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awj hom izpo qoN Gr leI cUhfdfnI KrIdidaF iÉafl cUihaF vwl cly igaf. ies qoN pihlF mYN kdy cUihaF bfry ieqnf GoKI nhIN sI hoieaf. vYsy vI cUhf, Kfs qOr `qy GrylU cUhf ieqnI mhwqqf nhIN rwKdf. Gr dIaF cIjF vsqF ivwc vI AusdI koeI gOlxXog QF nhIN huMdI ijMnI Gr dy hor pflqU jF hor jIvF dI huMdI hY. pflqUaF nUM asIN pfldy hF aqy bfkIaF nUM rwb pfÜdf hY. pflqUaF ivwc kuwiqaF, ibwlIaF, ClfrUaF, qoiqaF, KrgoÈF, rbV dy bfivaF aqy AuWn dy tYzI ibarF aqy Gr dy PrÈ AuWqy clx vfly hvfeI jhfjF qoN ielfvf iewk jF do nMny muMny bwcy vI huMdy hn. Gr ivwc Gr dy hI iksy jIv dy afgiRh `qy iehnF dI Gr ivwc Kfs QF huMdI hY. iehnF ivcoN kuwqy df bwcf ijsnUM zOgI ikhf jFdf hY afpxy blbUqy `qy Gr ivwc sB qoN vwD QF lY lYNdf hY. Auh huxy kdy iewk bwcy dy hwQ ivwc Kfx vflI cIË Kohx dy aflm ivwc huMdf hY aqy dUjy iKx iqMn sflf guwzI dy gozy nfl mUMh lf ky Aus qoN nfnI qoN ipCly rfq dI suxI khfxI sux irhf huMdf hY.
pr ieh kMm vI Aus nUM inrf sMsfrI lgdf hY aqy iPr Auh afqimk suwK leI ibsqiraF aqy kdy iewk nukr ivwc rKy kpiVaF ivcoN afpxy qoN iksy vwzy jMgÜI jfnvr dy iÈkfr dy imlx dI afs ivwc Prolf ProlI kr irhf ies kMm ivwc afpxy igwly nwk df Kfs pRXog kr irhf huMdf hY. cUhf ivcfrf ibwlI, kuwqy aqy Gr dy lgBwg sB jIaF qoN zrdf afpxI Kwl aqy jfq lukfeI iPrdf hY. keI vfr Aus koloN AusdI lukx XogI QF vI Koh leI jFdI hY. ÉYr Aus kol Gr dy hor jIvF vFg ijMdgI nUM afpxy aMdfË ivwc jIx aqy mfnx leI sQfn dy nfl nfl smF vI bhuq Gwt huMdf hY. jd inafxy skUl huMdy hn, jF nfnI dI god ivwc sON jFdy hn, jd Gr dI mflkx guafZx nfl bfhr glIN pY jFdI hY aqy gwl dy Gor aMdr pRvyÈ kr jFdI hY qF msF ikwDry cUhy nUM afpxI mfnsk aqy srIrk spys imldI hY.
pflqUaF nfl myrI ieqnI nhIN bxdI. aksr iehnF dI dyK Bfl ivwc mYN kMnI kqrf jFdf hF. iewk vfr cfcf jfxI myrf ipE myrI izAUtI lf ky vFZy cly gey ik ipCoN mYN ikwly bMnI mwJ nUM iewk do vfr pwTy ËrUr pf dyvF aqy nfly bwTl ivwc bfltI nfl pfxI Br ky ipaf dyvF. KYr pwTy aqy pfxI leI ikDry dUr nhIN sI jfxf, ieh dovyN cIËF df Auh pUrf ieMqËfm kr ky gey sn aqy pfxI sVuwpy mfr ky pIxf vI mwJ ny afp hI sI. jdoN dUsry idn ipqf jI Gr afey qF mwJ pfxI aqy Gfa bfJoN mrn iknfry hoeI peI sI. mYnUM pqf hY cfcy horIN guwsy qF afvwÈ hoey hoxgy pr AuhnF ny afpxf guwsf Ëfhr nhIN sI kIqf. guwsf aqy cfcf Èfied hI kdy myry leI iekwTy hoey hox.
iPr nOkrI leI aqy nOkrI dI nws-Bwj df cwkr ajyhf cwilaf ik syvf-invrqI qIk lgfqfr cldf hI irhf. kdy Éqm hox qy nhIN afieaf. syvf ivrqI ipwCoN sgoN iesy cwkr ivcoN iewk hor iÈÈU ny jnm lY ilaf ies ny hor vI qyËI nfl irVxf ÈurU kr idwqf. ÉYr nokrI vyly hI iewk vfr cMzIgVH rihMidaF bwicaF dy khy khfey iewk kuwqf (asl ivwc kuwqI ikAuNuik pflqU kuwqI leI vI iÈÈtfcfr vjoN hmyÈf Èbd kuwqf hI vriqaf jFdf hY ijvyN bytI leI Èbd bytf) pflx df pMgf ËrUr ilaf sI. ies kuwqy df nFa vI iÈÈtfcfr vjoN bwicaF ny mrdfvF arQfq ‘ÈYrÌ’ riKaf hoieaf sI.
ÈYrP dI cfl Zfl aqy rihxI bihxI vI iPlmI adfkfrF vflI hI sI. Auh dyr nfl sONdf aqy dyr nfl AuWTdf sI. iPr kuwJ icr alsfieaf hoieaf afpxy afsx `qy bYTf rihMdf sI, ies AuzIk ivwc ik koeI Aus nUM ipafr nfl bulfeygf aqy duwD ipafeygf. sfzy Gr ivwc Aus smyN ÈYrP qoN ibMnf ipafr nfl duwD ipafey jfx dI AuzIk krn vflf koeI nhIN sI. sB cfh dy ÈOkIn sn jF duwD nf pIx dy. ÈYrÌ nUM GumfAux iPrfAux dI juMmyvfrI vI myrI sI BfvyN jd pflqU kuwqy dy rKx dI gwl Gr ivwc cwlI sI qF ies dI juMmyvfrI sfzy sfiraF bwicaF Bfv bwcIaF ny leI sI. kuwqy nUM klpnfqimk aqy aigafq iÈkfr vwl dOVx dI afdq huMdI hY aqy sfzy vrgy bfbUaF nUM hLOlI hOlI clx dI. so ÈYrP nfl mYnUM vI dOVxf pYNdf ikAuNik Aus dI kuwqf cyn myry hwQ ivwc huMdI sI. BfvyN huMdf Auh hmyÈf myry qoN awgy hI sI. ies qrF dOV irhf Auh ievyN jfpdf sI ijvyN mYnUM cyn pf ky dOVf irhf hovy.
sfzy Gr ivwc jd vI koeI mihmfn afAuNdf qF Aus nUM ies kuwqy nfl ËrUr imlfieaf jFdf. pr ÈYrP nUM mihmfn Gwt hI psMd sn. jF ho skdf hY Aus dI iehL byadbI adfa mihË nftkI hovy aqy iksy iPlmI sIn dI irhrsl, ikAuNik jykr Aus nUM koeI mihmfn psMd af jfvy qF Auh sfnUM nfpsMd krn lwg pYNdf. ÈYrÌ dy nwÉry sfnUM sB nUM Aus leI dOV-Bwj ivwc lfeI rKdy. mYnUM qF dyr svyr mIt dI dukfnF qy vI mihË Aus dI mihmfn pursI Éfqr jfxf pYNdf. bwcIaF sn ik Auh afpxI mrËI nfl hI jdoN cfhuMdIaF Aus nfl Kyz lYNdIaF aqy iPr AuhnF leI ieh kmry dy kony ivwc suwitaf tyzI byar bx jFdf. kuwJ sflF bfad jdoN sYrÌ ny kqUry idwqy qF iehnF ivcoN ieknUM rK ky asIN ÈYrÌ iksy Pfrm hfAUs dy mflk nUM dy idwqf.
hwQ ivwc PVI kiVwkI mYnUM iPr cUhy vwl lY afeI hY. kihMdy hn ik cUhf mnuwK df sB qoN purfxf doDfDfrI sfQI hY. mnuwK dI ijMdgI ivwc kuwqf aqy GoVf bhuq bfad ivwc afey hn. iPr cUhy ny mnuwK ijMnIaF blik Aus qoN vI vwD musIbqF JwlIaF hn. iesy krky mnuwK leI koeI dvfeI afid bnfAux leI pihlF iesdf pRXog cUhy Auqy kIqf jFdf hY. ÉYr ies df iewk kfrx qF ieh vI hY ik mnuwK dI jgfh cUhf vwD afsfnI nfl iml jFdf hY. ieh dUjI gwl hY ik mnuwK nUM KfhmKfh mUMh idKfx dI afdq huMdI hY aqy cUhy dI mUMh idKfeI leI keI pfpV vylxy pYNdy hn. iehnF ivcoN hI iewk pfpV cUhfdfnI df hY pr ies df pRXog keI vfr cUhy leI aiq Gfqk sfbq ho skdf hY ijs nUM iDafn ivwc rK ky hI iksy ny cUhfdfnI dI kfZ kwZI hovygI ijs nUM asIN kiVwkI vI afKdy hF aqy aMgryjLI ivwc mfAUsstrYp.
pr hux ivigafnIaF ny vI cUhy nUM KUb pCfixaf hY. kihMdy hn ik cUhy dy 80% jInË mnuwK nfl imldy hn. cUhf 9 kroV sflF qoN mnuwK dI sMgq krdf af irhf hY. cUhy nUM mnuwK qoN bfad DrqI df sB qoN purfxf duwD nfl bwcy pflx vflf jfnvr grdfinaf hY. ikhf jFdf hY ik ieh kuwqy qoN vI pihlF mnuwK dI sMgq krdf af irhf hY. ÈfÈqrF ivwc DrqI Kuwd ies dI pUjf krdI dwsI geI hY. ieh vI ikhf igaf hY ik cUhy ivwc sfrIaF AulMGxfvF ivcoN bwc ny inkl jfx dI ÈkqI huMdI hY. pr ajkwl df cUhf mhfrfj nUM kiVwkI df srfp lg igaf jfpdf hY.
pr kI cUhf isrP cUhfdfnI leI hI bixaf hY? aflmI ieiqhfs ivwc qF pqf nhIN cUhy df kI sQfn bxdf hY ijhVf Ëfhr hY Aus nUM hux qIk nhIN imilaf hoxf, pr BfrqI imiQhfs ivwc cUhy dI hmyÈf bVI cVHq rhI hY. ieh kyvl gnyÈ df vfhn hI nhIN Kud DrqI leI vI ieh pUjk dwisaf igaf hY. kihMdy hn ik cUhy dI ies dI cox ipwCy ies df hr muÈikl ivcoN sPlqf nfl guËr jfx df gux hY.
jykr asIN dUsry avqfrF vwl nËr dOVfeIey qF AuhnF dIaF svfrIaF ieqnIaF idlcsp aqy qrk sMgq nhIN jfpdIaF. msln hvf df vfhn cIqf sI. vYsy qF hvf afpxy afp ivwc hI qyËrÌqfr hY. asIN vyKdy hF ik keI vfrI ieh GoVy nfloN vI vwD qyË vgx lg pYNdI hY. so cIqy dI cox ivwc cUhy dI cox ijMnf dMm nhIN afiKaf jf skdf. iesy qrHF dI sFJI gl mwJ dI ijhVI Xm dI svfrI hY, Koqy dI ijhVf agnI dI svfrI hY, ÈyÈnfg dI ijhVf iÈv df afsx hY, hMs dI ijhVf dyvI srsvqI df vfhn hY, grV ijhVf ivÈnU df vfhn hY, qoqf ijhVf kfmdyv df vfhn ikhf igaf hY aqy kCUkuMmf ijhVf ipRQvIN df vfhn hY, bfry afKI jf skdI hY. suixaf hY ik bIkfnyr ivwc cUihaF df iewk mMdr vI hY ijwQy lok cUihaF nUM duwD iplfAuNdy hn. ies mMdr df nFa krnImfqf hY. ikhf jFdf hY ik ies mMdr ivwc keI hËfr cUhy rihMdy hn.
cUhy df ipMjrf ajy myry hwQ ivwc hI sI pr mYN hom izpo ivcoN bfhr inkl afieaf sF. bfhr alsfeI hoeI srd hvf sI, ijhVI kuwJ ku huxy peIaF ikxIaF nfl igwlI jfp rhI sI. mYN TMzk ivwc iPr vfips af igaf sF. vYstvuwzmfl bws trmInl vwl jFdy hoey myrI nËr rMgbrMgy kbUqrF `qy peI ijhVy lokF vloN AuhnF leI suwty dfxy cug rhy sn. sYNkVy kbUqrF df ieMJ iekwTy ho ky sFJf cogf cugxf mYnUM qrMgq kr igaf. iehnF nUM ies qrHF isr nfl isr joV ky cogf cugidaF vyK ijhVI gwl mYnUM mfnsk qOr `qy qMg krdI hY Auh ieh hY ik iehnF leI pfieaf cogf aksr smuMdrI bwqÉF Bfv sIagwlË Kf jFdIaF hn. iehnF nfloN vwzIaF aqy zfZIaF hox krky Auh sfrI cogf-QF mwl lYNdIaF hn. mYnUM keI vrHy pihlF lMzn siQq trPflgr sukyar dy kbUqr Xfd af gey ijhnF nfl Poto iKcfAux leI AuWQy keI pyÈvfrfnf PotogrfPr vI gfhkF dI Bfl ivwc iml jFdy hn. ieh kbUqr ieqny sIl sn ik quhfzy moiZaF AuWqy vI inJwk bYT jFdy hn. keI kuVIaF qF iehnF nUM afpxI ihwk nfl vI Guwt lYNdIaF. AuhnF dI aqy kbUqrF dI iewk dUjy dy nyVy hox dI iJjk iekwiTaF hI dUr ho jFdI. kihMdy hn ik pMCIaF kol ajyhI idRÈtI huMdI hY ik Auh quhfzIaf awKF vyKidaF hI pCfx jFdy hn ik qusIN AuhnF dy iÈkfrI ho jF dosq. mYnUM pitafly vflf Auh hlvfeI Xfd af irhf hY ijhVf afpxI dukfn ivcoN hr svyr pMCIaF leI kuwJ nf kuwJ lY ky sfeIkl `qy apr mfl dy nfl dI suMnI sVk qy inkl pYNdf sI aqy kuwJ ku coxvIaF QfvF qy Klo ky pMCIaF nUM swdx leI sfeIkl dI GMtI mfrdf huMdf sI aqy GMtI dI avfË suxidaF hI bhuq sfrIaF icVIaF Aus dy lwzUaF vfly jF ajyhy svfdI cogy leI Aus dy sfeIkl Audfly AuWzx lg pYNdIaF sn. kuwJ ku qF Ausdy sfeIkl dI mUhrlI bfr, hYNzl aqy Aus dI pgVI aqy moiZaF AuWqy vI bYT jFdIaF sn. ieh nËfrf mYN iewk vfr bhuq svwKqy sYr kridaF vyiKaf sI.
so mYN cUihaF dI hnHyrI aqy Kuwzdfr dunIaF ivcoN inkl kbUqrF dI vicwqr dunIaF ivwc af igaf sF. pqf nhIN ikAuN mYnUM Auh cIjF aqy jIv aiDk cMgy aqy afpxy afpxy lgdy hn ijhVy pMjfb idaF ipMzF ivwc vI huMdy hn aqy ieQy vI ijhnF ivcoN kbUqr Kfs qOr qy myry leI iKwc rKdf hY. Auh pMjfb vFg ieQy vI gol mtol afpxI dunIaF ivwc guMm hoieaf rihMdf hY. mYN iewk vfr ajyhy kbUqrF qy iewk nËm ilKI sI, ‘rylvy plytPfrm dy kbUqr’ ijs dIaF kuwJ ku sqrF ievyN hn:
kbUqrF dI ijMdgI df mUl
vrqfrf AuWQy bYTy rihxf sI
AUNGxf, hnHyry nUM suMGxf
afpxIaF cuMJF nfl afpxI hoNd
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Auh hnHyry nUM kuwJ nf kihMdy
eysy ivcoN rOÈnI nUM vwK krdy
DUeyN nUM afpxIaF awKF nfl htfAuNdy
ieMJ Auh afpxI
kdy vI Éqm nf hox vflI
mjils lfAuNdy
afpxy hwQ ivwc pkVI cUhf kiVwkI qoN mYnUM pMjfbI ipMzF ivwc GrF ivwc rKy cUihaF dy ipMjiraF dI Xfd af geI hY. ies nfl mYnUM ies gwl dI vI smJ pY geI hY ik pMjfb ivwc kiVwkIaF dI QF ipMjry ikAuN rKy jFdy sn. Auh cUihaF nUM mfrnf nhIN AuhnF nUM pkV ky GroN bfhr KyqF ivwc Cwz afAuxf psMd krdy sn. ipMzF idaF lokF nUM pqf huMdf hY ik cUhy, swp afid mnwKI jIvF leI guxkfrI Buimkf inBfAuNdy hn. swp aqy cUhy DrqI nUM polf krdy hn aqy ies qrHF vfhuxXog. pMCIaF aqy cUhy dy ipMjry ivwc Ìrk kyvl ieqnf huMdf hY ik ijwQy pMCI bfhroN pkV ky ies ivwc pflx leI ÈOk vjoN rKy jFdy sn qF AuWQy cUhy df ipMjrf bxfieaf hI ies qrHF jFdf hY ik ies ivwc rwKI rotI Kfx leI jd Auh ies dy mUMh ivwc pYr rKdf hY qF ieh mUMh Jwt bMd ho jFdf hY aqy cUhf ipMjry ivwc kYd ho jFdf hY.
kuiVwkI dI ieËfd sLihrI lokF ny kIqI jfpdI hY ijhnF nUM cUihaF afid ivwc koeI gux nhIN sfry aOgux hI aOgux nËr afAuNdy hn. Auh iehnF nUM AuWkf mfrx ivwc hI idlcspI rKdy hn. so ipMjrf afjokI siBawqf dI invyklI pihcfx hY. ies dI kfZ swpF, cUihaF, qoiqaF, kbUqrF aqy icVIaF qoN lY ky ÈyrF, cIiqaF, hfQIaF aqy mnuwKF nUM kYd krn jF pflqU bnfAux leI kIqI geI hY. bhuqI vyr ipMjrf kuiVwkI df rUp Dfrx kr lYNdf hY. dYNq nUM ipMjry ivwc pfAux dI gwl sfzIaF pRfcIn khfxIaF ivwc aMkq hY. keI kvIaF aqy icMqkF ny qF mnuwKI ijMdgI dI vI ipMjry nfl qulnf kIqI hY. pr ieh vI swc hY ik iewk kYd quhfzy bfhr huMdI hY aqy iewk quhfzy aMdr. aMdrly ipMjry qF kdy kdy hI KuwlHdy hn aqy bhuqI vyr qF iehnF dI cfbI hI gafc geI huMdI hY.
mnuwKF, pMKIaF aqy jfnvrF dI ijMdgI afpo afpxy aflHxy qoN ipMjry qIk aqy jF iPr ipMjry qoN aflHxy qIk puwjx dI Xfqnf dI khfxI hY. pr mnuwKF, jfnvrF aqy pMCIaF ny ijMdgI nUM sfD ilaf hY. Auh mOsmI, BUgolkI, smfjI aqy mfnisk vfqfvfrx anusfr afpxI ijMdgI nUM Zfl lYNdy hn. kuwJ pÈLUaF, mnuwKF, pMCIaF aqy hor jIvF ivwc ieh gux vwD huMdf hY. pflqUaF ivwc ajyhy guxF dI loV huMdI hY. kuwJ ieknF ivwc iehnF dI QoV huMdI hY. msln kuwqf, ÉrgoÈ, mymxf, ClfrU, ibwlI, GoVf, gDf, gAU, bYl, AUT, mwJ, kuwkV, sUr, bwqÉ afid ivwc ieh gux vwD huMdy hn. pr GrF ivwc mihË sOk leI rKy pflqUaF ivwc aksr kwd kfT ivwc CoitaF nUM hI psMd kIqf jFdf hY ijvyN ipwlf, blUMgVf, KrgoÈ, qoqf, kbUqr ijhnF nUM qusIN godI lY ky ipafr kr skdy ho. vYsy ijwQoN qIk pflx vfly jIvF dI gwl hY kuwJ lok qF ÈOk vjoN swpF, mgrmwCF, zOliPnF, bfjF, hMsF, sfrsF, ÈyrF, cIiqaF aqy dirafeI GoiVaF nM vI pfl lYNdy hn. stynbYWk dI iewk khfxI ivwc iewk kuVI swp nUM pflx df juMmf lYN lYNdI hY. Auh hr hÌqy Aus leI Kfx pdfrQ lY ky jIv jMqUaF vflI dukfn `qy phuMc jFdI hY. Aus nUM swp df Aus rfhIN ilaFdy iÈkfr df Kfxf awCf lgdf hY.
‘brzmYn afP aYlkftrfj’ L aqy ‘aYskyp Prfm aYlkftrfË’ amrIkf siQq ieko ijhl bfry do swcIaF khfxIaF qy aDfrq iPlmF hn. iehnF dohF ivwc (iek ivwc gutfr aqy dUjI ivwc cUhf) iekwlqf Bog rhy kYdIaF ivwc ipafr puMgrn df vsIlf bxdy hn. ‘brzmYn’ iPlm ivwc rObrt strfAUz dI BUimkf ivwc brt lYNkfstr ÈFqmhfsfgr dy inwky ijhy jËIry ivwc siQq Éqrnfk kYdIaF leI bxfeI aYlkftrfj ijhl ivwc afjIvn kYdI hY. iewk idn jd Auh bhuq AudfsI dI pkV ivwc huMdf hY qF iewk ËÉmI gutfr Aus dy kmry ivwc iksy qrHF af jFdI hY. Auh iesdf ielfj krdf hY aqy Aus nUM jIvn bÉÈ idMdf hY. hux ieh pMCI Aus nUM Cwz ky ikDry nhIN jFdf. ieQoN ies kYdI nUM pMCIaF ivwc idlcspI ho jFdI hY aqy Auh iehnF bfry pUrI jfxkfrI iekwqr krn AuprMq iehnF dy ielfj leI mnËUrI imlx `qy ijhl ivwc hI pMCI hspqfl KolH idMdf hY. iesy qrHF ‘aYskyp’ ivwc iewk kYdI afpxI iekwlqf qoN bcx leI hrdm afpxy kol iewk cUhf rKdf hY ikAuNik ijhl ivwc rvfieqI pflqU rKx dI mnfhI huMdI hY aqy Auh cUhy nUM vfrzF dI nËr qoN bcfAux leI hrdm afpxI jyb ivwc rKdf hY.
mYnUM stynbYk dy hI iewk hor nfvl dI Xfd vI af rhI hY ijs df nFa hY ‘afP mfeIs aYNz mYWn’. ies df hIro lYnI hY ijhVf afpxy kot dI jyb ivwc iewk cUhf rKdf hY. Auh ies nfl Kyzdf hY aqy eysy nUM afpxy supny suxfAuNdf hY. Auh afp BfvyN Bfrf Brkm, susq, Kurdrf, kmaklf, boJl aqy lmZINgÜ hY pr Auh sfdf aqy mulfiem cIËF nUM ipafr krdf hY, aOrqF dy mÉmlI ilbfsF aqy vflF nUM. Auh ieh nhIN jfxdf ik Aus dy duÈmx Aus df lgfqfr ipCf kr rhy hn. iewk qrHF nfl Aus dI ieh siQqI dwKxI amrIkI nfvilst mfrkueyË dy nfvl ‘ey mrzr kiraOnIkl Portolz’ vFg hY. lYnI df supnf iewk ajyhy Pfrm hfAUs dI isrjxf hY ijs ivwc kuwkV kukVIaF hoxgy, KrgoÈ hoxgy, ByzF dy bwcy hoxgy. Auh iehnF dI sMgq ivwc Puwl Augfeygf, iqqlIaF pflygf aqy mwCIaF vI. pr lYnI nhIN jfxdf ik Aus df ieh supnf kdy pUrf nhIN hox vflf. pr Aus dy sfQI rObrt nUM ijhVf Aus nUM Ausdy supny qIk puhuMcfx leI qqpr hY lYnI dy duÈmx sfP nËr af rhy hn ijhVy kdy vI Aus df ieh supnf sdf leI Aus koloN Koh lYxgy. Aus df imwqr jfrj jd vyKdf hY ik ajyhI GVI afx phuMcI hY qF Auh Kuwd afp lYnI nUM jd Auh ajyhy supny nUM afpxy imwqr nfl sFJf kr irhf huMdf hY golI mfr ky Aus dy supny nUM mfxo Aus dIaF awKF ivwc hI sdf leI XwK kr idMdf hY.
myry hwQ ivwc pkVI kuiVwkI ny mYnUM iPr cUihaF dI dunIaF vwl lY aFdf hY aqy GrF dI dunIaF vwl. Gr `coN inkl ky hux ieh myry mn ivwc dOVny ÈurU ho gey hn. swcmuwc hI cUhy mhfrfj nUM kiVwkI df srfp lg igaf jfpdf hY. Kfs qOr qy GrF idaF cUihaF nUM. bfhr dy cUihaF df vfh qF iksfnF, kuwiqaF, iewlF, igwdVIaF aqy swpF nfl pYNdf hY pr Gr dy cUihaF df aiDkqr vfh jF ibwlIaF nfl pYNdf hY jF pqnIaF nfl ijhVIaF cUihaF vFg aiDkqr Gr ivwc hI rihMdIaF hn. cUhy mYnUM iewk pflqU dy qOr qy kdy vI nhIN Bfey. myrI pqnI nUM qF AuWkf hI nhIN BfAuNdy. ipCy cMzIgVH aqy iPr mohflI rihMidaF Auh jd Gr ivwc koeI cUhf vyKdI sI qF Auh Aus dy mgr JfVU, sotf aqy cwpl lY ky pY jFdI sI. Auh ies kMm ivwc aksr afpxIaF DIaF aqy juafeIaF nUM vI jykr Auh Aus idn AuWQy afey hox lf lYNdI sI. iPr ijwQy cUhf Aus ny jF iksy ny CuwpidaF vyiKaf hovy Aus QF dI vI cUhy dy nfl hI Èfmq af jFdI sI. sfry kpVy lIiVaF vfly trMk, pVCwqIaF, almfrIaF, BFzy, rsoeI dI tFt, dIvfnF ivwc krIny nfl rwKIaF rjfeIaF, Kys aqy cfdrF, KfD pdfrQF vfly zwby, tokrIaF, bYWzF dy nIcy vlIaF QfvF gwl kI hr Auh QF ijwQy cUhf asfnI jF kuwJ ku byarfmI nfl luk skdf hY Auh sfrIaF Prol idwqIaF jFdIaF sn. Gr ievyN lgx lwg pYNdf sI ijvyN huxy huxy koeI axjfx cor corI krky igaf hovy. vYsy cUhy ipwCy ibwlIaF vI burI qrHF peIaF hoeIaF hn. pr cUhy hn ik afpxf sfrf Kfx pIx df kMm luk iCp ky hI pUrf krdy hn.
iksy cUhy nUM iDafn nfl voKo qF pqf lgdf hY ik cUhf drasl sfrI mnuwKI ijMdgI dy Byd sFBI bYTf hY. iewk vfr jMgl df rfjf Èyr iksy iÈkfrI dy jfl ivwc Ps igaf. AuDroN cUhf mhfrfj pDfr rhy sn, hmyÈf vFg afpxI pUC nUM AuWcI cuwk ky. Èyr ny slfm mfrI. cUhy ny Èyr nUM ikhf ik jnfb myry lfiek koeI syvf hY qF dwso, mYN isrP ibwlI nUM hI nhIN mfr skdf. Èyr ny ikhf ik nhIN ibwlI myrI nsl ivcoN hY. myrI qF isrP ieqnI bynqI hY ik qUM ieh jfl kuwqr dy. cUhy ny Jwt Aus dI gwl mMn leI aqy ies qrHF Èyr dI jfn bwc geI.
cUhf Èyr dI jfn qF bcf skdf hY pr afpxI nhIN. afpxI jfn Auh hmyÈf afpxI hQylI qy rKdf hY. cUhf cusq clfk huMdf hY, ies ivwc koeI Èwk nhIN. ijvyN clfk kF ny pfxI dy gIty GVy ivwc pfky pfxI nUM afpxI cuMJ qIk kr ky pI ilaf sI iesy qrHF Auh vI Kuwly rih gey mrqbfn ivcoN sIrf afpxI lMmI pUC nfl lbyV ky mrqbfn dy kMZy `qy bYT mOj nfl Kf skdf hY. cUhy nUM pqf huMdf hY ik pUC iks kMm afAuNdI hY aqy dMd iks kMm. pr bhuqI vyr Auh afpxy dMdF dI ksrq Kfqr hI ikqfbF kuqr jFdf hY. Aus nUM pqf huMdf hY ik ikqfbF nf Kfx leI svfdI huMdIaF hn aqy nf afpfqkflIn dÈf ivwc lukx dy kMm hI af skdIaF hn.
hux iPr kVwkI vwl afAuNdy hF. ies dI ËrUrq acfnk hI pYdf ho geI sI. gwl ieh hoeI ik iewk idn sfzy koloN bfhr df jflI vflf drvfjf KuwlHf rih igaf. agly drvfjy ivwc QuhVI ijhI ivrl sI. msF inwky afkfr dI cUhI dy lMGx ijMnI. so jd Gr ivwc iewk cUhI ny crn pfey qF ies dI iBxk dyr svyr pYxI hI sI. iewk idn iehI hoieaf. pqnI nUM Auh cUhI ids igeI. mfxo pqnI dI qF sfrI afqimk ÈFqI hI jFdI rhI. Aus nUM trMkF, kpborzF aqy bkisaF ivwc aqy keI QfeIN bfhr pey aqy tMgy kpVy ies sDfrx bckfnI ijhI cUhI dy kuwqry hoey idsx lg pey. Auh ies dI ibVk suxdI aqy sfnUM vI afKdI ik asIN vI vyKIey ik Auh ikwQy lukI hoeI hY qF ik iCqr afid nfl Aus nUM mfr idwqf jfvy. mYnUM aqy sfnUM sB nUM Auh keI vfrI idKfeI vI idwqI aqy keI vfr ies DrmarQ kfrj leI juwqI, CqrI dy zMzy, ikqfb aqy qOlIey ijhVI vI cIË acfnk hwQ ivwc afeI df pRXog kIqf pr Auh hr vfr bc ky inkldI rhI. kuwJ idnF bfad iewk hor cUhI vI ikDroN af rlI. Èfied ieh inwkf cUhf hovygf ijhVf afpxI grlPrYNz nUM jfn joKm ivwc pf ky imlx af igaf hovygf. keI idn pqnI dI aqy myrI iehnF cUhIaF nfl gurIlf jMg cldI rhI. iPr lgdf hY ik bIvI ny ieh cUhf-smwisaf gvFZIaF nfl sFJI kIqI hovygI ikAuNik iewk Èfm jd mYN afpxy byruËgfrI-Bry BRmx qoN vfps Gr afieaf qF vyiKaF ik iewk do QF kiVwkIaF iPt kIqIaF jf rhIaF sn. iehnF ivwc pIËy vflf cuMmVx vflf pnIr lgfieaf jf irhf sI qF ik kiVwkI ivwc cUhI df Psxf hor vI pwkf kIqf jf sky. Ausy idn kuwJ dyr bfad iewk cUhI ies ivwc Ps geI. Gr ivwc suwK vrqx lgf. iewk lftU ijhf vI kmry ivwc lgf idwqf ik ies dy muÈk nfl cUhI kmry ivwc nhIN vVdI. iPr kuwJ idn kuwJ nf hoieaf. nOkrI qF pihlF vI nhIN sI so hux vI mYN ivhlf hI sF. Gr ivwc pMjfb vFg mwKIaF vI nhIN sn ijhVIaF mfrIaF jf skdIaF. pr jfpdf sI ik roËgfr vfly mihkmy ny Gr ivwc hI myrI nOkrI pwkI kr idwqI sI. cUhI mfrn vflI. myrf kMm ieh huMdf ik kiVwkI bfËfroN ilafxI aqy jd cUhI Ps jfvy qF cUhI smyq kVwkI nUM bfhr rKy zst ibn ivwc sut ky Zkx bMd kr dyxf. mYnUM mrI hoeI cUhI nUM vyKx aqy hwQ lgfAux dI sÉq mnfhI sI.
kuwJ ku idnF ivwc ivKfeI dyx vLflIaF ieh dovyN cUhIaF mfr idwqIaF geIaF. iPr kuwJ idn koeI ibVk nf hoeI. pihlF vFg kwqry hoey kpVy jf kfÊj vI nf imly qF pqnI nUM XkIn ho igaf ik koeI hor cUhI Gr ivwc nhIN hY, ik igxqI ivwc ieh do hI sn aqy ieh mfrIaF jf cuwkIaF hn jF jykr koeI hor hoeI vI qF Auh afp hI ikDry bfhr cly geI hoxI af. mYnUM qF ieh XkIn pihlF hI sI ik ieqny Gor Gmfsfx dy XuwD ivckfr cUihaF nUM bwcy dyxf ikwQy suiJaf hovygf, Gwto Gwt sfzy Gr ivwc ijwQy AuhnF nfl ieqnf GlUGfrf vfpr irhf sI. pr ieh nf hoieaf.
kuwJ idnF bfad iewk inwkI ijhI cUhI myrI bytI nUM iPr Ìirj dy kol bYTI idws geI aqy Aus ny afpxI mF nUM dws idwqf. agr mYN ieh cUhI vyKI huMdI qF mYN kdy nf dwsdf. Gr ivcoN msF msF dPf cfr sO cOqflI htI sI. nhIN qF pqnI ny nf mYnUM ikqfb pVxH dyxI sI aqy nf bfhr lPMgVbfËI leI jfx dyxf sI. pqnI df hukm hoxf sI ik bs mYN cUhI dI ibVk lYNdf rhF aqy ikqfb ikqUb vwl aYvyN iDafn nf dyvF nhIN qF mYnUM Aus dI ibVk nhIN suxygI. swc puwCoN qF mYnUM nhIN lgdf sI ik jykr cUhI hovygI qF Auh kpVy kuwqrygI jd Gr ivwc Aus dy Kfx leI bhuq kuwJ hor pihlF hI ipaf hoieaf sI. iewk vfr qF mYN pqnI nUM ieh slfh vI dyxI cfhI ik ikAuN nf kuwJ dwD, rotI dIaF kuwJ burkIaF, QoVI ijhI dfl ijs ivwc irJy hoey cfvl vI pf dyeIey aqy guV dI pysI df tukVf Gol ky kOlI ivwc pf ky zst ibMn kol rK deIey qF ik cUhI df iDafn kpVy kuwqrn dI BYVI afdq qoN roikaf jf sky pr mYnUM pqf sI ik myrf ieh pRsqfv jykr bytI koloN pfs vI ho igaf qF vI pqnI ies nUM Jwt bÊYr socy smJy rwdI dI tokrI ivwc suwt dyvygI aqy myry ajyhf socx `qy mn hI mn ivwc mYnUM iPtkfr vI pfeygI. so mYN cuwp irhf aqy ieMj ies cUhI dI ibVk nINd ivwc myry supinaF nUM kuwqrdI rhI.
so awj nvIN kVwkI ilafAux dI myrI izAUtI lgI sI ikAuNik ieh smiJaf igaf sI ik purfxI kiVwkI `coN Èfied cUhI nUM afpxy pUrvjF dI muÈk af geI hovygI. Gr ivwc mYN iekwlF sF. mYN vyiKaf ik ieh cUhI pihlIaF qoN kwdkfT ivwc kuwJ CotI sI aqy inhfieq cuwlbulI aqy ntKt vI. ieqnf ik ies nUM suMdr vI ikhf jf skdf sI. ieh QuhVI mnclI vI sI ijhVI gwl ies leI Gfqk sfbq ho skdI sI. BfvyN ieh keI vfr krIny nfl kiVwkI qoN bwc ky soPy dy nfl nfl qurdI hoeI myrI tybl qy vI jf phuMcdI sI aqy AuWQy pey pYnF, Kuwly pey lYptfp, ibÉry hoey kfÊj pwqrF, cfh dy KflI kwp, pYndfn, kuwJ dUr peI tIvI, sjfvtI vsqF, myrI bMnI hoeI pwg afid nfl CyVKfnI krdI rihMdI. BfvyN mYN kdy vI Aus dy kuwJ vI hwQ ivwc afieaf mfr skdf sF pr ieMj krn nfl mYnUM jfpdf sI ik CotI hox krky cUhI df kuwJ ibgVygf nhIN aqy myË `qy peIaF cIjF ËrUr tuwt jfxgIaF. dUjf pqf nhIN ikAuN mYnUM hux ieh krnf awCf vI nhIN lgdf sI. mYnUM ies kmisn bwcI nfl hmdrdI ijhI ho geI sI ijs dy mF-ipAuN kuwJ hI idn pihlF sfzy hQoN mOq dy Gft Auqfry jf cuwky sn. Aus df afpxf GrGft nf hox krky mYnUM Auh sfzy Gr df hI iewk jIv jfpx lg peI sI ijs nUM anfQ krn dy ksUrvfr vI asIN afp hI sF.
iewk svyr mYN afpxy ibsqry ivwc bYTf kuwJ pVH irhF sF ik ieh myry kMbl `qy af ky bYT geI. mYnM JuxJuxI ijhI afeI qy mYN kMbl prFh suwt idwqf. iewk awDI vfr iPr ies cUhI ny myry hor kol afAux dI koiÈÈ kIqI pr mYN Aus pRqI koeI ivÈyÈ rucI nf ivKfeI. sgoN mYnUM jfipaf ijvyN mYN Ëfhrf qOr qy afpxI sMvydnf nUM dbfa irhf hovF. mYnUM zr sI ik ikDry pqnI nf af jfvy ijhVI hux smJ cuwkI sI ik hux Gr ivwc koeI cUhI nhIN hY. ies pfsy qoN Aus dI isrdrdI hux lgBg Éqm ho cuwkI sI aqy Gr ivwc suK cYn aqy surwiKawqf vfps prq afeI sI. ies kmry ivwc aksr mYN iekwlf hI huMdf aqy mYN pqnI pfsoN ieh Byd CupfAux lgf ik iewk inwkI ijhI cUhI ajy vI ies Gr ivwc hY ijhVI kImqI qoN kImqI pOÈfk nUM imMtF ivwc afpxy nMnHy dMdF nfl kuwqr ky qbfh kr skdI sI. iewk qrHF nfl mYnUM pqnI df cUhI vloN surwiKawq hox df JUTf aihsfs ivcoN ivcoN Kfx lgf. mYN cUhI nfl nËfieË vÌf pfl ky afpxI pqnI nfl byvPfeI kr irhF sF. pr mYnUM ies ivcoN anMd afAux lgf ijvyN mYN iewk Coty ijhy jIv nUM pfÜ irhf hovF, iewk anfQ nUM afpxy Gr ivwc Tfhr dy irhF hovF. asl ivwc ies bwcI dy mfqf ipqf iewk dUjy qoN bfad ieqny CyqIN mfry gey sn ik Auh jIAUNdy jI afpxI ies bwcI nUM pUrI qrHF isiKawq vI nhIN kr sky ik ikvyN bMidaF qoN dUr rihxf hY, ikvyN AuhnF sfhmxy koeI Kyz nhIN KyzxI, afpxf sfrf iDafn iÈkfrI aqy kiVwkI qoN bcx leI lgfAuxf hY, bfhlI Kwp nhIN pfAuxI, ikqfbF aqy cIËF hOlI hOlI kuqrnIaF hn Auh vI jd Gr ivwc hnHyrf hovy aqy cuwp vrqI hovy jF tIvI df bhuq Èor hovy qF ik kuqrn dI afvfË nf sux sky, bMidaF dy nyVy nhIN Zukxf, iksy `qy ieqbfr nhIN krnf afid.
iehnF isiKafvF dI Gft kfrx ies bwcI nUM ieh jfpdf hI nhIN sI ik Auh jd mUMh cuwk ky ies Gr dy jIv nUM afpxf Kyz sfQI smJ ky inhfrn bYTdI hY qF Auh inhfieq afpxI nMnHI jfn nUM Éqry ivwc pf rhI huMdI hY. ieh cUhI scmuwc hI myry nfl sFJ pfAuxI cfhuMdI. ÈurU ivwc jd mYN Aus pRqI ieqnf Bfvuk nhIN sF hoieaf aqy Aus nUM mfrn `qy quilaf hoieaf sF qF vI. jdoN mYN Aus `qy koeI kol peI cIj vgfh ky mfrdf qF QoVHf ijhf ieDr AuWDr Pudk ky iPr lgBg pihly vflI QF qy Klo jFdI ijvyN koeI bwcf iksy dUsry bwcy nfl Kyz irhf hovy. iewk vfr qF jd mYN aslI guwsy ivwc Aus vwl JeI ijhI lY ky ipaf qF AuhL dUr jfx dI bjfey sgoN hor vI myry vwl lwpkI ijvyN Auh myry nfl CUhx CohI Kyz rhI hovy, ijvyN Aus nUM myry vloN koeI zr nf hovy. myry leI ieh swcmuc hI nvIN gwl sI.
hux mYN Gr ivwc iewk qrHF nfl ies bwcI dI rfKI krdf hF aqy aMdr bfhr Gwt hI jFdf hF ik ikDry ies dI jfn `qy nf af bxy. awj nvIN kiVwkI lYx leI vI mYN bVy axmMny mn nfl igaf sF. pqnI qoN corI mYN kVwkI qoN pnIr vI lfh idwqf sI aqy ies nUM ajyhI QF qy rK idwqf sI ijQy pqnI dI nËr nf pey. ies anfQ bwcI dy pflx posx dI mYN hux pUrI juMmyvfrI lY leI sI.