sfihq akfdmI ienfm imlx smyN dI Xfd

- virafm isMG sMDU

sfihq akfdmI idwlI vwloN purskfr dyx vflI Èfm nUM ienfm-pRfpq lyKkF dy snmfn ivwc pfrtI kIqI jFdI hY ijs ivwc lyKkF dy snyhI qy irÈqydfr vI Èfml huMdy hn. myry nfl qF myrI pqnI hI sI pr idwlI dy pMjfbI lyKk vI akfdmI dy swdy ‘qy vwzI igxqI ivwc puwjy hoey sn. pfrtI qoN bfad bVy pRBfvÈflI smfÊm ivwc ienfm qksIm kIqy gey. XfrF-dosqF vwloN vDfeIaF imlIaF, qsvIrF lwQIaF, tI vI vfilaF vI kuwJ pl gwlF kIqIaF.
purskfr-smfroh qoN aglI svyr akfdmI dy hfl ivwc Aus sfl dy ienfm pRfpq krn vfly sfry lyKkF ny afpxy bfry, afpxI rcnf bfry jF isrjx-pRikiraf afid bfry vfrI vfrI afpxf BfÈn dyxf huMdf hY. ies smfÊm ivwc sMbMDq lyKkF qoN ielfvf vwK vwK BfÈfvF dy hor lyKk vI akfdmI dy ivÈyÈ swdy ‘qy hfËr huMdy hn. smyN dy bMDyj krky hryk BfÈn ds-bfrF imMt ivwc Éqm krnf huMdf hY. eysy krky eyzy ku afkfr df BfÈn lyKk vwloN pihlF hI ilK ky Byijaf huMdf hY. EQy AuhI iliKaf hoieaf BfÈn piVHaf jFdf hY. akfdmI vwloN BfÈn dIaF tfeIp kIqIaF kfpIaF hryk lyKk nUM muhweIaf krvf idwqIaF jFdIaF hn. lyKk dI afpxI BfÈf qoN ielfvf BfÈn dy aMgryËI qy ihMdI anuvfd vI AuplbD huMdy hn. Auh ijs BfÈf ivwc cfhy afpxy ivcfr pyÈ kr skdf hY.
sB qoN pihlF bMglf BfÈf dy lyKk ny afpxy ivcfr pyÈ kIqy. bMgflIaF df afpxI mfq-BfÈf leI moh jwg-Ëfihr hY. Auh bMglf BfÈf ivwc hI boilaf. ies BfÈf nUM smJx vfly do-cfr bMgflI lyKkF nUM hI AusdI smJ peI. hornF dy ipV-pwly kuwJ vI nf ipaf. AusqoN bfad iksy hor BfÈf df lyKk bolx lwgf pr myrf iDafn Aus vwl nhIN sI. bMglf lyKk ny mYnUM ajIb duibDf ivwc pf idwqf sI. jy quhfzI gwl iksy dy smJ ivwc hI nhIN afAuxI qF AuhnUM krn df kI Ìfiedf! kI ies smfÊm df Bfv afpxI mfq-BfÈf leI kyvl moh df sMkyqk pRgtfvf krnf hY jF iesdf mksd hornF BfÈfvF dy lyKkF qwk afpxy ivcfrF nUM sMcfirq krnf hY!
mYN qF afpxI gwl dUijaF lyKkF qwk ËrUr phuMcfAuxf cfhuMdf sF. pr kI pMjfbI ivwc kIqI myrI gwl sfry lyKkF qwk phuMc jfvygI? pMjfbI dI ihMdI nfl nyVlI sFJ krky AuWqrI Bfrq dy lyKkF nUM qF iesdI smJ Èfied pY hI skdI hovy pr iPr vI mYnUM lwgdf sI pMjfbI rfhIN sfry lyKkF qwk myry ivcfrF df sMcfr nhIN ho skxf! mYN soicaf mYnUM ihMdI jF aMgryËI ivwc afpxI gwl kihxI cfhIdI hY. dUjy pfsy afpxI mfq-BfÈf df moh mYnUM pMjfbI ivwc bolx leI Auksf irhf sI. iewk-do lyKk hor vI bol gey pr mYN iesy AuDyV-bux ivwc Pisaf irhf. duibDf-mukq hox leI mYN swjy hwQ bYTy rGbIr isMG isrjxf qy Kwby hwQ bYTI pqnI rjvMq dI rfie vI leI. Auh vI myry vFg hI ÌYslf lYx ivwc muÈkl mihsUs kr rhy sn. eyny nUM mYnUM mMc AuWqy hfËr hox leI afvfË pY geI.
mfeIk qwk phuMcx qoN pihlF hI mYN duibDf ivcoN bfhr inklidaF ihMdI ivwc bolx df ÌYslf kr ilaf. aijhf krky mYN sMcfr nUM pihl dy irhf sF. ihMdI ivwc bolxf afpxI mfq-BfÈf dy mhwqv qy moh qoN ienkfrI hoxf nhIN sI! ieho gwl mMc qoN kih ky pUry Brosy nfl afpxy ivcfr pyÈ krny ÈurU kIqy. ieh ivcfr ies pRkfr sn:
axvMzy pMjfb dy iËlHf lfhOr dI qihsIl ksUr ivwc sI myrf ipMz sur isMG; jo awj kwlH aMimRqsr iËlHy dI pwtI qihsIl ivwc ihMd-pfik srhwd qoN kyvl cfr-pMj iklomItr dI ivwQ AuWqy hY. pMjfb df mwD ‘mfJf’ qy mfJy df ‘mwD’ ieh ielfkf ‘mfJy dI DuMnI’ kr ky jfixaf jFdf hY.
keI sdIaF qoN myry Éfndfn qy myry ielfky dy vzyiraF dy hwQF ivwc hÜF dIaF jMGIaF rhIaF qy jF ilÈkdIaF qlvfrF. Auh sdf afpxIaF ÌslF dy iswDy sqor iswitaF vFg svYmfx nfl iswDIaF DOxF aqy isr AuWcf cuwk ky ijAUx dI koiÈÈ ivwc juwty rhy. DrqI dI ihwk cIrdy DrqI jyzy jyiraF vfly ieh lok isrF AuWqy pey sMktF dy snmuwK hoxf qy AuhnF nUM sihxf jfxdy sn. loV pYx ‘qy qlvfr dI muwT AuWqy vI hwQ rwK lYNdy sn. dsF nhuMaF dI ikrq krnI qy svYmfx nfl ijAUxf ijnHF df jIvn-AudyÈ sI. myry vzyiraF df idwqf hoieaf ieh sB kuJ myry ÉmIr ivwc vI hY. pr svYmfx nfl ijAUx leI dsF nhuMaF kol krn leI ikrq vI cfhIdI hY aqy Aus ikrq AuWqy afpxf hwk vI. ikrq AuWqy prfieaf hwk hoxf mYnUM sdf bycYn qy duKI rwKdf.
awDorfxy kwpiVaF ivwc nMgy pYrIN qpdI qy TrdI ËmIn AuWpr quridaF skUl jfxf, pYrF ivwc kMzy aqy buwQy mrvfAuNidaF vwZF ivwc zMgr cfrny, myrf hI nhIN myry vrgy hor bhuq sfiraF df bcpn sI. iËMdgI dIaF buinafdI shUlqF qoN ivrvf ieh mfsUm bcpn aMdry aMdr svfl vI krdf sI ik nvyN kwpVy qy nvyN mOjy pRfpq krn dI ieh rIJ aksr iewk Ìsl qoN dUjI Ìsl dy afAux qwk ikAuN tflI jFdI sI! aglI Ìsl ‘qy sB rIJF pUrIaF kr dyx df mfipaF df vfadf swc qF jfpdf sI pr AuhnF dIaF awKF dI qrl cuwp hoTF ivcoN inkly vfady ivclI idRVHqf dy hfx dI ikAuN nhIN sI huMdI! ipafsy mnF AuWqy kdI rjvF mINh nhIN sI pYNdf.
jdoN mYN klm cuwkI qF QuVF mfrI lfhnq BrI ies iËMdgI nUM bdlx dI qFG acyq hI myry aMdr AuWslvwty BMn rhI sI. myry afsy-pfsy ÊrIbI dy BMny lok sn, Dwkf krn vfly DnI aqy bdmfÈ sn, aMD-ivÈvfs aqy vihmF-BrmF ivwc ÌfQI dunIaF sI. Ëbfn aqy mËHb dy nF ‘qy lVIaF jf rhIaF iÌrkU lVfeIaF sn. iBRÈt isafsq sI.
mYN iehnF sB burfeIaF qoN mukq smfj vyKxf cfhuMdf sF. ies qbdIlI leI mYN ilKq dI pwDr ‘qy jUJ irhf sF. myrI ilKq ivwc koeI nf koeI sunyhf ËrUr huMdf. mYN socdf jy mYnUM cMgy lwgx vfly lyKkF ny myry aMdr afdrÈk soc aqy ‘hF-muK’ qbdIlI dI rIJ pYdf kr idwqI hY qF myrI ilKq nUM vI ieh rol adf krnf cfhIdf hY. ajy mYnUM eynI smJ vI nhIN sI ik sfihqk ikrq ivwc inrol ivcfr dI hI pRmuwKqf rcnf dy klfqmk muwl nUM Gtf idMdI hY.
mYN Dur zuMGfxF qoN isafsI qy smfjI qbdIlI df qlbÊfr sF; pr ieh qbdIlI isrÌ kivqf jF khfxIaF ilKx nfl hI nhIN sI af jfxI! ies leI amlI qOr ‘qy kuwJ cMgf kr guËrn dI rIJ vI myry mn aMdr aMgVfeIaF lY rhI sI. ‘kuJ krn’ dy nfl nfl jdoN mYN afpxy pihly khfxI-sMgRih ‘lohy dy hwQ’ dIaF khfxIaF ilKIaF qF AuhnF ivwc sQfpq nËfm pRqI sMGxI nÌrq aqy iesnUM bdlx df sunyhf sI jo myry aMdrly syk nfl kuJ vDyry Puwl igaf sI qy ikqy ikqy klf dy Gyry qoN bfhr vI ho igaf.
pr CyqI hI ‘kuJ kr guËrn vflI’ lihr `coN myrf ivÈvfs zol igaf. mfrksvfd dy aiDan qy inwjI qjrby ny mYnUM dwisaf ik lok-sfQ qoN ivrvIaF qy lok-lihr bxn qoN asmrwQ aijhIaF lihrF df asÌl rihxf AuhnF dI hoxI hY. mYN ies lihr qoN iknfrf kr ilaf. ieh vwKrI gwl hY ik iewk smyN ies lihr nfl myrf nfm juV jfx kr ky afAux vfly sflF ivwc vI iesdf ÉimafËf Bugqxf ipaf. JUTy puils kysF df sfhmxf kridaF ieMtYrogyÈn sYNtr vI jfxf ipaf qy aYmrjYNsI ivwc zI afeI afr aDIn jylH jfx qoN ielfvf vI keI vfr jylH-Xfqrf krnI peI. mYnUM hux ies sB kuJ df koeI pCqfvf nhIN. ies sB kuJ nfl juV ky myrf anuBv ivÈfl hoieaf qy amIr vI. AuNj vI myry ipCokV, myrI soc qy myry joÈ dy snmuwK myry leI ies pRikiraf ivcoN guËrn qoN isvfie hor koeI bdl nhIN sI hoxf.
mYN sfihq aqy isafsq dy afpsI sMbMDF qoN ienkfrI nhIN sF. ieh vI jfxdf sF ik smfjk-mnuwKI jIvn df vzyrf Bfg isafsI vrqfry qoN hmyÈf pRBfivq huMdf hY aqy koeI vI vzyrI jF buinafdI qbdIlI isafsI qbdIlI qoN ibnF sMBv nhIN. sfihq ny vI smfjk-mnuwKI iËMdgI nUM hI pyÈ krnf huMdf hY. ies leI isafsq dy sfihq AuWqy asr jF sfihq rfhIN isafsq dy pyÈ hox qoN ienkfrI nhIN hoieaf jf skdf. pr ieh vI swc sI ik sfihq inrol isafsq nhIN huMdf. sfihq rfhIN isafsq df prcfr vI ‘sfihqk ZMg’ nfl hI ho skdf hY. sfihqk-vfr ijMnF lukvF hovygf Enf hI qyË, iqwKf qy kftvF hovygf. ijMnF ieh vfr Ëfihrf hovygf Enf hI KuMZf qy byasr hovygf.
ies soc dI roÈnI ivwc mYN iksy isafsq jF isDFq df Ëfihrf prcfr krn qoN tyZ vwt leI. hux mYN afpxy cOiÊrdy dy XQfrQ nUM aflocnfqmk nËrIey qoN smJx aqy pyÈ krn df pYNqVf aÉiqafr kr ilaf.
myry cOiÊrdy df isafsI, smfjI qy siBafcfrk jIvn ajy vI myrI rcnfqmkqf df pRmuwK srokfr sI pr myrf idRÈtIkon hux sqh AuWqy ipaf hox dI QF rcnf dy smuwcy sMgTn dI ivAuNqbMdI ivwc Èfml sI. khfxI ivwc hux mYN nhIN sF boldf sgoN pfqr, GtnfvF qy siQqIaF boldIaF sn. aijhf kridaF myry khfxI kihx dy aMdfË ivwc sihj pirvrqn vfpr igaf.
pihlf pirvrqn qF rcnfqmk idRÈtI dI pwDr ‘qy vfpiraf. pfqrF, GtnfvF qy vrqfiraF qoN sfihqk ivwQ Qfp ky vwD qoN vwD vsqUmuK hox df cfrf kridaF mYN smfjk-mnuwKI jIvn nUM aflocnfqmk idRÈtI qoN pyÈ krnf ÈurU kIqf. ‘jo cfhIdf hY’ dI QF ‘jo hY’ nUM iesqrHF icqrn AuWqy bÜ idwqf ik pRfpq iËMdgI dy duwKF-suwKF, sMktF, loVF qy QuVF nUM vwK vwK koinaF qoN jfixaF smiJaf vI jf sky qy jo qbdIlI loVINdI hY AusdI sihj soJI vI pRfpq ho sky.
‘lohy dy hwQ’ dIaF khfxIaF df muwK srokfr rfjnIqI sI. ‘rfjnIqk cyqnf’ vflIaF khfxIaF ilKxIaF myrI muwK pCfx bx geI sI. rfjnIqk cyqnf myrIaF ipClIaF khfxIaF ivwc vI iksy nf iksy rUp ivwc ivdmfn hY BfvyN iesdf suBfa aqy srUp bdl igaf hY qy ‘lohy dy hwQ’ dIaF khfxIaF qoN vwKrf hY. pr inrol rfjnIqk muwidaF jF msilaf nUM hI kyNdrI sUqr vjoN vrqx dI QF mYN ieh soicaf ik ikAuN nf afpxy iblkul afpxy nËdIk dI iËMdgI icqrF!
mYN ikrsfnI smfj nfl sMbMDq sF. myry ivMhidaF ivMhidaF KyqI df mÈInIkrn hoieaf. hrf ienklfb afieaf. KyqI dI Aupj vD geI pr KyqI krnI mihMgI vI ho geI. KyqI krnf mfVy dy vws df rog nf irhf. ijhVy smyN isr vhfeI krn aqy pfxI, KfdF, bIj, dvfeIaF pfAux dy smrwQ sn, KyqI AuhnF nUM hws ky imlI. ijnHF kol aijhy sfDn nhIN sn, KyqI AuhnF nfl ruwsdI geI. Èihr ipMzF qwk psrnf ÈurU ho igaf. vsqF dy vDdy Auqpfdn dy nfl vsqF nUM vrqx qy iËMdgI nUM mfnx dI lflsf vI vDdI geI. jIvn ivwc pYsf kImqF pRvyÈ krn lwgIaF. bMdf ‘bMdy df puwq’ hox nfloN ‘pYsy df puwq’ hoxf ÈurU ho igaf. jIvn qy mnuwKI irÈqy vDyry jitl huMdy gey.
ieh nvIN rIJF BrI iËMdgI Coty ikrsfn dy hwQoN iKskdI jFdI sI. mYnUM iesdf nyVy df ielm sI. ieh sB kuJ myry nËdIk, myry afsy-pfsy vfpr irhf sI. ieh myrf inwjI anuBv sI. ies AuWqy pRmfixkqf dI mohr-Cfp lwgI hoeI sI. myry sfhmxy vwzy ikrsfnF dIaF ËmInF df Gyrf cOVf huMdf jf irhf sI qy CoitaF dI ËmIn suMgVdI jf rhI sI.
mYN soicaf; mYN ijnHF ivcoN hF AuhnF dI gwl ikAuN nf krF! ikrsfnI jIvn dy srokfrF nfl sMbMDq myrIaF khfxIaF, ‘aMg sMg’, ‘zuMmH’, ‘ikwQy gey’, ‘sunihrI ikxkf’, ‘afpxf afpxf ihwsf’, ‘vfpsI’ afid pRkfiÈq hoeIaF qF aflockF-pfTkF vwloN pihlI vfr pMjfb dy ikrsfnI jIvn dI aijhI pRmfixk pyÈkfrI dI mukq-kMT nfl pRsMsf kIqI geI. myrIaF khfxIaF ivwc jwt dI PokI hAumYN df jtkf qy rMGVAU AuCfV pft igaf. Auh iewk ‘XoDf’ nhIN sI rih igaf. nf hI nfiek rih igaf sI. Auh qF hflfq df BMinaF iewk adnf afdmI sI. ijAUx leI hwQ-pYr mfr irhf! icwkV ivwc qrn df Xqn kr irhf! iehdIaF muÈklF iehdy BfeIcfry dIaF nhIN sn, iehdIaF inrol inwjI afpxIaF jF afpxy pirvfr dIaF sn. pYsf kImqF dy pRvyÈ nfl hux pirvfr aqy irÈqy iqVkxy qy tuwtxy ÈurU ho gey sn. ‘lhU dI sFJ’ dI QF ‘pYsy dI sFJ’ mhwqv pkV rhI sI.
myrIaF khfxIaF ivwc ijwQy DnI iksfnF dy DoKy, Dwky, jbr qy cusq isafsq df icqr sI EQy afriQk QuVF dy BMny-ilqfVy Coty ikrsfn dy hOlI hOlI byËmIny ho ky mËdUr bxn dI pRikiraf vI pyÈ hoeI. mËdUr bxn nfl pYdf hoieaf mfnisk sMkt vI Auhdy nfl nfl sI. ikrsfnI smfj dy iviBMn jIvn-srokfrF dy nfl hI myrI khfxI dI pCfx mnuwKI irÈiqaF dy tuwtx dI pRikiraf ivwc vyKI jfx lwgI.
ikrsfnI dy sMktF qoN ielfvf ipClyry zyZ dhfky df pMjfb df sMqfp afpxy jitl qy guMJldfr rUp ivwc afpxIaF anyk prqF smyq myrIaF khfxIaF ivwc pyÈ hoieaf. mYN ijwQy rihMdf sF EQy koeI idn vI aijhf nhIN sI huMdf, jdoN golI dI afvfË nf suxI hovy jF afsy pfsy hoey iksy kql dI Ébr nf pqf lwgI hovy! AuhnF idnF ivwc iËMdgI dy dUjy msly gOx rih gey jfpdy sn. afpxy hI ipMz ivwc mYN iewko idn ivwc hI do-do, iqMn-iqMn aqy keI vfr pMj-pMj bMidaF dy isvy iekwTy bldy vyKy. cwkI dy puVF vrgI dupfsIN dihÈq ivwc ipsdy pMjfb dI drd-khfxI mYN pUrI iÈwdq nfl ‘BwjIaF bfhIN’, ‘cOQI kUt’, ‘prCfvyN’, ‘mYN hux TIk Tfk hF’ ijhIaF khfxIaF ivwc pyÈ kIqI. iehnF khfxIaF ivwc pMjfb df ÊYrq-mMd qy ÈfnF-mwqf ichrf drd nfl DuaFiKaf idsdf sI qy DOx nmoÈI ivwc nIvIN hoeI. pr iehnF khfxIaF dI apfr sÌlqf aqy pRsMsf ny myry pYrF hyTF hwQ dy ky mYnUM bhuq AuWcf cuwk idwqf.
jIvn dy aijhy jitl vrqfry nUM hux pihlI khfxI ijhI srlqf nfl ibafn nhIN sI kIqf jf skdf. ies leI myry sfhmxy aglI vMgfr ieh sI ik jIvn dI jitlqf nUM pyÈ krn vfly aijhy jitl ibrqFq dI isrjxf krnf, ijs ivwc smwisafvF qy sMktF dy hwl ‘do qy do cfr’ vFg sfdf qrIky nfl pey hoey nËr nf afAux. AuNj vI mYnUM lwgdf sI ik koeI vI qwQ jF swc iekihrf jF kwitaf CFigaf, kyvl afpxy afp ivwc hI mukMml nhIN huMdf; sgoN ieh hor keI lukvyN qwQF qy swcF nfl juiVaf huMdf hY. ies leI myry leI ieh ËrUrI sI ik jy iËMdgI dy iksy pihlU nUM pRBfvI rUp ivwc icqrnf hY qF ies qwQ qy swc dIaF lukvIaF qMdF nUM vI PVF aqy pyÈ krF.
aijhf nf krn dI sUrq ivwc khfxI ivclf swc iekihrf, kmËor aqy iekpfsV rih jfxf sI. ies qrHF mYN khfxI dy ‘imQy’ inXmF dI syD ivwc qurn dI QF khfxI ivcly ‘swc’ dI syD ivwc qurnf ÈurU kIqf. AudoN mYnUM ies gwl df iÉafl hI nhIN sI ik mYN khfxI dy prMprfgq nymF dI pRvfh nhIN kr irhf. mYnUM pRvfh sI qF khfxI ivwc khI jfx vflI gwl dI, Auhdy suBfvk aqy qrk-sMgq hox dI, Auhdy rfhIN sihj, zUMGy qy cOqrÌI pRBfv isrjx dI.
ieh sfrf kuJ mYN imQ ky nhIN sI kIqf; pr mYQoN ho igaf sI. iPr pfTkF, aflockF qy ivdvfnF vwloN imlI vzyrI pRsMsf qy pRvfngI ny ieh sfbq kr idwqf ik khfxI dy ‘imQy’ hoey inXm jy khfxI dI sihj qor ivwc rukfvt bxdy hn qF Auh tuwt hI jfxy cfhIdy hn.
jfq-pfqI Drfql qoN AuWpr AuWT ky ‘srbwq df Blf’ dI Bfvnf iswKI ivrfsq ivcoN pRfpq kIqI. Êlq kImqF nfl smJOqf nf krnf aqy swc qy svYmfx leI zt jfxf afpxy iKwqy dy KfVkU ieiqhfs dy nfl nfl Èfied afpxy dfdy dy KfVkUpn qoN imilaf. ‘mYN hux TIk Tfk hF’ khfxI ivwc Aus bMdy dI bFh qoVn vflf myrf dfdf hI sI ijs ny sfrI mwisaf dy Bry myly ivwc bFh KVI kr ky, sB nUM vMgfr ky, afiKaf sI ik ies BIV ivwc iksy mF ny aijhf mrd nhIN jMimaF jo AusdI bFh nIvIN kr sky. Auh bFh zFg mfr ky myry dfdy ny qoV ky nIvIN kr idwqI sI.
mYN afpxy dfdy vFg iksy dI bFh nIvIN nhIN kIqI qy nf hI Èfied mYN krnf cfhvF pr afpxI DOx nIvIN nf hox dyxI, Éfs qOr ‘qy afpxy afpy dy sfhmxy, ieh mYN sfrI Aumr brdfÈq nhIN kIqf.
awj vI svYmfx nfl ijAUxf myrf afdrÈ hY. mYnUM ieh vI sucyq aihsfs hY ik bMdf qF pfxI df bulbulf hY. mYN BfvyN bulbuly vFg iewk pl hI jIvF pr Aus vFg pfxI dI ihwk ‘qy isr AuWcf cuwk ky ijAUx ivwc ivÈvfs rwKdf hF. myrI rIJ hY ik aijhy hflfq isrjy jf skx ijnHF ivwc myrIaF khfxIaF dy pfqr qy myry afly-duafly dy lok vI isr AuWcf cuwk ky svYmfx nfl jIAU skx.
ieh vI socdf rihMdf hF ik ies ivwc Blf myrIaF ilKqF kI Xogdfn pfAuNdIaF ny!
kuJ nf kuJ qF pfAuNdIaF hI hoxgIaF.
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afpxy ies BfsLn dIaF pihlIaF iqMn-cfr sqrF pVHn qoN hI mYnUM pqf lwg igaf ik myrI gwl bVy iDafn nfl suxI jf rhI hY. myry pYr jMm gey. kuwJ QfvF ‘qy qF kivqf vFg ‘vfh! vfh! !’ vI hoeI. afpxI gwl mukfAux qoN pihlF mYN afpxy dfdy dI Aus vfrqf nUM sFJf kIqf ijs ivwc Ausny iewk hMkfry hoey aVHb jwt dI vMgfr nUM kbUl kIqf sI ijhVf vfr vfr afpxI bFh AuWcI krky BrI hoeI mwisaf dI BIV nUM llkfr irhf sI, “pUrI mwisaf ivwc iksy dI hY ihMmq ijhVf jwt dI bFh nIvIN kr sky!”
myry dfdy ny Auh ihMmq idKfeI sI. Ausny ivgVy hoey BUqry jwt dI ark ‘qy itkf ky zFg mfrI qy bFh BMn ky qorI vFg lmkf idwqI sI. AuhdI bFh ‘nIvIN’ krky AuhnF dI ZfxI Bzfxy vfly buMgy ivwcoN dI hrn ho geI.
ieh gwl suxf ky mYN ikhf, “afpxy dfdy vFg nf hI mYN iksy dI bFh nIvIN kIqI hY qy nf hI Èfied krnI cfhvF; pr iksy awgy afpxI DOx nIvIN krnI pvy, ieh mYN sfrI Aumr prvfn nhIN kIqf.”
sroiqaF ny ‘vfh!’ afK ky hOslf vDfieaf. mYN afpxI gwl jfrI rwKI:
“mYN ieh vI jfxdF ik bMdf pfxI df bulbulf hY. huxy hY pr agly hI pl Éqm ho jfx vflf! pr mYN ieh vI jfxdF ik pfxI df bulbulf vI ijMnF icr ijAUNdf hY pfxI dI ihwk `qy isr AuWcf cuwk ky ijAUNdf hY.”
qfVIaF dI afvfË gUMjI. pl Br ruk ky mYN gwl mukMml kIqI.
“mYN ieh vI cfhuMdf hF ik ieho ijhf smfj isrijaf jf sky ijwQy myry afly dvfly-vwsdy sB lokF dIaF QuVF, mjbUrI, AudfsI qy nmoÈI ivwc JukIaF DOxF svYmfx ivwc iswDIaF KVIaF ho skx. iPr ieh vI socdf hF ik kI myrIaF khfxIaF vI ieh kuwJ krn ivwc kuwJ Xogdfn pfAuNdIaF ny. kuwJ nf kuwJ qF pfAuNdIaF hI hoxgIaF!”
eynI afK ky mYN kfgË smytx lwgf. sroiqaF dIaF BrpUr qfVIaF nfl hfl gUMj AuWiTaf. bhuq sfry lyKk AuWT ky prsMsf krdy hwQ imlfAux lwgy. AurdU vfilaF dy toly ny AuWcI afvfË ivwc afiKaf, “beI pMjfbI vfly qo mylf lUt kr ly gey!”
myrI afpxI sIt mwlI jf cuwkI sI. sB nfl hwQ imlfAuNdf mYN lgBg hfl dy aÉIr ivwc jf ky lwBI KflI kursI ‘qy bYT igaf. nvF bulfrf bolx lwgf qF prsMsf dI Cwl vflIaF afvfËF Qwly bYT geIaF.
eyny ivwc awgoN AuWT ky ajIq kOr myry kol ipwCy afeI. KVI-KloqI ny afpxy swjy hwQ dI AuNgl nfl mYnUM KVy ho jfx df ieÈfrf kIqf qy moh nfl afKx lwgI, “AuWT KVf ho! qUM khfxIaF ilK ky qF sfzf isr AuWcf kIqf hI sI pr awj bol ky vI pMjfb dI pwg AuWcI kr idwqI hY! cwl af! mYnUM jwPI pf.”
Ausny mYnUM gl nfl lfieaf pr ieh soc ky ik sfzI gwl-bfq nfl cwl rhy smfÊm ivwc iksy pRkfr df ivGn nf pvy, mYnUM kihx lwgI, “cwl bfhr af gyt qoN.”
AusdI afvfË ivcly aiDkfr qy moh df iKwicaf mYN Coty bflF vFg sMgdf hoieaf Ausdy ipwCy qur ipaf. sMgx df kfrn ieh sI ik pyNzU ipCokV df hox krky mYN aOrq lyiKkfvF nfl gly imlx df aiBafsI nhIN sF. jdoN 1988 ivwc ajIq kOr ny khfxI-drbfr krvfieaf sI qF mYN vI Ausdy swdy ‘qy idwlI puwjf sF. pRym pRkfÈ myry afey hox dI sUcnf dyx leI mYnUM ajIq kOr kol lY ky igaf. Ausny mYnUM ‘jI afieaF’ kihMidaF myry lwk dvfly bFh vlI pr mYnUM prqvyN rUp ivwc Ausdy lwk dvfly bFh vlx dI ihMmq nf peI. idwlI vfly qF ies hkIkq nUM smJdy sn ik ajIq kOr vwloN mrd lyKkF nUM vI ‘jwPI’ pf lYxf bVf sihj kfrj hY pr idwlI-klcr qoN anjfx pMjfb dy lyKkF nUM qF Ausdy mnmohxy Èbd aqy glvwkVI df inwG kuwJ iËafdf hI ‘hulfr’ idMdf sI. Aus khfxI drbfr AuWqy hI imwqrF dI mihiÌl ivwc rfm srUp axÉI afK irhf sI, “mYN qF ajIq kOr dI icwTI ivwc ilKy ÈbdF df iKwicaf cilaf afieaf hF. Ausny iliKaf hI eyny moh nfl sI ik koeI afAuxoN nFh ikvyN kr skdY!” iksy ny icwTI dI iebfrq puwCI qF axÉI ËbfnI-klfmI dwsx lwgf, “bws kuwJ iesqrHF hI hY; axÉI jI quhfzy ibnF ieh khfxI-drbfr nf-mukMml hY. qusIN afvogy qF grmf grm pkOVy KFdy cfh dIaF cuskIaF BrFgy qy imwTIaF imwTIaF gwlF gwlF krFgy! dosqF dIaF khfxIaF suxFgy, inwGI Duwp df afnMd lvFgy.” iksy hor ny afpxI jyb ivcoN icwTI kwZ ky ikhf, “axÉI aYvyN nf Puwilaf iPr. mYnUM vI iesqrHF hI iliKaY.” mYN cuwp hI irhf, BfvyN iliKaf mYnUM vI ieho kuwJ hI sI.
hfl ivcoN bfhr inklidaF hI ajIq kOr ny bfhvF KolHidaF mYnUM afpxy nfl Guwt ilaf. mYN ajy vI iJjk irhF sF. Auh kihMdI, “pUry Ëor nfl, kVfky inkl jfx!”
Ausny inwky bfl vFg mYnUM afpxI buwkl ivwc ilaf hoieaf sI. Auh kyvl ajIq kOr nhIN sI; Auh qF myrI mF sI ijhVI myrI pRfpqI dI ÉuÈI ivwc iBwj ky mYnUM lfz-dulfr kr ky myrf hONslf vDf rhI sI! ieh ajIq kOr dI ‘idwlI-klcr’ vflI rsmI iksm dI jwÌI hriÊË nhIN sI qy nf hI Aus icwTI dI iebfrq sI ijhVI hr lyKk vfsqy iewko ijhI hI sI! ieh qF suwcy pMjfbI-siBafcfr dI mihk ivwc iBwjI aijhI jwÌI sI ijs rfhIN sfrf pMjfbI-jgq ajIq kOr dy rUp ivwc awj mYnUM afpxy gÜ nfl lf irhf sI aqy sur isMG ipMz ivwc bYTI myrI mF ny afpxIaF bfhvF idwlI qwk lMmIaF krky myry isr `qy afÈIrvfdI hwQ rwK idwqf sI.
sfihq akfdmI vfly ies BfÈn dI aijhI prsMsf aqy asIs mYnUM kdI nhIN Buwlx lwgI.