pRym pRkfÈ df jnm KMnf,
iËlHf luiDafxf ivwc sRI rfm pRsfd dy Gr hoieaf. Ausny afpxy jIvn kfl
dy muZly sflF ivwc skUl ivwc pVHfAuxf ÈurU kIqf. AuprMq Auh pwqrkfrI
dy ikwqy nfl juV igaf aqy jlMDr dy ‘ihMd smfcfr’ aÉbfr ivwc Aup-sMpfdk
vjoN lMmF smF syvf inBf ky syvf-mukq hoieaf. Auh lMmyN smyN qoN iewk
do-mfisk sfihqk prcy ‘lkIr’ df sMpfdn krdf af irhf hY. pMjfb ivwc
AuWTI nkslvfdI lihr bfry Ausdf Cotf nfvl ‘dsqfvyË’ kfÌI crcf ivwc
irhf. afpxy khfxI sMgRih ‘mukqI’ dy pRkfÈn nfl Auh pMjfbI khfxIkfrF dI
pihlI kqfr ivwc af KVoqf. Auh lIhoN ht ky socx aqy krn ivwc ivÈvfs
rwKx vflf ivakqI hY. AusnUM ‘BIV’ df lyKk bxnf kqweI psMd nhIN. Ausny
muK qOr `qy smfjk aqy ilMgk jIvn nfl juVIaF vrjnfvF nUM afpxI khfxI df
vsqU bxfieaf. AusdI Dfrnf hY ik iewk bMdy aMdr keI bMdy luky huMdy hn;
ies leI Auh afpxIaF khfxIaF ivwc idsdy dy Ehly ivwc luky mnuwK nUM
lwBx leI XqnÈIl rihMdf hY. Ausdy pfqr afDuink jIvn dIaF guMJlF ivwc
Psy Ctptf rhy huMdy hn. ies Ctptfht, Aukqfht aqy AudfsI qoN mukq hox
leI kIqy AuhnF dy sfry Xqn ivarQ jFdy hn aqy Auh iewk jfl ivcoN inkl
ky dUjy jfl ivwc Psdy rihMdy hn. AusdI khfxI ivwc bMdy dy ‘mukqI’ leI
kIqy XqnF dy rhws nUM smJx dI koiÈÈ kIqI geI huMdI hY. mnwKI mn dIaF
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Kwby qoN swjy: mohn BMzfrI, virafm isMG sMDU,pRym pRkfsL,
guljLfr isMG sMDU, sujfn isMG qy iek hor(sfl 1987-byairMg kflj
btflf) |
pycIdf gMZF nUM Kolx aqy
vrijq irÈiqaF dI ivafkrx nUM pyÈ krn ivwc Ausny aBUqpUrv sÌlqf hfsl
kIqI hY. pMjfbI ivwc iswK lyKkF dI bhu-igxqI hox krky pMjfbI khfxI
ivwc vI bhuqy iswK ikrdfr aqy AuhnF nfl juVy iswK sMskfr pyÈ huMdy rhy
hn. pRym pRkfÈ dy pMjfbI khfxI ivwc pRvyÈ nfl pihlI vfr pMjfbI khfxI
ivwc ihMdU pfqr aqy AuhnF nfl juVy sMskfr aqy mfniskqf pyÈ hoeI hY.
Ausny afm qOr `qy AuWqm-purKI ibrqFq ivDI dI vrqoN kIqI hY. Aus anusfr
hryk ivakqI df afpo afpxf swc huMdf hY. Ausny vwK vwK pfqrF nUM afpo
afpxy idRÈtIkon qoN afpxf pwK pyÈ krn leI mOkf dyx vfsqy pMjfbI khfxI
ivwc nvyN qjrby vI kIqy hn. mukqI, Èolzr bYg, mwCI AusdIaF aijhIaF
khfxIaF hn ijMnHF ivwc iewko khfxI ivwc vwK vwK pfqr afpxy idRÈtIkon
qoN afpxI khfxI suxfAuNdy hn. aslI swc iksy iewk dy kQn ivwc nhIN sgoN
sBnF dy kQnF ivwc ikDry zUMGf luikaf huMdf hY. afpxy pfqrF dy mn dIaF
zUMGIaF rmËF nUM smJx ivwc hI pRym pRkfÈ dI ivlwKxqf inihq hY.
Ausdy khfxI sMgRih ies pRkfr hn: kwckVy-1966, nmfËI-1971, mukqI-1980,
ÈvyqFbr ny ikhf sI-1983, pRym khfxIaF-1986, kuwJ axikhf vI-1990,
rMgmMc dy iBÉÈU-1995, kQf-anMq-1995 (smuwcIaF khfxIaF). AusnUM Ausdy
khfxI sMgRih ‘kuJ axikhf vI’ AuWqy 1992 ivwc sfihq akfdmI df purskfr
pRfpq hoieaf. zYWz lfeIn, ÈvyqFbr ny ikhf sI, mukqI, Gr, ieh Auh jsbIr
nhIN, bMglf qy goeI AusdIaF pRiswD khfxIaF hn.
khfxI bfry:
bMdf iewk ‘guMJldfr buJfrq’ hY ijsnUM buwJxf lgBg asMBv hY. iesdIaF
‘GuMzIaF’ jF ‘guMJlF’ KolHx dy XqnF dy bfvjUd iesdI hoNd aqy hoxI df
aMqm isrf hwQ nhIN afAuNdf. pRym pRkfÈ ny afpxIaF hor khfxIaF vFg ies
khfxI ivwc vI bMdy dy rhwsmeI guMJldfr afpy dIaF ipVIaF Kolx df klfqmk
Auprflf kIqf hY. khfxI dfrÈink idRÈtI qoN ies kyNdrI svfl dy rUbrU hY
ik bMdf jd mrn nyVy huMdf ey qF afpxy jwdI ipMz nUM ikAuN jfxf cfhuMdf
ey? idwlI rihMdy sihgl aMbrsrIey nUM ipClI Aumry ‘aMbrsr dI imwtI
bulfAuNdI’ lwgdI hY. bMqf isaflkotIaf pfiksqfn ivclf afpxf Gr vyKx leI
ajy qwk ivlkdf ipaf hY. afpxy muMizaF kol vlfieq clf igaf qyjU imsqrI
ijMnF icr ‘afAux jogf’ hY afpxy jwdI mkfn nUM svfrn leI vlfieq qoN
ipMz afAuNdf rihMdf hY. khfxI dy muwK pfqr ikÈn lfl dy aMdr vI jdoN
kdI ‘GONkf ijhf’ AuWTdf hY qF Auh afpxf jwdI ipMz vyKx qur pYNdf hY.
ipClI Aumry bMdf ‘ipwCy vwl’ ikAuN Jfkx lwg pYNdf hY? iesdf
mnoivigafnk kfrn hY ik ies Aumr ivwc iËMdgI nfl moh dIaF qMdF mËbUqI
nfl joVI rwKx leI, BivwK ivwc kuJ nvF aqy cMgf vfpr skx jF pRfpq kr
skx dI afs mwDm jF Éqm ho jFdI hY. nyVy af rhI mOq df BYa jdoN BivwK
nUM asurwiKaq bxf idMdf hY qF bMdf aqIq dIaF XfdF ivcoN surwiKaf loVdf
hY. AuNJ vI bcpn jF jvfnI dI Aumr vDyry sMvydnÈIl aqy gRihx krn-Xog
huMdI hY. ies Aumry nrm afpy `qy peIaF pYVF mnuwKI avcyqn df ihwsf bx
jFdIaF hn aqy AuhnF nfl juVIaF moh dIaF qMdF AusnUM sfrI Aumr afpxy
vwl iKwcdIaF rihMdIaF hn. iesdy Ault vDdI Aumr nfl bMdf hOlI hOlI
‘KuMZf’ hoxf ÈurU ho jFdf hY. ies leI AusnUM vrqmfn nfloN aqIq ivwc
gvfcxf vDyry suK aqy skUn idMdf hY. afpxIaF jVHF nfl juVI ieh iKwc aqy
ies iKwc ivcoN skUn pRfpq krn dI qlfÈ hI ikÈn lfl nUM Ausdy jwdI ipMz
iljFdI hY.
ieh guMJl KolidaF hI iewk hor qMd pfTk dy hwQ afAuNdI hY. ieh ipMz
vsfAux leI ikÈn lfl dy vzyiraF ny hI ieQy ‘mohVI’ gwzI sI. ies leI ieh
ipMz Ausdf aqy Ausdy Éfndfn df sB qoN vwD ‘afpxf’ hY. pr ieh vI
ieiqhfs dI ivzMbnF hY ik iewk smyN ‘awqvfdI’ GtnfvF ny ieho ipMz Ausdy
iPrky dy lokF leI Eprf, prfieaf aqy ibÊfnf bxf idwqf. bhuq sfry lok
ihjrq kr gey. ijhVy afpxI mjbUrI krky jF jVHF dy moh krky iewQy itky
rhy AuhnF df itkxf iewk iDr vwloN pRvfn nf kIqf igaf. ÌlsrUp ÈMkr nUM
Ausdy afpxy hm-nfm aqy ÈkqI-srUp ‘iÈv-ÈMkr dy Gr’ ‘iÈvfly’ ivwc hI kql
kr idwqf igaf. afpxy vzyiraF vwloN mohVI gwzI hox krky ies ipMz nfl
juVI apxwq hI Aus leI ‘iÈv’ sI, ‘ÈkqI’ sI’, Ausdf ‘iÈvflf’ sI. Auh
afpxy ipMz ivc, afpxy ‘iÈvfly’ ivc, afpxy ‘Gr’ ivwc ÈkqIhIn ho igaf
aqy mfiraf igaf. mukMdI Aus dOr dI dihÈq ny pfÊl kr idwqf. iekfeI ivwc
vwisaf ipMz aqy AusdI afbfdI ‘awDo-awD’ ho geI. Dwkf krn vfly jwtF ny
AuhnF dy ‘pMj-qIrQI’ toBy AuWqy ËbrdsqI kbËf kr ilaf. iesqrHF khfxI
pMjfb dy ipMzF ivwc vwsdI Gwt-igxqI dy duKFq nUM vI Aujfgr krdI hY.
ivzMbnF ieh vI hY ik ijhVy lok ipMzoN bfhr cly gey hn Auh qF ipMz prq
ky skUn hfsl krnf loVdy hn pr ijhVy ipwCy afpxy jwdI ipMz ivwc rih gey
hn AuhnF nUM EQy rihMidaF vI skUn nsIb nhIN. ‘GuMzI’ ieh vI KuwlHdI hY
ik ‘mohVI’ BfvyN koeI gwzy; vkq bIqx nfl jF rfjnIqk qy ieiqhfsk hflfq
qbdIl hox nfl Aus QF dI mlkIaq iksy hor dI ho jFdI hY. ieh hoxI iewk
ipMz dI vI ho skdI hY aqy iewk mulk dI vI. khfxI ivwc idwlI dy vIrfn
KMzrF, rfijaF dy drbfrF, huMdy mhFXuwDF dy ichn qoN ieh swc ichinq
huMdf hY ik muV muV vwsxf aqy muV muV nvyN QfvF `qy vwsx leI AujVnf vI
mnuwK dI hoxI hY. ‘mohVI’ gwzy jfx vflI QF qoN idwlI dy KMzrF vrgI bfs
afAuxI vI iesy hkIkq vwl sMkyq hY.
‘guMJl’ `coN iewk qMd ieh vI inkldI hY ik mnuwK cMgI roËI rotI dI qlfÈ
ivwc afpxy jwdI itkfixaF qoN afpxI mrËI nfl vI ihjrq krdf irhf hY.
ipMz Cwz ky iksy ny idwlI jfxf hY, iksy ny luiDafxy, iksy ny vlYq aqy
iksy ny ikqy hor. pihlIaF pIVHIaF nUM ipwCy df vYrfg aqy hyrvf
sqfAuNdf vI rihMdf hY aqy Auh afpxy vzyiraF dI aqy afpxI jnm-BoieM vwl
prqx aqy AusdI imwtI ivwc smf jfx dI ivlkxI vI rwKdy hn pr AuhnF dI
aglI afl-aOlfd hOlI hOlI nvyN QfvF nfl hI apxwq df nfqf joV lYNdI hY
aqy aMq nUM AuQoN dI hI ho ky rih jFdI hY. qyjU imsqrI dy muMizaF jF
jgq rfm dy muMizaF df vyrvf iesy pwK vwl sMkyq hY. purfxy ny Zihxf aqy
nvyN ny Ausrnf hI hY. iewk QF ‘AujVn’ `qy ‘kbUqrF’ ny koeI nvF itkfxf
qlfÈ krn leI AuzfrI mfrnI hI hY. ies leI afpxy aqIq jF jwdI DrqI nfl
vYrfg-Bfv rwKidaF juVy rihx df kI lfB? jgq rfm dy hvfly nfl khfxI
sMsfr dI nfÈmfnqf vwl sMkyq krdI hoeI ieh svfl vI AuTfAuNdI hY ik kI
iksy df ies sMsfr `qy koeI sdIvI aqy pwkf itkfxf aqy sQfeI irÈqf hY
vI? ijMnHF gwzIaF ‘mohVIaF’ `qy Auh mfx krdf hY AuhnF dy huMidaF
suMidaF vI Ausny iksy idn ‘anfm goqry’, ‘anfm ipwqry’, ‘anfm sQfny’ ho
jfxf hY. jgq rfm nfm vI ies ‘jgq’ df hI ichn hY. Auh ies sMsfr qoN kUc
kr geIaF anykF-anyk pIVHIaF df pRqIinD hY ijMnHF df hux iksy nUM nf
goq pqf hY, nf sQfn aqy nf hI AuhnF dy vwz vzyiraF dI koeI jfxkfrI hY.
jy bMdy ny aMq ivwc iesqrHF hI ‘bynfm’ ho jfxf hY qF ‘jVHF’ nfl juVy
moh dy Brm nUM pflI jfx aqy Aus leI qVÌI jfx dI kI loV hY?
aqIq nfloN tuwt ky hI ies vYrfg-Bfv qoN mukqI iml skdI hY. pr ieh sfrf
kuJ bMdy dy afpxy vws ivwc vI qF nhIN. idmfÊ dy ÌYsly ËrUrI nhIN ik
idl nUM vI pRvfn hox. ikÈn lfl ipMz nfloN sucyq qOr `qy nfqf qoV lYx
df ‘aYlfn’ kridaF vI afpxy ipMz ivcly ‘KoÜy’ nUM nf vycx dI ‘GuMzI’
pfeI rwKdf hY. ies GuMzI df rhws lwBidaF gwl Pyr EQoN ÈurU krnI pY
skdI hY, ijQoN muwZ ivwc ÈurU kIqI sI. iesy AuDyV-bux ivwc hI ies
‘GuMzI’ df rhws luikaf hoieaf hY.
(:virafm isMG sMDU-905-970-1526)
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idwlI qoN pMjfb vwl BwjI
jFdI tRyn `c bYTy nUM mYnUM mihsUs ho irhf ey ik mYN afpxy jwdI ksby
Èfhpur nUM iksy tUxy dy asr hyT jf irhf hF. kdy kdy aijhI avsQf `c Ps
ky kMm krI jfx dI ksr qF mYnUM bcpn qoN ey, pr rItfier hox bfad vwD
geI ey. idwlI `c aTwqI vrHy rihMidaF sfrIaF purfxIaF iemfrqF myrIaF
dyKIaF hoeIaF ny. Pyr vI kdy mn `c acfnk GONkf ijhf AuWTdf ey. mYN
iksy vIrfn KMzr `c jf bihMdf hF. dyKdf rihMdf hF—sdIaF purfxIaF iewtF,
izwgdf cUnf - plsqr qy iksy pMCI dy Auzx nfl AuzI imwtI, qRyVF `c vsdy
kIVy …. myry sfhmxy rfijaF dy drbfr sjdy ny, POjF lMGdIaF ny. mhFXuD
huMdy ny. iBkÈU ivhfrF `c cuwp bYTy ny. ngrF `c AupdyÈ dyNdy ny. …
koeI DrqI vfhuMdf ey. hwQ hwQ QF `qy murdy pey ny. cuilHaF dI suafh
lwBdI ey jF tuwty hoey imwtI dy BFzy …
awj svyry rItfierz buwiZaF dy cFBly iewjV `c GuMmidaF sihgl aMbrsrIey
ny aYlfn kIqf sI, “bws, ÈrIPpury tur jfxf ey. imwtI bulFdI peI ey
aMbrsr dI …!”
lhOrIey mohxy ny hwsidaF afiKaf sI, “lAu, idwlI dy bdmfÈ vI ÈrIPpury
jf ky mrnf cfhuMdy ny.”
zfk bfbU Èrmf ny aOiKaF hfsf rokidaF ikhf sI, “Auey qyry nVoey iksy
nhIN jfxf AuQy. … eyQy sfrI jMÖ ZukygI.”
zI[ ky[ pfTk ny AuWcI dyxI gfieaf sI, “kbrF AuzIkdIaF, ijAuN puwqrF
nUM mfvF.” … AuhnUM ‘iPwty mUMh, lwK lfhxqF dI dfd imlI sI. pwqrkfr,
jIhdf nF mYN aksr Buwl jfdf hF, ny sVk `qy mry kuwqy vwl sYnq kridaF
ikhf sI, “nhIN—sVkF AuzIkdIaF, ijAuN kuwiqaF ….”
Gr afAuNidaF eI pqf nhIN ikAuN, mYnUM Pyr AuhI ksr ho geI sI. mYN ipMz
jfx leI bYg iqafr krn lwg ipaf sI. nUMh ny itPn iqafr kIqf sI. afpxI
moeI sws vFg myrIaF dvfeIaF bYg dI jyb `c pfeIaF sn qy inwkf puwq gwzI
cVHf igaf sI.
dupihr dI rotI Kf ky mYN ijhVI golI KfDI ey, Auhny mYnUM kuwJ inZfl
ijhf kr idwqf ey. idwsdIaF jF socF `c afAuNdIaF vsqF suÌinaF `c
iPrdIaF idwsdIaF peIaF ny. … inwkf ijhf rylvy styÈn … do ku iklomItr
df totf, pIrF df qkIaf, smfDF, bws awzf, iÈvflf, idwlI drvfËf, sfzf
jwdI Gr. ijQy qfey dy puwqr mukMdI Èfh df twbr rihMdf ey … sB kuwJ
JOlf JOlf gwzmz ho ky suMgVI qy PYlI jFdf ipaf ey. …
acfnk golI cwldI ey. qyjU dI inMm hyT bYTy huwky pINdy ikMny eI bMdy
mfry jFdy ny. afbfdI df awD sMskfrF dIaF iqafrIaF krdf ey. … myrI iewk
bFh qy iewk lwq Tfh dyxI zwby dI lwkV nfl vwjdI ey. nfl dIaF svfrIaF
mYnUM qwkdIaF ny. ijvyN mYnUM imrgI df dOrf ipaf hovy. mYN Èrmsfr ijhf
boql `coN pfxI pINdf hF.
hux afpxy ipMz jFidaF eynf zr nhIN lwgdf. awgy qF gwzI `c, bws `c, rfh
`c, Gr `c … iksy vI vyly awqvfdI dI golI mfr skdI sI. myry qfey df
Cotf puwqr ÈMkr iÈvfly `c mfr idwqf igaf sI. iswDV sI Auh. AuhnUM iÈv
jI dI bcfAux vflI ÈkqI `c ivÈvfs sI. jl cVHfAux igaf sI qVky. ÉUn cVH
igaf sI.
sUrj iCpx vflf ey. mYN inwky ijhy styÈn qy AuWqrdf hF. vfikP tFgy vfly
avfËF mfrdy ny. pr mYN bYg moZy `qy ltkfeI turI jFdf hF. hux zr qoN
lukx leI iksy dy sMg dI loV nhIN.
awDvfty srkiVaF dy Auhly ho ky pyÈfb krdf hF. cMgI lwgdI ey ieh
afËfdI. ieh tfhlIaF qy ikwkrF …. mYN aYvyN AuhnF dy nfl nfl ho ky qurI
jFdf hF. … ÈMkr ipMz dy muMizaF ny eys qrHF mfr idwqf sI ijvyN ‘dUjy
ipMz df kuwqf’ hovy. …[ pfiksqfn bxn vyly vI ievyN bMdy ipMz dy bMidaF
ny eI mfry sn. … pr AuhnF mfVy idnF `c vI mYN ikAuN afAuNdf irhf sI
ipMz? … bMdf jd mrn nyVy huMdf ey qF afpxy jwdI ipMz nUM ikAuN jfxf
cfhuMdf ey? ikAuN cfhuMdf ey ik AuhdI arQI AuhnF glIaF ivcIN lMGy,
ijQy Auh Kyizaf sI? Auhdf sMskfr Aus QF hovy, ijQy Auhdy puriKaF df
hoieaf sI?
bws awzy kol QF-QF hwtIaF bx geIaF ny. … ieh qF ipMz jf ky eI pqf
lwgygf ik ijhVy GrF nUM ijMdry mfr ky Bwj gey sn, AuhnF `coN ikMny muV
afey ny. kOx mkfn qy ËmIn vyc ky AuWjV eI igaf, pwky qOr `qy. … myrf
idl Gbrf igaf ey. mYN iÈvfly dI KUhI qoN pfxI lY ky golI KFdf hF. … kI
mYN vI eyQy mrn eI afieaf hF? … ibAu mfqf ny ikhf sI kuwJ svyry?
Gr `c cfh pI ky mYN AuT ky Es mohVI vflI QF nUM dyKdf hF, ijhVI sfzy
vwz vzyry bËurg ny ipMz bMnHx vyly prohq jI dy mMqR Aucfrn nfl gwzI
sI. nwgr KyVy dI suwK mMgI sI, juVy lokF ny. … ieh hux kuwJ inwkIaF
iewtF dI mtI ijhI ey, cUny nfl ilpI hoeI. Auqy iqMn KxF dI Cwq bxfeI
hoeI ey, zftF bIV ky. … mYN pOVIaF cVHdf hF qF iewtF qy imwtI `coN
Auho ijhI bfs afAuNdI ey, idwlI dy KMzrF vrgI.
mYN afKrI pOVI `qy Klo ky tuwty bUhy dy aMdr Jfkdf hF qF ikMny sfry
kbUqr Auz jFdy ny myry isr dy AuqoN dI. PVPVfAuNdy. aMdrly hnyry `c
sMglF nfl tMgIaF kVfhIaF ihwldIaF ny. kbUqr hux drvfËy dy aMdrly
tMgixaF `qy jf bYTy hoxgy.
mYN purfxf cubfrf Kohl ky afpxy dfdy vflI afrfm kursI JfV ky jMgly `c
zfh ky bih igaf hF. duafly dyKidaF, isgrt pINidaF kdy suwK suafd dI
qrMg AuTdI ey qy kdy duwK idl nUM Zfhux lwg pYNdf ey. ieh sfhmxf idwlI
drvfjf Zfhuxf ey kmytI ny. jd ieh nhIN rihxf Pyr nf tMgxy rihxy ny, nf
kbUqr.
jd mYN afieaf sI, hyTF lyty mukMdI dI hflq dyK nhIN sI sikaf. keI vrHy
pihlF awqvfdI AuhnUM jIp `c lwd ky lY gey sn. AudoN AuhdI Aumr pUry
swT sfl sI. AuhnUM isrP Ausy Aumr dI soJI sI. hor sB kuwJ Buwl igaf
sI. … hux Auhdf idmfg awDmiraf ipaf ey. srIr vI mrdf jFdf ey. Auhdy
koloN afp AuT nhIN huMdf. hOlI-hOlI qurdf ey. KVHIaF awKF nfl dyKdf qy
Bury-Bury Èbd boldf ey. …
jd mYN pOVI cVHn lwigaf sI—qF Auhny AuTx dI koiÈÈ kridaF puwiCaf sI,
“ikÈU, mYN qyry nfl af jF?”
qd Auhdy ÈrfbI hoey puwqr mwdI Èfh ny AuhnUM PV ky mMjy `qy bhf idwqf
sI. pr Auh iZwly mMjy ivwc Ps igaf sI. mrdy hoey jfnvr vFg hwQ pYr
mfrdf imaFkdf irhf sI. byvsI `c cuwp kr igaf sI. … ieh dyKx mYN kfhxUM
af igaf eyQy?
mYnUM pqf lwigaf ey ik mwdI bfp nUM bfhr nhIN jfx dyNdf. Auh mukMdI
Èfh df lfzlf puwqr sI. pr hux mukMdI pfgl df puwqr nhIN aKvfAuxf
cfhuMdf. …
myry sfhmxy qyjU imsqrI dI inMm ey. ijQy asIN Kyzdy huMdy sI. … qyjU
dy pwky mkfn nUM ijMdrf vijaf hoieaf ey. Auh hr pMjF sflF bfad mkfn
suafrn vlYq qoN afAuNdf sI. hux afAux jogf nhIN irhf qy Auhdy puwqrF
nUM loV nhIN.
mYN Coty BfeI dy Gr rfq df Kfxf Kf irhf hF. inwkf qy AuhdI GrvflI dwsI
jFdy ny ik ikhVf twbr muV afieaf ey qy ikhVf awDf muV afieaf. Auhdy
jIa df nuksfn ho igaf sI. jwtF dy ikhVy muMzy PVy jF mfry gey ny, Auh
sfrIaF gwlF dwsI jFdy ny. pr mYN awk igaf hF. mYN gwl moV ky idwlI
drvfËy dy Zfhux bfry puwCdf hF. - “Auh qF kwlH nUM dyK lIN qmfÈf. Zol
vwjxY. zwgf KVkxY.” Pyr Cotf BfeI kys dIaF brIkIaF dwsdf ey,” awDy lok
Zfhux vfilaF `c qy awDy rokx vfly. kys keI sflF qoN cldY. hux klH
hfeIkort df PYslf afieaf.”
“eyQy Èfmlft `c pMjvF ihwsf afpxy Kfndfn df ey.” —mYN AuhnUM dwsdf hF.
“kOx puwCdY hux …? pMj qIrQI toBy aflf sfrf QfAuN jwtF ny Dwky nfl mwl
ilaf. dukfnF pf leIaF ny.”
—mYnUM AuhdI ieh aYzy duK dI gwl CotI lwgdI ey. —asIN ijAuNdy hF, kI
ieh kfPI nhIN? —mYN socdf hF. kihx nUM jIa nhIN krdf. afpxy eI isr `c
juwqI pYNdI ey …
gwl gvfAux leI mYN rfeIaF ivhVy vfly bMqf isaflkotIey bfry puwCdf hF,
“Auh pfiksqfn nhIN igaf hfly, afpxf Gr vyKx?”
“nhIN. … kihMdf pihlF mYN aMbrsr jfxf ey, awKF bxvfAux. Pyr jf ky
vyKxf ey afpxf Gr. suixaY, isaflkot dI kmytI vfly Zuaf rhy ny myrf Gr.
isaflkot nf jfxf huMdf qF awKF kfhnUM bxvfAuNdf. mYN koeI sUeI `c Dfgf
pfAuxf ey?” inwkf dwsdf hwsdf ey.
awj idwlI drvfËf Zfieaf jfxf ey. svyr dy awT vjy ny. mYN afpxy qfey dy
Gr purfxy cubfry dy jMgly `c arfm kursI `qy bYTf isgrt pI irhf hF. eys
drvfËy `c asIN qfÈ, blOr qy Krot Kyzdy huMdy sI. bËurg vI gwpF mfrdy,
huwky pINdy rihMdy sI. —eys cubfry `c lfltyn bfl ky mYN qy mukMdI
pVHdy huMdy sI. aOh vwzI almfrI mukMdI dI huMdI sI qy CotI myrI.
asIN kdy sfhmxI inMm `qy cVH jFdy sI, qyjU cfcy dIaF gflHF Kfx nUM. …
Auhdy Gr nUM lwigaf ijMdf mYnUM qMg krdf ey. … Auh myry dfdy dI bhuq
syvf krdf huMdf sI. …
kdy-kdy myrf dfdf qfÈ dI Kyz jF huwkf ivwcy Cwz ky acfnk AuT KloNdf
sI. GoVI `qy jIn ksvfAuNdf sI qy iplkx vfly KUh `qy cilaf jFdf sI.
kdy-kdy mYN ipCy-ipCy jf rldf sI. Auh icwtI dfhVI `qy hwQ Pyrdf PslF,
KflF qy drKqF nUM dyKdf rihMdf sI. … kdy mYnUM dyK ky jF axdyiKaF eI
afK dyNdf sI … ‘eyQy, eys sMBflU dy nyVy sMskfr kirE myrf. cfr iewtF
joV idE. ijQy iplkx dI CfAuN af jfieaf krU, idn Zldy nUM.’
mYN hYrfn ho ky socdf sI ik mry bMdy nUM eys gwl df kI duwK suwK ik
AuhnUM ikQy PUikaf jfxf ey? AuhdI suafh `qy lwgIaF cfr iewtF `qy CF
afAux nfl AuhnUM kI TMZ pYxI ey?
mYijstRyt qy pulIs gfrd af geI ey. lok qmfÈf vyKx CwqF `qy Klo gey ny.
drvfËf Zfhuxf ÈurU ho igaf ey. trflIaF mlbf Zo-Zo ky iÈvfly dy mgrly
toey BrI jFdIaF ny. pRDfn hukm dyeI jFdf ey qy awT hwQ cOVI kMD ivcoN
Cy hwQ Pyr vflf ipwpl nMgf hoeI jFdf ey. AuhdIaF tfhxIaF, pwqy Gwt vwD
eI idsdy ny. aÈtfvkr ijhf Auhdf vjUd aMdry aMdr PYldf irhf ey. jVHF ny
iewtF nUM qy iewtF ny jVHF nUM vilaf hoieaf ey. … kdy vwzI iZwg izwgdI
ey qF DUV myry qk af jFdI ey. jIhdI hmk, ieho ijhI ey, ijho ijhI
sfzIaF pOVIaF `c ey jF mohVI dy Auqy peI zftF vflI Cwq hyToN afAuNdI
ey. jF kbUqrF vfly cubfry ivcoN.
izAUtI mYijstRyt qy hor srkfrI amlf cilaf igaf ey. pRDfn drvfËy dy
KVHy ihwsy `coN mMgiqaF nUM BjfAux leI AuhnF dy BFzy tINzy qy godVy
bfhr sutvf irhf ey. Auh gfhlF kwZdy qy dursIsF dyNdy awzy vl turI jFdy
ny.
drbfn vflI koTVI ivcoN ijhVy godVy kwZ ky sfzy Gr dy awgy vfly cONqry
`qy rKy ny, AuhnF ivcoN ijAUNdf bMdf liBaf ey. gory rMg dy Aus bMdy dy
keI idnF dI vDI hoeI dfVHI ey. aYnk lwgI hoeI ey. Auh pfxI pIx qoN
ienkfrI ey. AuhnUM AuzIk ey CyqI muwk jfx dIy. … mYN AuhnUM dyKx leI
lokF dI BIV `c Èfml ho igaf hF.
sfrf kMm ruk igaf ey. myrI BfbI ny cONqrf gAU dy gohy nfl ilwp idwqf
ey. mrdF ny Auhdy gMdy kpVy lfh ky pivwqr QF `qy iltf idwqf ey. dIvf
bwqI kIqI ey. ivÈnUM prohq gIqf suxf irhf ey. lokIN AuhdI pCfx kwZdy
pey ny. iblF vflI CwpVI vflf sfDU rfm hkIm dwsdf ey ik ieh qF jgq rfm
ey. Auhdy kol dvfeIaF kuwtdf Cfxdf irhf ey. Auhdy do puwqr luiDafxy
vkIl ny. pr ieh kihMdf huMdf sI ik nUMhF puwqrF df idwqf nhIN Kfxf.
AuhnF dy GrIN nhIN mrnf.
gIqf df pfT ruk igaf ey. BfbI ny kwPx pf idwqf ey. lwgdf ey ik mYN
AuhnUM dyiKaf ey ikqy … eys jF iksy hor skUl `c. iksy ny brÌ dIaF
iswlIaF mMgvf leIaF ny. grmI vwD geI ey. bfbf jogf AuhnUM sUdF dy
muMzy vjoN isafxdf ey. ijhVy hwilaF (47 dy PsfdF) qoN pihlF eI ieQoN
cly gey sn.
mrn vfly df koeI vfrs nhIN afieaf. sMskfr dI iqafrI hox lwg peI ey.
rGU pFDf af igaf ey. sIVHI bxdI peI ey. hryk vsq afpy af juVI jFdI ey.
… buwZy iksy dy ieMj lfvfrs mrn vfilaF dIaf gwlF krdy pey ny. ËnfnIaF
roNdIaF, hwsdIaF qy mÈkrIaF krdIaF ny. lfÈ duafly Kloqy nHfeI DoeI krf
cuky mrdF nUM vfr-vfr kihMdIaF ny, “hux lY clo BfeI, idn qF cwilaf.”
pRDfn nUM iehdy nfl drvfËf Zfhux df kMm mukfAux dI vI kfhl ey. Auh
bMidaF nUM kMm cflU rwKx leI vI GUrI jFdf ey qy kdy myry kol af ky afK
jFdf ey— “eys kOm df kI bxU bfbU ikÈn lfl? lok cMd `qy cVH gy ….”
cwko cwkI ho geI ey. cwkx vfly cfr jvfn kfnHI muskVIaF hwsdy ny. ikMny
eI lok mgr qury ny. ijvyN jrg dy myly cwly hox. eyny bMdy qF nMbrdfrF
dy buVHy mgr vI nhIN sn qury.
iqMn moVF qy ipMz—CuzfeI huMdI ey pihlF gurduafry qy Pyr mMdr mUhry
isr nIvF kIqf jFdf ey. … qIjf moV muVidaF eI myrf BfeI myry nyVy ho ky
hOlI dyxI puwCdf ey, “bIr, jy khyN qF nIry aflf Kolf byc deIey? cMgI
rkm imldI aY.”
“socUMgf.” afK ky mYN awgy jFdy afpxy jmfqI iqlkU gosfeIN dy moZy `qy
hwQ rwK ky puwCdf hf, “kI krdYN … awj kwlH?”
“pitafly ijEiqÈ kfirafilaY. … qUM suxf … aYQy ËmIn vycx afieaYN jF
AUeIN gRih Dwk ilafey ny?” afK ky Auh muskrfAuNdf ey qy cfr khfrF dy
moiZaF `qy svfr ho ky jfx vfly vwl ieÈfrf krdf ey.
“ieh afpxI mrËI nfl QoVHy afieaY eyQy. iehnUM gRih iKwc ilafey ny. …
ieh koTVI sYNkVy sfl pihlF iehdy aMqm sfh lYx nUM bxfeI geI sI. … afpF
vI eyQy hI afAuxY, smyN isr.” Auh hwsdf ey, “afqmf df afnMd, pfrbRhm
`c lIn hoxf. … qUM kI jfxy, KwqrI puwqrm. … ijvyN bMdy dI kuMzlI huMdI
aY, AuvyN GrF, sQfnF, ipMzF, ÈihrF dIaF vI kuMzlIaF huMdIaF ny. pqf
nhIN ikhVf gRih iKwc ky ikQy lY jFdY bMdy nUM. … kuC imwtI iKwcdI aY
qy kuC gRih Dwkdy ny.”
ÈmÈfn Gft `c bhuq BIV ey. hr ÈYa iqafr peI ey. … lfKf BMgI cfkU nfl
rwsIaF kwtdf ey. rGU pFDf sfrIaF Dfrimk rIqF inBfAuNdf ey. anfQ afÈrm
df bRhmcfrI, jIhny kdy afpxf bfp nhIN dyiKaf, lFbU lfAuNdf ey. kpfl
ikiraf kr ky bFs vgfh mfrdf ey murdy dy AuqoN dI.
rGU pfDf mrn vfly dy nklI puwqr bRhmcfrI nUM bhf ky afÉrI ipMz Auhdy
hwQF `qy Dr ky— ‘jgq rfmy, anfm goqry, anfm ipwqry, anfm sQfny’ —afK
ky ipMz Cuzf dyNdf ey.
lok muVn qoN pihlF rGU pFDy qoN Puwl cugx qy ikiraf krn dI iqQ suxn
leI bYTdy ny qF iqMn cfr kfrF af jFdIaF ny. Auh mrn vfly dy puwq poqy
qy sfk ny. … cuwp bYTIaF ËnfnIaF Klo ky AunHF vwl mUMh kr ky kIrny
pfAux lwg pYNdIaF ny. ijvyN Auh mrn vfly nUM nhIN Auhdy vfrsF nUM
roNdIaF ny. keI buwZIaF AuhnF suhxy kwpiVaF vfilaF dIaF kUhxIaF PV-PV
puwCdIaF ny, “ikAuN BfeI, ieh Qozf bfp qf?”
Auh cuwp ny sfry. hwQ joVI Kloqy ny. vwzf notF dIaF QwdIaF leI iPrdf
ey, iksy nUM vI PVfAux leI. … eyny myly ivwc kuwJ pqf nhIN cldf ik kI
hoieaf ey? kIhny kI kIqf ey?
sB nHf Do ky muVy jFdy pey ny. sB qoN pihlF rGU pFDf lMGdf ey. jIhny
iksy qoN kuwJ vI ley ibnF ieh kfrj jIvn Br inBfAux df sMklp kIqf
hoieaf ey. Auh msqI `c turdf ey. iksy dI gwzI `c nhIN bihMdf.
cfnxI rfq ey. pRDfn ny drvfËf pUrf Zuhf ilaf ey. ivcoN swp inkly ny.
skUl vyly dyKy swpF dIaf gwlF dwsx mukMdI myry kol afAux nUM qrly
lYNdf ey. AuhqoN pOVIaF nhIN ciVHaf jFdf. …
aKIr myrf Cotf Brf af ky ËmIn dy vDy Bfa dwsdf ey. mYN suxdf hF, pr
ijvyN myrI idlcspI plo-pl GtdI jFdI ey. … Cotf BfeI aKIr `c puwCdf ey,
“Pyr bIr … nIry aflf Kolf?”
mYN nINd df bhfnf krdf kihMdf hF ik svyry jfx qoN pihlF dwsFgf? … Auh
cuwp ey. mukMdI mYnUM vfjF mfrI jFdf ey, ‘ikÈU-ikÈU—ikÈU’. mYnUM lwgdf
ey … Auh avfËF mohVI vflI zftF vflI Cwq hyToN, pOVIaF ivcoN, kbUqrF dy
tMgixaF `coN qy ZwTy idwlI drvfËy ivcoN af rhIaF ny. ijQy vfr-vfr rGU
pFDf dy Aucfry mMqrF dy bol suxINdy ny ‘anfm goqry’ ‘anfm ipwqry,
‘anfm sQfny.’
mYnUM pqf ey ik eys drvfËy ny iksy idn afp eI izwg pYxf sI. mlby hyT
pqf nhIN ikMny jIa imDy jfxy sn. Pyr vI myrf idl krdf ey ik pRDfn nUM
afKF—koeI iewk qF inÈfnI rwK lE afpxy puriKaF dI. BfvyN Auh sfzy jfqI
goqI hox jF nf hox.
svyry Cotf mYnUM gwzI cVHfAux afAuNdf ey. Auh iJjkdf hoieaf Pyr AuhI
svfl puwCdf ey? … mYN gwzI `c bYTf AuhnUM plytPfrm qy KVHy nUM dwsdf
hF, “ieh ipMz afpxy bËurgF ny vsfieaf sI. … hux eyQy myrI ËmIn nhIN
rhI … ieh KoÜf rK ky mYN kI krnY? qUM sFB lY. mYN ilK ky Byj idaFgf
muÉqfrnfmf. pr mYN vycxf nhIN.”
myry bolidaF gwzI tur peI ey. mYnUM lwgdf ey ijvyN eys vfr myry sfry
moh tuwt gey ny … eys ksby nfl. GrF nfl. glIaF nfl. DrqI qy KoiÜaF
nfl—Auhdy nfl vI, jIhnUM ÉUn df irÈqf afKdy ny. … pr mYnUM ieh smJ
nhIN pYNdI ik KoÜf ‘nf vycx’ dI GuMzI pfAux dI mYnUM kI loV peI sI? …
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