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14 apRYl 2010 dI svyr nUM jdoN svyry AuWiTaf qF acfnk mihsUs hoieaf ik myry lwk dy hyTly pfsy ajIb iksm dI sihxXog drd hY. iPr Xfd afieaf ik ijvyN pihlF keI vfr suwiqaF hoieaF ipwT `c vl pY jFdf hY, jo do cfr idnF bfad afpy hI TIk ho jFdf hY, soicaf, rfq nUM ZMg nfl nf sOx krky kuwJ iesy qrHF df hoieaf hovygf, afpy TIk ho jfvygf.
myrf Cotf Brf iewk srkfrI adfry ivwc afp zfktr hY. Aus nfl mYN ies bfry gwl nf kIqI. mYN aksr CotI motI ibmfrI ipwCy dvfeI lYxf psMd nhIN krdf. Kfs qOr `qy aMgryjI dvfeI.
mYN dPqr clf igaf. sfrf idn drdF ny afpxI hoNd nUM kfiem rwiKaf.
aglI rfq nUM dUsry pihr acfnk myrI nINd KuwlHI qF myrf sfrf ÈrIr drdF nfl ibMinaF ipaf sI. drd isr qoN ÈurU ho ky hwQF qy pYrF dIaF AuNglF dy poitaF qIk jf irhf sI. ies qrHf jfp irhf sI ijvyN koeI ËihrIlf kIVf sfry ÈrIr aMdr afpxy keI sfry Kurdry qy nokIly pMijaF dy Bfr cldf hoieaf gdr mcf irhf hovy. nyVy GrvflI GUk suwqI peI sI. Gr aMdr gyVHf mfr ky dyiKaf qF sfry nINd df mËf lY rhy sn. GridaF dI nINd Krfb nf krnf hI TIk smiJaf. sfrI rfq bYT ky lMGf idwqI. svyr sfr nfl acfnk pqf nhIN rwb nUM myry `qy kuwJ rihm af igaf ik jF kuwJ hor hoieaf ik mYnUM nINd af geI. nON ku vjy dPqr clf igaf. sfrf idn drdF dI mOjUdgI myry idlo idmfg `qy CfeI rhI.
rfq nUM mYN afpxy Brf koloN drd invfrn vflI dvfeI lY leI. KulH ky nINd afeI. iqMn ku idn mYN Aus dvfeI dy isr `qy lMGf idwqy.
cOQy idn jdoN dPqr igaf qF Aus ËihrIly kIVy ny myry isr df qy lwk df swjf pfsf, swjI bFh qy lwq ivwc aYsf gdr mcfieaf ik myrIaF cIKF inkl geIaF. hwQF qy pYrF dIaF qlIaF ivwc ijvyN hËfrF hI mfsfhfrI jMglI kIVIaF myry mfs nUM noc rhIaF hox. drd ÈrIr dy Kwby pfsy vI sI pr mfmUlI ijhf.
sfzf iewk pirvfrk (PYmlI) zfktr vI hY. Auh idl qy hor ies nfl sbMiDq rogF df mfhr hY. mYN Ausy kol jfxf cfhuMdf sF pr Brf ny afpxy iewk dosq zfktr, ijhVf ik inAurolojIst (nsF df mfhr) sI, koloN smF lY ky Aus kol jfx leI ikhf.
Aus zfktr ny sfrI gfQf suxI. mYnUM hwQ KVy krn qy Jukx leI ikhf. kuJ hor krqwv krn leI vI ikhf. kuJ dyr socx qoN bfad ikhf, “pYrflfeIË (aDrMg) hox vfly qF koeI lCx ivKfeI nhIN idwqy pr ho skdf hY ieh ÈurUafq hovy. qusIN awj hI afpxy idmfg qy grdn df aYm[afr[afeI[(iek iksm df tYst, ijs qoN quhfnUM afpxy sfry ÈrIr dIaF nsF dy kMm kfË bfry pqf cl jFdf hY) krf lAu qF ik rog df pqf lwg sky. ikqy srvfiekl (ijs rog nfl bMdf clx qy iPrx vyly qMgI mihsUs krdf hY) jF mfeIgRyn (iek iksm dI ibmfrI ijs nfl mnuwK nUM AultIaF afAudIaF hn qy isr ivwc bhuq hI qIKI drd mihsUs huMdI hY) dI iÈkfieq nf hovy. Aus zfktr nUM jdoN mYN PIs dyx lwgf qF Ausny Brf dy vjHf krky mnHf kr idwqf. jdoN mYN ikhf ik jykr GoVI Gfh nfl dosqI krygI qF Auh KfeygI kI? awgoN Ausny ikhf GoVI Gfh dIaF sfrIaF iksmF nfl dosqI nhIN krdI.
Brf nUM Pon kIqf qF Ausny iewk hor vfkPkfr zfktr dy hspqfl ivwc aYm[afr[afeI[krvfAux Byj idwqf.
afpxI cOqflI sfl dI Aumr dOrfx mYN kdy hspqfl dfKl nhIN hoieaf sF. isvfey iewk do vfr aYks-ry dy. AuQy phuMicaf qF BIV nUM dyK hYrfn. socF ik sfrI dunIaF nUM awj hI hspqfl afAuxf sI. ÉYr, Brf dy sdkf myrf nMbr vI pihlF af igaf qy PIs ivwc vI kfPI CUt iml geI.
jdoN mYN aYm[afr[afeI[dI afdm kd qoN vwzy arD ivafs qy koeI pMdrF ku Puwt lMbfeI vflI Zol nuMmF mÈIn vyKI qF myry idl dI DVkn vwD geI. Auh mYnUM iksy dYNq vFg mUMh awzI ivKfeI idwqI. zfktr ny ikhf ik jdoN mÈIn clygI qF kuwJ ajIb iksm dIaF afvfËF afAuxgIaF so zrnf nhIN. AuhnF mYnUM cmVy qy lohy dy dIaF vsqF, mubfiel Pon afid bfhr rwKx leI ikhf. kuJ dyr bfad hI mYnUM iewk ibbfn numF bYWz Aupr iltf idwqf. Aupr qoN myry isr qy bfkI ÈrIr nUM bYltF nfl jkV idwqf. mYnUM awKF bMd rwKx dI vI slfh idwqI. zfktr ny iewk btn dbfieaf. kuwJ plF ivwc hI mYN Zol numF mÈIn dy iZz aMdr smf igaf sF. kuJ plF ivwc hI mÈIn ny afpxf kMm ÈurU kr idwqf. keI pRkfr dIaF zrfvxIaF afvfËF Aus mÈIn ivcoN inkl ky kMnF rsqy myry idmfg qy idl ivwc qIKIaF CUrIaF vFg Dsx lwgIaF. kdy kdy Zol ngfVy vrgf kuwJ vjxf ÈurU ho jfvy. kdy cfm cVIkF dy cIKx qy kdy igdVF dy hukFx vrgIaF afvfËF ny myry sfh sUq ley. mYN awKF bMd krI qy idl vwzf krky sfrf kuwJ suxI igaf. socF, rwbf ieh qUM mYnUM ikqy Xmrfj Gr dy drÈn qF nhIN krvf irhf. iek vfr mYN awKF Kol ky vyK vI ilaf pr isvfey inmI inmI roÈnI dy mYnUM kuwJ vI ivKfeI nhIN idwqf. ÉYr, dws pMdrF imMtF bfad mYnUM Aus Zol `coN bfhr kwZ ilaf igaf. mYN suK df sfh ilaf ik bc igaf hF.
kuJ dyr ieMqËfr krn mgroN zfktr ny ikhf ik irportF qF TIk hI afeIaF hn. idmfg qF pUrI qrHF TIk hY. hF, grdn dy mxikaF ivwc kuwJ ihljul hY pr mfmUlI ijhI. mYN KuÈI df Biraf Gr af igaf.
agly idn Ausy zfktr nUM aYm[afr[afeI[dI irport idKfeI. zfktr ny qswlI pRgtfeI ik ijs df Èwk sI Auh dUr ho igaf hY. jdoN mYN Ausdy puwCx qoN bfad dwisaf ik mYN isgrt qMbfkU qF nhIN pr dfrU dy do ZfeI pYg lgBg roË lgf lYNnf qF Ausny kuwJ dvfeIaF ilK idwqIaF qy nfl hI ieh vI kih idwqf ik afpxf KUn tYst krvf lvF qF ik ieh pqf cl jfey ik ikqy klstrol qF nhIN vDI hoeI mqlb ik KUn gfVHf qF nhIN ho igaf.
ajy myry ijhn ivcoN aYm[afr[afeI[mÈIn numF dYNq dI qsvIr geI nhIN sI hux af klstrol vrgI cuVyl ny afx Gyiraf.
Brf ny afpxy iksy vfikPkfr zfktr dI KUn qy ipÈfb afid prKx vflI lYborytrI vfilaF df pqf ilKvf idwqf. Pon kIqf qF AuhnF mYnUM agly idn ibnF kuwJ KfDy pIqy svyry afAux leI kih idwqf.
agly idn svyry mYN lYborytrI ivwc jf hfËr hoieaf. iek culblI nrs myrI bFh `coN KUn kwZx vfsqy myrI KUn vflI koeI motI ns lwBx lwgI pr ns lwBy nf. kfPI muÈwkq krn qoN bfad afKr Ausny myrf KUn kwZ hI ilaf. myry nF dI prcI ilK ky Ausny KUn vflI ÈIÈI `qy icpkf idwqI. ÈfmI awT vjy irport lYx leI kih idwqf.
sfrf idn iewk qF drdF ny qMg kIqf qy dUsrf ieh zr mn Aupr BfrU irhf ik krstrol pqf nhIN ikhVf nvF cMn cVfeygI. sfrf idn dPqr ivwc bYT ky dosqF imwqrF koloN krstrol kfhdy nfl vDdf hY? iesdy moty moty lCx kI hn? afid bfry crcf krdf irhf.
Gr jf ky jIvn sfQx nUM dwisaf ik krstrol afmqOr `qy dfrU qy mIt mwCI afid Kfx pIx nfl vwD jFdf hY. GrvflI socy ik Ausdy rokx Aupr qF iesny dfrU pIx qoN kdy htxf nhIN pr awj ieh krstrol ËrUr bMd krvfeygI.
Èfm nUM jdoN mYN roËfnf vFg almfrI ivwc rwKI dfrU dI boql lBx lwgf qF GrvflI qy myrI mF donoN iewkTIaF bolIaF, “pihlF irport lY af jf ky … boql ikqy nhIN Bwj clI.”
aKIr, Èfm nUM irport lYx clf igaf. lYborytrI dy mflk qy zfktr ny irport pVH ky ikhf ik quhfzI krstrol dI mfqrf bhuq hI Auqm siQqI ivwc hY. Ausny ikhf ik lgdf hY qusIN kdy Èrfb nhIN pIqI. kdy mIt mwCI afid kuwJ nhIN KfDf. mYN zfktr nUM dwisaf ik jykr mYN roËfnf dfrU pINdf qF sYr vI roË krdf hF qy ibn nfgf aYlovIrf (kuafr gMdl) df kOVy svfd vfl jUs vI pINdf hF. mIt mwCI df syvx vI ËrUrq anusfr hI krdf hF.
iek qF klstrol Aupr myrI ijwq ho geI sI, dUsrf Brf dy sdky ies lYborytrI vfilaF vI myry GoVI qy Gfh dI Audfhrn dyx dy vfbjUd vI myry koloN pYsy nhIN ley so mYN rsqy ivcoN afAuNdf hoieaf PIs vfilaF pYisaF dI iewk dfrU dI boql hor PV ilafieaf.
Gr phuMicaf qF myry hwQ ivwc iewk boql vyK ky GrvflI qy mF donoN smJ geIaF ik puwq krstrol vfly morcy `qy vI ijwq df JMzf gwz afieaf hY.
“PVfeIN Ërf koeI nmkIn ÈmkIn ….” mYN GrvflI nUM icVfAux Kfqr ikhf. nfl hI iewk pYg afpxy pfpf (ipqf jI) dy hwQ PVf idwqf. mF qy GrvflI donF dy ichry kuwJ murJf gey ikAuNik ipCly lwgBwg pMjfh sflF qoN myrI mF vI myry pfpf jI nUM dfrU pIx qoN mnHf krdI af rhI hY.
pMj Cy idn mYN Auh dvfeI KFdf irhf. iksy idn lgy ky mYN TIk ho irhf hF qy iksy idn lwgy ik pIVF dI cVHfeI ho rhI hY. iesy dOrfx mYnUM iewk idn ZfeI iqMn sO iklo mItr afpxI gwzI clfxI pY geI. bs iPr kI sI, sfrIaF pIVF isr qy bfhF qoN AuWqr ky swjI lwq ivwc bhuq iËafdf qy KwbI lwq ivwc kuwJ Gt mfqrf ivwc qFzv nfc krn lwg peIaF. Èfm nUM dfrU pIx dy vyly qy svyry cfr ku vjy AuhnF myrf ijAuxf byhfl kr idwqf.
mYN iPr Brf nfl gwl kIqI. Ausny afpxy iewk hor hwzIaF vfly zfktr nfl gwl kIqI. mYN Aus kol vI phuMc igaf. myrf hfl cfl dy pIVF dy lwCx vyK ky Auh boilaf, “dfrU pINdy ho? qMbfkU df syvn krdy ho?” jdoN mYN ikhf ik qMbfkU qF nhIN pr dfrU pINdf hF qF Auh iPr boilaf, “quhfzy dsx qoN ieMj lgdf hY ik quhfzI ÈUgr qy XUirk aYisz vDy hoey ny … qusIN iPlhfl ieh dvfeI KfE qy nfl hI Èugr qy Xuirk aYisz dy tYst krvfE.”
ieh sux ky myrI qF ijvyN mF hI mr geI hovy. socF, kfkf aYm[afr[afeI[qoN vI bc igaf qy krstrol nUM vI afpxy kMtrol ivwc lY ilaf pr ieh Èugr qy Xuirk aYisz df kI kryNgf?
agly idn myrI Aus lYborytrI ivwc jfx dI ihMmq nf pvy. ieMtrnYWt `qy Èugr qy Xuirk aYisz dy lCxF bfry jfxkfrIaF hfsl krdf irhf. dosqF imwqrF qoN vI pqf krdf irhf. kuJ lwCx ieMj lwgx ijvyN sfry myry AuWqy Zukdy hox qy kdy lwgy ik koeI vI nhIN hY pr bwkry dI mF kd qk ÉYr mMgdI. hfr ky iPr Ausy nrs ny myrf KUn kwZ ky, myry nF dI silp KUn dI ÈIÈI Aupr icpkf idwqI. mYN isr sut ky lYborytrI qoN bfhr af igaf. pYsy iPr nf ley.
Gr af ky jdoN dwisaf ik Èugr qy Xuirk aYisz tYst krn leI KUn dy ky afieaf hF qF myrI mF qy GrvflI dIaF bfÈF iPr iKl AuTIaF ik krstrol ny qF nhIN ies vfr ies ÈrfbI dI dfrU ieh Èugr qy aYisz ËrUr CuzfAuxgy. irport dI AuzIk ivwc mYN Kurk pey jfnvr vFg isr sut ky ipaf irhf.
Èfm nUM iPr Ausy lYborytrI ivwc clf igaf pr iksmq df DnI ieh pwpU ies vfr iPr pihly drjy nfl pfs ho igaf sI. Èugr qy Xuirk aYisz nUM vI mYN mfq dy idwqI sI. GrvflI qy mF iPr inmoJUx ho geIaF ikAuNik Auh mYnUM dfrU Cuzvfx vfly tYst ivcoN Pyl ho geIaF sn.
hux mYnUM scmuc iPkr lwg igaf ik sfry tYst vI ho gey. mYN pfs vI cMgy aMkF nfl ho igaf qF iPr ieh drdF dI jVH ikwQy hY. agly idn mYN hwzIaF vfly zfktr kol jfx dI QF mYN afpxy pirvfrk zfktr kol clf igaf. AusnUM sfrIaF irportF ivKfeIaF.
“Xfr ieh aYm[afr[afeI[qy blwz tYst krvfAux dI kI loV sI … ieh awj kwl dy zfktr Jwt hI BFq BFq dy tYstF leI kih dyxgy … kihx vI ikAuN nf kmIÈn jo imldI hY … ijhVf aslI kMm krnf sI Auh qF qUM krvfieaf nhIN … mqlb ik rIV dI hwzI df aYks-ry.” Ausdy muqfibk myrI kuwJ nsF iksy dbfa krky hlkIaF ijhIaF imDIaF geIaF sn ies krky drd ho irhf hY. Ausny kuwJ tIky lgvfAux qy dvfeIaF ds idn Kfx leI ikhf. ies zfktr ny afpxI PIs ivwc ipCly iqMn mhIinaF qoN pMjfh pRqIsq vfDf kIqf hoieaf sI. pr AusnUM qF PIs dy ky hI Cutkfrf imlxf sI.
mYN iewk tIkf AuQy hI lgvf ilaf qy nfl hI dvfeIaF dI pihlI Kurfk lY leI. Ausy Èfm nUM myrIaF drdF pMjfh pRqIÈwq Gt geIaF. mYN KuÈ ho igaf ik clo dfrU vI CutxoN bc geI qy arfm vI afAuxf ÈurU ho igaf.
do idnF bfad Brf dy dwsy hoey sYNtr qoN aYks ry krvf afieaf. zfktr ny afpxf aYks-ry sYNtr kuwJ idn pihÜf hI ÈurU kIqf sI. pYsy Ausny vI nhIN ley. Aus dI mflk mihlf zfktr ny irport Ausy vyly hI dy idwqI. Ausny dwisaf ik quhfzI rIV dI hwzI hyTly pfsy qoN kuwJ mxky afpxI jgHf qoN ihl gey hn. ijs krky AuhnF ivwc ijMnI ku loVINdI KflI QF cfhIdI huMdI hY Auh bhuq Gwt geI. dUsrf rIV dI hwzI kuwJ ZyzI vI ho geI lgdI hY. ies krky quhfnUM drdF ny Gyiraf hoieaf hY.
agly hI idn mYN afpxy pirvfrk zfktr kol clf igaf. Ausny irport pVHI qy boilaf, “kfkf, gwl ieMj hY qyrI irport anusfr qYnUM Gwt qoN Gwt ds idn sKq bYWz Aupr pUrn afrfm krnf peygf.” “jy nf krF qF?” mYN zrdy ny puwiCaf. “iPr qYnUM bMn ky bYWz `qy pfAuxf pAUgf qy AuproN afpRyÈn krn dI nObq vI af skdI aY.” zfktr ny gwl mukf idwqI. jdoN mYN ikhf ik myry ibnHf myrf koicMg sYNtr nhI cwl skdf qF Auh kihMdf jy qUM mr igaf qF koicMg sYNtr nUM kI kryNgf. hux myry kihx nUM kuwJ nhIN bwicaf sI.
Aus idn Èukrvfr sI. mYN dupihry hI Gr af igaf. Gr af ky aYlfx kr idwqf ik mYN agly ds idn afpxy bYWz Aupr hI afrfm krFgf. koeI mYnUM qMg nf kry. myrf hux pUrn afrfm krn df aiBafx cwl ipaf. ÈnIvfr qy Pyr aYqvfr, mYN bYWz `qy ipaf ipaf scmuc afpxy afp nUM mhFibmfr smJx lwg ipaf. ijhVIaF drdF pihlF kdy mihsUs vI nhIN hoeIaF sn AuhnF vI isr AuTf ley. sfrf ÈrIr drdF nfl ibMinaf hoieaf jfpy. mYN socF ik ieh pUrn afrfm mYnUM TIk pUrI qrHF krygf ik jF nhIN pr pUrn ibmfr ËrUr kr deygf.
iesy dOrfx iewk Gtxf hor Gt geI. ÈnIvfr nUM myrI mF Gr ivwc ismYNt vflIaF pwkIaF pr igwlIaF pOVIaF qoN iqlk geI. Ausny afpxIaF lwqF bfhF Tukvf leIaF. pihlF ijhVI myry mnHf krn dy vfbjUd myry hwQF pYrF dI mflÈ kr rhI sI hux mF vI myry vFg bYWz Aupr pY geI. aYqvfr dI Èfm nUM Brf ny mF nUM afpxy Ausy hwzIaF vfly zfktr kol ivKfAux vfsqy jfxf sI. nfl mYN vI iËwd kr leI ik rIV dI hwzI vflf aYks-ry AusnUM ivKf lvF.
jdoN AusnUM aYks-ry ivKfieaf. mxikaF vflI irport ivKfeI. jdoN mYN AusnUM dwisaf ik mYnUM qF ds idn afrfm krn leI slfh idwqI geI hY qF Auh zfktr bUrf ijhf mUMh bxf ky boilaf, “kOx kihMdf hY quhfzI rIV dI hwzI dy mxky ihwly hoey hn[[?” “aYks-ry krn vflI zfktr kihMdI sI[[.” mYN Jwt hI boilaf. “iblkul Êlq hY … ieh aYks-ry qy irportF afpxI mrËI nfl bxf idMdy hn … quhfzy koeI mxky nhIN ihwly hoey … sB TIk Tfk hY hF, kuwJ nsF jrUr imDIaF hoeIaF hn pr ieh pUrn afrfm krn nfl TIk nhIN hoxIaF hF, bhuq Qkfx pYdf krn vflf kMm nf kro … dfrU roË dI vjfey iewk idn Cwz ky pIE … ies Aumr ivwc af ky nsF aksr kmËor pY hI jFdIaF hn ….” zfktr ny kuwJ dvfeIaF ilKidaF ikhf.
ieh suxdy sfr hI myrf do idn afrfm krn nfl isr ciVHaf dildr iewk dm rPU cwkr ho igaf.
mYN KuÈ ho igaf ik klH dPqr jf skFgf pr iewk gwl ny myry ijhn Aupr lgfqfr dbfa bxfeI rwiKaaf ik iehnF zfktrF ny myry nfl ies qrHF df KylH jfxbuJ ky Kyilaf ik jF isrP ies krky sfry tYst krvf ley ikAuNik AuhnF nUM pqf sI ik myry Brf dI vjHf nfl AuhnF nUM PIs qF imlxI nhIN so cMgf hY ik iesdy Brf nUM BMblBUsy ivwc pfeI rwiKaf jfey qy tYst afid krn vfilaF koloN kmIÈn qF afpy hI iml jfxI hY. mYN iesy bfry soc irhf sF ik myrI nËr afpxI mF dy ichry Aupr jf peI.
‘dfrU iewk idn Cwz ky pIxI hY’ zfktr duafrf mYnUM idwqI ihdfieq sux ky hwzIaF dy Tukx dIaF drdF nfl duKI myrI mF dy ichry Aupr iPr vI acfnk muskfx geI sI.

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