË nUM KfmosL kr idwqf sI. myrIaF awKF awgy hnyrf ho igaf. mfmf jI ny vI afpxy bcpn dy sfl pfsL nflL pVHidaF ibqfey sn, Auh vI pUry pRysLfn sn. AunHF dy rokidaF rokidaF vI mYN kuJ smF bYTx qoN bfad EQoN cwl ipaf. iewk dosq dy Gr jf ky rwj ky sLrfb pIqI aqy rwj ky roieaf.
pfsL dI mOq qoN kuJ dyr bfad hI Aus dy nOjvfn sFZU dI mOq ho geI, jo AuWgI dy awzy dI rOxk ivwc sLrIk hoieaf krdf sI. lKivMdr dI sLrfb pIx dI afdq hor vI vD geI. sLrfb ivwc Duwq ho ky Auh pfsL nUM Xfd krdf aqy DfhIN roNdf rihMdf. Aus nUM rokx `qy Aus df ieho bhfnf huMdf ik pfsL dI Xfd bhuq sqfAuNdI hY. 23 julfeI 1995 dI svyr nUM Auh iksy hor dosq nflL nUr mihl qoN rfq df koeI PLMksLn vyK ky vfps af rhy sn ik Grbrfht mihsUs krky rsqy ivwc pfsL dy Gr ruk gey. EQoN cfh df kwp pI ky AuWgI awzy `c phuMicaf lKivMdr nIm zfktr vwloN gLlq tIkf lwg jfx krky jfn qoN hwQ Do bYTf. Aus dy Puwl pfAux igaf Aus df Xfr hrdyv AuWgI (ijs nflL mYN kuJ sfl pihlF postr lfAux igaf sI) bhuq roieaf aqy Puwl Ë-pRvfh krdf hoieaf boilaf, `lY imwqrf qUM qur igaF qy asIN vI CyqI hI qyry mgr af jfxf.” agly hI mhIny Auh rfq smyN skUtr `qy af irhf sI ik sVk dy moV `qy lwgy iewtF dy cwky ivwc skUtr eynI Ëor nflL vwjf ik hrdyv QF `qy hI sON igaf.
kuJ dyr bfad AunHF df nOjvfn sfQI zfktr snI vI motrsfeIkl hfdsy df isLkfr ho igaf. AunHF nflL bihxI-AuTxI rwKx vflLf iewk hor muMzf Br Aumry hI bImfrI df isLkfr ho igaf. ies qrHF kuJ hI sflF ivwc Aus toly df qkrIbn nfm-E-insLfn hI imt igaf jo kdI AuWgI awzy dI rOxk hoieaf krdf sI. myrI nfnI dy sLbdF ivwc “muMizaF dI ZfxI nUM nËr hI lwg geI”. 45 sfl dI Aumr qoN pihlF pihlF hI sfry mOq dy mUMh ivwc jf pey.
eyny sflF bfad jdoN hux rfxI BYx jI ny AunHF idnF dI Xfd qfËf krvfeI jo kdy pfsL toly dy jobn dy idn hoieaf krdy sn qF bVI dyr qwk ievyN hI mihsUs huMdf irhf ijvyN asIN kuJ smyN leI 1980-81 dy Aus dOr ivwc phuMc gey hoeIey. AuWgI dy Es awzy ivwc, jo kdy “sfzf” hoieaf krdf sI, ijs df `kwlf `kwlf kwK sfnUM jfxdf sI. Aus awzy ivwcoN awj lMGIdf hY qF koeI vI aijhf nhIN imlLdf jo ieh jfxdf hovy ik mYN kOx hF.