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keI sflF qoN imisjL Kosf dI zfktr nfl jfx-pihcfx sI. PYimlI zfktr hox krky Kosf pirvfr dy hr duwK-suwK df zfktr BfeIvfl sI. imisjL Kosf iewk srkfrI adfry ivwc vwzy aPLsr hn, Grvflf ieMglYNz df istIjLn hY. jLmIn jfiedfd awCI-KfsI hY.
bwcy qF hux vwzy ho cuwky hn, dovyN bfhr cly gey hn. Kosf sfihb pMjfb aqy ieMglYNz ivckfr sfl ivwc do-iqMn cwkr mfr lYNdy hn.
imisjL Kosf dI nOkrI awCI sI, pMjfb ivwc rihx leI vYsy qF nOkrI df bhuq awCf bhfnf hI sI. GrylU hflfq kuJ ieho ijhy sn ik dovyN mIaF-bIvI Gwt vwD hI iekwTy rihMdy sn. ieho ijhy hflfq ivwc imisjL Kosf afpxy qOr `qy Audfs sI qy Kosf sfihb ivskI dy lV lwgy hoey sn.
zfktr qF dovF df sFJf sI, ies leI kdI-kdfeIN dovyN afpxIaF BfvnfvF df zfktr pfs rycn krky kuJ arsy leI boJ hlkf kr lYNdy.
iewk idn imisjL Kosf koeI dvfeI lYx afey. vYsy imisjL Kosf iewk sMvydnsLIl aqy buwDIjIvI aOrq hY. suBfa ivwc hlImI aqy TihrfE. afKx lwgy zfktr sfihb, ‘ieh jIvn vI rwb ny kI sLYa bxfieaf hY. ies dI vI smJ nhIN afeI.
Aumr dI qkrIbn awDI sdI bIq geI, bcpn aqy ivwidaf pRfpqI dy smyN nUM Cwz ky bfkI sfry smyN ivwc jd kdI vI jIvn `qy JfqI mfrdI hF, mn qF Audfs huMdf hI hY, pr ieh socxf vI pYNdf hY ik afKLrkfr kI ieh hI mnuwKI jIvn hY. jIvn ivwc koeI ipafr nhIN, anMd nhIN, kI hY ieh jIvn?
keI vfr jIvn df, afsrf bwicaF ivcoN Bfilaf aqy keI vfr afpxI srivs ivcoN, pr aMdrUnI gihrI arD-acyqn mn ivwc bYTI AudfsI iPr vI afx GyrdI hY. mYnUM qF lwgdf sB aOrqF aqy mrdF df bws myry vflf hI hfl hY. mYnUM qF koeI vI aOrq KLusL aqy anMd ivwc idKfeI nhIN dy rhI. ies ipafr ivhUxy jIvn ivwc keI vfr qF mn bhuq pRysLfn aqy Audfs ho jFdf hY.
quhfzy iKafl ivwc ieh jIvn ies qrF ikAuN hY? imisjL Kosf ny zfktr nUM puwiCaf.
asl ivwc jIvn ivwc duwK, inrfsLf aqy AudfsI df kfrn bws iewk hI hY, Auh ieh hY ik jIvn ivwc ipafr nhIN. nf qF aOrq nUM ipafr imldf hY qy nf hI mrd nUM aqy ies dI kMpnsLysn asIN dUsrIaF sMsfirk pRfpqIaF ivwc krn dI koisLsL krdy rihMdy hF. hor qF hor ijs sYks nUM asIN ipafr smJ bYTdy hF, jd vfsqivk ipafr hI nhIN imldf qF ies sYks dy vI koeI mfany nhIN rih jFdy. ieh vI bs mnuwK afpxI psLU ibrqI jF kfm vfsnf pUrI krn qwk hI krdf hY aqy ies nUM hI ipafr df nFa dy idwqf jFdf hY.
zfktr dws irhf sI, ies ivwc koeI sLwk nhIN ik sB irsLiqaF ivwc ipafr hI afDfr hY. ipafr mnuwK df suBfa hY. buinafdI qOr `qy hr vsqU jF vrqfry df afDfr, ipafr df aihsfs hI hY, pr ijvyN mnuwK afpxI sMcfilk AUrjf nUM Buwl bYTdf hY, ies qrHF hI afpxy Aus ipafr dy aihsfs nUM vI ipCFh Dkyl idMdf hY.
imisjL Kosf boly, ies df kI kfrn hoieaf? ipafr buinafdI sLkqI huMdf hoieaf vI ikAuN ipCFh rih jFdf hY?
klcr, klcrl sMsQfvF dy afpxy inXm hn. ijvyN ipafr kudrq dy inXm df ihwsf hY, ievyN hI nPLrq aqy eIrKf mnuwK vloN Ausfry klcr aqy Ausdy inXm df ihwsf hn.
dUr kI jfxf, qusIN afp hI ies nUM dyK skdy ho.
aOrq-mrd ivwc ipafr df irsLqf qF suBfivk hY, ijMnI dyr ieh irsLqf mnwuK dy GVy inXmF qoN bicaf rihMdf hY qF ipafr ivwc iewk gihrfeI huMdI hY, dovF ivwc iewk dUsry leI qVP huMdI hY. do ijsm iewk hox leI hmysLf locdy rihMdy hn, ijs idn mnuwK df GiVaf inXm aOrq-mrd `qy lfgU ho igaf, Bfv ivafh dI sMsQf dy lpyt ivwc ieh irsLqf af igaf qF ipafr KMB lf ky Auz igaf. dovF pRfxIaF dI hux hoNd nf rhI, dovyN vsq bx gey aqy iewk dUsry `qy aiDkfr jmfAux lwg pey, ajLfrydfrI af geI, svfrQ aqy afriQkqf ny dovF pRfxIaF nUM afx Gyiraf aqy ies sfry vrqfry ivwc ipafr bhuq ipCFh rih igaf.
zfktr sfihb mYN quhfzy nfl iblkul sihmq hF.
quhfzI ies gwl qoN mYnUM iewk iblkul qfjLf khfxI Xfd af geI, imisjL Kosf bolI.
myrI iewk dUroN nyiVEN BqIjI lwgdI hY. bcpn ivwc hI Auh afpxy mF bfp nfl amrIkf clI geI sI.
Aus dy vwzy Brf aqy AunHF df pirvfr sfry hux amrIkf ivwc hI sYtl ho gey hn.
lVkI df nFa vInf hY. vInf ajy 19-20 sfl dI hI sI, jd Aus ny iewk pRfeIvyt adfry ivwc nOkrI kr leI. kwd-kfT lMbf sI, Aus dI sfrI pRvirsL bhuq KuwlHy zuwlHy mfhOl ivwc hoeI sI. bhuq suMdr aqy smfrt inklI. nKLrf vI bhuq sI, QoVHy kIqy iksy lVky nUM psMd hI nhIN sI krdI.
mF-bfp aqy Brf vI keI irsLqy ilaf rhy sn. ieDroN pMjfb qoN vI keI zfktr aqy ieMjInIar lVikaF bfry keI irsLqydfrF ny gwl clfeI, pr Aus nUM kdI vI koeI lVkf psMd nhIN sI af irhf.
awj qoN koeI 20 sfl pihlF Auh afpxy mF-bfp nfl pMjfb afeI. myry Gr vI Auh Tihry. mYN Aus nUM pwuiCaf, vInf[[[[qUM ivafh ikAuN nhIN krvf rhI.
BfjI aqy BfbI jI dwsdy ny ik qYnUM koeI lVkf psMd hI nhIN af irhf.
hF aFtI, pihlI gwl qF ieh ik ijs lVky nUM mYN jfxdI nhIN, ipafr nhIN krdI Aus nfl ivafh ikvyN krvf lvF. awj qwk ijMny vI lVky mYN dyKy hn aqy hor vI ijMny mYnUM amrIkf ivwc imly hn, AunHF ivwcoN koeI vI lVkf mYnUM Auh iKwc nhIN pf sikaf, ijs nfl mYnUM lwgy ik myrf ies nfl ipafr vI ho skdf hY. ivafh bfry qF bfad ivwc socFgy. ivafh df kI lfB jy ipafr hI nhIN.
mYN, afpxy ivafh bfry soc rhI sI ik vfkXf hI vInf bysLwk ajy bhuqI mYcuar nhIN pr gwl ikMnI swcI afK rhI hY. mYnUM vI afpxf sLfdI-sLudf jIvn Xfd af irhf sI ik ieho-ijhy ipafr ivhUxy ivafhuqf jIvn df vI kI arQ.
mYN vInf nUM puwiCaf[[[nf jy qYnUM koeI ipafr krnf vflf nf imly qF qUM ivafh nhIN krvfeyNgI.
vInf bolI, iblkul nhIN.
pr keI vfr ivafh qoN bfad vI qF hsbYNz nfl ipafr pYdf ho skdf hY.
ieh iksy ny dyiKaf, ivafh qF iewk jUaf hY, vInf bolI.
imisjL Kosf dws rhy sn ik vInf nUM pMjfb ivwc koeI lVkf psMd nf afieaf, sfrf pirvfr vfps clf igaf. koeI 8-9 sfl bfad mYnUM vI amrIkf jfx df mOkf imilaf. mYN amrIkf ivwc vInf pfs rhI.
vInf AudoN 27-28 sfl dI ho cuwkI sI, pr ajy vI ivafh nhIN krvfieaf sI.
ijs adfry ivwc vInf kMm krdI sI, Aus dPLqr df bOs aqy mflk ietlI df gorf sI. vInf sLurU qoN hI AuQy nOkrI krdI af rhI sI.
imisjL Kos dws rhy sn ik mYN Aus nUM pwuiCaf ik ikqy ipafr hoieaf ik nhIN! pihlF qF vInf kuJ sLrmfa geI, pr iPr KuwlHky dwsx lwgI.
myrf bOs myry qoN koeI 17-18 sfl vwzf hY, jd mYN nOkrI sLurU kIqI sI qF Aus vkq Aus dI Aumr qkrIbn 37 sfl dI sI qy myrI koeI 19 sfl dI. ipClI vfr jd mYN pMjfb qoN vfps afeI qF pihlI vfr mYN afpxy dPLqr ivwc afpxy bOs nUM dyiKaf. dyKdy sfr hI mYnUM ies qrHF lwgf ik ijs ivakqI dI mYnUM qlfsL sI Auh mYnUM iml igaf hY. eynf hYNzsm, lMbf kwd, pqlf srIr qy ichrf eynf inrdosL aqy bwicaF vrgf ipafrf.
pihlI vfr ijLMdgI ivwc iksy mrd ny nINdr Krfb kIqI. hOlI-hOlI mYN afpxy bOs dy njLdIk afAuxf sLurU kIqf aqy kuJ mhIinaF ivwc hI asIN bhuq awCy dosq bx gey.
nFa kI af qyry bOs df[[[.
klfizas, vInf bolI.
sfnUM afps ivwc imlidaF nUM koeI do sfl bIq gey sn, klfizas mYnUM bhuq ipafrf lwgdf.
mYN klfizas nUM puwiCaf[[[[qusIN ajy qwk ivafh ikAuN nhIN krvfieaf?
Aus ny dwisaf ik Auh Aus vkq 26-27 sfl df sI, jd Ausdy mF-bfp ny Aus df ivafh iewk ietflIan lVkI nfl kr idwqf. kuJ mhIinaF ivwc hI sfzI KVk peI aqy asIN qlfk lY ilaf. jo nrk, ivafh dy 10-12 mhIny Boigaf, Aus qoN mYN ksm KfDI ik jIvn ivwc ivafh nhIN krvfAuxf, jy koeI ipafr krn vflI iml geI qF bhuq awCf, nf imlI qF nf shI.
pr jdoN dI qUM myry jIvn ivwc afeI eyN, myrI ijLMdgI ivwc qF bhfr af geI. swc vInf, idl krdf rihMdf ik sfrf idn qUM myry pfs hI rhyN, hux qF ies qrHF hY ik ijvyN qyry ibnF ieh jIvn aDUrf hY.
nf iPr qusIN ivafh ikAuN nhIN kIqf, imisjL Kosf bolI.
Cwzo aFtI ivafh, mYN dyKdI hI aF afpxy BrfvF nUM ijhVf sLfdI-sLudf jIvn Auh hMZf rhy hn aqy jo jIvn qusIN ibqf rhy ho, ieh koeI jIvn hY? kI QuiVHaf ies ivafh Kuxo, vInf bolI.
qusIN hux dyKo, mYN afpxy Gr rihMdI aF, klfizas afpxy. asIN iewk dUsry nUM byieMqhf ipafr krdy hF, hux qkrIbn 9 sfl ho gey hn sfnUM ipafr kridaF nUM. kdI-kdfeIN koeI vwKo-vwKry ivcfrF `qy JgVf bysLwk ho igaf hovy, pr asIN kdI sLfdI-sLudf jIvn vflf mrd-aOrq df JgVf nhIN kIqf. blik ijvyN ijvyN smF bIqdf jf irhf hY sfzf ipafr hor gihrf aqy anMdmeI ho irhf hY. mYN qF ies qrHF hI rihxf cfhuMdI hF. klfizas vI KusL ey.
imisjL Kosf ny dwisaf ik myry vI iewk vfrI idmfg ivwc iKafl afieaf ik swcmuwc hI vInf ikMnI KusL ey, ies ipafr ivwc ikMnI sLkqI hY. vInf df ichrf ikvyN dgdg kr irhf hY.
zfktr ny imisjL Kosf nUM puwiCaf[[[vInf aqy klfizas dI Aumr ivwc qF bhuq Prk ey. vInf nUM Aumr dy ies Prk df kdI iKafl nhIN afieaf? mYN vI vInf nUM puwiCaf sI ik klfizas dI Aumr qF qyry nfloN bhuq vwzI ey, pr Auh bolI, ipafr ivwc sfnUM qF ies Aumr df aMqr kdy vI mihsUs nhIN hoieaf.
imisjL Kosf awgy dws rhy sn, mYN vfps pMjfb af geI. do ku sfl pihlF mYnUM vInf df afpxy ivafh df swdf pwqr afieaf. swdf pwqr dyK mYN hYrfn rih geI, ikAuNik vInf hux 38-39 sfl dI sI aqy klfizas 56-57 sfl df.
mYN vInf nUM pwqr iliKaf ik qUM qF ivafh dy hwk ivwc hI nhIN sI, ieh ikvyN ho igaf?
Aus df pwqr vI afieaf ik mMmI-zYzI aqy Brf bhuq jLor dy rhy sn ik quhfnUM dovF nUM iekwTy rihMidaF qkrIbn 20 sfl ho cwly hn, hux qusIN ivafh kr lvo. klfizas vI hux myry pirvfr ivwc bhuq Gul-iml igaf sI, Aus nUM sfry afK rhy sn ik jd qusIN eyny sflF qoN iekwTy rihMdy af rhy ho qF ivafh hI krvf lvo.
dovF ny ivafh krvf ilaf.
af, ipCly sfl mYN afpxy hsbYNz aqy bytI nfl ieMglYNz qoN amrIkf geI. soicaf, clo vInf dy ivafh `qy qF af nhIN hoieaf hux hI zyZ sfl bfad Aus nUM ivafh dI vDfeI dy afvF. vInf dy Gr phuMcy, vInf dPLqr geI hoeI sI. Ausdy mMmI zYzI imly, mYN AunHF nUM vInf dy ivafh dI vDfeI idwqI, pr Auh iblkul cup rhy, blik vInf dy ivafh dI gwl tfl rhy sn. mYN pwuiCaf[[[[Bf jI kI gwl ey. nhIN kuJ nhIN, bws vInf dy jIvn ivwc ivafh df suwK nhIN. mYN qF ieh sux ky hwkI-bwkI rih geI.
mYN iPr puwiCaf nf kI gwl ho geI.
BfbI jI boly, kI dwsIey.
vInf aqy klfizas ivafh qoN kuJ mhIinaF bfad hI afps ivwc JgVn lwg pey. CotIaF-CotIaF gwlF `qy hI afpsI psMd aqy nf psMd sLurU ho peI. pr vInf ny afpxf vI qF mkfn bxfieaf hoieaf sI.
klfizas afK irhf sI, hux ies mkfn dI kI jLrUrq hY, ies nUM vyc idMdy hF, pr vInf ies nUM vycxf nhIN cfhuMdI sI, asIN vI ies mkfn nUM vycxf nhIN cfhuMdy sF. dovyN afps ivwc keI vfr eynf nrfjL ho jFdy ik vInf ieQy sfzy pfs af jFdI.
vInf dI mMmI dws rhI sI ik myry jLor pfAux `qy vInf grBvqI vI ho geI, pr dovF dy JgVy idn-b-idn vDdy gey. asIN sB hYrfn sF ik jo ivakqI 20 sfl iekwTy rihMdy af rhy hox, Auh hux ivafh qoN bfad CotIaF-CotIaF gwlF `qy hI JgV pYNdy hn, ieh kI ho igaf hY ienHF dovF nUM. ivafh qoN bfad dovF ny msF iewk sfl hI kwitaf, vwKo-vwKry rihx lwg pey, klfizas qF afpxy Gr hI hY, pr vInf afpxy mkfn ivwc af geI, Auh hux Audfs vI rihx lwg peI hY. qUM AusnUM jLrUr iml ky jfvIN, nfly kuJ Aus nUM smJfeI vI. ivafh qoN bfad dy jIvn ivwc bhuq smJOqy krny pYNdy hn.
imisjL Kosf vI vInf nUM imly. vInf dws rhI sI, aFtI sfzy ipafr nUM qF ivafh df gRihx hI lwg igaf. afpxy aFZ-guaFZ aqy BrfvF df sLfdI-sLudf jIvn dyK mYN afKdI sI ieh lok ivafhuqf jIvn ikvyN hMZf rhy hn. pr ieh nrk mYN vI Bog ky dyK ilaf, pr aPLsos hY ik ipCly 20 sfl mYN ijhVf anMdmeI ipafr BrpUr jIvn bqIq kIqf Auh KLqm ho igaf.
zfktr sfihb kI kfrn hoieaf, ivafh dI sMsQf ivwc ies qrHF ikAuN ho jFdf hY. imisjL Kosf puwC rhI sI.
ivafh iewk Auh sMsQf hY, ijwQy mrd aOrq AuWpr aqy aOrq mrd AuWpr kbjLf jF pojYsLn krn dI koisLsL krdy hn aqy pojYsLn qF vsq df huMdf hY hoNd df nhIN, pr pRfxI qF vsq nhIN huMdy, hr pRfxI dI qF afpxI iewk hoNd hY, ies `qy kbjLf nhIN kIqf jf skdf. ivafh dI sMsQf afpxI kfm vfsLnf pUrI krn aqy aOlfd pYdf krn df vsIlf qF hY, pr ipafr dy rsqy jF iksy vwKry aXfm dI pRfpqI df vsIlf nhIN ho skdf.
ipafr iewk inrsvfrQ vrqfrf hY jd ik ivafh dI sMsQf df aDfr hI svfrQ hY. jvfnI dy josL ivwc kfmvfsnf dI pUrqI leI sYks hI ipafr df rUp Dfr lYNdf hY. vfsqivk ipafr dI qF Jlk hI ikqy-ikqy imldI hY. ipafr ibnF sYks kuJ arsy vfsqy qF cldf rihMdf hY, pr kuJ arsy bfad ivafhuqf jIvn ivwc jd jIvn dy hor vI msly sfhmxy af KloNdy hn qF ipafr qF iewk pfsy irhf aOrq mrd df sYks jIvn vI KUh ivwc pY jFdf hY. aqy sLurU ho jFdf hY ivafhuqf jIvn df nrk. ieQy hI bs nhIN ivafhuqf jIvn dy kuJ arsy bfad hI aOrq aqy mrd dI hfAumY vI sfhmxy afx KuVHdI hY aqy Kfs qOr `qy jy dovyN hI ivvyksLIl ivakqI hn qF hfAumY df tkrfE lfjLmI hY. aOrq kuJ krnf cfhuMdI hY aqy mrd kuJ hor, ies qrHF inwkIaF-inwkIaF gwlF `qy hI hfAumY afpsI JgVy df afDfr bx jFdI hY.
iewk hor vrqfrf hY ivafhuqf jIvn ivwc, ieh hY afriQk inrBrqf. afDuink smfj ivwc ijQy aOrq vI brfbr hI pVHI ilKI hY aqy afriQk pwKoN afjLfd hY, ies df sdkf aOrq dI iewk vwKrI qrHF dI hI mfnisk bxqr iqafr ho jFdI hY. ies sfry vrqfry ivwc pirvfirk jIvn ivwc smJOqf bxky rih jFdf hY aqy ipafr nFa dI koeI sLYa nhIN rihMdI. ies leI ivafh dI sMsQf iewk Auh sMsQf hY jo smfj ny ipafr dy KLfqmy leI pYdf kIqI hY qF jo ivakqI vfsqivk ipafr qoN jfxU ho ky ivkfs dy aglyry dOr ivwc pRvysL nf kr jfvy. hF ivafh dI sMsQf df bws ieko hI lfB hY Bfv kfmvfsnf dI pUrqI aqy aOlfd pYdf krnI. zfktr ds irhf sI.