pihlI Xfqrf pfiksqfn dI
– igafnI sMqoK isMG, afstRylIaf

mfrc 1999 dy iek sLwukrvfr dy lOZy vylLy myry imwqr s[ mohn isMG syKoN dI bwcI jspfl kOr df Pon afieaf ik pfpf kihMdy ny ik igafnI aMkl jI nUM afKo ik buDvfr hrpfl isMG df ivafh hY qy Auh puwjx. mY syyKoN sfihb nUM moVvF Pon krky smy QohVy dI mjbUrI dwsI pr AuhnF ny kIqf vfadf Xfd krvf ky ‘kosLt’ krn leI afiKaf. gwl ieAuN hoeI ik iek idn gurduafry ivc mY hfsy hfsy ivc afK bYTf, “dys cwly ho; kfky hrpfl isMG df ivafh kirE; mY afvFgf.“ vYsy vI soc irhf sF ik vYsfKI dy iqMn sO sflf smfgmF df afnMd mfixaf jfvy qy nflL hI icrF qoN afpxy nflLoN tuwt ky vwK hoeI DrqI pfiksqfn dI Xfqrf vI kIqI jfvy.
pfiksqfn kONsUlyt nUM irMigaf. AuhnF ny zbl PIs rfhIN vIjLf dyxf mMn ilaf. bwcI rvIn nUM bMby dI sIt bwuk krn leI irMg idqf. somvfr sfZy ds vjy pfiksqfn df vIjLf lvf ky, 11 vjy iek cIny rYstorYNt qoN brykPfst dy nF qy iZz nUM JulLkf dy ky, puwqr sMdIp isMG dy dPLqroN jf ky Aus pfsoN kuJ pYsy lY ky, hvfeI awzy dI bws PV ky qur ipaf. svf ku iek vjy dy jhfj ny mYnUM cwuk ky aDI rfq qoN pihlf bMby jf lfihaf qy EQoN hor jhfj PV ky idn cVHn qoN pihlF hI idwlI qy idlIAuN gwzI rfhIN luiDafxy jf Auqiraf. qurn smy ieh pqf hI nf kIqf ik ivafh ikQy hY. kudrqIN syKoN sfihb df Pon nMbr GIsy ivc rih igaf sI. nMbr imlLfieaf qF srfBy qoN BYx suirMdr kOr jI boly, “Brf jI, af jfE; ivafh eyQy eI af!” qkflLF nUM EQy jf viVaf. svyry buDvfr jMÖ cVHI. sfdf ivafh vyK ky bhuq hI KLusLI hoeI. ies KIvypx ivc hI aDI ku rfq qwk aMimRqsr bws rfhIN puwj igaf.
pfiksqfn dI Xfqrf leI jfxf sI. pihlF iek vfrIN sLRomxI kmytI dy jQy nflL jfx df Xqn kIqf sI pr EdoN pfsport nf bx sikaf. iPr 1975 dy nvMbr ivc smuMdrI jhfj rfhIN dfrfslfm (qnjLfnIaF) jFidaF jdoN jhfj krfcI ruikaf qF vI sfnUM ihMdusqfnIaF nUM jhfjoN bfhr nf inklLx idqf. hOslf nf pvy jfx df. pqf nhI ikAuN? ijvyN koeI aMdroN ibnf kfrn BY ijhf pRqIq hovy! bQyrf mn nUM smJfvF ik afpxy hI pMjfbI boldy lok hn. kI ho jfAUgf! mnf, qUM qF aPRIkf dy jMglLF ivcdI jFdIaF sVkF Aupr rfq dy hnyry ivc vI pYdl qurn qoN nhI kdI Jikaf; ijQy lok bMdf mfr ky Kf jFdy hn! myrIaF aijhIaF ‘dlyrIaF’ vyK ky EQy rihMdy ihMdusqfnI vfkP swjx mYnUM mUrK hI smJdy sn. mMUhoN BfvyN Auh aijhf nhI sn kihMdy pr AuhnF dIaF awKF qy cyhry df pRBfv aijhf kuJ hI drsfAuNdf huMdf sI. iPr prdysI sUrqF, prdysI bolIaF vflLy dysF, XUrp, amRIkf, kYnyzf, eysLIaf dy mulkF ivc iPridaF qyrI ikny loeI nhI sI lfhI! eyQy lfhOr ivc afpxy lok kI qYnUM mUMh `c pf lYxgy! eysy AuDyV bux ivc iek idn ‘BfeI cqr isMG jIvn isMG pusqkF vfilLaF’ dI dukfn qy afpxf purfxf qy kYnyzf rihMdf imwqr[ ig[ blbIr isMG cMigafVf ids ipaf. ‘sfhb slfmq’ qoN bfad Ausqo pqf lwgf ik Auh jQy nflL pfiksqfn jf irhf hY. mY vI afpxy jfx dI iewCf prgt kr idqI pr Ausny awgoN, “asIN qF srkfrI qOr qy jQy nflL jf rhy hF.“ afK ky myyry AuqsLfh Aupr TMzf pfxI zohl idqf.
KYr, iek idn hOslf krky mY svyry Cfh vylLf krn AupRMq GroN qurn smy GridaF nUM afiKaf, “cwilaf qy mY lfhOr nUM hF pr jykr bws awzy qwk jFidaF myrf ivcfr bdl igaf qF iPr vfps afAux dI bjfie mY pitafly nUM cilaf jfvFgf.“ pAuVIaF Auqr ky glLI ivc afieaf qF awgoN Cotf Brf sUbydfr s[ dlbIr isMG myry vwl hI af irhf sI. mY ikhf, “qUM ikDr?” “afpF klH pRogrfm jU bxfieaf sI ik mY vfhgf bfrzr qwk quhfzy nflL clFgf. qusIN lfhOr nUM jU awj jf rhy ho.” mY afpxI BulwkVpx vflLI kmjorI nUM lukf ilaf qy bws rfhIN asIN dovyN Brf vfhgf jf puwjy. EQy iek jvfn muMzf KihVy pY igaf ik pYsy mY jrUr pfisqfnI krMsLI vflLy KLrIdF. Ausdy jor dyx qy mY mMn igaf qy Auh nflL hI iek dPLqr ijhy ivc mYnUM lY igaf ijQy iek icwtI dfhVI vflLy srdfr jI ny BfrqI krMsI dy bdly pfiksqfnI iek hjfr rupey df not mYnUM PVf idqf. myry Coty not mMgx qy jvfb idqf, “nhI srdfr jI, pfiksqfn ivc bVI ienPlysLn af. quhfnUM koeI idwkq nhI afAux lwgI. BfrqI pfsy dI iemIgRysLn, kstm afid dI kfrvfeI pUrI krky qurn lwgf qF kuwlI af duaflLy hoey. mY afiKaf, “afh myrf moZy vflLf ieko hI bYg hY. dwso ieh qusIN myry nflL cwukI iProgy?” iek icwtI dfhVI vflLf kuwlI kihMdf, “srdfr jI, asIN eyQy kfhdy vfsqy hF? sfry quhfzy vrgy hI XfqrU afey qF pY geIaF sfzIaF pUrIaF! AusnUM kuJ vYsy hI pYsy dyx leI mn bxf ky vyiKaf qF Auh jf cwukf sI.
pfiksqfn vflLy pfsy Pyr pYsy vtfAux vfilLaF ny ijAuN Jurmt pfieaf. msF AuhnF qoN bc ky awgy igaf qF bfhr cuwp cF suMn msfn by rOxkf ijhf njLfrf idisaf. iek KoKf cfh vflLf sI. Aus qoN pqf lg igaf ik jlHo jfx vflLI bws afvygI. iek do tYksIaF vI afeIaF geIaF. myry vwl zrfeIvr vyK lYNdy rhy pr sfied “iehnF iqlLF ivc qyl nhIN” smJ ky ibnf mYnUM qMg kIiqaF hI cly jFdy rhy. QohVy smy ipwCoN agly tfAUn jlHo nUM jfx vflLI imnI bws af geI. mYnUM AuhnF ny ibTf ilaf. jdoN mY krfey vfsqy hjfr df not kiZaf qF Auh sfry hws pey. srdfr jI iqMn rupeIey dI itkt qy qusIN hjfr df not ivKf idqf!” myry aslIaq dwsx qy AuhnF ny itkt dy idqI qy jlHo qoN agy lfhOr nUM jfx vflLI imnI bws qy mYnUM ibTf ky iqMn rupey Aus bws dy zrfeIvr qoN lY ley qy hflfq qoN AusnUM jfxU krvf idqf. Ausny rfh ivc bws rok ky pYtROl pMp qoN hjfr df mot quVvf ky nO sO iekfnvy rupeIey mYnUM moV ky, kuwl nO rupeIey rwK ley qy myrI bynqI mMn ky mYnUM gurduafrf zyhrf sfihb dy bUhy awgy Auqfr idqf. EQy ies sQfn nUM rxjIq isMG dI mVHI krky jfixaF jFdf hY; ikAuNik gurduafry dy nflL hI awgy mhfrfjf rxjIq isMG dI ivsLfl smfD hY. eyQy hI iklHf, vzI msIq qy iekbfl dI kbr vrgy sQfn hn. sfhmxy sVkoN bfhr mjLfir pfiksqfn hY jo ik iek ivsLysL sYrgfh hY.
aMimRqsr qoN vfhgy qwk rOxk mylf qy awgoN vfhgy qoN lfhOr qwk df iPwkf ijhf mfhOl vyK ky 1997 ivclf vyiKaf ijLMbfbvy qy jLYNbIaf dy bfrzr vflLf njLfrf Xfd af igaf. sMsfr pRisD Xfqrf sQfn ivktorIaf PfljL dy ijLMbfbvy vflLy pfsy ies qrHF rOxkF ijvyN vYsfKI df mylf hovy qy diraf lMG ky jLYNbIaf ivc dfKl hox qy cfr cOPyry suMnmsfx peI Bfsy.
mY ajy gurduafry dy gytoN bfhr hI sF ik aMdrvfr vfhvf rOxk ijhI idsI qy AuhnF ivc iek cyhrf jfixaF ijhf vI idKfeI idqf. zyhrf sfihb dy aMdr vVidaF hI puls dI cONkI hY jo ik hryk aMdr afAux vflLy df QF itkfxf drj krdI hY. EQoN vyhlf ho ky aMdr igaf qF Auh jfxI ijhI hsqI ig[ hrijMdr isMG jI kYnyzf vfly inklLy jo ik isznI dI Xfqrf smy myry Gr vI afey sn qy cMgf AuhnF nUM mY afpxy imwqrF snyhIaF ivc smJx lwg ipaf sF. clfvyN ijhy qrIky nflL imlLy qy sLfied iksy kfhlI ivc sn! “mY huxy afAunF. qusIN bYTo.“ afK ky bfhr inklL gey. mY ies BulyKy ivc AuzIk krdf irhf ik sLfied CyqI af jfxgy. pr Auh rfq nUM hI muVy qy dwisaf ik Auh krqfrpur sfihb dy drsLnF nUM cly gey sn. mY iewCf prgt kIqI ik jy mYnUM dwsdy qF mY vI nflL hI jf ky drsLn kr afAuNdf! AuhnF dI AuzIk dOrfn mY iek mMjy qy kbjLf krky pVHn df bhfnf ijhf krdf irhf. ies dOrfn mIh vI afieaf qy mY mMjf iKwc ky brFzy ivc kr ilaf. gRMQI isMG jI dI isMGxI ny mYnUM cfh df glfs vI Ckf idqf.
KLYr gurduafrf sfihb dy iencfrj/syvfdfr s[ sfihb isMG jI ny vs lwgdy myrI cMgI shfieqf kIqI. rfq asIN bfhrly ivakqIaF vfsqy bxI sImq ijhI irhfiesL ivc kwtI. igafnI jI, iek amRIkn srdfr jI qy mY ieko kmry ivc sF. sfnUM iqMnF nUM hI sRI nnkfxf sfihb qwk kfr dI svfrI imlL geI. EQy dy drsLn myly kIqy. pRsLfdf idny gurduafrf pwtI sfihb dy mkfnF ivc rihMdy guriswKF dy GroN Cikaf qy rfq nUM iksy hor guriswK dy Gr aKMz pfT cwl irhf sI EQy Cikaf. kuJ prvfr nnkfxy sfihb ivKy iswKF dy rihMdy hn. lMgr df gurduafry ivc pRbMD nhI hY pr prdysI XfqrUaF nUM guriswK afpxy GrIN pRsLfdf Ckf idMdy hn. lMgr nf hox bfry vI iek iswK ny idlcsp vfrqf suxfeI.
suBf svyry cUhVkfxy gurduafrf swcf sOdf jfx leI asIN dovyN, mY qy amRIkf vfsI srdfr jI, gurduafrf jnm sQfn qoN bfhr inklLy qF ieh jfx ky ik qur ky jfx nflL sLfied asIN smy isr bws awzy qy nf puwj skIey qy koeI svfrI, tFgf afid imlL jfvy qF bws qurn qoN pihlf awzy qy puwj jfeIey. aflLy duafly ingfh mfrI pr kuJ nf idisaf. kuJ dUrI qoN iek ryhVf ijhf afANudf idisaf ijs dy awgy Koqf juwpf hoieaf sI. kolL afAux qy “rukIN rukIN” afK ky AusnUM mY rok ilaf qy Cfl mfr ky asI dohvyN icwtIaF dfhVIaF vflLy isMG Aus qy svfr ho gey. lwkV df ryhVf imwtI nfl Biraf hoieaf sI. pYrF Bfr asIN bYT gey. kwpVy vI bcf bcf rwKIey imtI qoN. hwQ pfAux leI vI kuJ nf. rfh vI AUBV KfBV. sRI nnkfxf sfihb dy bfjLfrF ivc dI Koqy vflLI ryhVI Aupr pYrF Bfr susLoBq hoey hoey asIN sohxIaF dsqfrF, cMgy bsqrF ivc sjy hoey sMpUrn dfhVIaF vfly isMG cVHdI klf ivc sF. lok sfzy drsLn kr kr ‘inhfl’ ho rhy sn. ies ‘Audm’ sdkf asIN bws jf PVI qy gurduafrf swcy sOdy jf puwjy.
drsLn krn AupRMq sVk qy Kloqy asIN lfhOr jfx dI bs AuzIk rhy sF. iek puils dy hOldfr ny sfnMU swd ky afpxy kolL mMjy qy bhf ilaf qy sfzy nFh nFh kridaF vI cfh mMgvf leI. myry vfsqy ieh Drm sMkt pYdf ho igaf. iek qF mY aTfrF sflF qoN pMjfbI cfh pIx qoN bcx dy aqy aMgRyjLI cfh df svfd pYdf krn dy XqnF ivc hF. aMgRyjLI cfh df tyst qF izvYlp hoieaf nhI pr pMjfbI cfh qF hux myry sMGoN nhI lMGdI. dUjf kuJ dUrI qy ryhVIaF Aupr ids rhy lfl lfl sMqiraF df rMg myry idl nUM DUh pf irhf sI. myrf jI kry ik mY do cfr sMqry KfvF. jy aOKf sOKf ho ky cfh dy Guwt Br lYNdf qF Auh nhI sI Kf hoxy. bVf hI Xqn kIqf ik hOldfr sfihb vwloN ivKfey jf rhy pRym ivc vI Prk nf pvy qy cfh qoN vI Cutkfrf ho jfvy pr eynI KLusiksmqI ikQy! “nflLy copVIaF qy nflLy do do!” eynI afpxI hYsIaq qoN vwzI mMg! afKr nf KusLI ijhy mfhOlL, jo ik myry cfh sMkt krky pYdf ho igaf sI, ivc hI Aus pfsoN ividaf leI.
asIN dovyN jxy EQoN muV ky lfhOr af gey. agly idn lfhOroN bws rfhIN gurduafrf sRI pMjf sfihb nUM qur pey. eyar kMzIsLnz bws qy sVk ies qrHF ijs qrHF dI pwCmI mulkF dIaF sVkF huMdIaF hn. pqf lwgf ik ieh sVk iksy ivdysLI kMpnI ny bxfeI hY qy vIh sflF qwk iesdf kMtRolL vI Ausdy pfs hI rihxf hY. pqf nf lwgy ik afstRylIaf dI iksy sVk qy jf rhy hF jF pMjfb ivc! anMd hI af igaf hUtf lYx df ik! Pyr iek bdmjLgLI ijhI vI pYdf ho geI. ijQy sfry svfr sfnUM pRfhuixaF vrgf afdr dy rhy sn. EQy iek jvfn hwtf kwtf swjx vI bws ivc bYTf hoieaf sI ijsnUM idsdf nhI sI. pihlF qf Ausny iksy df ilhfj kIiqaF ibnf hI afpxI shieqf leI nflL rwKy iek mfsUm ijhy bwcy nUM cpyVF nflL kuwtxf sLurU kr idqf qy muV sfnUM muKLfqb jo ky boilaf, “qusIN kfPLr ikAuN ho, momn ikAuN nhI bxdy!” ijvyN ikvyN ies ‘sMkt’ qoN Cutkfrf pfieaf. sLfied bcpn qoN nyqrhIx swjxF bfry suxIaF gwlF swc hI hox! kuJ lokF df ivcfr hY ik idsdf nf hox krky iehnF ivc ‘dlyrI’ df aMsL dUijaF nflLoN vD huMdf hY. gurduafrf sRI pMjf sfihb phuMc gey. drvfjy qy bfkI gurduafiraF vFg hI puls df pihrf sI. bfhr BIVf ijhf bfjLfr sI pr aMdr bhuq hI KulHf zulHf gurduafrf susLoBq sI. rihx nUM kmrf qy Ckx leI pRsLfdy df pRbMD vI ho igaf. agly idn asIN bws PVI qy ipsLOr leI rvfnf ho gey. EQy BfeI jogf isMG jI dI Xfd ivc ivsLfl gurduafrf sfihb hY. EQoN dy lok ies ielfky nUM ‘mhwlf jogn sLfh’ afKdy hn. awzy qoN sLihr nUM jFidaF swjy hwQ ‘bflf ihsfr’ nF df ivsLfl iklHf vI susLoBq sI ijQy s[ hrI isMG nlUaf ibmfr ipaf sI qy jmrOd dy iklyH ivcoN bIbI hirsLrn kOr sMkt df sunyhf lY ky afeI sI qy srdfr jI ibmfrI dI hflq ivc hI Aus iklHy ivcoN jmrOd dI rwiKaf leI AuT ky qur pey sn.
gurduafry ivc sOx qy Kfx df mslf vI hwl ho igaf. ipsLOr ivc ZfeI iqMn sO isK prvfr rihMdy hn jo bhuqy dukfndfr hn. ieh prvfr igrd invfhI dy kbfielI ielfikaF `coN hOlLI hOlLI eyQy sLihr ivc af vwsy hn. gurduafry ivc dovyN vylLy dIvfn sjdf qy lMgr cwldf hY. asIN eyQy GuMmy qy kuJ gurisKF nUM vI imlLy. cfhnf sI ik bcpn qoN ieiqhfs qy ikwsy pVH pVH ky soc ivc Cfieaf hoieaf jmrOd df iklHf vyiKaf jfvy. ieh iklHf sdIaF qoN pCm vloN af rhy hmlfvrF dy rfh, dwrf KLYbr dy aYn dhfny Auqy, s[ hrIaf isMG nlUaf ny Ausfr ky ies pfisAuN afAux vflLy DfVvIaF dI sdf leI ‘bolqI bMd’ kr idqI sI. ieh ipsLOr qoNN bhuqI dUr nhI sI. ijs vI iswK nflL asIN ieh gwl krIey Auh sfzI hOslf isLknI hI kry. Auh TIk hI afKdy sn. AuhnF dy bcn kuJ ies qrHF sn: Auh gLYr ielfkf hY. sB lok hiQafrbMd hn. Auh agvf vI kr lYNdy hn qy mfr vI idMdy hn. pfiksqfn df koeI kfnUMn afid EQy nhI cwldf. ieh sB kuJ TIk hY. pfiksqfn qy aPLgfisqfn dI hwd Aupr kbfielI pTfxF dy ielfky hn. ieh sYmI afjLfd hI hn. kdI iksy bfhrlI srkfr dy aDIn nhI rhy. aMgRyjL vI iehnF qy kfbU nf pf sky. bhuq hI mfr Kory kbIly hn. kuJ smf s[ hrI isMG nlUey ny iehnF qy kfbU pfieaf sI. iehnF dy ielfky swq eyjMsIaF arQfq KLud muKLqfr rfjsI bxqrF ivc vMzy hoey hn. iehnF dI pfrlImYt jF pMcfieq nUM ‘ijrgf’ afKdy hn. KLYbr, vjLIirsqfn afid nFvF dy ieh ielfky hn. ieMtrnYsLnl mfnqf anusfr qF BfvyN ieh sfry ielfky pfiksqfn dI hwd aMdr hI ivKfey jFdy hn pr amlI qOr qy pfiksqfn df koeI kfnUMn EQy nhI cwldf. pfiksqfnI POj jrUr keI QFvF qy CfAuxIaF ivc rihMdI hyY pr kuJ smy qoN EQoN dy lokF dI POj nflL vI gfhy bgfhy twkr ho jFdI hY qy kdI kdI iksy QF qoN pfiksqfnI POj nUM pspfeI df mUMh vI vyKxf pY jFdf hY.
gurduafry dy gRMQI isMG, BfeI sonf isMG jI, ny sfzI ijd ijhI vyK ky sfnUM iek nOjvfn gurduafry mwQf tykx afieaf imlLf idqf. Auh nOjvfn aPLgfinsqfn qoN qfilbfnF dI gVbV krky pfiksqfn af igaf sI aqy ipsLOr qy dwrf KLYbr dy ivcflLy mOjUd iek tfAUn ivc AusdI kwpVy dI cMgI dukfn sI. ies tfAUn df nF ies smy Xfd nhI af irhf. ieAuN hI smJ leIey ik ijvyN aMimRqsr qy atfrI drimafn Cyhrtf hovy.
agly idn Aus ny tYksI krky sfnUM iklHf ivKfAux leI afpxy nflL qor ilaf. qurn qoN pihlF mY afpxf pfsport ies leI Kohl ky vyiKaf ik ikqy ihMdusqfn vFg pfiksqfn ivc vI iksy KLfs ielfky ivc jfx dI pfbMdI qF nhI! aijhI smwisaf jnvrI 1986 ivc aMimRqsr pysL pY geI sI. sfrf prvfr asIN aMimRqsroN idwlI vflLf jhfj PVn leI rfjf sFhsI gey. sfmfn vgYrf sfrf kuJ aMdr cilaf igaf. sB kuJ ho jfx qoN bfad ibnf loVoN hI iek KulHI dfhVI vflLf iswK hOldfr pMgf pf ky bih igaf ik sfzy pfs pMjfb df vIjLf nhI hY. hflF ik vIjLy afid dI pVqfl idwlI hoxI sI. swjx, imwqr, prvfr, irsLqydfr afid iek qkVf hjUm ivdf krn afieaf hoieaf sI. sB nUM hwQF pYrF dI pY geI. rwb rwb krky iek vwzy aPLsr dI myhrbfnI nflL asIN hvfeI awzy qoN sfmfn lY ky vfps muVn ivc kfmXfb hoey qy rfq dI gwzI PV ky idwlIEN af ky jhfj PiVaf. ies sfry kuJ df vyrvf Pyr ikqy shI. (lyK bDn qy aiDk zrfAUN]) mY nhI sI cfhuMdf ik jo kuJ myry afpxy sLihr eyny sLuBicMqkF dI hfjrI ivc myry nflL hoieaf Auh kuJ eyQy prdys ivc ho jfvy.
pfsport vyK ky myrI KfinEN geI! hooieaf ieh ik isznI siQq pfiksqfnI kONsUlyt qoN mY iek mhIny df vIjLf mMigaf sI qy do ieMtrIaF dyx df EhnF ny vfadf kIqf sI. AuhnF dy jLbfnI iekrfr qy mY ieqbfr krky smJ ilaf ik do do hPLqy dIaF do ieMtrIaF hoxgIaF pr AuhnF ny iek mhIny dI QF do hPLiqaF df vIjLf idqf qy iek vfrI dI iek hPLqy dI ieMtrI. mY qF afrfm nflL iPrdf irhf ieh smJ ky ik myry pfs do hPLiqaF df vIjLf hY pr Auh qF iek hPLqy df hI sI; qy myry pfs eynf smf nhI sI bicaf ik nflL dy sfQI nflL kIqy gey iekrfr anusfr Ausdy jnm sLihr srgoDy df cwkr lf skdf. Ausny mYnUM byiPkr hox dI vI BrpUr pRyrnf kIqI qy afiKaf ik eynf ku Evr sty ho jfx nflL kuJ nhI afKdy pr mY qF duD df siVaf lwsI nUM vI PUkF mfrn vflLI hflq ivc sF. iehnF dohF mulkF ivc mY iksy vI srkfrI aiDkfrI nUM lgdI vfh koeI bhfnf dyx leI iqafr nhI ik Auh mYnUM dbkf ky luwtx df koJf Xqn kry. mYnUM nf mMndf vyK ky Auh cMgf swjx myry nflL nfrfjL vI ho igaf qy inrfsqf ivc hI iklfH vyKx qoN ipCoN myry nflL hI lfhOr af igaf. sLfied iekwly df srgoDy jfx df Ausdf vI hOslf nf ipaf hovy!
iklyH dI gwl kr leIey. Aus iswK nOjvfn nflL asIN dovyN jxy tYksI qy bYT ky ipsLOroN cwl pey. Ausdf tfAUn lMG ky iek sYrymonIal svfgqI gyt afieaf. eyQoN KLYbr eyjMsI df ielfkf sLurU huMdf sI. mY tYksI dI ipClI sIt qy Kwby pfsy bYTf hoieaf sF. eysy pfsy hI gyt Auqy AurdU qy aMgRyjLI ivc iek borz lwgf hoieaf sI, “ies qoN awgy prdysI nhI jf skdy.“ mY Auh pVH qF ilaf pr dUijaF nflL ieh gwl sFJI nf kIqI qy asIN qurI gey. awgy dwrf KLYbr df aslI gyt af igaf. Ausdy nflL hI aMdrvfr swjy hwQ iklHy df gyt hY. Aus srdfr ny bfrI KulHvf ky aMdr pihrydfr nflL gwl kIqI qy Ausny vwzf gyt iklHy df Kohl idqf qy asIN kfr smyq hI aMdr cly gey. sB qoN pihlF sfnUM iqMnF nUM iklHy dy aYkiMtMg kmFzr, jnfb ajLIjL BwtI sfihb, nflL imlfieaf igaf. Ausny iklHf ivKfAux leI sfzy nflL iek hOldfr qor idqf qy nflL hI afK idqf ik AusnUM imilLaF qoN ibnf asIN vfps nf cly jfeIey. Aus hOldfr ny sfnUM cMgI qrHF iklHf ivKfAux dy nflL nflL jfxkfrI vI idMidaF dwisaf ik ahu jyhVI msIq idsdI hY ieh s[ hrI isMG nlUey ny afpxy muslmfn POjIaF vfsqy Aus smy bxvfeI sI. ahu ijQy trwk vgYrf Kloqy hoey ny, srdfr nlUey dy smy vI AusdI POjI kfnvfeI eyQy hI Kloieaf krdI sI. iek asIN sQfn aijhf vI iklyH ivc vyiKaf ijs bfry kmFzr smyq iksy nUM nhI sI pqf ik ieh kI hY! ieh sI s[ hrI isMG nlUey dI smfD. ieh pwkI bxI hoeI sI gMubddfr[ iesdf PrsL kwcf sI. iesdy mwQy Aupr sMg mrmr dI isl lwgI hoeI sI ijs Aupr pMjfbI ivc iliKaf hoieaf sI ik ieh smfD PLst pitaflf iswK rjmYt ny 1944 ivc bxvfeI sI. AuhnF ivcoN gurmuKI awKrF df koeI jfxU nf hox krky Auh pVH nhI sn skdy qy ies leI AuhnF nUM pqf nhI sI ik ieh kI cIj hY! gwlbfq dOrfn mY dwisaf ik ieh Aus sQfn dI Xfdgfr vjoN eyQy ikafm dOrfn iswK rjmYt ny Aus sQfn qy smfD bxvfeI sI ijQy s[ hrI isMG nlUey df sskfr kIqf igaf sI. jdoN 1837 ivc Auh aPLgfn hmlfvrF df mukfblf kridaF hoieaF sLhId ho igaf sI. Aus smy dy ieiqhfsk vfikaf nUM vI mY sMKyp ivc dwisaf.
iklHf vyKx qoN ipwCoN asIN kmFzr sfihb dy drbfr ivc hfjr ho gey jo ik KulHy QF qy zfhIaF kursIaF qy hI susLoBq sI. Ausny cfh pfxI df pRbMD kIqf hoieaf sI. ies sfry kuJ df syhrf asIN Aus sohxy swjx dI PLrfKLidlI nUM dyeIey jF AusdI mihmfn invfjLI jF sfzy nflL afey srdfr jI dy rsUKL nUM jF cMgy smy nUM jF ies sfry kuJ nUM! vfhvf lMmIaF gwlF bfqF dOrfn jnfb BwtI sfihb ny puwC ilaf, ”srdfr jI, sfzy muslmfnF ivc vI sfrIaF smfjk KLusLIaF gmIaF dIaF rsmF iswKF vflIaF hI huMdIaF ny.“ mY ikhf iswKF vflIaF nhI pMjfbIaF vflIaF, BwtI sfihb!” “qy iswK hI qF pMjfbI huMdy ny ik!” qurq Ausdf jvfb sI. awgy ivsQfr krdy hoey mY jdoN pMjfbI kOm bfry jfxkfrI idqI qF BwtI sfihb qy Ausdy sfQI aPLsrF dIaF hYrfnI nfl awKF twzIaF rih geIaF. myry vwloN idqI geI jfxkfrI df sfr kuJ ies qrHF sI: jnfb BwtI sfihb jI, pMjfbI isrP iswK hI nhI huMdy blik pMjF dirafvF dI DrqI df hryk bfisLMdf hI pMjfbI hY. jykr pMjfbIaF nUM mjLhbF nUM mMnx vfilLaF dI igxqI dy pwKoN vI ivcfiraf jfvy qF sB qoN vD pMjfbI muslmfnF dI igxqI hY. dUjy nMbr qy pMjfbI ihMdU afAuNdy hn. mYnUM sLwk hY ik sLfied qIjf nMbr eIsfeI pMjfbIaF df nf hovy ikAuNik pfiksqfn ivc bhuqy pCVIaF sLRyxIaF dy ivakqI eIsfeI bx cuwky hn qy pUrbI pMjfb ivc vI iehnF dI swbrkwqI igxqI eIsfeI Drm ivc prvysL kr cuwkI hY. ieAuN sLfied eIsfeI pMjfbIaF df nMbr qIjf hovy pr sLwk df lfB idMidaF hoieaF asIN qIjf nMbr iswK Drm nUM mMMnx vflLy pMjfbIaF nUM dy skdy hF. qusIN vI BwtI sfihb, pMjfbI ho ikAuNik quhfzy dwsx muqfibk quhfzf jwdI ipMz sRI nnkfxf sfihb dy njLdIk hY qy ieh ielfkf pMjfb df hI ihwsf hY. ies leI nmUny vjoN iek ivafh dI rsm df hI asIN ijLkr krIey qF asIN iswK cfr lfvF sRI gurU gRMQ sfihb duaflLy lYNdy hF, quhfzy mOlvI jI pfk kurfn ivcoN kuJ afieqF pVH ky inkfh krdy hn, ihMdU vydI duafly swq Pyry lYNdy hn qy eIsfeIaF df pfdrI joVy nUM pqI pqnI hox df aYlfn kr idMdf hY. iehnF sMKyp Dfrimk rsmF qoN ielfvf bfkI sfry df sfrf kuJ hI pMjfbIaF vflLf huMdf hY; Drm cfhy iksy pMjfbI df koeI vI hY. ies sfrI jfxkfrI qoN AuhnF nUM bVI hYrfnI hoeI. vYsy vI dunIaF ivc ieh afm hI pRBfv hY ik pMjfbI df mqlb iswK hI hY. pMjfb dy albyly kvI pRo[ pUrn isMG ny vI aDI ku sdI pihlF iliKaf sI:
pMjfb ihMdU nf muslmfn,
pMjfb sfrf jINdf gurF dy nfm qy.
ies vfrqflfp qoN jUn 1980 ivclI afpxy iPjI dI PyrI dI Xfd vI af geI. EQy iswKF nUM pMjfbI afiKaf jFdf hY. rfjDfnI suvf dI msIq dy mOlvI jI nflL gwl bfq dOrfn AuhnF ny vI ieAuN iskfieq kIqI, “eyQy sfry lok iswKF nUM hI pMjfbI afKdy hn, sfnUM nhI. mY isaflkot df vfsI hF pr mYnUM koeI pMjfbI nhI afKdf.“
ies qoN vI pihlF bcpn ivc iksy skUlI ividafrQI dI ikqfb ivc (afp qF mY skUly jFdf nhI sF) vwK vwK ielfikaF dy rihx vflLy lokF bfry qsvIrF sihq jfxkfrI idqI hoeI sI qy EQy iek iswK dI qsvIr dy ky Qwly iliKaf hoieaf sI ‘pMjfbI iswK’. hflF ik aMgRyjLI rfj smy pMjfb ivc iswKF afbfdI isrP 13% hI sI. bfkI sfry pMjfbI nfn iswK hI sn.
iklHy dy ieiqhfs bfry iek mfVf ijhf BulyKf mYnUM vI sI. mY BwtI sfihb nUM pwuiCaf ik kI ieh iklHf hrI isMG nlUey ny KLud bxvfieaf sI jF ik bxy bxfey nUM ijwiqaf sI. BwtI sfihb ny ivsQfr nflL dwisaf ik ieh iklHf s[ hrI isMG ny KLud bxvfieaf sI. aPLgfn jMgI kYdIaF pfsoN pwQr Zuaf ky 54 idnF ivc bxvfieaf sI. kuJ smf hoieaf mYlbrn vfsI s[ rfijMdr isMG gwbI jI nflL jdoN ies bfry ivcfr kIqI qF AuhnF ny myrI jfxkfrI ivc hor vfDf kridaF hoieaF dwisaf ik rfq nUM AuhnF kYdIaF nUM pMgq ivc bhf ky rotI dyx qoN pihlF sfiraf dy isrF ivc iCwqr mfry jFdy sn. ieh sux ky acMBf hoieaf ik gurU dy iswK vI iksy nflL eynI vDIkI kr skdy hn! iPr TMzy idmfg nflL soicaf qF ieh vqIrf TIk hI lwgf. jo lok sLrIP qy afpxy GrF ivc suKI vsdy lokF nUM luwtx, kuwtx, AujfVn, bwcy bwcIaF dI iejLq rolx, ibnf iksy kfrn dy, kyvl qbfhI krn dy lflc nflL hI vfr vfr sdIaF qoN cVH cVH ky af rhy sn; smf imlLn qy gurU ky lflF ny AuhnF nUM sbk isKfAux dI sLkqI pRfpq kr leI jfx aqy AuhnF dusLtF nUM dusLtqfeI qoN rokx vfsqy ieh vqIrf Xog ijhf hI jfipaf.
KYr mYnUM qF vIjLy dI ‘gVbV cOQ’ krky agly idn hI vfps lfhOr nUM Bwjxf ipaf. aMimRqsroN qurn smy BfeIaf jI ny afiKaf sI ik lhOroN AuhnF leI iek iklo bdfm lYNdf afvF. socdf sI ik aMimRqsroN hI KLrId ky AuhnF nUM dy dyvFgf ikAuNik mY dysF prdysF ivc afpxy nflL byloVf sfmfn cwuk ky kstm vgYrf vfilLaF nUM qy KLud nUM ksLt nhI dyxf cfhuMdf. iek vfrIN 1975 ivc lMzn qoN KrId krn dIaF zMJF lfh leIaF sn. aMimRqsr dy kstm dy sB qoN vzy aPLsr bydI sfihb jI dy muUhoN inklL igaf sI, “ieAuN lwgdf igafnI jI ijvyN qusIN sfrf lMzn hI cuwk ilafey hovo!” “kyhVf roj roj cuwikaf jFdf bydI sfihb!” myrf Auqr sI. Aus qoN ipCoN, bcpn smy 1953 ivc vyKy iek kfrtUn anusfr hI hmysLF aml krn df Xqn krdf hF. aYvyN iPrdy iPrFdy iek idn aMimRqsr rylvy stysLn qy jf inkilLaf. EQy iek kfrtUn ivc hfQI Aupr cUhf bYTf hoieaf ivKfieaf igaf sI. hfQI Aupr ivsLy glIcy Aupr cUhf iek lwq qy dUjI lwq Dr ky qy bfhF nflL afpxI DOx ipCy klMGVI pf ky arD lytI hoeI avwsQf ivc bYTf hoieaf sI. Qwly iliKaf sI, ”hOlLf Bfr sfQ dy mUhry.“ ieh isiKaf ajy qwk mno nhI ivsrI.
iek hor gwl vI eyQy ilKI hoeI sI. hY ihMdI ivc sI pr awKr gurmuKI sn; qFhIEN qF mY pVH leI sI. jyhl dIaF sIKF ipCy do bMdy KVHy sn. iek pyNzU ijhf qy dUjf bfbU ijhf. Qwly iliKaf sI, “nf iksI sy GUs lo, nf iksI ko Gus do. GUus lyny aOr dyny vflLf dono hI kfrfvfs ky aiDkfrI hYN.“ bVy sfl socdf irhf ik ‘GUs’ df kI mqlb hoieaf. iksy nUM puwCF vI nf. puwCF qy qF hI jykr myrf iksy afpxy nflLoN vD pVHy hoey nflL vfh huMdf. kfrfvfs dy mqlb df vI keI sfl ipCoN hI pqf lwgf.
KYr bYNkF bMd hox krky s[ sfihb isMG pfsoN pfiksqfnI krMsI hudfrI PVI qy amRIkn srdfr jI nflL vI ihsfb inbyiVaf. agly idn bYNkF KulHx qy AuhnF dy pYsy moV idqy. bfdfm lYx bfjLfr igaf qF hryk dukfndfr vfjF ipaf mfry. iek suwky myivaF vflLI dukfn ivc vV igaf. dukfndfr bVI hI hlImI nflL pysL afieaf. soicaf ik iekwly iek iklo bfdfm hI kI lYxy hn, dukfndfr dI hlImI krky do do iklo, bdfm, Cuhfry, Ks Ks, myvy lY ley. dukfndfr ny aiKaf, “iehnF bfhr ipaF qy srdfr jI Gwtf ipaf hoieaf hY. aMdroN quhfnUM nOkr sfP ilaf ky idMdf hY.“ afp mYnUM glIN lf ilaf. nOkr ny sfrf kuJ bMnH ky myry hvfly kIqf qy pYsy dy ky mY KLusLI KLusLI ivdf leI. ieh qF Gr afky pqf lwgf ik Auh sfrf sOdf bfhr vflLy nflLoN GtIaf qy imwtI Gwty vflLf sI ijsnUM cMgf afK ky dukfndfr ny myry mwQy mfiraf sI.
agly idn imnHI bws qy bYT ky jlHo vwl qur ipaf qF ik EQoN awgy vfhgy dI bws PVI jfvy. bws ivc iek swjx bYTy sn. AuhnF puwiCaf, “qusIN srdfr jI ikvyN afey?” ”mY qF BeI jMmx afieaf sF.“ sfry hYrfnI nflL myry vwl vyKx lwg pey. mY dwisaf ik sfzy iek aKfx hY, “ijnyH lfhOr nhI vyiKaf Auh jMimaf hI nhI.“ ieh sux ky hfsf mc igaf. iPr Ausny vI gwl suxfeI ik iek imrfsI vI eysy qrHF lfhOr vyKx af igaf. mOsm grmI df sI. vgdI nihr ivc nhOx lwg ipaf. kwpVy koeI cwuk ky Bwj igaf. inrvsqr hI sLihr nUM quiraf afvy. iksy pwuiCaf, “mIrjLfidaf kwpVy?” ”nvF nvF jMimaF nf pRBf! koeI pvfsI qF pfsF!W” hfsy hfsy ivc hI jlHo af igaf. Aus cMgy swjx ny mYnUM krfieaf nf dyx idqf qy afpxy pwilAuN hI idqf.
ihMdusqfnI kstm vfilLaF ny myrI Ks Ks qy ieqrfj kr idqf. afKx ik mY ieh iljf nhI skdf. idl `c soicaf aYvyN pMgf ijhf hI pf ilaf! BfeIaf jI ny qF isrP bdfmF vfsqy hI afiKaf sI. pr idl ivc soicaf ik iehnF nUM nf kuJ dyxf eyN qy nf hI iehnF awgy ‘ibc ibc, bYN bYN’ krnI eyN. ieh myry qoN kuJ luwtx leI aYvyN mYnUM zrf rhy hn. sfrf kuJ eyQy zohl hI jfxf hY. myrf pfsport dUr siQq iemIgRysLn dPLqr nUM Byj idqf. mY afpy hI iek kursI qy bYT igaf. kuJ smy bfad iek bMdf afieaf qy sunyhf idqf ik mYnUM swidaf jf irhf hY. mY igaf qF awgy dPLqroN bfhr hI, klIn sLyvn mYicAur ijhf idsdf iek Blf pursL, myrf pfsprot hwQ ivc PVI Kloqf sI. mYnUM vyK ky boilaf, “mY soicaf ik srdfr sMqoK isMG jI horIN ikqy mYnUM imilLaF qoN ibnf hI nf cly jfx! afh lvo afpxf pfsport.“ hYrfnI hoeI ihMdusqfnI nOkrsLfhF ivcoN iek aPLsr dy eyny cMgy vqIry qyy. idl gLd gLd ho igaf Aus sohxy swjx dy ivhfr nflL.
ihMdusqfn dI hwd ivc viVaf qF tYksIaF vflLy AudflLy ho gey. bQyrf mY afKF BeI, “iehnF iqlLF ivc qyl nhI! mY nhI tYksIaF vflLIaF ‘PYlsUPIaF’ krdf!” pr kOx mMny myrI gwl! iek swjx qF KihVy hI pY igaf. ZfeI sO qoN Gtdf Gtdf 75 rupeIaF qy af igaf. afly duaflLy dukfnF vfilaF qoN bws bfry puwiCaf qF sB ny eyhI afiKaf ik bws clI geI hY. hux hor nhI afAuxI. tYksI vfly dy vqIry qoN awk ky mY afiKaf, “BeI tYksI dI PjLUlKLrcI nflLoN qF mY qur ky hI cilaf jfxf hY.“ tYksI vflf kihMdf, “srdfr jI, jy qusIN qur ky jfxf huMdf qF hux nUM kdy dy qur gey huMdy.“ ieh suxky mY pYdl hI atfrI vwlL mUMh krky qur ipaf. QohVf hI awgy igaf qF bws GMU krdI myry ipwCoN af ky awgy lMG geI. dukfndfrF ny JUT hI afiKaf sI ik bws clI geI hY qy hux hor nhI afAuxI. AuhnF dukfndfrF df vqIrf gLlq jfxkfrI dyx df mqlb sI ik tYksI vfly kolL gfhk Psfieaf jfvy. atfrI qoN bws PV ky mY aMimRqsr af Auqiraf qy awzy qoN qur ky Brf dy Gr af viVaf. ieh sI myrI pihlI pfiksqfnI sMKyyp Xfqrf.