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aOtvf ivwc kfnPLrMs ho rhI sI. trFto qoN bhuq sfry lyKk aqy sfihq pRymI vwK vwK gruwpF ivwc phuMcy hoey sn. iewk vYn ivwc mYN jrnYl isMG khfxIkfr, kuljIq mfn, ikrpfl isMG pMnUM aqy AunHF dy dosq zf[, gurdyv cOhfn aqy virafm sMDU sn. kfnPLrMs dy pRbMDkF ivwcoN iewk, amrjIq sfQI nflL myrf PYslf hoieaf sI ik aOtvf phuMc ky virafm sMDU aqy koeI iewk swjx hor myry irsLqydfr dy Gr TihrFgy. mYN rsqy ivwc virafm sMDU hurF nflL gwlbfq nf kr sikaf. jdoN asIN aOtvf ivwc dwsI hoeI QF `qy phuMcy qF mYN virafm sMDU hurF nUM pfsy krky hoey PYsly bfry dwisaf aqy puwiCaf ik Auh hor iks nUM nflL iljfxf cfhuMxgy?
“irsLqydfrI kI hY?” sMDU hurF puwiCaf.
“ijMnI gUVHI jtkI BfsLf ivwc hY, EdoN ikqy vwD gUVHI imlvrqx ivwc hY”, hsidaF hoieaF mYN jvfb idwqf.
“jy AunHF nUM QF dI koeI qMgI nf hovy qF mYN cfhvFgf ik afpF pUry df pUrf gruwp ijvyN iekwTy afey hF, AuvyN hI iekwTy rhIey. qUM AunHF qoN pqf kr lY ik AunHF nUM koeI musLkl qy nhIN afvygI?”
BFvyN mYN jfxdf sF ik puwC lYx `qy irsLqydfrF ny kI kihxf hY pr iPr vI mYN Pon krnf jLrUrI smiJaf aqy jvfb afieaf ik “ies ivwc puwCx vflLI ikhVI gwl hY.”
pihlI rfq asIN Aus Gr rhy qF aglI svyr kfnPLrMs `qy qurn qwk sfiraF nUM hI aihsfs ho igaf sI ik asIN TIk PYslf hI kIqf hY. myjLbfn aqy Aus dy prvfr dy vrqfE ny sBnF df mn moh ilaf sI.
dUsry idn asIN rfq dyr geI Gr afey. awj amr akbrpurI trFto qoN phuMc cuwkf sI aqy ieh ikvyN ho skdf sI ik myry huMidaF Auh hor ikqy Tihrdf. ipClI rfqy vYn clfAux dI ijLMmyNvfrI lYx krky dfrU pIx qoN suwkf rih igaf kuljIq mfn awj pihlF hI rMgL ivwc sI aqy Gr phuMc ky hor vI rMgIn ho igaf sI.
“ilaf veI kulivMdr awj vflLI kivqf iPr suxf, Aus `qy gwlbfq krdy aF.” awj dy kvI drbfr ivwc jo kivqf mYN suxfeI sI, Aus dIaF AUxqfeIaF virafm sMDU nUM ajy vI mihsUs ho rhIaF sn aqy myrI iksy rcnf dI kmjLorI virafm sMDU nUM nfmnjLUr ho cuwkI sI. sfzf cfcy-BqIjy df irsLqf jU sQfipq ho cuwkf sI. cfcf jI nrjIq Kihrf nflL rhI AunHF dI nyVqf kfrn mYN hmysLF AunHF ivwcoN afpxy cfcf jI nUM vyKx df Xqn krdf hF.
“qUM kivqf ivwc bhuq lfAUz ho jfnY ijs krky ies ivwcoN kfivkqf mwDm pY jFdI hY[[[qYnUM afpxI kivqf `coN kfmryzI kuJ mwDm krnI pvygI.” virafm sMDU ny myrI soc aqy myrI kivqf dI sur bfry ikhf.
“drasl kulivMdr dI pROblm pqf kI af?” kuljIq mfn afpxy pUry jlOa ivwc sI, “ieh cfhuMdf ik lok kihx ik Kihrf bhuq cMgf af.”
ieh pihlf mOkf nhIN sI jdoN iksy ny mYnUM ies qrHF ikhf hovy. ies qoN pihlF vI mYN keI vfr sux cuwkf sF, “Kihry Xfr qUM ilKdf bhuq suhxf, jy ikqy af kfmryzF qoN pfsy ho ky ilKx lwg pvyN qF qYnUM sfry psMd krdy af.”
mYN socx lwgdf hF: kI mYN kfmryz hF? kI mYN isrP ies krky hI ilKdf hF ik lok kihx ik “Kihrf bhuq vDIaf ilKdf hY?” mYN socx lwgdf hF ik myrI lyKxI jF ivcfrDfrf `qy ‘kfmryzI’ df lybl kdoN aqy ikvyN lwgx lwgf?
ies ruqby df vwzf kfrn sLfied myrI kivqf aqy lyKxI ivclI lok-pwKI sur df BfrU hoxf hY. pr kI ieh sB kuJ mYN imQ ky krdf hF? kI mYN ikqfbF `coN pVHI iksy iQAUrI qoN pRBfvq ho ky ies ivcfrDfrf df DfrnI bixaf hF? ienHF svflF bfry socdf socdf mYN afpxy bcpn ivwc phuMc jFdf hF:
sLfied jdoN myrf jnm hoieaf, kfienfq bVI KusL hoeI sI. glLy hoey kfinaF dI Cwq ny cUihaF dIaF myNÕxF aqy BurdI hoeI imwtI dy Puwl myry qn qoN dI vfry sn, coNdI Cwq nyy mINh vflLy pfxI dI guVHqI idwqI sI, sLrfb `c rwjy bfp dy llkfiraF ny myrI afmd dI pfrtI df PLrjL inBfieaf sI.
mYQoN pihlF pYdf hoieaf myrf vwzf BfeI kuJ mhIinaF dI Aumr Bog ky hI ies dunIaF qoN mUMh moV igaf sI aqy myry dUsry BfeI ny ies prvfr ivwc afAux df PYslf krn leI pUry pMj sfl df smF ilaf sI. ies ihsfb nflL mYN prvfr df vwzf muMzf ho igaf sI aqy BYx koeI nhIN sI. Gr ivwc gLrIbI hI nhIN sI sgoN mF dy hwQ `qy vI cmVI-rog ho igaf sI. ies hflq ivwc surq sMBflLidaF hI Gr dIaF ijLMmyNvfrIaF ny ‘bcpn’ nF dI jIvn-avsQf mYQoN Koh leI sI. skUl jfx dy nflL nflL Gr ivwc mF dy kMmF `c hwQ vtfAux qoN ielfvf pqf hI nf lwgf kdoN mwJF-gfeIaF nUM cfrn dI ijLMmyNvfrI vI myry hI moiZaF `qy afx peI sI. eynf hI Xfd hY ik sLfied mYN pMj-swq sfl dI Aumr ivwc hI sF jdoN iewk grmIaF dI dupihr nUM afpxy bfibaF nflL psLU cfridaF hoieaF afpxI iewk mwJ nUM moVn igaf mYN Aus nUM awgy ho ky ipCFh nUM Dwkx lwg ipaf sF. hrI Psl ivwc crn df mn bxf ky Psl vwl vDdI hoeI mwJ myry BolLypn dI dfd idwqy bgYr aqy mYrf mfx rwKy bgYr hI mYnUM DwkdI hoeI awgy vD geI. mYN mwJ awgy izwg ipaf aqy myrI lwq dI ipMÖxI dy poly mfs `qy pYr DrdI hoeI mwJ bVI hI bydrdI nflL awgy vD geI sI. myrI nrm ijhI lwq nUM toh-prK ky tuwtI nf hox dI pusLtI kridaF hoieaF myrf bfbf mYnUM cuwk ky Gr ilafieaf sI. cfh bxfAuxI, aftf guMnHxf, cOlL bxfAuxy aqy hOlLI hOlLI sbjLI qwk bxfAux df kMm mYN afpxI Aumr dy AunHF hI idnF ivwc iswK igaf sI jdoN myry hfxI-hfnxF Kyzxf-kuwdxf iswK rhy sn. Gr aMdr mYN afpxI mF leI DI aqy bfhr dy kMmF ivwc jwt bfp df puwq sF. ibnF sfDnF qoN pMj-swq ikwilaF dI KyqI bfp dI hwzqoV imhnq dy bfvjUd Gr dIaF loVF dI pUrqI qoN asmrwQ sfbq ho rhI sI. skUl qoN bfad Gr dy kMm ivwc hwQ vtfAuxf myrI izAUtI bx cuwkI sI.
myrf skUl sfzy ipMz qoN iqMn-cfr iklomItr dI dUrI `qy pYNdy dOlqpur Zwzf ipMz ivwc sI. ryqlf ielfkf hox krky grmIaF dy idnF ivwc skUl jfx df kMm kuJ ies qrHF huMdf sI ik awj jdoN vI mYN swsI dy QlF ivwc Buwjx df ikwsf suxdf hF qF myry ijLhn ivwc swsI myry skUl dy rfh ivcly AunHF itwibaF ivwc hI BuwjdI njLr afAuNdI hY. dUr qwk iksy dRKLq df nf hoxf sUrj dI srdfrI nUM hor vI cfr-cMn lf jFdf sI. bhuqI vfrI nMgy pYrIN hI sUrj dI qpsL nflL ryq dI imlLI-Bugq dI gihrfeI mfpdy hoieaF Bwjy jFidaF myry leI kdI rsqy ivwc af geIaF hry Gfh dIaF kuJ iqVHF aqy kdI Aus rfh qoN lMG rhy psLUaF dy ipsLfb krn nflL igwlI hoeI ryqf myry pYrF nUM pl-do pl leI afpxy sIny nflL lf ky awgy qurn df hOslf idMdI aqy myry pYrF ivwc sfhs Br idMdI. ikMnI ikMnI dyr skUl dIaF ikqfbF nf imlx krky, pMjI qoN lY ky pMdrF pYisaF qwk skUl df cMdf keI keI idn lyt ho jfx krky aqy skUl leI KfkI vrdI nf juVn krky pqf nhIN ikMnI ku vfr mfstrF dIaF sotIaF ny myry hwQF `qy vyl-bUtIaF pfeIaF sn. grmIaF dy idnF ivwc vfZIaF lfgy mfipaF dIaF lY ky idwqIaF kYNcI cplF dIaF vwDrF kuJ hI smyN bfad svRg suDfr jFdIaF sn aqy aksr hI AunHF nUM sUeI-Dfgy nflL gMZ ky jF iPr AunHF dy tuwty ihwsy dI QF `qy lIr bMnH ky cplF dI Aumr vDf leI jFdI sI.
ibnF juwqI qoN grmIaF dy idnF ivwc BwKVy dy KyqF ivwc psLU cfrnf afpxI hI iksm df cYlyNj huMdf sI. iewk pfsy iksy dy KyqF nUM AujfVn krky Kyq mflkF df zr huMdf aqy dUsry pfsy Bwj ky jf ky psLU moVn qoN rokx leI BwKVf afpxy dMd iqwKy krI bYTf huMdf. kihMdy ny ik loV kfZ dI mF huMdI hY, BwKVy nflL ies mukfbly df hwl vI asIN lwB hI ilaf sI. sfzy cfcy dy nOkr rwKy ibhfrI ny mYnUM ies df gur isKf idwqf sI: vFs dIaF do mjbUq lMmIaF sotIaF lvo. afpxIaF dovyN bfhvF pUrIaF AuWqy vwl PYlfa ky ienHF sotIaF nUM AuWproN PVo. iPr jLmIn qoN do ku porIaF AuWqy sotIaF nUM afpxy pYrF dy aMgUiTaF aqy aMgUiTaF nflL lgdIaF AuNglLF ivckfr Guwt ky sotIaF dy Bfr jLmIn qoN AuqFh AuTdy hoey afpxf bYlYNs kfiem kro aqy ienHF sotIaF nUM pYr bxf ky awgy vDdy hoey BwKVy dy Kyq nUM pfr kr jfAu. bVf drdnfk huMdf sI ieh qjrbf. keI vfr aMgUTy aqy AuNglL ivckfr sotI eynI burI qrHF cuBdI sI ik BwKVy AuWqy nMgy pYrIN qurnf Gwt qklIPL vflLf lgdf sI.
1970-71 `c myry mfmyN kYnyzf af gey. ies nflL sfzy Gr `c BuwjdI BMg dy KLqm hox dI afs sfzy Gr vI bwJx lwgI. ievyN mihsUs hox lwgf ik iewk nf iewk idn myry mfmyN sfnUM vI jLrUr kYnyzf swd lYxgy aqy nrk dI ijLMdgI Bogdy Bogdy asIN svRgF dy dysL ivwc phuMc jfvFgy. myry bfp dI aksr hI ieh mMg huMdI ik Gr dIaF QuVF aqy krjLy dI pMz nUM hOilLaF krn leI myrI mF afpxy BrfvF nUM icwTI pfvy. pr myrI mF jfxdI sI ik ies qrHF BrfvF kolLoN PV ky vrqy pYsy iPr vfps nhIN ho skxgy aqy ies bdly Auh afpxy vIr vI gvf bYTygI. Aus dI myry bfp nflL sihmq nf hox dI gusqfKI ny keI vfr Aus dy ijsm `qy lfsF dy vylF-bUty pvfey sn. pqf nhIN ikMnI ku vfr sfnUM afpxy cfcy dy Gr aMdr Cup ky keI keI idn gujLfrny pYNdy sn. bfp dI vihsLq qoN surKLrU ho ky keI vfr isskIaF BrdI sfzI mF jdoN rfq dy hnyry ivwc KyqF vwl jFdI qF Aus qoN kuJ dUrI `qy Cup Cup ky Aus dy ipwCy jFdf hoieaf aksr hI mYN ibVk rwiKaf krdf ik ikDry duKI ho ky Auh KUh vwl qF nhIN jf rhI? pr sLfied aOlLfd dy rulL jfx df iPLkr hI aOrq ivwc eynI gLYrq vI nhIN rihx idMdf ik jy Auh qfkqvr ho ky afpxy ijsm `qy huMdy isqm nUM rok nhIN skdI qF Gwto-Gwt iewk hfry hoey ivakqI vFg afpxI jIvn-lIlf KLqm krky hI ies vihsLq qoN Cutkfrf pf sky. myry bfp dI mrdfngI nUM agly idn pwTy pfAux leI myrI mF ‘shI-slfmq’ iPr vfps af jFdI.
ienHF hI idnF ivwc kflLf sMiGaF ivKy hoey lfTIcfrj ivwc sfzy nflL dy ipMz df nOjvfn aiDafpk mfiraf igaf. sfzy ipMz dy kolL dohF ipMzF dI sFJI jLmIn `qy bxfeI geI Aus dI Xfdgfr `qy Kwby-pwKI pfrtIaF vwloN hr sfl smfgm krvfieaf jFdf ijs ivwc gursLrn Bfa jI smyq bhuq sfrIaF nftk mMzlIaF Bfg lYNdIaF aqy ienklfbI gIq gfey jFdy. ienHF gIqF ivwc sMq rfm AudfsI aqy pfsL dy gIq huMdy. (AunHIN idnIN mYnUM ieh iblkul nhIN sI pqf ik pfsL myry nfnky ipMz, AuWgI, kolL pYNdy ipMz qlvMzI slym df hY ijwQoN dI lMG ky hI sfzy ipMz qoN AuWgI nUM jfieaf jFdf sI. AunHIN idnIN myry ijLhn ivwc lyKk lok ies DrqI `qy nhIN sgoN iksy hor hI DrqI `qy rihx vflLy lok huMdy sn.) ies smfgm ivwc pysL kIqy jfx vflLy zrfmyN aqy gfey jfx vflyL gIq mYnUM myry Gr dI bfq pfAuNdy aqy myry idl dI gwl kihMdy hoey jfpdy. ies smfgm qoN bfad keI keI idnF qwk mYN afpxy cfcy-qfieaF dy Coty Coty biwcaF nUM lY ky smfgm ivwc pysL kIqy gey nftkF dIaF nklF Auqfrdf rihMdf aqy smfgm ivwc suxy hoey gIqF nUM mYN aksr hI guxguxfAuNdf rihMdf. ienHF smfgmF nflL nyVqf jF ienHF ivwc gfey gey gIqF dI apxwq df kfrn mihjL ikqfbF pVH ky apxfey gey PlsPLy df nqIjf nhIN sgoN ipMzy `qy hMZfey gey duKFq dI qrjLmfnI sI jo ieh aihsfs krvfAuNdI sI ik ieh nftk jF ieh gIq qF mYnUM ilKxy cfhIdy hn. sLfied eyQoN hI myry mn aMdr lyKxI dy bIj puMgrny sLurU hoey sn.
jdoN mYN afpxy bcpn dy AunHF idnF nUM Xfd krdf hF qF mYnUM iewk Auh mnhUs Gtnf Xfd afAuNdI hY ijs ny myrI ijLMdgI nUM Auh drd idwqf ijs dy nqIjy vjoN awj myry dosq aqy myry KYr-Kvfh mYnUM kfmryz hox df iKqfb idMdy hn. ijvyN mYN pihlF hI ijLkr kIqf hY ik psLU cfrn dI ijLMmyNvfrI myry surq sMBflx dy nflL hI myry moiZaF `qy afx peI sI. mwJF gfeIaF df duwD iGAu vyc ky mF Gr dy QoVHy-bhuq Krc qor lYNdI sI aqy sfnUM vI pIx leI duwD imlL jFdf sI. iewk vfr sfzy Gr iewk gF sUx vflLI sI. mYnUM bVf cfa sI ik sfnUM isrP kuJ idn bOhlLI hI nhIN pIx nUM imlLygI sgoN duwD vI imilLaf krygf. myrI mF vI keI afsF lfeI bYTI sI. acfnk mYN vyiKaf ik iewk idn myrI mF ro rhI sI. lflyy df kuJ krjL lfhux leI myrf bfp 800 rupey ivwc gF df sOdf kr afieaf sI. gF dy sUx df smF hoieaF qF myry psLU cfrn df smF ho igaf. mYN afpxy hfxIaF aqy bfibaF nflL ipMz dI iPrnI qoN kuJ dUr sVk iknfry BwKVy dy KyqF ivwc bfkI psLU cfr irhf sF qF kI vyKdf hF ik sfzy Gr aksr hI afAux vflLf dlfl aqy sfzf lflf sfzI swjr sUeI gF nUM leI jf rhy hn. dlfl dy sfeIkl dI ipClI kfTI `qy bMnHI tokrI ivwc gF df vwCf-vwCI ibTfieaf hoieaf sI. BwKVy dy Kyq ivwc nMgy pYrIN aqy psLU cfrn vflLI sotI nUM afpxI kUhxI df shfrf bxfeI iewk pYr `qy dUsrf pYrf rwKI KVHf mYN afpxI bOhlLI aqy duwD pIx dI afs nUM dUr qwk ruVHidaF jFdf vyKdf irhf aqy ardfsF krdf irhf ik ‘hy rwb swicaf, ieh lflf huxy hI mr jfvy qy myrI gF myry Gr rih jfvy.’ rwb sLfied iksy amIrjLfdy vwloN krvfey jf rhy iksy numfiesLI aKMzpfT dy Bog ivwc sLfiml sI, Aus kolL myrI ardfs suxn df smF nhIN sI. nf lflf miraf aqy nf hI myrI nMgy pYrIN pflLI hoeI gF myry kolL rih skI, pr Aus idn qoN myry mn aMdroN rwb df sMklp mrnf jLrUr sLurU ho igaf sI.
myry bcpn dIaF ienHF GtnfvF ny mYnUM eynf kmjLor kr idwqf hY ik awj vI jdoN mYN iksy nUM afpxI Es avsQf ivwcoN lMGidaF vyKdf hF qf mYnUM Aus bwcy jF Aus iensfn ivwcoN afpxf-afp njLr afAux lwg pYNdf hY. AunHF dy hwk dI gwl kridaF jF AunHF leI hor kuJ kridaF mYnUM ieho hI lgdf hY ik mYN afpxy bcpn dy duKFq nUM duhrf hoxoN rokx dI koisLsL kr irhf hF. nMgy pYrIN BwKVy dy KyqF ivwc sotI df shfrf lY ky KVHf Auh mfsUm bwcf awj vI myrIaF awKF awgy afx KVHdf hY aqy mYnUM jfpdf hY ik koeI lflf Aus dI gF nUM jLbrdsqI KolHI leI jf irhf hY. Aus hflq ivwc myry leI cuwp bYTxf musLkl ho jFdf hY. mYN llkfrdf hF, cIk mfrdf hF. myrI Aus llkfr nUM jF cIk nUM ‘kfmryzI’ df iKqfb idwqf jFdf hY jF myry ‘cMgf bxn’ dy ZkvMj df, ies gwl df mYnUM rqf vI iKafl nhIN huMdf aqy nf hI ies gwl dI prvfh huMdI hY, mYN qF bws ieho jfxdf huMdf hF ik jy Aus idn myry leI cIk mfrn vflLf koeI nhIN sI qF Gwto-Gwt awj myry kolL qF afvfjL hY.