vrjxfvF kOx AulMGdf hY!

- blivMdr gryvfl
 

(‘sUrj dI koeI ipwT nhIN huMdI’ khfxI blivMdr gryvfl dI ilKI hoeI hY aqy ieh PrvrI ivc ‘sIrq’ dI sfeIt AuWqy AuplbD hY. ies khfxI df ivsLf-vsqU mfmy aqy BxyvIN dy afpsI ivafh-sMbMD nfl juiVaf hoieaf hY. ieh JUTf sMbMD dovF dy mfipaF dI mrjLI nfl swqy(mfmy) nUM knyzf pucfAux dI jugq vjoN bxfieaf igaf hY. knyzf ivc kuJ smF iekwTy rihx AuprMq AuhnF ny qlfk lY ky awz ho jfxf sI pr aKLIr ‘qy jf ky Auh qlfk lYx qoN ienkfrI ho jFdy hn. AuhnF dy afpsI irsLqy aqy iesdy ipCokV nUM gryvfl ny kmfl dI hunr mMdI nfl ibafn kIqf hY. khfxI dy aMq AuWqy mfmy BxyvIN vwloN pqI pqnI dy irsLqy nUM KLmosL pRvfngI dyx dy pYNqVy nUM lY ky kuJ pfTkF vwloN kIqy svflF dy jvfb vjoN gryvfl ny afpxI khfxI dI ilKx pRikiraf ibafn kIqI hY. ies sMbMDI pfTk sfeIt qoN khfxI pVH ky afpxI rfie ‘sIrq’ nUM ilK skdy hn)

jd kdy vI khfxI ‘sUrj dI koeI ipwT nhIN hUMdI’ dI gwl/bfry gwl krn leI mYnUM ikhf jFdf hY, mYN iewk aijhy aihsfs nfl Br jFdf hF jo mnuwKI mn ivwc, AudoN pYdf huMdf hY jdoN quhfnUM aijhI gwl ‘iPr qoN smJfAux’ leI ikhf jFdf hY, ijs ivwc quhfnUM kuJ vI ‘rhws’ rih igaf hoieaf nhIN jfpdf. sfPL idsdI gwl dI iPr qoN sPLfeI dyx vrgf aihsfs. injI gwlbfq ivwc vI aqy bhuq vfr khfxI gosLtIaF dOrfn mMc qy vI. iewk iPlmI ijhf sIn myrI klpnf ivwc AuWBr afAuNdf hY. kort sIn. ktihry ivwc KVfH sLKLs, Aus kql df mukwdmf Bugqdf hY, jo Ausny huMdf vyiKaf huMdf hY. bs, kfqlF dy ichry AuhnUM aYny spsLt nhIN huMdy.
-ieh kql hoieaf hY; mYN huMdf vyiKaf hY- Auh vfr vfr kihMdf hY.
-ieh kql hoieaf hY, qUM kIqf hY- AusnUM ikhf jFdf hY
-smfijk vrjxfvF dI AulMGxf hoeI hY, qUM ivvrijq irsLiqaF nUM pusLt kIqf ey- mYnUM ikhf jFdf hY.
-AulMGxf hoeI hY, mYN vyKI hY- mYN kihMdf hF.
khfxI df pUrf Gtnf-kRm, rcnf ivvyk aqy Aus ipwCy kMm krdf qrk iPr qoN myry aMdr cwlx lwg pYNdf hY.
khfxI 1993 ivwc ilKI geI. pr mn dI DrqI qy ies ivcfr df bIj icrokxf izwg ipaf hoieaf sI, 1984 ‘c. AudoN ajy mYN khfxI ilKx nhIN sI lwigaf. mYN, KMny qihsIl kMplYks ivwc tfeIp krdy iewk imwqr nfl jf irhf sF. skUtr qy. cwldI gwl ivwc Ausny sUcnf idwqI ik Aus idn Ausny mfmf-BfxjI df ivafh rijstr krvfieaf sI.
-sky mfmf-BfxjI! myry leI swcI hI ieh hYrfn kr dyx vflI sUcnf sI. suBfivk hI myry mUMhoN inwkilaf sI-
-ieh qF muMzy kuVI nfl jLulm aY Xfr! do iqMn sfl ‘kwTy rihMidaF dy jy jIa juV jfx-
-kIhdf jIa juVnY,- mYnUM skUtr qoN Auqfr ky muVx lwgy imwqr ny jvfb idwqf sI -iqMn sfl bfad qlfk ho jfxY.
…………pr myry Xfd aY ik myry cyqy ‘c ikMnyN hI idn, boc-boc qurdy, bc-bc boldy, kdy mn nUM kdy qn nUM smJfAuNdy, kdy afpxy afp nfl, kdy iewk dUjy nfl lVdy aqy kdy pqf nhIN kIhdy ivruwD ivs Goldy Auh muMzf kuVI ivcrdy rhy sn.
-blivMdr kIhdy nfl gwlF krI jfnY ‘kwlf eI?’ AuhnF idnF ivwc hI pRoPYsr ieMdrjIq ny mYnUM afpxy afp nfl hI ‘gwlIN lwgy’ nUM toikaf sI. mfqf gujrI kflj PiqhgVH sfihb ivwc mYN aYm ey ieknfimks df ividafrQI sF. mYN qy pRoPYsr ieMdrjIq iewk dUjy dy ‘mMnyN hoey’ chyqy sF.
-iksy nfl nhIN sr!- mYN skpkf igaf sF. bhuqf ies gwloN, ik ‘itkfxy’ afeI ‘surq’ ny mYnUM suJfieaf sI ik mYN AuhnF axjfxy, aigafq muMzf kuVI dy mfipaF nfl KihbV irhf sF.
“ivsmfd nfgy iPrih jMq!” myry aMdr bfbf nfnk kudrq dI lIlf qy hYrfn hoieaf boilaf sI.
-pr qyry vyly qF jMq vI ‘eyny nMgy’ nhIN hoxy- myrI surq bfby nfl juVI qy mYnUM pqf hI nhIN lwigaf beI mYN ikMnIN AuWcI boilaf sF-
-mYnUM ikhY kuJ!- QoVI hI dUr gey pRoPYsr sfihb plty sn.
-nhIN jI! mYN iPr kwcI ijhI hfsI hisaf sF- mYnUM qF sfly ‘axjMimaF’ ny mfr ilaf-
Pyr ’84 vflf iswKF df kqly afm ho igaf. asIN afpxI sfrI aYm ey nUM ‘dMgf pIVqF’ leI PMz, aMn/kwpVf iekwTf krky ‘kYNpF’ qwk phuMcfAux vflI ‘gurU dI POj’ ivwc Zfl ilaf. glLF ivwc pfey, ltf lt blLdy tfierF dI awg `c, pqf nhIN Auh muMzf kuVI kdoN svfh ho gey aqy myry cyiqaF `c tMgy gey, idwlI qy kfnpur dy moVF qy awD ivcfilEN pfVy ‘isKiVaF’ dy nMgy DV `qy pYrF hyT rih geI ‘iewk vwzy drKq dy izwgx nfl’ kMbdI DrqI. myry BfsLxf `c, ruwDy bolF `c, jgjIq syKoN df sLyar kurlfAuNdf irhf
“awg AudfHly lfsLF KohF sLugl ijhf
rojLnfmcf ikMJ ilKF hflfqF df”
1990-91 ivwc mYN pihlI khfxI ilKI. ‘sUrj dI koeI ipWT nhIN huMdI’ myrI dUjI jF qIjI khfxI sI. jdoN ku jyhy mYnMU ieh jfpx lwg ipaf ik mYN khfxI ilKxI iswK skdf hF, iewk ieqPfLk vfpr igaf. virHaF qoN vrqxoN hitaf bfpU dy sikaF `coN koeI Bfxjf imlx af igaf. rfq irhf. dUjy idn, Auhdy gey qoN bfpU ny dwisaf
-iehdy bfp ny ieh gryvflF dy hI ivafh ilaf. nfnky shury iewko goq- muV ky cfcy AuhnF ny vrq-vrqfE qy bolbfxI bMd kr ’qI. virHaF bfad ieh pihlf jIa aY ijhVf imlx afieaY………
………irsLiqaF dI ies suafh ‘coN, knyzf gey mfmf-BfxjI punr surjIq ho gey. hux ikAuNik myry aMdr iewk bMdy nUM khfxIkfr hox df BulyKf pY cuwikaf sI, khfxI bxnI sLurU ho geI ijsnUM sLurU krn qoN pihlF hI isrlyK ilK idwqf igaf ‘Bvjl’. BfvyN mYN ieh vfrqk tukVI koeI sPfeI dyx leI nhIN ilK irhf, iPr vI ieh isrlyK myrI idRsLtI vwl iesLfrf qF krdf hI hY ik ieh irsLqf pusLt krnf myrf AudysL nhI. sgoN hflfq dy tkrfa ‘c afey mnuwKI mn dI hoxI aqy sMGrsL aqy ies dy bhfny, bhuqf hI axKI khfAuNdy aqy muwCF KVIHaF rwKx vfly ‘pMjfbI jwt’ df afriQk sMkt mUhry sfry hiQafr suwt ky ivC jfxf, afid ikMny hI inwky moty msly myrf AudysL sI.
AuNJ cldI gwl ‘c gwl aY, iewk vfrI mYnMU knyzIan aYNbYsI jfxf ipaf. AuWQy sB qoN vwD kuwqy-KfxI mYN ivafh dy afDfr qy vIjLf lYx afey joiVaF nfl huMdI vyKI. myry koloN AuWT ky gey iewk joVy dI ieMtrivAU lwgBwg zyZ GMtf cwlI, ijs dOrfn Auhnf nUM do vfr iekwTy aqy do do vfr iekwly- iekwly kYibn ‘c bulfieaf igaf. rox hfkI hoeI kuVI ivafh dI aYlbm dUr qwk iKMzf ky bYT geI. aYlbm iKMzI dI iKMzI Cwz ky pfxI pIx clI geI.
-aYzf kI puwCI jFdy ny?- mYN aYlbm smytx ‘c kuVI dI mdd kridaF, hmdrdI vs puiCaf.
-bs aYvyN suafh Kyh puwCI jFdI aY- hux qwk lgfqfr aMgRjLI boldI kuVI, TyT pMjfbI ‘c ‘Put peI’ -Bf jI aslI ivafh ey, sfry prUPL ny, aKy hnImUn dIaF PotoaF nI lfeIaF……suafh idKfE iehnF nUM-
…… myry cyqy ‘c iewk dm myrI khfxI dy pfqr KusLivMdr qy sqivMdr af KVyH sn. mYN ikMnI afsfnI nfl ilK idwqf sI -iewDroN qsdIk kIqI kort mYirj ny sqivMdr nUM kYnyzf vVdf kr dyxf sI……iewk sfl bfad sqivMdr kYnyzf phuMc igaf sI.
pr aYQy, vIjLf lYx afieaF nUM ikho ijhy suaflF df sfhmxf krnf ipaf hoAU- soc ky myrI rUh kMb geI. bwicaF nUM aijhy suaflF dI GlfVI mUMh dyky QonUM nINd ikvyN afeI hoAU mfipE!- mYN ikMnIN hI vfr ieh gwl socI-JwlI sI. mYN iPr qoN ies gwl qy ivcfr krnf sLurU kIqf ik irsLiqaF sMboDnF dIaF bMidsLF KusL qy swqy ny nhIN sI lfeIaF, smfj ny lfeIaF sn. qy AuhnF ny ieh bMidsLF qoVIaF vI nhIN sn. sfzy afpxy smfj ‘c mfxXog jIvn ijAUx leI jLrUrI hflfq pYdf nf hox ipwCy Auh dosLI nhIN sn. khfxI ivwc iewk aMgRyjL duafrf boilaf hoieaf vfk hY:
-kIp d spIz ad’vfeIjL cyNj d lyn-
mYN ies vfk nUM khfxI df mUl sUqr smJdf hF. idwqIaF hoeIaF do coxf. spIz jF lyn. swqy kol smfj ny hor ikhVI cox CwzI sI? vrjxfvF AulMGx leI ieh smfijk afriQk Dwkf AuhdI cox nhIN, hoxI sI. swqy dy BYx-BxoeIaf, mF bfp Auh iDrF hn jo vrjxfvF AulMGdy hn. hor smfj kI huMdf hY? ivvrijq irsLiqaF leI nINh dI pihlI iewt ieh smfj hI Drdf hY. iewQy jo aVdf hY JVdf hY. -swqy dy bfby nUM kIhny mfiraf- swqy ny? KusL ny?
so mY smJdf hF khfxI ijhVy suafl KVyH krdI hY Auh swqy/KusL nUM nhIN, smfj nUM hn. smfj AuhnF dy srl aqy suivDfjnk jvfb qlfsLdf hY. ies suivDf aqy gYr ijLMmyNvfrI dy nqIjy vI Bugqxy hI pYxgy. kort mYirjL, kfgLjIL irsLqy, iqMn sfl, hsbYNz vfeIPL, isrPL sLbd/sMboDn hI nhIN hn, smfj ny iehnF dy sMklp/vrqfry isrjy hn. sfl mihjL aFkVy hI nhIN huMdy aqy nf hI bMdy msLInF. nhIN! mnuKI mn msLIn nhIN ik Auh quhfzy dwby btnF anusfr hI kMm krngy. khfxI dy aMq ivwc lyKrfj nf qF sihj suBfa afieaf lyKrfj aY, nf aMkl. swqf AuhnUM hI ikAuN sMboiDq huMdf hY[[[[[[[ smfj df ichrf hI qF lyK rfj dy rUp ivwc swqy dy sfhmxy hY.
KYr, mYN sLfied iPr buKlfht ‘c afky sPLfeIaF dyx lwg ipaf hF. khfxI nfl sMbMiDq iewk do gwlF sFJIaF kr lYNdy hF. mYN jdoN khfxI ilKdf hF qF khfxI (nfm) dI KumfrI ivwc huMdf hF, hr vyly afly duafly jo vfprdf hY, Auhdy ipwCy hr gwl nUM myrf aMqr-iDafn hoieaf mn khfxI ivwcoN lMGf ky vyKdf hY. ies khfxI ivwc pMjfb ivwc kuVI mfrn dI pRMprf nfl sMbMDq ibrqFq ies qrFH df hI hY. mYN khfxI bux irhf sF qy myry kol bYTIaF myrI byby qy GrF coN lgdI BUaf dI gwlbfq ivwc ieh vrqfrf af igaf qy swqy df lfxf kuVI mfrF df lfxf bx igaf. BfvyN ik iewk do vfr ies vrqfry nUM khfxI qoN bfhrf vI ikhf igaf. pr jy kuVI mfrF nUM ‘kuVI ivafhux’ vfilaF qwk JukidaF vyiKaf jfvy qF ieh vfDU isrijaf ibrqFq nhIN rihMdf. ‘BYx hI iewk hor af geI hoxI aY’- vflI GtnF myry qoN vwzI myrI sB qoN CotI BYx dy jnm vyly dI aY ijhVI myry bfpU ny vwK vwK sMdrBF ivwc keI vfr mYnUM suxfeI sI.
khfxI ilKx vyly ijhVI gwloN mYN sB qoN vwD sucyq sI, Auh sI ieh zr ik ikqy khfxI df ibrqFq asLlIlqf vwl moV nf kwt jfvy. do juafn dyhF dI hfjLrI ivwc ieh koeI sOKf kMm nhIN sI. pr swqy qy KusL dy ijLMdgI pRqI idRsLtIkox aqy AuhnF dy iewk dUjy pRqI aQfh ipafr-siqkfr ny myrI bhuq mdd kIqI. myry iewk imwqr ny khfxI pVH ky mYnUM ikhf sI -KusL dy mMmI zYzI hwsdy bhuq ny- myrf jvfb sI -zr coN- kwlI juafn kuVI iksy juafn muMzy kol rhy, BfrqI mF bfp aYnyN eI zrngy- Pyr rox cfhy hsx.
khfxI qy asLlIlqf df dosL isrPL myry bfpU ny, isrPL iewk vfk qy lfieaf sI. vfk aY -qyry mIeyN nUM qF jfxI qyrI KusLbo afAuNdI aY- bfpU df kihxf sI -dyh dI aYnIN nMgI gwl nhIN sI qYnUM krnI cfhIdI.-
khfxI dy pihly socy gey plft ‘c, myry mn ‘c, afpxI BUaf dI kuVI dy ivafh afeI KusL dy irsLqy leI lylHVIaF kwZdy ‘pMjfb’ df iewk sMpUrn icwqr sI. pr bfad ‘c, muwK muwdy dy pyqlf pY jfx dy zroN aqy afpxI smrwQf dI sImF smJdy hoey mYN Auh iKafl iqafg idwqf sI. ikAuNik mYN kdI kYnyzf vrgI ivkisq ivvsQf dy drsLn nhIN kIqy ies leI bhuqy vyrvy ‘suxy-suxfey’ ‘qy afDfrq sn. keI KLfmIaF rih geIaF. ijvyN khfxI dy aKIr ‘c KusL dy hwQ ‘c iewk pypr vyt hY. khfxIkfr hrjIq atvfl ny dwisaf ik AuWQoN dy dPLqrF ‘c, pypr vyt nF dI awj-kwlH koeI cIjL nhIN huMdI. aijhIaF hor sYNkVy gwlF myrI klpnf qoN bfhr sn.
aKIr ‘c iewk gwl hY jo hmysLF myry mn ‘c rhI hY pr khI kdy nhIN. mYN cfhuMdf sI koeI ‘isafxf’ pfTk jF aflock kdy ieh gwl kry. Auh ieh ik mYN ikqy nhIN iliKaf/drsfieaf ik swqf qy KusL qlfk dy Pfrm pfVx qoN bfad dyh DfrI pqI pqnI vFg ivcrngy. AuhnF dI iqMn sfl dI ijLMdgI sfnUM ijLMdgI nhIN, ijLMdgI dI iqafrI vFg hI lgdI hY. AuhnF ny isrPL vwK hoxoN ienkfr kIqf hY. sLfied ieh mnuwKI anuBv dI sImF hovy ik asIN ieh sMBfvnf soc hI nhIN pfAuNdy ik Auh hux vI imwqrF vFg rih skdy hn. irsLiqaF dIaF prqF asIN iPr smfijk cOKty dy ivwc hI nhIN soc rhy?
hF swc, ies khfxI df nfm ‘Bvjl’ qoN bdlky ‘sUrj dI koeI ipwT nhIN huMdI’ khfxIkfr gurpfl isMG ilwt df suJfieaf hoieaf hY.
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