sYks-vfqsfien, Prfiez qoN EÈo qwk
sYks aqy mnuwKI jIvn
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“afE, prvfnf jI, kI hfl ey? bVI dyr bfad idKfeI idwqy. kI gwl ikwDr rihMdy ho? lwgdf pirvfirk ruJyivaF `c kuwJ iËafdf hI AulJ gey.”
“kI dwsIey zfktr sfihb, quhfzI gwl bhuq vfr Xfd afAuNdI hY ik jy jIvn ivwc kuwJ sfrQk kMm krnf aF, iksy qrHF df bOiDk aqy mfnisk ivkfs krnf aF, qF iewk buwDImfn ivakqI nUM afpxI AUrjf aqy ivvykÈIlqf ivafh vrgy kMmF ivwc Krfb nhIN krnI cfhIdI.”
prvfnf jI dws rhy sn, “pRvfirk kMmF ivwc ies qrHF Ps gey ik ipCly kfPI arsy qoN quhfnUM qF kI imlxf, nf kuwJ pVH hoieaf aqy nf hI kuwJ iliKaf igaf. awj iewk afrtIkl iqafr kr irhf sI, soicaf zfktr sfihb nfl hI ies sMbMDI guÌqgU kr afvF.”
qusIN qF pdfrQvfd aqy aiDafqmvfd AuWpr kfÌI gihrfeI ivwc CfxbIx kr cuwky ho, ieh dwso ik ieh jo mrd aqy aOrqF svyry Èfm lgfqfr keI-keI GMty pfT-pUjf krdy rihMdy hn, ienHF df koeI aiDafqimk ivkfs vI huMdf hY jF aYvyN hI afpxf mn iksy hor pfsy lfAux leI ieh kIqf jFdf hY.
“prvfnf jI, ieh sfrI Kyz mn dI hI hY. kudrq ny mnuwK pYdf krky ieh ijhVf mn ies ivwc pf idwqf, sfry puafVy ies dy hI pfey hoey hn. pÈU, pMCIaF, bUitaF, drwÉqF afid sMsfr dI iksy vI hor vsq ivwc ieh mn rUpI ÈYa nhIN, ijs krky ieh sfry ÈFq, anMdmeI idKfeI dy rhy hn.” zfktr dws irhf sI ….
kuJ idn pihlF jd brsfq df pihlf Crftf afieaf, ÈurU-ÈurU ivwc bhuq TMZI hvf aqy brIk-brIk kxIaF pYx lgIaF. mYN vI afpxI kursI `qy afpxy kmry ivwc bYTf ieh mËf lY irhf sI. myrI bytI iKVkI dy nyVy KVHI acncyq bolI, “pfpf, af bfhr lfan ivwc lwgy hoey pOdy ikvyN JUm rhy hn, brIk kxIaF df iks qrHF anMd mfx rhy hn, bhuq mOj ivwc af nf.”
mnuwK nUM Cwz ky sMsfr dI hr ÈYa kudrq dy bhuq nËdIk hY. nËdIk qF kI bs kudrq hI hY. bs ieh iewk ivcfrf mnuwK hI hY, jo ies kudrq qoN kuwJ dUr clf igaf hY aqy Auh vI ies mn krky aqy mnuwK nUM smJ nhIN af rhI ik Auh muV kudrq nfl iewk-imwk ikvyN hoey. keI qrHF dy pfpV vyldf hY, pr kuwJ vI pRfpq nhIN huMdf, ijs krky mnuwK pRyÈfn hY, hmyÈf icMqf aqy dOV ivwc.”
“pr zfktr sfihb, ijhVy lok pdfrQ pwKoN KuÈhfl hn, Auh qF kuwJ ÈFq hoxy cfhIdy hn, grIb aqy mwDvrgI nUM qF Cwzo, AunHF ivcfiraF nUM qF rotI, kwpVf aqy mkfn aqy roËmrf jIvn dy jtfAux leI vsIly hI sfh nhIN lYx idMdy.” prvfnf jI ny puwiCaf …
mnuwKI jIvn dy ies BogmeI avsQf dy Auh ikhVy-ikhVy pVfa hn ijnHF ivcoN mnuwK guËrdf hY jF mnuwK nUM guËrnf pYNdf hY?
prvfnf jI, afDuink mnoivigafnI aqy buwDpurÈ mnuwK dIaF loVF dy iqMn pVfa dsdy hn. pihlF loVF df pVfa hY-BOiqk loVF, dUsrf mfnisk loVF aqy qIsrf aiDafqimk loVF. ienHF iqMnF df ijwQy afps ivwc bhuq gihrf sMbMD hY, AuWQy ieh iewk mnuwK df sÌr vI hY, jo mnuwK BOiqk loVF qoN ÈurU krdf aqy aKIr aiDafqimk loV qwk phuMcdf hY.
BOiqk loVF dy pVfa ivwc jIvn dIaF BOiqk ËrUrqF dy nfl-nfl sB qoN vwzf pihlU, jo mnuwKI jIvn nUM pRBfivq krdf hY, Auh hY sYks. ijMnI dyr mnuwK afpxIaF pdfriQk KfihÈF aqy sYks pUrI qrHF Bog nhIN lYNdf, EnI dyr dUsry pVfa Bfv mfnisk loV dy pVfa ivwc pRvyÈ nhIN kr skdf. mnuwK leI sMgIq, sfihq, kivqf, pyitMg aqy hor koml klfvF ivcoN koeI rs nhIN imlygf.
pr zfktr sfihb ies sfry vrqfry ivwc ipafr df iPr kI sQfn hoieaf?
ipafr vI prvfnf jI mfnisk loV dy pVfa df iewk ihwsf hY. ieh ipafr ijs nUM mYN vfsqivk ipafr df nFa idMdf hF.
hF, ieh qusIN afp hI dwsx lwg pey, “mYN vI quhfzy mUMhoN keI vfr vfsqivk ipafr bfbq suixaf hY, ieh vI dwso ik pRclq ipafr nfloN ieh ikvyN iBMn hoieaf?” prvfnf jI ny agFh puwiCaf.
zfktr dws irhf sI …[
ipafr, ijs nUM qusIN pRclq ipafr afKdy ho, ieh myrI jfcy mnuwK dI kfmvfÈnf hY. mnuwKI jIvn dy BOiqk loVF dy pVfa ivwc sYks df aihm rol hY. ijMnI dyr sYks pUrI qrHF nhIN mfixaf jFdf, EnI dyr mfnisk loVF dy pVfa ivwc pRvyÈ nhIN kIqf jf skdf aqy nf hI vfsqivk ipafr Aupj skdf hY. vfsqivk ipafr ny ies sYks ivcoN hI jnm lYxf hY aqy aKIr ies ipafr ny hI qIsry ql qy pRfrQnf bxnf hY.
jd mnuwK dIaF BOiqk loVF pUrIaF ho jFdIaF hn, qF hI mfnisk loVF df ql ÈurU huMdf hY aqy sYks vI ies dy nfl hI pÈU ibrqI kfm ivcoN inkl ky vfsqivk ipafr bx jFdf hY. iPr iewk ieho ijhI styj af jFdI hY, ijQoN mnuwK dIaF mfnisk loVF vI pUrIaF ho jFdIaF hn aqy ÈurU huMdf hY aiDafqimk loV df ql aqy ies dy nfl hI vfsqivk ipafr ardfs jF pRfrQnf bx jFdf hY. ieh sfry mnuwK dy ivkfs dy ql hn.
qusIN prvfnf jI gwl kIqI hY svyry Èfm pUjf-pfT dI. ieh qF BOiqk loVF dy ql df hI iewk ihwsf hY. BOiqk ql ivwc eynIaF mnokfmnfvF aqy ÉfihÈF hn, AunHF dI hI pUrqI leI ieh pfT-pUjf, ardfsF, suKxF afid kIqy jFdy hn. hF, iewk gwl hY ik ijwQy ikqy mnuwK dIaF pdfriQk loVF pUrIaF vI ho geIaF hox AuWQy bhuq vfr dyKx ivwc afieaf hY ik sYks dI loV df ql ajy pUrf nhIN hoieaf huMdf aqy AuWQy vI kfmvfsnf dy pfglpn qoN bcx leI mnuwK svyry Èfm pfT-pUjf df afsrf lYNdf hY, ardfs krdf hY.
ies nfl sMbMDq prvfnf jI iewk khfxI Xfd af geI, afpxI ies vfrqflfp `qy ieh pUrI AuqrdI hY. iewk bhuq hI awCf KFdf-pINdf pirvfr hY. ËmIn, jfiedfd coKI hY. Gr vI aflIÈfn aqy sB shUlqF Gr ivwc hn. Bfv jIvn dIaF sfrIaF BOiqk loVF qkrIbn pUrIaF ho cuwkIaF hn. pirvfr dy muKI bËurg vflIaf sfihb aqy imsË vflIaf aqy AunHF dy dovyN lVky afpo-afpxI QF pUrI qrHF KuÈhfl aqy anMd ivwc idKfeI idMdy hn. ievyN lwgdf hY ik hux ienHF df mfnisk ql ivwc pRvyÈ krn df smF af igaf hY.
vYsy prvfnf jI qkrIbn KFdy-pINdy sfry pirvfr ies qrHF hI idKfeI idMdy hn, pr sB qoN vwzf pihlU, jo ienHF KuwlHy-zuwlHy KFdy-pINdy pirvfrF ivwc dyKx nUM imilaf aqy ijs df sdkf ieh pirvfr hmyÈf pRyÈfn rihMdy hn aqy keI qrHF dy mfnisk rogF df iÈkfr hn, Auh hY ienHF df sYks-jIvn.
iesy hI vflIaf pirvfr dI CotI bhU muMbeI dI jMmpl hY, kfÌI amIr mF-bfp dI ieklOqI bytI. kwd-kfT byÈk eynf lMbf nhIN, pr rwj ky KUbsUrq. gorf rMg aqy ÉUbsUrq msqI BrIaF awKF, drimafnf guMdvF srIr, kfnvYNt dI pVHI-ilKI aqy post gryjUeyt. bolx dI adf vI kmfl. zfktr dws irhf sI …[ [
mYnUM ajy afpxf ieh klIink KolHy nUM kuwJ mhIny hI hoey sn, jdoN ieh vflIaf pirvfr myry pfsoN dvfeI vgYrf lYx lwgf. Coty vflIaf sfihb df ivafh hoieaf, kuwJ hI idnF bfad afpxI bhU nUM lY ky koeI dvfeI lYx afey. mYN mubfrkbfd idwqI aqy nFa puwiCaf. ieh koeI awj qoN 20-22 sfl pihlF dI gwl hY.
myrf nFa rivMdr hY. Aus dy bolx df lihjf aqy Ausdf slIkf dyK mYN vflIaf sfihb nUM iPr iewk vfr mubfrkbfd idwqI. Aus qoN bfad ieh sfrf hI pirvfr aksr myry hI pfs af irhf hY. bhuq vfr rivMdr dI sws vI myry pfs af ky afpxy rox ro jFdI hY aqy keI vfr dovyN nUMhF vI. zfktr hox dy nfqy jo vI AunHF nUM mfnisk rfhq dy skdf hF, idMdf rihMdf hF. ies qrHF dy hor vI keI pirvfr hn. kdy bhuqf ienHF pirvfrF dI inwjI iËMdgI bfbq mYN jfnx dI koiÈÈ nhIN kIqI, pr ijs qrHF dIaF CotIaF-CotIaF gwlfbfqF qoN ieh pRyÈfn ho jFdy hn, Aus qoN myrf ieh inrxf hY ik ieho ijhy pirvfrF ivwc ipafr nFa dI koeI ÈYa nhIN. nf qF sYks dI pUrqI idKfeI idMdI hY qy nf hI vfsqivk ipafr dI Jlk.
nf, zfktr sfihb qusIN vflIaf pirvfr dI khfxI ds rhy sI, Auh hI dwso, prvfnf jI boly.
hF, prvfnf jI, iewk idn dI gwl hY ik rivMdr bhuq pRyÈfn aqy GbrfeI hoeI vflIaf sfihb nfl afeI. hux Ausdy iewk bytf 8-9 sfl df ho cuwkf sI.
rivMdr bhuq nrivs aqy Gbrfht `c sI. suBfa qF Ausdy nUM mYN pihlF hI jfxdf sI ik Auh bhuq sYnsyitv aqy Bfvuk nycr vflI hY. Aus idn Aus dI nbË vI qyË sI, idl dI DVkx vI qyË aqy ichry df rMg vI lfl, blwz pRYÈr vI kuwJ viDaf hoieaf. dvfeI idwqI, kuwJ sfiekoQrYpI vI.
vflIaf sfihb ny puwiCaf …
zfktr sfihb, rivMdr TIk qF hY nf?
ies nUM qklIP kI hY?
koeI iPkr vflI gwl nhIN bs anËYktI inEroiss hY, zfktr ny dwisaf.
zfktr sfihb, Gr ivwc sB kuwJ hY, iksy cIË dI kmI nhIN, jo ieh PrmfieÈ krdy hn, AusI vkq pUrI kIqI jFdI hY pr iPr vI pRyÈfn rihMdy hn.
mYnUM qF smJ nhIN af rhI.
vflIaf sfihb ies smfj ivwc sB kuwJ hY, pr iewk cIË iewQy nf qF mrd nUM iml rhI hY aqy nf aOrq nUM, zfktr boilaf. bs sB kuwJ hY, pr mn KuÈ nhIN, ikAuNik jIvn ivwc ipafr nhIN.
rivMdr AusI vkq hI bol peI … hF zfktr sfihb iblkul TIk.
zfktr ny iPr afiKaf, vflIaf sfihb ipafr nhIN jIvn ivwc, rivMdr iPr bolI … zfktr sfihb, ienHF nUM puwCo kdy mYnUM ienHF ny ipafr kIqf.
KYr hMsI-mËfk ivwc gwl Kqm ho geI. iPr vI keI vfr rivMdr ny afAuxf kuwJ dwsx dI koiÈÈ krnI, pr hOslf nf pYxf.
rivMdr ikAuNik kfÌI KuwlHy mfhOl ivcoN afeI sI, ies leI gwlbfq krn ivwc kfÌI KuwlHI sI. iewk idn iPr kfÌI Audfs afeI.
zfktr ny afiKaf …[ imsË vflIaf, kuwJ vI dmn nf kro, afpxIaF BfvnfvF df rycn kro. KuwlH ky afpxI AudfsI df kfrn dwso qF jo hOly-hOly ies df hwl ho sky.
rivMdr vflIaf sfihb qoN kuwJ iJjk rhI sI.
vflIaf sfihb, qusIN QoVI dyr bfhr vyitMg rUm ivwc bYTo-zfktr ny afiKaf, hF dwso, ikAuN eyny pRyÈfn ho.
keI gol-mol gwlF krn qoN bfad rivMdr aslI muwdy `qy af geI.
zfktr sfihb, myry Gr ivwc sB kuwJ hY, myry hsbYNz vYsy mYnUM ipafr vI bhuq krdy hn. sfzy pirvfr dI smfj ivwc iewËq vI bhuq hY, pr pqf nhIN … sB kuwJ huMidaF iewk kmI bhuq mihsUs huMdI rihMdI hY.
qusIN zfktr ho, hr pRkfr dy duwKF df invfrn vI krdy ho. bhuq vfr quhfnUM puwCx dI mYN koiÈÈ kIqI hY, pr iPr Èrmfa jFdI hF aqy gwl kihx dI ihMmq nhIN jutfa pfAuNdI.
qusIN iblkul nf iJjko, jo mn ivwc hY, bfhr kwZo, zfktr ny afiKaf.
qusIN dyKo zfktr sfihb mYN svyry 4-30 vjy AuWT ky roËfnf pfT krdI hF, idn dy vkq vI mn Audfs hovy, kdI jgjIq isMG dIaF ÊËlF sux lYNdI hF aqy kdI koeI ikqfb pVH lYNdI hF, pr keI vfr mYnUM iKafl afAuNdf hY ik ieh sB kuwJ mYN iksy hor pihlU qoN ieskyp krn leI krdI hF.
awj qusIN mYnUM koeI dvfeI idE, mYN ies ibmfrI qoN bhuq pRyÈfn hF, Gr dI iewËq hY, hsbYNz dI iewËq hY. hux mYN 38-40 sfl dy krIb ho cwlI hF, pr …[ awj qwk mYN sYks ienjuafey nhIN kr skI. hux vI mYN keI ikqfbF aqy nfvl pVHdI rihMdI hF. ivafh qoN pihlF vI mYN nfvl bhuq pVHdI sI. zfktr sfihb quhfnUM pqf hI hY, mYN bhuq PrYNk hF, kI dwsF quhfnUM, mYN afpxy jIvn ivwc kdI vI sYks df anMd nhIN mfixaf. ho skdf hY ies krky hI myry ivwc sYks dI kryË hmyÈf bxI rihMdI hY aqy mYN ies nUM iksy nf iksy bhfny nwpx dI koiÈÈ krdI rihMdI hF. bytf vI myry ho igaf hY, pr mYN ies sYks dy anMd qoN vFJI hF.
iewk qF dvfeI mYnUM ieh idE ik myrI ieh kryË Kqm hovy aqy dUsry vflIaf sfihb leI koeI dvfeI kro, qF jo ienHF dI kfm ÈkqI vI vDy. ienHF ny quhfzy nfl ies sMbMDI gwl nhIN krnI.
svyry-svyry AuWT ky keI-keI GMty myrf pfT krn df kfrn vI bws ieh hI huMdf hY ik sfrI rfq dI qVP bhuq pRyÈfn kr idMdI hY. Aus qoN Cutkfrf pfAux leI pfT dy lV lwgxf pYNdf hY.
qusIN iPkr nf kro, vflIaf sfihb nUM bulf ky AunHF dy sfhmxy hI quhfzf dovF df ielfj krdy hF. zfktr ny afiKaf …[
hux dwso prvfnf jI, pdfrQk loVF dI pUrqI dy nfl-nfl jy mnuwKI jIvn ivwc kfm dI vI iqRpqI nhIN qF ivkfs dy aglyry pVfa ivwc pRvyÈ asMBv hY.
iewk gwl hor vfsqivk ipafr jo ik mfnisk pVfa ivcoN hI pYdf huMdf hY, Auh pldf BOiqk pVfa vfly sYks dy grB ivwc hI hY. ieh ipafr afKrkfr inklxf sYks ivcoN hI hY. mrd leI aOrq aqy aOrq leI mrd aiDafqimk ql qwk phuMcx leI iewk dUjy dy duafr hn, isrÌ ivckfrly ql Bfv vfsqivk ipafr nUM pYdf krnf hovygf.
zfktr sfihb iewk gwl hor quhfzI khfxI ivwc hI rih geI, prvfnf jI boly. Auh ieh ik ijhVI hflq imsË vflIaf dI hY, AuhI hflq vflIaf sfihb dI vI rhI hovygI. quhfzI gwlbfq qoN ieh vI Jlk pYNdI hY ik vflIaf sfihb ny vI ies ihsfb nfl kdI sYks df anMd nhIN mfixaf. dovyN pfsIN hI ieh afnMd nf imlx dI PrstryÈn rhI hovygI. mrd dI ies kmËorI sMbMDI quhfzf iPr kI iÉafl hY?
prvfnf jI gwl quhfzI vI iblkul shI hY.
mrd aOrq ijMny vI sMvydnÈIl hoxgy, EnI hI AunHF ivwc pÈU ibrqI Gwt hovygI aqy ipafr dI axhoNd ivwc jy mnuwK ivwc pÈU-ibrqI Gwt hY jF nhIN qF dovy sYks vI shI nhIN kr skxgy. so sMvydnÈIl ivakqIaF leI sYks df afDfr isrÌ ipafr hI rih jFdf hY. bfkI aOrq AuWpr mrd dI kfmÈkqI bhuq inrBr krdI hY. jy aOrq mrd nUM bhuqf gihrf ipafr krdI hY qF koeI kfrn nhIN, mrd sYks dy aYkt ivwc kmËor rih jfvy. ijMnf dovF df ipafr gihrf aqy vfsqivk hovygf, Enf hI sYks qswlIbKÈ aqy afnMdmeI hovygf aqy ijMnI dovF ivwc dUrI hovygI, nÌrq hovygI, JUTf ipafr hovygf, smJOqfmeI jIvn hovygf, Enf hI dovyN ies anMd qoN dUr hoxgy.