mY aqy myrIaF bImfrIaF
- igafnI sMqoK isMG afstRylIaf
 

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jrf mrf qfpu isriq sfpu sBu hir kY vis hY koeI lfig n skY ibnu hir kf lfieaf]
aYsf hir nfmu min iciq inq iDafvhu jn nfnk
jo aMqI aAusir ley Czfieaf] 4]7]13] 51] (168, sRI gurU rfm dfs jI)
ijs kI pUjY aAuD iqsY kAuxu rfKeI] bYdk aink Aupfv khF lAu BfKeI]
eyko cyiq gvfr kfij qyrY afveI] hirhF ibnu nfvY qnu Cfru ibRQf sBu jfveI] 21]
(1363, sRI gurU arjn dyv jI)
vYdf sMdf sMgu iekTf hoieaf] aAuKd afey rfis ivic afip Kloieaf]
jo jo EhnF krm sukrm hoieaf psiraf]
hirhF dUK rog siB pfp qn qy iKsiraf] 23] (1363, sRI gurU arjn dyv jI)
AupRokq PurmfnF dI roÈnI ivwc jdoN mY afpxIaF bImfrIaF dy ieiqhfs vwl vyKdf hF qF ies hukm Aupr, nf cfhux dy bfvjUd vI, pUry df pUrf XkIn krn leI mjbUr hF. mYnUM pqf hY ik nvI roÈnI vfly ivdvfn aqy ‘sfieMitiPk’ nËrIey dy DfrnI swjx purÈ ies qrHF dy myry ivcfrF nUM, kyvl myrf vihm jF axjfxqf hI afKxgy; pr “muMZY dI Ksliq n geIaf aMDy” anusfr afpxI afrMBqf vflI Ksliq dy aDIn hox dI mjbUrI kfrn, mY jo anBv krdf hF Aus nUM prgt krn qoN iksy ivakqI dI nukqfcInI dy zroN dbf nhI skdf. hF, ieh qF ho skdf hY ik iksy Kfs siQqI nUM vyKidaF afpxI afqmf dI afvfË dy ivruD, mjbUrI ivwc Aus sQfn qoN AuT ky qur jfvF pr myry pfs BIÈm ipqfmf ijMnf DIrj nhI hY ik sfhmxy anrQ huMdf vyKdf vI rhF, kuwJ nf kr skF aqy rfj drbfr ivwc afpxI kursI qy vI sijaf rhF.
Èfied ieh Koj vI pfTkF dI idlcspI ivwc vfDf kry ik pRisD sfieMsdfn, gurU nfnk dyv XUnIvristI dy vfeIs cFslr zf[ jY rUp isMG, duafrf ilKq aqy ipMglvfVf duafrf pRkfÈq ikqfbcy ivwc dwisaf igaf hY ik asIN Cy hËfr bImfrIaF afpxy nfnikaF qy dfdikaF qoN ivrfsq ivwc lYNdy hF ijnHF ivwc sfzf afpxf koeI ksUr nhI huMdf.
AuNj qF, “jd dy jMmy, bodIAuN lMmy. “vflI khfvq Èfied myry qy Zuk hI skdI hY. dfdI mF jI aqy bIbI jI vwloN bcpn ivwc aksr dwisaf jFdf sI ik mY Cotf hI sI jdoN bImfr ho igaf. iblkul sokVy dy mrIË bwicaF vFg suwk igaf sF. Èfied ies nUM sokVy dI bImfrI afiKaf jFdf hovy! bhuq hI smf bImfr irhf. AuhnF idnF ivwc sfzy gvFZI ipMz jlfl df iewk suinafrf huMdf sI ijs nUM dfrU drml krdf hox krky sfry ‘isafxf’ afKdy sn qy eyhI sfzy ipMz bImfrI TImfrI vyÜy afieaf krdf sI. awj klH vFg EdoN zVy zfktrF df nF kdI iksy nhI sI suixaf hoieaf. mfVI motI bImfrI TImfrI smy ipMz ivwc iewk mËhbI pUrn isMG huMdf sI; Aus qoN puVI lY lYxI. bfad ivwc Auh sUaf lfAuxf vI ikqoN Èfied iswK afieaf sI qy Aus df Èfied svf rupieaf lYNdf huMdf sI. puVI dy kuwJ afny lYNdf sI. myrI sMBfÜ ivwc qF kdy kdfeIN isafÜF ivwc mYnUM TMz lwgx qy mF jI ny jF cfh ivwc kwcf aFzf GoÜ ky pIx leI dyxf qy jF iewk cmcf brFzI grm pfxI ivwc pf ky pIx leI dyxI. ieh dovyN hI kfrj myry leI bVy aOKy huMdy sn pr dfdI mF jI qoN zridaF iehnF nUM Ckx df aOKf kfrj krnf hI pYxf.
bhuq sflF ipCoN iewk idn bIbI jI qy Coty BYx BrfvF dI hfjrI ivc, BfeIaf jI ny dwisaf ik AuhnF ny mYnUM inwky huMdy nUM nMgÜ vfÜy CwpV ivwc puTf krky tuBI lvfeI sI qy iPr mY rfjI ho igaf sI. ieh nMgÜ ipMz sfzy ipMz sUro pwizAuN qkrIbn iewk mIl Aupr hY. afm qOr qy do lfgo lfgI ipMz hox krky mihqf nMgÜ krky jfxy jFdy hn. ieh EhI mihqf hY ijQy dmdmI tksfl df hYz kuafrtr hY. nMgÜ nF dy dovyN ipMz iewk CwpV dy dohF pfisaF qy mOjUd hn. Cotf ipMz mlk nMgl qy vwzf ipMz Audo nMgÜ krky jfxy jFdy hn. mlk nMgÜ ivwc aftf pIhx vfÜI mÈIn huMdI sI ijQoN asIN isrF qy dfxy cuwk ky aftf iphf ky ilafAuNdy huMdy sI. Audo nMgl ivwc Cotf skUl huMdf sI, ijQy dfdI mF jI df Dwikaf hoieaf, kuwJ idn mY vI pVHn igaf sF. eyQy hI sOdy pwqy dIaF mfVIaF motIaF dukfnF vI huMdIaF sn. dohF ipMzF dy ivckfr iewk CwpV huMdf sI. Èfied CwpV hux vI EQy hovy! ies dy iknfiraF Aupr jyhVy drwÉq sn AuhnF nfÜ cmigwdV ltkdy huMdy sn. BfeIaf jI ny dwisaf ik purfxy smy ivwc ieh CwpV jrUr koeI qIrQ hovygf. ijs CwpV dy iknfry vfly drwKqF Aupr cmigwdV rihx, Auh jrUr koeI qIrQ irhf huMdf hY jo ik smy nfÜ lokF dI Xfd qÉqI qoN imt igaf huMdf hY. ieh cmigwdV Aus smy rhy AuhnF pujfrIaF dIaF rUhF huMdIaf hn, jo afpxy pujfrI hox smy, pujfrI dy ÌrË iemfndfrI nfÜ nhI sn inBfAuNdy aqy pUjf df Dfn hI Kfx ivwc AuhnF df iDafn irhf krdf sI. myrI soc anusfr ieh ivcfr AuhnF ny jrUr sMq bfbf gurbcn isMG jI iBMzrFvfiÜaF dI isiKaf qoN pRfpq kIqy hoxgy ikAuNik BfeIaf jI sMq jI qoN ibnf iksy vI hor ivakqI dy ivcfrF nUM mfnqf nhI sn idaf krdy.
mlk nMgÜ vfÜy pfsy CwpV dy kMZy kMZy sfzy ipMz nUM rfh afAuNdf huMdf sI. ies CwpV dy kMZy Auqy iewk ZTI ijhI pr vfhvf swbrkwqI iemfrq dy rUp ivc, mfqf rfxI vrgf sQfn huMdf sI. aijhy sQfn EhnIN idnIN afm hI ipMzF dy KyqF ivwc hoieaf krdy sn. AuhnF dy afÜy duafÜy Gfh PUs qy bUtIaF vgYrf AugIaF hoeIaF mY vI inwky huMdy vyKdf huMdf sI. BfeIaf jI ny dwisaf ik AuhnF ny eyQy iewk QVHy ijhy qy Klo ky mYnUM iewk hwQ nfÜ dohF igwitaF qoN PV ky isr prny CwpV ivwc tuBI lvfeI sI.
gwl hux mY afpxy hoÈ vfÜy smy dOrfn vfprn vfÜIaF afpxIaF bImfrIaF dy ieiqhfs dI krF. sfrIaF df iËkr krnf jF AuhnF nUM Xfd rwKxf qF sMBv nhI pr Kfs Kfs df iËkr krUMgf ijhnF df AupRokq bfxI dy AuypdyÈ nfÜ sbMD juVdf hY.
vfikaf ieh Èfied 1950 dy afÜy duafÜy df hovygf. ‘Èfied’ ies leI ik 1952 qoN pihlF mYnUM iksy sVy sMn sMmq vrgI vsqU dy hox df igafn nhI sI huMdf. ieh igafn vI ieAuN hoieaf ik iewk idn grmIaF ivwc jfmnUM dy ivÈfl drwÉq dI CF hyT mMjI Aupr bYTy iewk ivakqI ny iqMnF pYisaF vflf, KfkI rMg df iewk kfrz ilKxf ÈurU kIqf qy Aus dy mUhoN inkiÜaf bvMjvF sfl ho igaf. mY koÜ Kloqf sux irhf sF qy iPr mYnUM hux qwk Xfd irhf ik Auh 1952 vfÜf sfl sI. eysy sfl vfÜI dIvfÜI smy mYnUM BfeIaf jI pihlI vfrIN ipMzoN aMimRqsr, krfey dy sfeIkl Aupr lY ky gey sn. mYnUM GMtf Gr dy bfhr vfr ibTf ky Éud dukfndfr nUM sfeIkl vfps krn cly gey. AuhnF nUM muVn ivwc icr lwg igaf qF mY ipCoN rox lwg ipaf, ieh soc ky ik Èfied BfeIaf jI mYnUM Cwz ky ikqy cly gey hn qy muV ky AuhnF ny nhI afAuxf. aijhf Èwk mYnUM iewk do vfrI Pyr vI jIvn ivwc ipaf. iewk vfrIN myry ies zr nUM AuhnF ny ieh afK ky dUr kIqf, “mY qYnUM nfÜ nfÜ ies leI QohVf leI iPrdf hF ik qYnUM ikqy Cwz dyxf hY!” iPr nhI mYnUM Xfd ik kdI aijhf Èwk ipaf hovy!
hF gwl ieh 1950 dy afs pfs dI hY ik mYnUM iewk idn Cwz ky bVf jor dI buÉfr cVHn lwg ipaf. mYry `coN dupihr qoN bfad zMgr cfr ky jdoN KUh qy muVnf qF mwTI mwTI TMz ijhI lwgxI ÈurU hoxI. dUjy muMizaF ny guwlI zMzf Kyzx lwg pYxf qy AuhnF dy lfgy hI mY lMmf pY jfxf. ijvyN ijvyN TMz ijafdf lwgxI mY Duwp vwl hor iKskI jfxf. iPr pqf nf lwgxf ik kdoN mYnUM iksy ny cuwk ky Gr dfdI mF jI koÜ lY afAuxf. keI idn ies qrHF huMdf irhf. iewk idn kuwJ nf hoxf qy dUjy idn buÉfr nfÜ mY byhoÈ ho jfxf. AuhnIN idnIN muhfrnI bulfAux df BfeIaf jI dy afKx qy myry isr Aupr ÉÌq svfr sI. dwsdy ny ik mY buÉfr dI byhoÈI ivwc vI, “aYVf mukqf af kMnf, ie ishfrI eI ibhfrI” bolI jfieaf krdf sF. ies qrHF dy buÉfr nUM qyeIaf afKdy sn.
iek idn ijs idn buKfr dI vfrI nhI sI, myry bfbf jI dy sB qoN vwzy Brf, myry BfeIaf jI dy qfieaf jI s[ Bfn isMG ny, afpxy mUMh ivwc kuwJ pVH ky qy iewk kwpVy dI lIr Aupr PUk mfr ky, Auh lIr myry zOÜy nfÜ bMnH idqI. mYnUM puiCaf, “ikQoN cVHdf huMdf ey?” myry, “sVk vfÜy KUh qoN. “afKx qy AuhnF ny afiKaf, “BÜky EDr nf jfeIN. “mY jrUr ies gwl qy aml kIqf hovygf jo ik hux Xfd nhI; pr Aus qoN bfad, 1975 qwk ies iksm df buÉfr myry nyVy nhI Ptikaf.
1975 dy julfeI mhIny ivwc kuwJ aÌRIkn qy XUrpIan dyÈF ivcdI GuMmdf GuMmfAuNdf mY vlYq jf awpiVaf. aÌRIkf dy mulk mlfvI ivwc mlyrIey qoN bcx leI asIN hr roj iewk kunYx dI goÜI Kfieaf krdy sF jo ik EQoN qurn qoN kuwJ idn pihlF hI mY lfprvfhI krky KfxI Cwz idqI sI. Èfied icrF qoN suxIdy vlYq muÜk dI sYr krn dI afs dy cf ivwc hI KfxI Cwz idqI hovy! ies axgihlI df asr vlYq jf ky hoieaf. EQy iewk idn mYnUM eynf jor dI buÉfr cVHnf ik myry nfl hI Esy kmry ivwc rihx vfÜy BfeI sfihb BgvMq isMG jI horF ny bfad ivwc dwisaf ik myrI hflq vyK ky Auh dovyN swjx kMb jfieaf krdy sn ieh soc ky ik prdys ivwc ies nfÜ kI vfpr irhf hY. gu[ isMG sBf sfAUQfl dy nyVy hI iewk iswK zfktr qoN mY dvfeI lYx jfxf. iewk idn TIk rihxf; agly idn iPr EhI hfl! zfktr dI dvfeI df koeI asr nhI. zfktr sfihb jI hnyry ivwc hI qlvfrF mfrI jf rhy sn. ibmfrI dI AuhnF nUM koeI smJ nhI sI afeI. iewk idn mY ikhf, “zfktr jI, mYnUM ikqy mlyrIaf nf hovy!” EdoN mYnUM nhI sI pqf ik mlyrIaf qy qeIaf ieko hI iksm hY buÉfr dI. Aus ny afiKaf, “srdfr jI, vlYq ivwc mlyrIaf ikQy?” mY XkIn kr ky cuwp kr igaf pr aMdroN Èwk ijhf bixaf hI irhf. do ku idn ipCoN iPr mY eyhI gwl duhrfeI qF zfktr jI ny kuwJ guwsy ijhy ivwc myrI gwl Tukrf idqI. Aus dy vlYq ivwc mlyrIaf nf hox Aupr loVoN vD ivÈvfÈ vfÜf Auqr sux ky mY jdoN ikhf mY aÌRIkf qoN afieaf hF qF iPr Aus ny mYnUM mlyrIey dI dvfeI idqI qF mY TIk ho igaf. ivcfr afeI ik ipMz dy iewk anpVH bMdy nUM cOQfeI sdI pihlF pqf sI ik mYnUM kI bImfrI qy Ausdf ielfj kI hY pr lMzn ivwc rihMdy, hryk sfDnF dI mOjUdgI ivc, iewk kuaflIÌfeIz zfktr nUM nhI pqf ik Aus dy mrIË nUM mlyrIaf hY. myry dwsx qy vI nhI Aus ny pqf krn df Xqn kIqf. isrP eyho hI smJ rwiKaf ik vlYq ivwc mlyrIaf nhI huMdf qy ies leI iksy nUM ho vI nhI skdf. gurbfxI qF sfnUM ieh dwsdI hY:
rog dfrU dovY buJY q vYd sujfx]
pr ieh zfktr qF rog hI nhI buJ sikaf dfrU ies ny kI buJxf sI!
ieh vfikaf 1961 dIaF grmIaF df hY. mYnUM BuwK lwgxo ht geI. koeI kMm krn nUM jI nf krnf. kuwJ Kfx nUM vI jI nf krnf. rotI afid cMgI qrHF nf Kfx krky idno idn syhq Qwly nUM jf rhI sI. mY EhnIN idnIN Drm pRcfr kmytI ivwc syvf qf BfvyN rfgI isMG dI Aupr sF pr kMm mYQoN dÌqr ivwc klwrkI df hI ilaf jFdf sI. Èfied ies krky ik igafnI krn qoN pihlF myrI hwQ ilKq dUijaF nfÜoN cMgyrI smJI jFdI sI. jyhVf vI myry vwl vyKy ieho hI afKy, “qYnUM kI hoeI jFdf Eie?” hkImF zfktrF koÜ vI KjÜ Kuafr huMdf irhf. iksy nUM smJ nf afvy ik ies df kI kfrn hY! myrI bIbI jI nUM myry Drn peI hox df Èwk ipaf qF Aus ny iewk idn myry imqr, s[ hrÈrn isMG dI mfqf nUM swd ky ilaFdf qy Aus ny myry pyt nUM toh ky dwisaf ik Drn dI iÈkfieq hY. Aus ny myrf iZz mÜ muÜ ky afpxy vwloN TIk krky, myry pYrF dy aMgUiTaF nUM Dfgy nfÜ kws ky bMnH idqf. pr gwl kuwJ bxI nf. jy ikqy myry mUMhoN iksy dy puwCx qy Drn df Èbd inkÜ jfvy qF puwCx vfÜy cuwp ijhy kr jfieaf krn. sfzy mihkmy dy skwqr s[ gurbÉÈ isMG myrf mKOl AuzfAux qy afKx, “Drn qF qIvIaF nUM pYNdI hY. qUM qF cMgf Blf bMdf idsdf eyN!”
keI mhIinaF qwk mY ies qrHF irVHdf iKVHdf irhf. aKIr kmËorI kfrn jdoN mMjy qoN AuTxo hI rih igaf qy hfjq smy vI kyvl ÉUn qy pfk hI afAuxy ÈurU ho gey qF iewk idn svyry svyry myry bIbI jI ny mYnUM bfhoN PV ky DUihaf qy sfzy Gr dy nyVy hI Auqm ngr mhwly ivwc iewk gÜI ijhI ivwc lY gey. EQy iewk kwcy PrÈ vflI hnyrI ijhI koTVI ivwc iewk bhuq vwzI Aupr df bRfhmx rihMdf sI. Èfied idsdf vI AusnUM nhI sI. Aus ny mYnUM kwcy PrÈ qy lyt jfx leI afiKaf. mY lyt igaf qF Aus ny myry pyt qy hwQ Pyr ky afiKaf, “Drn hY. “mYnUM myry pyt qy hwQ PyrI jfx leI afK ky afp bYTf bYTf mUMh ivwc kuwJ pVHn lwg ipaf. mYnUM afpxy pyt Aupr hwQ Pyrdy smy ieAuN mihsUs hovy ijvyN myry iZz ivwc kuwJ ihwl irhf hY qy kuwJ guV guV ijhI huMdI vI mY anuBv kIqI. kuwJ imMtF ipCoN Auh bËurg bRfhmx myrf pyt toh ky afKx lwgf, “hux TIk hY pr purfxI hox krky iPr nuks pY skdf hY. BÜky iewk vfrI Pyr afvIN. “mY Gr awpV ky duD dy glfs nfÜ do prfAuNTy KfDy. mY pihlF kfPI smy qoN kuwJ Kfx qoN kMnI hI kqrfieaf krdf sF. pr agly idn Aus pfs jfx qoN mY GOÜ kr igaf. kuwJ idnF bfad myrf iPr EhI hfl! Aus bËurg pfs Èrm df mfrf mY jfvF nf; ies krky ik mY Aus dI agly idn afAux vfÜI gwl nhI sI mMnI. iPr myrI bIbI jI ny jbrdsqI Aus pfs KiVaf qy Aus ny pyt toh ky dwisaf ik iPr nuks pY igaf hY. Aus ny iPr EhI kuwJ pihly idn vfÜf duhrfieaf qy mY vI EhI kuwJ mihsUs kIqf. Gr af ky iPr cMgf CfhvyÜf kIqf. agly idn mY iPr Aus pfs igaf qy Aus ny myrf pyt toh ky afiKaf, “hux TIk hY. “Aus qoN bfad rwb dI rihmq sdkf hux qwk ies pwKoN koeI iÈkfieq nhI hoeI.
Gtnf ieh 1968 dI dIvflI smy dI hY. iswKF df sB qoN vwzf sflfnf dIvfn gurduafrf sRI mMjI sfihb aMimRqsr ivKy, dIvfÜI smy lwigaf krdf sI. Èfied hux vI ies qrHF hI huMdf hovy pr EQoN dy spIkrF dI mMdI hflq krky Èfied hux aijhf nf huMdf hovy! Aus dIvfn ivwc dIvflI dI aDI rfq qoN bfad, sfry lIzrF qoN ipCoN, myrf BfÈn sI. BfÈn ipCoN mY afpxy kmry ivwc af ky sON igaf. ieh kmrf sRI drbfr sfihb dIaF pRkrmF ivc, AuprlI Cwq Aupr sI. bfbf dIp isMG ÈhId jI dy sQfn vfÜy pfisAuN pRkrmF krIey qF sfhmxI nuwkr ivcoN iehnF GrF vfsqy pAuVIaF cVHdIaF sn. eyQy hI PuwlF vfly dI dukfn huMdI sI jo ik hux cukvf idqI geI hY qy pAuVIaF vI bMd kr idqIaF geIaF hn. bfhroN CbIl vfÜI gÜI ivcoN vI rfh iehnF GrF nUM jFdf huMdf sI jo ik hux vI jFdf hY pr 1984 qoN bfad sfrf kuwJ bdl igaf hoieaf hY. eyQy myry nfÜ dy kmiraF dI lfeIn ivc, isMG sfihb igafnI joigMdr isMG vydFqI jI dI irhfieÈ vI sI jo ik hux vI hY. svyry myrI jfg afpxy pyt dy Kwby pfsy jor dI pIV nfÜ KulHI. Esy lfeIn ivwc rihx vÜy igafnI drÈn isMG ÈhId jI ny mYnUM cuwikaf qy bfbf sfihb bfËfr ivc, zf[ BUipMdr isMG jI qoN tIkf lvf ky, gu[ ibbyksr dy mkfnF ivc, sfzy Gr myry bIbI jI koÜ Cwz gey. ijMnf icr tIky df asr irhf mY suwqf irhf. iPr EhI hfl! keI zfktrF koÜ gey. hryk zfktr hI tIkf lf idaf kry. tIky df nÈf Auqrn qy Pyr EhI cFgrF. ipCoN pqf lwgf ik hryk zfktr mfrPIey df tIkf lf ky mYnUM svF idMdf sI. ielfj iksy koÜ koeI nhI sI. iewk idn iPr aDI rfq nUM BfeIaf jI, mrË vDdf vyK ky, mYnUM vwzy srkfrI hspqfl ivwc lY gey. izAUtI vfÜy pqly qy inkU ijhy mony zfktr ny hOÜI hOÜI kfgËI kfrvfeI krnI ÈurU kr idqI. pqf nhI kdoN myrI awK lwg geI. jdoN pIV nfÜ muV myrI awK KulHI qF mY vyiKaf ik BfeIaf jI myrI mMjI dy nfl hI ËmIn qy suwqy pey hn. AuhnF nUM jgfieaf qF AuhnF ny CyqI hI jf ky Aus zfktr nUM myrI hflq dwsI qF Aus ny ikhf, “mY quhfnUM dvfeI ilK ky idqI sI; qusIN ilaFdI nhI!” BfeIaf jI dy ieh dwsx qy ik qusIN kuwJ nhI dwisaf, iPr Aus ny brflgn dIaF goÜIaF ilK idqIaF qy BfeIaf jI kYimst qoN jf ky ÉrId ilafey. Auh Kfx nfÜ myrI pIV ht geI.
hspqfl ivwc kuwJ idn myry vwl iksy zfktr ny koeI iDafn nf idqf. mY mMjy qy pey rihxf. swjxF qy irÈqydfrF ny vI Ébr lYx af jfxf. iswK isafsq dI kyNdrI hsqI aqy sRomxI gurduafrf pRbMDk kmytI dy pRDfn, sMq cMnx isMG jI ny vI myry bfry, mYzIsn dy hYz qy pRoPYsr zf[ hrcrn isMG jI nUM afiKaf. sMq jI dI idlcspI df Éfs kfrn ieh sI ik 1969 dIaF pMjfb asYNblI dIaF coxF nyVy af rhIaF sn qy ies dOrfn myrI afm nfÜoN vD jrUrq hox krky, Auh myrI syhqXfbI leI Auqsuk sn. zfktr jI ny afpxf hoxhfr Èfigrd, zf[ gurjIq isMG myry nfÜ Byj ky, sbMDq zfktr koÜ myrI isPfrÈ vI kIqI pr iksy qy koeI asr nf hoieaf. iPr s[ bMqf isMG rfie afrgynfeIiËMg sYktrI blwz bYNk nfÜ, myry imwqr ig[ drÈn isMG mjbUr rfhIN, myl hoieaf qF AuhnF ny Aus zfktr nUM jf ky afiKaf, “ieh myrf Brf hY. “ieh suxky Auh zfktr cusq ho igaf qy myry bfry Aus ny afm nfÜoN qyjI nfÜ kfgËI kfrvfeI ÈurU kr idqI. myrI bImfrI bfry koeI kuwJ aMdfËy lfvy qy koeI kuwJ hor qrHF dy ivcfr prgt kry. aYks ry vI kIqy gey pr iksy dy kuwJ vI ipV pwly nf ipaf. koeI spYÈl qrHF df tIkf lf ky vI aYks ry kIqf igaf pr kuwJ vI iksy zfktr dI smJ ivwc nf afieaf. vfhvf idn mY hspqfl df mMjf iZwlf krdf irhf. iewk idn iksy QF aYksIzYNt ho jfx krky bhuq sfry ËÉmI af jfx krky, mrIËF leI mMijaF dI QoV ho geI. mY soicaf ik mY cMgf Blf mMjf mwl ky bYTf hoieaf hF. brflgn dIaF goÜIaF nfÜ myrI pIV qF ht cuwkI hoeI sI pr zfktr myrI asl bImfrI lBx dy XqnF ivwc sn qF ik Ausdf ielfj kIqf jf sky. nvyN mrIËF nUM mMijaF dI loV sI. zfkdfrF nUM myrI iksy bImfrI dI smJ nhI sI pY rhI. mY iksy nUM dwisaF ibnf hI hspqfloN AuT ky af igaf. iPr kdI kdfeIN jy ikqy ieh pIV hoxI qF mY kYimst qoN brflgn dI goÜI lY ky Kf lYxI qy pfxI pIx df iDafn rKxf qF ik srIr ivwc Aus dI kmI nf ho jfvy. rwb df Èukr hY ik ies ksr kfrn muV iksy zfktr nUM qklIÌ dyx dI loV nhI peI.
ieh gwl bhuq sfry pfTkF dy Èfied sMGoN nf Auqry pr myry nfÜ vfprI hY. jdoN mY hspqfl ivwc dfKl sF qF myry ipMz sUro pwzf dy gvFZI ipMz, cMnx ky dy iewk pMizq jI ny sfzy ipMz jf ky myrI dfdI mF jI nUM afiKaf, “quhfzy vwzy poqy Aupr kÈt afieaf vf, pr TIk ho jfAUygf. “ieh gwl myrI dfdI mF jI ny mYnUM kuwJ idn ipCoN aMimRqsr af ky dwsI.
ieh vI qkrIbn AuhnF hI idnF dy afs pfs dI gwl hY ik myry swjy pYr Aupr Kurk hoxI ÈurU ho geI. mY smiJaf ik ikqy mwCr ‘mÈkrI’ kr igaf hovygf pr hr roj ieh mrË vDdf hI igaf. afpxy rsUÉ dy mfx nfl mY vwzy srkfrI hspqfl ivwc cilaf igaf. cmVI rogF dy sB qoN vwzy zfktr ny aYÊËImf afK ky iewk itAUb ilK idqI. Auh ds rupey dI afAuNdI sI. cuBdy qF sn ds rupey pr ÉRId ky lfAuxI ÈurU kr idqI. rog vDxo qF ht igaf pr Gty nf. pYr Aupr lwgI QMdI krIm Aupr Gtf vI pey qy myrf pYr qy pjfmy df phuMcf vI gMdy qy QMdy hoey rihx. do cfr itAUbF mukfAux ipCoN mY iehnF df KihVf Cwz ky, jilHaF vfly bfg dy bfhrvfr iewk icwtI dfhVI aqy BMgvyN kwpiVaF vfÜy vYd jI dy koÜ cilaf igaf. Aus ny mYnUM goÜIaF Kfx leI idqIaF. kuwJ idnF bfad Buwl hI igaf ik kyhVy pYr Aupr ksr sI. bfad ivwc mYnUM ieAuN smJ afeI ik Èfied Aus vYd jI ny qfry mIry dy bIaF nUM drV ky qy AuhnF dIaF goÜIaF vwt ky mYnUM dvfeI vjoN idqIaF sn. ieh myrf aMdfËf ies krky hY ik jdoN mY AuhnF nUM ieh puwiCaf ik jy sÌr dOrfn ikqy AuhnF dIaF idqIaF goÜIaF muwk jfx qF iPr mY kI krF! AuhnF ny afiKaf ik qF iPr mY qfry mIry dy bI drV ky Kf lvF. hux Auh vYd jI EQy nhI hn. cfr ku dhfky ies gwl nUM ho gey hn qy iPr 1984 ivclIaF GtnfvF AupRMq Aus ielfky dI sfrI nuhfr hI bdl cuwkI hY.
1983 ivwc eyQy isznI ivwc myrI KwbI awzI ivwc kuwJ vD qy swjI ivwc kuwJ Gwt pIV hoxI ÈurU ho geI. hOÜI hOÜI ieh vDdI geI. zfktrF ny afiKaf ik awzIaF dIaF hwzIaF vD geIaF hn qy EpRyÈn rfhIN hwzIaF nUM vZ ky Cotf krn qoN ibnf hor koeI cfrf nhI. tYNpryrI ielfj vfsqy awzI ivwc QwilAuN sUaf KoB ky dvfeI pfAuxI. ieh vfhvf qklIP dyh kfrj sI. do ku vfr aijhf kIqf vI.
iehnF hI idnF ivwc mYnUM pKfny nfÜ KUn afAux lwg ipaf. zfktr ny afiKaf ik pfiel hY. vfhvf icr zfktrF vwloN idqIaF itAUbF vrqdf irhf. bVy icr bfad pqf lwgf ik bvfsIr nUM aMgRyËI ivwc pfiel afKdy hn. iPr ieh smwisaf brdfÈq qoN bfhr ho jfx krky, afpxy imqr zf[ nirMdrpfl isMG jI horF dI slfh qy Audm nfÜ, 1983 dI dIvflI smy, mfAUNt zrUt hspqfl ivwc dfKl ho igaf. zfktrF ny kuwJ idn myrf Kfxf pIxf bMd krky mYnUM gulUkoË lfeI rwiKaf. iPr aMdroN kuwJ mfs df tukVf lY ky pRIiKaf krky mYnUM dwisaf igaf ik pfiel nhI, iewk Kfs iksm df alsr hY. Aus alsr dI iksm df mYnUM hux nF Buwl igaf hoieaf hY. kuwJ idn hspqfl rwKx ipCoN CuwtI dy ky nfÜ goÜIaF roj dIaF Cy Kfx leI ilK idqIaF. ieh vwzy afkfr dIaF bysuafdIaF goÜIaF, do svyry, do dupihry qy do rfqIN, rihMdy jIvn Br Kfx df hukm ho igaf. kuwJ idn hI mY aijhf kr sikaf. iPr aKIr awk ky mY ieh Cwz idqIaF. jdoN vI zfktr koÜ jfxf Aus ny ieh Kfx qy jor dyxf pr mY muV nf hI iehnF nUM Kf sikaf. kuwJ smf mY ies qrHF hI inwky moty nuksF nfÜ do cfr huMdf irhf.
hYrfn hI hoxgy myry pfTk ieh jfx ky ik mY iPr aMgRyËI BfÈf ivwc ‘kUaYk’ krky jfxy jfx vfÜy ‘hIlrF’ ivcoN iewk lyzI koÜ cilaf igaf. ieh isznI dy iewk sbarb ‘bONzfie’ ivwc lokF df ielfj krn df kfrj clfAuNdI sI. bONzfie jMkÈn dy rylvy styÈn qoN Auqr ky nyVy hI ies df sQfn sI. mY afpxy nfÜ, iehnF kMmF ivwc afpxy nfÜoN ikqy vD isafxy afpxy imqr, s[ jgrfj isMG jI nUM lY igaf. Esy ny hI myry afKx qy mYnUM iewk ikqfb ilaf ky idqI sI ijs ivwc aijhy ivakqIaF dy nF/pqy drj sn. asIN dovyN cly gey. Auh pMJI zflr ielfj krn dy lYNdI sI. mY s[ jgrfj isMG nUM afpxy nfÜ hI aMdr lY igaf qy muV muV Aus nUM qfkId kIqI ik pUry ghu nfÜ vyKxf hY ik ieh bIbI ikvyN ielfj krdI hY. afpxy asUl qoN AuÜt Aus ny myry nfÜ myry imwqr nUM aMdr jfx dI afigaf dy idqI. mYnUM Ausny sfry kwpVy Auqfr ky spYÈl bxy ibsqry ijhy Aupr lyt jfx leI afiKaf. mY kCihrf lfhux qoN jdoN asmrwQf prgt kIqI qF Aus ny pfeI rwKx leI afK ky mYnUM ibsqry Aupr lytx leI afK idqf. myry lytx qy Aus ny myry Aupr cfdr pf ky isr qoN pYrF qwk mYnUM Zwk idqf. lfgy aMgRyËI sfË sMgIq dI typ lf idqI. mYnUM hOÜI hOÜI kuwJ ÈFqI ijhI mihsUs hovy. iPr kuwJ smy ipCoN Aus ny myry pyt qoN cfdr lfh ky afpxy hwQF nfÜ myrf pyt pfVn df ‘jlvf’ kIqf. ÈIÈy rfhIN mYnUM myrf pftf hoieaf pyt vI ivKfieaf. mY iPr jgrfj isMG nUM iDafn nfÜ sfrf kuwJ vyKx dI qfkId kIqI. iPr Auh kuwJ ÉUn qy mfs ijhf pyt coN kZy qy lfgy peI bfltI ivwc suwtI jfvy. ies kfrvfeI ipCoN jdoN Aus ny qOlIey nfÜ myrf iZz sfP kIqf qF EQy kuwJ vI nhI sI isvfey myry kCihry dy nyNG Aupr iewk do bUMdF ÉUn dy dfgF qoN. aMq ivwc mY afiKaf ik myrIaF awzIaF ivwc vI ksr hY qF Aus ny EhI kuwJ myrIaF awzIaF nfÜ vI krky afK idqf ik hux ieh vI TIk ho geIaF hn. ivdfiegI smy Aus ny hr pRkfr df zyarI pRozkt qy imTf Kfx qoN mYnUM mnfh kIqf pr mY iehnF dohF vsqUaF df iqafg nhI kr sikaf.
bfhr af ky mY jgrfj isMG jI nUM puiCaf ik AuhnF ny kI vyiKaf qF AuhnF df jvfb sI ik jo Auh ivKfÜdI sI qy dwsdI sI Aus qoN ielfvf AuhnF dI smJ ivwc vI hor kuwJ nhI afieaf. iPr myry ieh puwCx qy ik jdoN Aus ny cfdr nfl mYnUM sfrf Zwikaf hoieaf sI EdoN kI krdI sI qF Aus ny dwisaf ik Auh myry srIr Aupr pYrF vwloN isr vfÜy pfsy nUM, srIr dy AuqoN dI afpxy hwQ iljfx smy, mUMh ivwc kuwJ pVHdI sI qy isr vfly pfsy nUM hwQ iljf ky kuwJ JfVn vFg hwQ JtkdI sI.
Aus qoN ipCoN AuhnF ksrF qoN mY rwb dI rihmq nfÜ bicaf af irhf hF. jy zfktrF dy Brosy qy rihMdf qF hux qwk Cy goÜIaF roj dIaF KfeI jFdf. pqf nhI AuhnF goÜIaF nfÜ hor ikMnIaF bImfrIaF shyV lYNdf! pqf iPr vI iksy nUM koeI nhI sI ik mYnUM ibmfrI kI hY! iPr mY afpxI Gr vfÜI nUM vI Aus koÜ lY ky igaf. Aus ny pihlF vFg hI Aus df vI ielfj kIqf pr Aus Aupr iqMn mhIny hI Aus bIbI dy ielfj df asr irhf. EdoN dwsdy sI ik Auh ‘sipircUal hIilMg’ vfÜI nOjvfn gorI bIbI inAU ËIlYNz qoN afeI sI. muV Aus df koeI pqf nhI ik ikQy afpxI pRYkits krdI hY. ieh gwl 1984 dI hY.
Gtnf ieh 1987 dy nvMbr dy pihly Èuwkrvfr dI aDI rfq dI hY. gurduafrf pfrklI dI kmytI ivc, af rhy sRI gurU nfnk dyv jI dy afgmn purb mnfAux dIaF, ivcfrF ho rhIaF sn. EdoN sMgq bhuq QohVI huMdI sI. iewk drimafny ijhy mkfn ivwc hI gurduafrf huMdf sI qy mhIny ivwc do vfrIN hI dIvfn lwgdf sI. gRMQI ivcfrf afpxy guËfry leI pMj idn iksy PYktrI ivwc mËdUrI krdf huMdf sI. awj siqgurU dI ikrpf qy sMgq dy Audm nfÜ, sdrn hYmysÌIar ivwc ieh gurduafrf, iblizMg pwKoN sB qoN ivÈfl aqy sMgq dI gihmf gihmI vflf hY. EdoN smyq gRMQI isMG dy sfry swjx Èuwkrvfr nUM afpo afpxIaF nOkrIaF qy hox krky, Aus rfq jfgx leI koeI iqafr nhI sI ho irhf. Aus rfq dy pihry dI syvf mY lY leI. pihrf eyhI sI ik smy isr pfTI nUM Aus dI vfrI leI sfvDfn krnf aqy bYTx qy AuTx vfÜy pfTI nUM cfh pfxI CkfAuxf. mY pfTI dy nyVy hI lMmf pY igaf qF ik jy myrI awK lwg jfvy qF Auh mYnUM ihlf dyvy. myrI jdoN aDI ku rfq nUM awK KulHI qF mY burI qrHF pfÜy nfÜ kMb irhf sF qy hor vI kuwJ ksrF srIr ivwc mihsUs kr irhf sF. do vjy myry imwqr s[ ajIq isMG sYxI jI pfT dI vfrI qoN AuTy qF myry afKx qy, Auh afpxy Gr nUM jFdy hoey, mYnUM myry Gr Cwz gey. svyry AuT ky Gr vflI qF kMm qy clI geI qy bwcy skUl nUM qur gey. jdoN vfhvf idn cVHy myrI awK KulHI qF myrf isr GuMmy qy buÉfr vI jorF qy. isr ieAuN GuMmy ik ijvyN kmry dI kMD kfrpYt ivwc DsI jFdI hovy. swjy kMn ivc, “sIN sIN, tF tF” ho rhI sI. ieh afvfËF kuwJ ieAuN sn qy hn ijvyN ik pMjfb dy sfAux BfdoN dy mOsm ivwc rfq nUM Coty jIvF dIaF afvfËF huMdIaF hn. suxno mukMml qOr qy ieh kMn jvfb dy igaf hY. EdoN qoN lY ky hux qwk ieh afvËF lgfqfr myry swjy kMn ivcoN af rhIaF hn. iksy zfktr nUM kuwJ smJ nhI afeI ik myry nfÜ kI Bfxf vriqaf hY. aKIr sfry pfpV vylx AupRMq, myry puwCx qy, zf[ nirMdrpfl isMG jI ny eynf hI afiKaf ik koeI vfiers ihwt kr geI hY. myry kyhVI vfiers puwCx qy ikhf ik sYNkVy hI vfiersF huMdIaF hn, koeI pqf nhI lwg skdf.
Aus idn dI gwl kr leIey: CyqI hI mY iksy qrHF nyVy dy zfktr koÜ igaf. Aus ny dwisaf ik mmË hn qy iehnF df isvfey afrfm krn qoN koeI ielfj nhI. Gr af ky zf[ nirMdrpfl isMG jI nUM Ìon rfhIN afpxI hflq ibafn kIqI qF AuhnF ny POrn hI vYstmIz hspqfl phuMcx leI qfkId kIqI. ies Aumr ivwc mmË hoxy Éqrnfk hn. ieh srIr dy Kfs isstm nUM nÈt kr skdy hn. mY ihdfieq anusfr hI kIqf. EQy sfry zfktr keI idnF qwk afpxIaF afpxIaF ‘zfkdfrIaF’ krdy rhy. iehnF zfktrF ivwc pMjfbI, ihMdusqfnI, pfiksqfnI, afstRylIan, aMgRyË qy rUsI vI Èfml sn. iksy dy kuwJ pwly nhI ipaf. sfry afpxy afpxy atkl pwcU hI lfAuNdy rhy. myry mmË bfry afKx qy vI AuhnF ny ikhf ik AuhnF dy tYstF ivwc aijhI koeI cIË nhI afeI. iPr AuhnF ny Aucycf iehnF vfsqy iewk hor tYst kIqf pr iPr vI mmË dI koeI inÈfnI nf prgt hoeI.
hF, iehnF sfry tYstF ny myry ivcoN ÈUgr dI bImfrI jrUr lB leI. pqf nhI Auh myry srIr ivwc pihlF hI mOjUd sI jF ik iehnF dvfeIaF qy tYstF dI ‘ikrpf’ sI. pihlF ÈUgr dI dvfeI ny Ault asr kIqf. kuwJ sflF ipCoN pMj sO imlI grfm dI aDI goÜI, iPr pUrI, iPr do, iPr iqMn; qy hux mY hr roj, zfktr dI ihdfieq anusfr, cfr goÜIaF KFdf hF. pMj pMj sO imlI grfm dIaF do goÜIaF svyry Cfh vyÜy ipCoN qy do hI rfq dI rotI ipCoN. ieh kMm mY mjbUrI vws zfktrF dI ihdfieq anusfr kr irhf hF.
hux vI kdI jdoN ikqy idmfgI Qkfvt jF iksy kfrn ZihMdIklf df asr hovy qF rfq smy kFbf iCV jFdf hY pr CyqI awK KulH jfx krky jF iksy hor kfrn, Enf gMBIr asr nhI huMdf. mY Esy smy AuT ky awg sykx lwg jFdf hF. jy awg df pRbMD nf ho sky qF srIr ivwc grmI ilafAux leI AuNj hI BuVkx lwg pYNdf hF. iewk vfrI aMimRqsr Brf dy Gr iqMn hÌiqaF ivwc do vfrI, aqy 2004 ivc, bYNkOk dy gurduafrf isMG sBf ivKy, iqMn rfqF ivwc do vfrIN ies df hmlf ho cuikaf hY. vfihgurU jI BlI krn! iksy zfktr nUM kuwJ pqf nhI ik kI hoieaf, ikAuN huMdf hY qy ies df kI ielfj hY.
1988 ivwc mY sYvn ihwlË ivwc iewk zrwm rIkMzIÈinMg PYktrI ivwc kMm krdf sF. EQy iewk idn myry igwty qy kYmIkl pY igaf. gMm bUt myry pfey hoey sn. mfVI ijhI pIV hoeI. mY koeI ghu nf kIqf. agly idn vyiKaf ik igwty qy ËÉm ho igaf hY. PYktrI df mflk afpxI kfr Auqy, PYktrI dy zfktr koÜ lY igaf. Aus ny dvfeI lf ky pwtI bMnH idqI. iBjx nf dyx dI qfkId kr idqI. jdoN myry Coty Brf nUM ies gwl df pqf lwgf qF Aus ny ikhf ik jy kYmIkl ipaf hY qF iBwjx qoN rokx dI bjfie sgoN pfxI nfÜ cMgI qrHF Doxf cfhIdf hY qF ik kYmIkl inkÜ jfvy. mY afiKaf ik gwl qF qyrI TIk lwgdI hY pr krFgf mY EhI kuwJ jo zfktr kihMdy hn. iewk zfktr Êlq ho skdf hY, sfry QohVf Êlq ho skdy ny! kuwJ idn kMm qy nf jf sikaf. jdoN hI pwtI KulH jfxI mY nyVy dy zfktr koÜ jf ky krvf lYxI qy nfÜ hI hryk zfktr nUM ksr df vyrvf dws ky puwCxf ik ielfj TIk ho irhf hY! sfry zfktrF ny hI TIk hox dI hfmI BrnI; ikAuNik Brf dy afKx qy mYnUM vI Èwk ijhf pYx lwg ipaf sI. hfr ky iewk idn mYnUM zfktr ny spYÈilst vwÜ Byj idqf. Aus ny vI kuwJ idn pihly vflf ielfj hI jfrI rwiKaf; nf ËÉm vDy qy nf hI Gty. iewk idn afKx lwgf ik EpRyÈn rfhIN qyry pwt qoN cmVI AuDyV ky ies ËÉm qy lfeI jfvygI. hux qwk zfktrF qy rwb qoN dUjy drjy vflf myrf XkIn kfPI Gwt ho igaf hoieaf sI qy AuhnF nUM vI mY iensfn hI smJx lwg ipaf sF. ijs qrHF afm iensfn ÊlqI kr skdf hY Esy qrHF zfktr vI kr skdf hY; myrI smJ ivwc af cuwkf sI. mY afiKaf ik kuwJ idn hor AuzIk leIey. aMdroN mY soc irhf sF iewk ËÉm qF TIk ho nhI irhf; dUjf Éud kIqf jfx vflf TIk ho jfvygf, ies dI kI grMtI hY! spYilÈt myrI gwl nfÜ sihmq ho igaf qy nfÜ hI afiKaf ik ijMnI vfrIN vI ho sky mY ies ËÉm nUM sfbx lf ky pfxI nfÜ Doieaf krF. myry ieh afKx qy ik pihlF qyry smyq sfry zfktr hI iBwjx nf dyx leI afKdy sn. Aus ny ikhf ik isrÌ qjwrby vjoN. mY qF pihlF hI aijhf kuwJ krnf cfhuMdf sF. isrÌ zfktrF qoN zrdf hI nhI sF krdf. Gr af ky jor Èor nfÜ ies hukm qy aml ÈurU kr idqf. aglI vfrIN jdoN Aus koÜ igaf qF Auh vyK ky hYrfn hI rih igaf ik ieh ËÉm qF hYrfnI BrI rÌqfr nfÜ TIk ho irhf hY! kuwJ idnF bfad isrÌ pfxI nfl hI ËÉm TIk ho igaf jyhVf ik dvfeIaF nfÜ eyny icr df nhI sI hoieaf.
1994 dy nvMbr jF dsMbr dI gwl hY ik myrI ipT qy, rIVH dI hwzI dy aMq Auqy hOÜI hOÜI Kurk hoxI ÈurU ho geI. ieh vDdI hI geI. mYnUM ipT qy Kurk krdy nUM vyK ky iewk bËurg swjx ny disaf ik ies nUM sIx vflf PoVf afKdy ny qy ies df ielfj krvf. ieh vI dwisaf ik ies nUM mugleI PoVf vI afKdy hn. mY zfktr koÜ igaf qy Aus ny mYnUM blYk tfAUn hspqfl Byj idqf. AuhnF ny AupRyÈn kr idqf qy mY do ku idnF ivwc TIk ho ky vfps af igaf. iewk gwl eyQy Èfied dwsxI kuQF nf hovy. EpRyÈn ipCoN zfktr ny PoVy vfÜI QF lIrF df iKwdo ijhf iPks kr idqf sI. ies nUM iPr kuwJ idn ipCoN lIr df isrf PV ky hOÜI hOÜI iKwc ky bfhr kZxf sI. iKwcx smy Aus iKwdo ny ËÉm ivwc GuMm ky QF bxfAuxI sI. nrs ny mYnUM pIV htfAU tIkf qF lfieaf pr jdoN iKwcx lwgy qF mYnUM bhuq pIV hoeI. Aus ny iewk hor tIkf lf idqf pr myry qy asr nf hoiea. Aus ny ikhf ik hor tIkf nhI lfieaf jf skdf. Aus ny iewk qwkVy myl nrs nUM swd ilaf. Aus ny mYnUM afpxy jor nfÜ dwb rwiKaf qy nrs ny hOlI hOÜI Auh iKwdo lIrF vfÜf iKwc ilaf. aD ku jhy ivwc jf ky mYnUM pIV hoxo vI ht geI. aijhf kuwJ aMimRqsr dy hspqfl ivwc vI iewk mrIË nfÜ zfktr vwloN huMdf mY 1972 ivwc vyK cuwkf sF jo vyK swkxf myrI brdfÈq ÈkqI qoN bfhr sI. Aus smy qF mrIË nUM dvfeI jF tIkf vI nhI sI lfieaf igaf. myry ieh afKx qy ik jy EpRyÈn smy ivakqI nUM byhoÈ kIqf jf skdf hY qF ies smy vI iksy dvfeI jF tIky df pRXog krnf cfhIdf hY qF ik mrIj nUM eynI qklIP nf hovy. zfktr ny myrI ies gwl nUM afpxI pRoÌYÈnl izAUtI ivwc mudfÉlq vjoN lY ky guwsf kIqf. blYk tfAUn hspqfl ivwc myry nfÜ hoeI aijhI ikiraf smy, mY afpxI pIV bfry afpxy zfktr nUM dwisaf qF Aus ny ikhf ik tIky df asr pMdrF imMt ipCoN huMdf hY. jy Auh tIkf lfAux ipCoN pMdrF ku imMt AuzIk lYNdy qF pIV nhI sI hoxI. soc afeI ik roj aijhf kMm krn vfÜy pRoPYÈnl bMdy/bMdIaF nUM vI ies gwl dI smJ nhI afeI. byloVI qklIP mrIj nUM dyx qoN rqf vI iJjk nhI iehnF lokF nUM! TIk hY, jy zfktr mrIË df ilhfj krUgf qF kmfeI iks koÜoN krUgf! mJ Gfh nfÜ dosqI krUgI qy KfAUgI kI!
kuJ idnF ipCoN mYnUM iPr EhI ksr ho geI. mY iPr zfktr koÜ igaf. Auh myrI gwl sux ky kuwJ gMBIr ijhf ho igaf qy myry hwQ ivwc iewk prcI PVf ky mYnUM iPr Esy hspqfl nUM qor idqf. hspqfl dy pihly zfktr ny dwisaf ik EpRyÈn smy PoVf pUrI qrHF nhI kiZaf jf sikaf. ies leI Pyr Puwt ipaf hY. hux hor zUMGf EpRyÈn krnf pvygf qy ies leI mYnUM iËafdf idn hspql ivwc rihxf pvygf. “PsI nUM Ptkx kI!” mY siq bcn afK ky sihmq ho igaf. rfq nUM EpRyÈn QIeytr ivwc iljfx qoN pihlF mYnUM nÈy df tIkf lf idqf igaf. aMdr jfx smy keI siPaF df aMgRyËI ivwc Cipaf iewk Pfrm dsqÉq krn leI myry hwQ PVf idqf. ieh bhuq hI brIk awKrF ivwc Cipaf hoieaf sI. EDroN mYnUM nÈy kfrn nINd af rhI sI qy nf hI myry koÜ aYnk sI. ibjlI dy lftU df cfnx vI bVf mDm ijhf sI. ies leI Aus smy Aus sfry jMjfÜ nUM pVHn df qF svfl hI pYdf nhI sI huMdf qy iPr ajy zfktrF qoN myrf XkIn pUrI qrHF AuiTaf vI nhI sI ik iehnF lokF ivwc vI kuwJ aijhy ho skdy hn jo jfx buJ ky kuwJ Êlq kr skdy hn. dsqÉqF vjoN Pfrm qy mY ibnf piVHaF hI GuwgI mfr idqI. byhoÈI ivwc EpRyÈn ho igaf. mMjy Aupr iksy smy rfq nUM lY afey hoxgy! svyry nrs ny af ky dwisaf ik awj dupihr nUM mYnUM Gr jfx dI CuwtI dy dyxI hY. mYnUM Èwk hoieaf ik zfktr qF afKdf sI ik pihlF nfloN vD idn hspqfl ivwc rihxf pvygf pr ieh qF pihly idn hI CuwtI dyx dI gwl kr rhI hY. Èfied koeI BulyKf nf lwgf hovy! myry afKx qy Aus nrs ny dwisaf ik ds vjy zfktr af irhf hY; Aus nfÜ gwl kr lYxI. jdoN zfktr ny af ky mYnUM dwisaf ik Esy idn hI mYnUM Gr nUM qor idqf jfvygf qF mY EpRyÈn qoN pihlF vfÜI Aus dI gwl duhrf ky puwiCaf qF zfktr ny ivsQfr ivwc dwisaf ik aMq smy asIN qyry qy iewk nvF qjwrbf kIqf hY. jykr asIN pUrf EpRyÈn krdy qF qyry ml mUqr iqag dy dohF sfDnF Aupr qyrf kMtRol smfpq ho skdf sI. ies leI asI Aus PoVy nUM lohy dI iewk qfr nfl kws idqf hY qy AumId hY ik Aus lohy dI qfr dI kws nfÜ Auh PoVf hOÜI hOÜI smfpq ho jfvygf. hspqfloN qF mY af igaf qy ieh sfrf kuwJ afpxy zfktr nUM dws idqf. Aus df cyhrf iPr vI mukfblqn gMBIr ijhf hI irhf. Aus dI dwsI qrIk qy mY iPr kuwJ idn bfad igaf qF Aus ny mYnUM cYk krn qoN bfad bVI ÉuÈI nfÜ dwisaf ik nvyN qrIky vfÜf EpRyÈn sÌl irhf hY qy hux iPkr vflI koeI gwl nhI. Aus ny afiKaf ik Auh dobfrf ieh ksr ho jfx qy icMqq ho igaf sI. iPr hfsy nfl kuwJ mKOlI ijhy lihËy ivwc afKx lwgf ik mY ËrUr koeI ihMdusqfnI jfdU kIqf hY ijs nfÜ mY TIk ho igaf hF; nhI qF ieh TIk hox vfÜf kMm sOKf nhI sI. hux qwk siqgurF dI ikrpf hY ies pwK qoN.
Aupr mY kfgËF Aupr dsÉq krvfAux df iËkr Aucycf ies leI kIqf hY ik kuwJ sfl hoey, sfAUQ afstRylIaf dy rihx vflI iewk bIbI dI Ébr sQfnk aÉbfr dy pihly sPy Aupr, smyq Aus dI Poto dy, CpI sI. Aus ivwc Aus ny doÈ lfieaf sI ik Aus dy bwcf pYdf hox smy zfktr ny koeI Aucycf qrIkf vriqaf sI ijs kfrn Aus nUM koeI ksr ho geI hY qy ies ksr df hux koeI ielfj nhI. pwqrkfr dy ieh afKx qy ik Aus nUM Aus zfktr qy pRoÌYÈnl ims kMzkt df doÈ lf ky kys kr dyxf cfhIdf hY. ies dy Auqr ivwc Aus bIbI ny dwisaf ik Aus pfsoN zfktr ny pihlF dsqÉq krvf ky AusdI sihmqI lY leI sI. aijhy smy zfktr Aupr Èwk nhI kIqf jf skdf. ijvyN Auh afKy EvyN hI krnf pYNdf hY. ies Ébr qoN mYnUM vI cyqf af igaf ik Èfied myry sfhmxy vI aijhy smy kfgË ilaf ky dsqÉq krn leI afiKaf igaf jdoN ik mY AuhnF nUM pVH vI nhI sF skdf. eyhI socxf pvygf ik zfktr ny qF hnyry ivwc qIr mfiraf sI. ieh vwKrI gwl hY ik inrMkfr dI myhr nfÜ Auh myry shI QF lwg igaf qy mY TIk ho ky hspqfloN vfps muV afieaf.
ipClyrI vfrI jdoN mY dunIaF df cwkr lf ky afieaf qF sdf dI qrHF ies vfrI vI srIr dIaF QohVIaF bhuqIaF cUÜF iZlIaF sn. iehnF coN iewk lUË moÈn dI ksr vI sI. bhuq vfrIN aijhI kuwJ ksr ho jfx qy mY cutkI lUx dI imlf ky iewk Pwkf jvfiex df mfr lYNdf huMdf hF qy TIk ho jFdf hF pr ies vfrI ies ny ijd hI PV leI qF mY ies nUM rokx leI iewk dvfeI dI goÜI Kf bYTf. Aus nfÜ qF sB kuwJ bMd hI ho igaf qy jy bfQrUm jfxf vI qF hryk smy ÉUn qF vfhvf af jfxf pr ijs kfrj leI jfxf Auh aDUrf hI rih jfxf. afKr kuwJ idn AuzIkx ipwCoN zfktr nfÜ gwl kIqI pr Aus dI kuwJ smJ ivwc nf afieaf. iPr Aus dI slfh nfÜ mfAUNt zrUt hspqfl cilaf igaf. AuhnF ny iewk inwky ijhy kmry ivwc mYnUM iltf idqf. do cfr nrsF ny myrI bFh coN lhU kZx leI jor lfieaf pr AuhnF qoN nf inkiÜaf. iPr vfhvf icr bfad iewk ihMdusqfnI idwK vfÜf nOjvfn ijhf zfktr afieaf qy Aus ny myrf lhU kZ ilaf. vfhvf icr mYnUM Aus kmry ivwc iekwly nUM rihxf ipaf. cfnx vI lftU df QohVf sI qy ies arD cfnxy ijhy ivwc myry aMdr kuwJ ZihMdIklf ijhI df aihsfs vI hox lwg ipaf. zfktr qy nrsF bQyrf eyDr EDr Bwjy iPrn pr AuhnF dI pkV ivwc kuwJ nf afvy. aKIr aDI rfq nUM mYnUM gulUkoË lwgy hI, aYNbUlYNs ivwc lwd ky, blYktfAUn hspqfl ivwc jf lfihaf. do ku idn eyDroN EDroN EhV pohV kridaF dy jdoN zfktrF dy hwQ pwly kuwJ nf ipaf qF iPr mYnUM iewk kfgË dsqÉq krn leI dy idqf. Aus ivwc iliKaf sI ik myrI ipT vwloN kYmrf aMdr pf ky aMdroN Ìoto lY ky vyiKaf jfvygf ik aMdr kI nuks hY; iPr hI iksy dvfeI bfry ivcfiraf jfvygf. Aus kfgË Aupr bVf kuwJ iliKaf hoieaf sI. aijhI kfrvfeI kridaF ieh vI ho skdf hY, afh vI ho skdf hY, Auh vI ho skdf hY qy aKIr ivwc iliKaf sI ik aijhf kuwJ kridaF myrI mOq vI ho skdI hY. pihlF mn kuwJ iJjikaf qF shI pr zfktrF dI gwl mMnxI hI pYxI sI. iJjkx df muKI kfrn ieh sI ik bhuq sfry swjxF aqy afpxI aglI pIhVI dy bwcy bwcIaF dy muV muV afKx qy, mY apxIaF XfdF coN kuwJ ilKxf ÈurU kIqf hoieaf sI. Aus df iPkr sI ik Auh ikqy ivcy nf rih jfvy. bfkI duinafvI kMm qF mY inbyVy hoey hI hn. vYsy dunIafdfr swjxF bhuiqaF qy Èfied ieh lokokqI ZukdI hovy, “DMdf iksY nf sfiDE sB DMdY sfDy. “pr mY Èfied surKrU hI hF rwb dI rihmq sdkf. Gr vflI nUM sfrf kuwJ smJfieaf ik jy mY ies EpRyÈn ipwCoN eyQoN nf jf sikaf qF Plfxy nUM ieh dyxf hY, Plfxy qoN ieh lYxf hY, Plfxy QF afh ËrUrI kfgË pey hn afid sB kuwJ Éud hI kr lYxf. ies ipCoN mY dsqÉq kr idqy. rfq smy AuhnF ny EpRyÈn vfÜy QF iljf ky mYnUM byhoÈI df tIkf lf ky afpxI kfrvfeI kr leI. ieh sfrf kuwJ krn vfiÜaF dI iencfrj zfktr bIbI vI iPÜOr dy nyVy dy iksy ipMz dI rihx vfÜI pMjfbx hI sI pr Aus dy dwsx muqfibk Auh bhuq smy qoN smyq prvfr eyQy hI rihMdy hn.
mYnUM nhI pqf AuhnF ny kI kIqf pr iewk do idnF ipCoN dwisaf ik ies vfrI kuwJ nhI pqf lwgf. kYmry nUM aMdroN hor AucfeI qwk lY jf ky iPr pqf kIqf jfvygf ik kI nuks hY. mY iPr afigaf dy idqI. pihlF vFg iJjk nf mihsUs kIqI. Èfied ieh soc ies kfrn hovy ik jy mY pihlI vfrI bc igaf hF qF hux ies vfrI vI mYnUM kuwJ nhI hox lwgf. dobfrf sfrI kfrvfeI hor AucfeI qwk krn AupRMq vI zfkdfrF dy hwQ pwly kuwJ nf ipaf. swq awT idnF bfad mYnUM bhuq sfrIaF dvfeIaF dy nF ilK ky, AuhnF nUM Kfx dIaF ihdfieqF dws ky, myry hwQ kfgËF df Qwbf PVf ky Gr nUM qor idqf. lAu kr lAu iGE nUM GVf! nfÜ hI myrI Aus spYÈilst bIbI nfÜ qrIk iPks kr idqI ik Ayus nUM imÜnf hY. mY Gr af ky ieh sfrf ltf ptf ibn ivwc mfiraf qy eIsbgoÜ df iClkf KfDf. gurU dI ikrpf nfÜ kfrj rfs af igaf. hF, kuwJ idn hspqfl dI pRfhuxfcfrI df afnMd jrUr mfx ilaf. myry jY puroN afey hoey kuVm, s[ qrlocn isMG gryvfl horF jrUr myrf hspqfl vyK ky afiKaf, “ieh hspqfl hY jF ik PfeIv stfr hotl!”
AupRokq sfrf kuwJ afpxy nfÜ, afpxI hoÈ ivwc vfprIaF GtnfvF df aqI sMKyp qy swcf vrnx hY. ies df mqlb iksy vI qrHF dy ielfj dy qrIky nUM CuitafAuxf qy dUjy qrIky nUM vizafAuxf nhI. injI qjwrby qoN myrf ivÈvfÈ bx igaf hY ik ijMny vI hux qwk ielfj dy qrIky mnuK dI smJ ivwc af cuwky hn Auh sfry sMpUrn qOr qy nf mukMml hn qy nf hI inrf pKMz hn. gurbfxI anusfr jdoN mnuKI srIr dy duwK df smf smfpq ho jFdf hY qF Aus nUM iksy vI bhfny Aus duK qoN Cutkfrf pRfpq ho jFdf hY. jy duK df smf ajy smfpq nhI hoieaf qF vzy vwzy zfktrF nUM bImfrI dI smJ hI nhI pYNdI; qy jy smf pUrf ho igaf hY qF iksy sfD dy DUMey dI svfh dI cutkI nfÜ vI afrfm af skdf hY, Poky pfxI nfÜ vI qy eIsbgoÜ df iClkf Kfx nfÜ vI duK qoN Cutkfrf pfieaf jf skdf hY. hF, pwCmI ielfj pRxflI, ijs nUM aYlopYQI afKdy hn, ieh srIr dI srjrI arQfq cIV PfV kr dyx ivwc iËafdf kfmXfb hY. ijvyN drjI kwpVy dI ktfeI vZfeI jfxdf hY qy ijvyN iewk qrKfx lwkV nUM kwt, vZ qy CFg ky mMjI Tok idMdf hY; EvyN hI, myrI jfcy, zfktr vI mnuKI srIr nfÜ kr idMdy hn. awgy bMdy dI iksmq ik AusdI syhq rUpI mMjI TIk Tuk jfvy jF Aus ivwc kfxo rih jfvy. jy kfxo rih geI qF iPr srIr nUM AuDyV ky muV TIk krn df Xqn krdy hn.